Notes from Underground (Webster's German Thesaurus Edition)

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NOTES FROM UNDERGROUND WEBSTER'S GERMAN THESAURUS EDITION

for ESL, EFL, ELP, TOEFL®, TOEIC®, and AP® Test Preparation

Fyodor Dostoyevsky

TOEFL, TOEIC, AP and Advanced Placement are trademarks of the Educational Testing Service which has neither reviewed nor endorsed this book. All rights reserved.

Notes from Underground Webster's German Thesaurus Edition

for ESL, EFL, ELP, TOEFL®, TOEIC®, and AP® Test Preparation

Fyodor Dostoyevsky

TOEFL®, TOEIC®, AP® and Advanced Placement® are trademarks of the Educational Testing Service which has neither reviewed nor endorsed this book. All rights reserved.

ii ICON CLASSICS Published by ICON Group International, Inc. 7404 Trade Street San Diego, CA 92121 USA www.icongrouponline.com Notes from Underground: Webster's German Thesaurus Edition for ESL, EFL, ELP, TOEFL®, TOEIC®, and AP® Test Preparation This edition published by ICON Classics in 2005 Printed in the United States of America. Copyright ©2005 by ICON Group International, Inc. Edited by Philip M. Parker, Ph.D. (INSEAD); Copyright ©2005, all rights reserved. All rights reserved. This book is protected by copyright. No part of it may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without written permission from the publisher. Copying our publications in whole or in part, for whatever reason, is a violation of copyright laws and can lead to penalties and fines. Should you want to copy tables, graphs, or other materials, please contact us to request permission (E-mail: [email protected]). ICON Group often grants permission for very limited reproduction of our publications for internal use, press releases, and academic research. Such reproduction requires confirmed permission from ICON Group International, Inc. TOEFL®, TOEIC®, AP® and Advanced Placement® are trademarks of the Educational Testing Service which has neither reviewed nor endorsed this book. All rights reserved. ISBN 0-497-25763-7

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Contents PREFACE FROM THE EDITOR .......................................................................................... 1 PART I: UNDERGROUND ................................................................................................. 2 I................................................................................................................................. 3 II ............................................................................................................................... 7 III ............................................................................................................................ 11 IV ............................................................................................................................ 15 V ............................................................................................................................. 17 VI ............................................................................................................................ 20 VII ........................................................................................................................... 22 VIII .......................................................................................................................... 28 IX ............................................................................................................................ 33 X ............................................................................................................................. 36 XI ............................................................................................................................ 38 PART II: A PROPOS OF THE WET SNOW ........................................................................ 42 I............................................................................................................................... 43 II ............................................................................................................................. 55 III ............................................................................................................................ 60 IV ............................................................................................................................ 70 V ............................................................................................................................. 81 VI ............................................................................................................................ 86 VII ........................................................................................................................... 98 VIII ........................................................................................................................ 105 IX .......................................................................................................................... 115 X ........................................................................................................................... 123 GLOSSARY ................................................................................................................... 129

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PREFACE FROM THE EDITOR Webster’s paperbacks take advantage of the fact that classics are frequently assigned readings in English courses. By using a running English-to-German thesaurus at the bottom of each page, this edition of Notes from Underground by Fyodor Dostoyevsky was edited for three audiences. The first includes German-speaking students enrolled in an English Language Program (ELP), an English as a Foreign Language (EFL) program, an English as a Second Language Program (ESL), or in a TOEFL® or TOEIC® preparation program. The second audience includes English-speaking students enrolled in bilingual education programs or German speakers enrolled in English speaking schools. The third audience consists of students who are actively building their vocabularies in German in order to take foreign service, translation certification, Advanced Placement® (AP®)1 or similar examinations. By using the Webster's German Thesaurus Edition when assigned for an English course, the reader can enrich their vocabulary in anticipation of an examination in German or English. Webster’s edition of this classic is organized to expose the reader to a maximum number of difficult and potentially ambiguous English words. Rare or idiosyncratic words and expressions are given lower priority compared to “difficult, yet commonly used” words. Rather than supply a single translation, many words are translated for a variety of meanings in German, allowing readers to better grasp the ambiguity of English, and avoid them using the notes as a pure translation crutch. Having the reader decipher a word’s meaning within context serves to improve vocabulary retention and understanding. Each page covers words not already highlighted on previous pages. If a difficult word is not translated on a page, chances are that it has been translated on a previous page. A more complete glossary of translations is supplied at the end of the book; translations are extracted from Webster’s Online Dictionary. Definitions of remaining terms as well as translations can be found at www.websters-onlinedictionary.org. Please send suggestions to [email protected] The Editor Webster’s Online Dictionary www.websters-online-dictionary.org

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PART I: UNDERGROUND

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I %am a sick man... I am a spiteful man. I am an unattractive man. I believe my liver is diseased. However, I know nothing at all about my disease, and do not know for certain what ails me. I don't consult a doctor for it, and never have, though I have a respect for medicine and doctors. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, sufficiently so to respect medicine, anyway (I am well-educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am superstitious). No, I refuse to consult a doctor from spite. That you probably will not understand. Well, I understand it, though. Of course, I can't explain who it is precisely that I am mortifying in this case by my spite: I am perfectly well aware that I cannot "pay out" the doctors by not consulting them; I know better than anyone that by all this I am only injuring myself and no one else. But still, if I don't consult a doctor it is from spite. My liver is bad, well—let it get worse! I have been going on like that for a long time—twenty years. Now I am forty. I used to be in the government service, but am no longer. I was a spiteful official. I was rude and took pleasure in being so. I did not take bribes, you see, so I was bound to find a recompense in that, at least. (A poor jest, but I will not scratch it out. I wrote it thinking it would sound very witty; but now that I have seen myself that I only wanted to show off in a despicable way, I will not scratch it out on purpose!)

German ails: schmerzt. bribes: Bestechungsgelder, Schmiergelder. cannot: kann nicht. consult: konsultieren, konsultiere, konsultierst, konsultiert, befragen, befrage, befragt, zu Rate ziehen, befragst, heranziehen, zieht heran. consulting: konsultierend, befragend, um Rat fragend, heranziehend, beratend. despicable: verächtlich, jämmerlich,

schäbig, schweinisch, tückisch, verachtenswert. diseased: krank. injuring: verletzend, beschädigend. jest: scherzen, spaßen. liver: Leber, die Leber. mortifying: demütigend. precisely: genau. recompense: Entgelt, belohnen. rude: unverschämt, unhöflich, unanständig, ungezogen, grob, barsch, unverfroren.

scratch: kratzen, Kratzer, Schramme, ritzen, kratzen auf, Linie, radieren, schaben, sich scheuern, Strich, schrapen. spite: Boshaftigkeit. spiteful: boshaft, gehässig, schadenfroh, gemein. superstitious: abergläubisch. unattractive: unschön, reizlos, unattraktiv, uninteressant, widerlich, widerwärtig, häßlich. witty: witzig, geistreich, sinnreich.

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When%petitioners used to come for information to the table at which I sat, I used to grind my teeth at them, and felt intense enjoyment when I succeeded in making anybody unhappy. I almost did succeed. For the most part they were all timid people—of course, they were petitioners. But of the uppish ones there was one officer in particular I could not endure. He simply would not be humble, and clanked his sword in a disgusting way. I carried on a feud with him for eighteen months over that sword. At last I got the better of him. He left off clanking it. That happened in my youth, though. But do you know, gentlemen, what was the chief point about my spite? Why, the whole point, the real sting of it lay in the fact that continually, even in the moment of the acutest spleen, I was inwardly conscious with shame that I was not only not a spiteful but not even an embittered man, that I was simply scaring sparrows at random and amusing myself by it. I might foam at the mouth, but bring me a doll to play with, give me a cup of tea with sugar in it, and maybe I should be appeased. I might even be genuinely touched, though probably I should grind my teeth at myself afterwards and lie awake at night with shame for months after. That was my way. I was lying when I said just now that I was a spiteful official. I was lying from spite. I was simply amusing myself with the petitioners and with the officer, and in reality I never could become spiteful. I was conscious every moment in myself of many, very many elements absolutely opposite to that. I felt them positively swarming in me, these opposite elements. I knew that they had been swarming in me all my life and craving some outlet from me, but I would not let them, would not let them, purposely would not let them come out. They tormented me till I was ashamed: they drove me to convulsions and— sickened me, at last, how they sickened me! Now, are not you fancying, gentlemen, that I am expressing remorse for something now, that I am asking your forgiveness for something? I am sure you are fancying that ... However, I assure you I do not care if you are... It was not only that I could not become spiteful, I did not know how to become anything; neither spiteful nor kind, neither a rascal nor an honest man,

German appeased: beruhigt, beruhigte, beruhigtest, beruhigtet, beruhigten, besänftigtet, besänftigtest, besänftigten, besänftigte, besänftigt. clanked: klirrte. clanking: klirrend. convulsions: Zuckungen. craving: Verlangen, erflehend, Begehr, Lust, Heftiges Verlangen, Flehend, Ein großes Verlangen, Begehren, Atemzug. embittered: verbittert, verbitterten,

verbittertest, verbittertet, verbitterte, wild, wüst, wütend, grimmig, tüchtig, tobend. fancying: wähnend. feud: Fehde, Feindschaft, Animosität, Feindseligkeit. forgiveness: Verzeihung, Vergebung, Gnade, Erbarmen. inwardly: innerlich. petitioners: Antragsteller. purposely: absichtlich, vorsätzlich. rascal: Bengel, Schurke, Hundsfott,

Schalk, Rüpel, Rotznase, Rabauke, Lumpenkerl, Lump, Schmierfink, Iltis. remorse: Gewissensbisse, Reue. scaring: schrecken, aufschreckend. sickened: erkrankten, erkranktest, erkranktet, erkrankte, erkrankt. sparrows: Spatzen. spleen: Milz, Üble Laune. swarming: Gefummel, Gewimmel, Wimmeln, wimmelnd, Fummelei. uppish: hochnäsig.

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neither a hero nor an insect. Now, I am living out my life in my corner, taunting myself with the spiteful and useless consolation that an intelligent man cannot become anything seriously, and it is only the fool who becomes anything. Yes, a man in the nineteenth century must and morally ought to be pre-eminently a characterless creature; a man of character, an active man is pre-eminently a limited creature. That is my conviction of forty years. I am forty years old now, and you know forty years is a whole lifetime; you know it is extreme old age. To live longer than forty years is bad manners, is vulgar, immoral. Who does live beyond forty? Answer that, sincerely and honestly I will tell you who do: fools and worthless fellows. I tell all old men that to their face, all these venerable old men, all these silver-haired and reverend seniors! I tell the whole world that to its face! I have a right to say so, for I shall go on living to sixty myself. To seventy! To eighty! ... Stay, let me take breath ...% You imagine no doubt, gentlemen, that I want to amuse you. You are mistaken in that, too. I am by no means such a mirthful person as you imagine, or as you may imagine; however, irritated by all this babble (and I feel that you are irritated) you think fit to ask me who I am—then my answer is, I am a collegiate assessor. I was in the service that I might have something to eat (and solely for that reason), and when last year a distant relation left me six thousand roubles in his will I immediately retired from the service and settled down in my corner. I used to live in this corner before, but now I have settled down in it. My room is a wretched, horrid one in the outskirts of the town. My servant is an old country- woman, ill-natured from stupidity, and, moreover, there is always a nasty smell about her. I am told that the Petersburg climate is bad for me, and that with my small means it is very expensive to live in Petersburg. I know all that better than all these sage and experienced counsellors and monitors... But I am remaining in Petersburg; I am not going away from Petersburg! I am not going away because ... ech! Why, it is absolutely no matter whether I am going away or not going away. But what can a decent man speak of with most pleasure? Answer: Of himself.

German amuse: amüsieren, belustigen, amüsiere, amüsierst, amüsiert, belustigst, unterhalten, belustigt, belustige, unterhältst, vergnügen. assessor: der Schätzer, der Gutachter, Steuerbeamte, der Steuereinschätzer, der Schadensachverständiger, der Begutachter, der Assessor, Beurteilender, Beisitzer, Schätzer, der Beisitzer. babble: babbeln, plappern, stammeln, schwatzen.

characterless: charakterlos. collegiate: akademisch. counsellors: Ratgeber. fools: narren, Dummköpfe. horrid: schrecklich, fürchterlich, entsetzlich, grauenvoll. immoral: unmoralisch, sittenlos, unsittlich, obszön, unehrenhaft, unanständig, skrupellos, schamlos, lasterhaft, immoralisch, taktlos. irritated: gereizt, irritiertest, irritierten, irritierte, irritiert, irritiertet, reizbar,

erregt, verärgert, giftig, schlechtgelaunt. mirthful: fröhlich. sage: Salbei, Weise, Klug, Gescheit. seniors: Senioren. stupidity: Dummheit, Stumpfsinnigkeit, Geistlosigkeit, Einfältigkeit. taunting: stichelnd, verspottend, verspotten, Spott, Hohn, spottend. venerable: ehrwürdig. worthless: wertlos.

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Well, %so I will talk about myself.

German myself: mich, ich selbst, mir, mir selbst, mich selbst, ichselber, ichselbst. talk: reden, sprechen, redet, redest, Rede, Gespräch, Gerede, Plauderei, quatschen, plaudern, Geplauder.

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I %want now to tell you, gentlemen, whether you care to hear it or not, why I could not even become an insect. I tell you solemnly, that I have many times tried to become an insect. But I was not equal even to that. I swear, gentlemen, that to be too conscious is an illness—a real thorough-going illness. For man's everyday needs, it would have been quite enough to have the ordinary human consciousness, that is, half or a quarter of the amount which falls to the lot of a cultivated man of our unhappy nineteenth century, especially one who has the fatal ill-luck to inhabit Petersburg, the most theoretical and intentional town on the whole terrestrial globe. (There are intentional and unintentional towns.) It would have been quite enough, for instance, to have the consciousness by which all so-called direct persons and men of action live. I bet you think I am writing all this from affectation, to be witty at the expense of men of action; and what is more, that from ill-bred affectation, I am clanking a sword like my officer. But, gentlemen, whoever can pride himself on his diseases and even swagger over them? Though, after all, everyone does do that; people do pride themselves on their diseases, and I do, may be, more than anyone. We will not dispute it; my contention was absurd. But yet I am firmly persuaded that a great deal of consciousness, every sort of consciousness, in fact, is a disease. I stick to that. Let us leave that, too, for a minute. Tell me this: why does it happen that at the

German absurd: absurd, widersinnig, abgeschmackt, albern, lächerlich, ungereimt. affectation: Affektiertheit, Vorliebe, Gezier. contention: Streit, Wettstreit. cultivated: kultiviertest, kultiviert, kultiviertet, kultivierten, kultivierte, bebaute, bebaut. fatal: tödlich, fatal, unheilvoll. globe: Globus, Kugel, Erdkugel, Erdball, Weltkugel, Rollengabel,

Leuchtenglocke. ill-bred: unerzogen, ungeschliffen, ungehobelt, schroff, grobschlächtig, derb, bäuerisch, ungeschlacht. inhabit: bewohnen, bewohnst, bewohnt, bewohne, residieren. insect: Insekt, Tierchen. intentional: absichtlich, vorsätzlich, gesonnen, gesinnt. solemnly: festlich, ernst, feierlich. swagger: stolzieren. swear: schwören, schwöre, schwörst,

schwört, fluchen, beeidigen, beschwören, flucht, beeidigt, beeidige, fluche. sword: Schwert, Säbel, Klinge, Degen, Rapier. terrestrial: terrestrisch, irdisch, weltlich, erdhaft. unintentional: unabsichtlich, unbewußt, unwissend, unwillkürlich, gedankenlos, unüberlegt, geistesabwesend, unbeabsichtigt, unwissentlich.

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very, %yes, at the very moments when I am most capable of feeling every refinement of all that is "sublime and beautiful," as they used to say at one time, it would, as though of design, happen to me not only to feel but to do such ugly things, such that ... Well, in short, actions that all, perhaps, commit; but which, as though purposely, occurred to me at the very time when I was most conscious that they ought not to be committed. The more conscious I was of goodness and of all that was "sublime and beautiful," the more deeply I sank into my mire and the more ready I was to sink in it altogether. But the chief point was that all this was, as it were, not accidental in me, but as though it were bound to be so. It was as though it were my most normal condition, and not in the least disease or depravity, so that at last all desire in me to struggle against this depravity passed. It ended by my almost believing (perhaps actually believing) that this was perhaps my normal condition. But at first, in the beginning, what agonies I endured in that struggle! I did not believe it was the same with other people, and all my life I hid this fact about myself as a secret. I was ashamed (even now, perhaps, I am ashamed): I got to the point of feeling a sort of secret abnormal, despicable enjoyment in returning home to my corner on some disgusting Petersburg night, acutely conscious that that day I had committed a loathsome action again, that what was done could never be undone, and secretly, inwardly gnawing, gnawing at myself for it, tearing and consuming myself till at last the bitterness turned into a sort of shameful accursed sweetness, and at last—into positive real enjoyment! Yes, into enjoyment, into enjoyment! I insist upon that. I have spoken of this because I keep wanting to know for a fact whether other people feel such enjoyment? I will explain; the enjoyment was just from the too intense consciousness of one's own degradation; it was from feeling oneself that one had reached the last barrier, that it was horrible, but that it could not be otherwise; that there was no escape for you; that you never could become a different man; that even if time and faith were still left you to change into something different you would most likely not wish to change; or if you did wish to, even then you would do nothing; because perhaps in reality there was nothing for you to change into.

German accursed: verflucht, verhaßt, verwünscht. acutely: akut. agonies: Qualen. bitterness: Bitterkeit, Verbitterung, Groll. consuming: verbrauchend, verzehrend, konsumierend, aufzehrend, aufbrauchend. degradation: Degradierung, Abbau, Absetzung, Herabsetzung, Beschneidung, Verringerung,

Verminderung, Senkung, Schrumpfung, Schändung. depravity: Verderbtheit. disgusting: ekelhaft, ekelnd, widerlich, anekelnd, eklig. endured: ertragen, ertrug, ertrugen, ertrugst, ertrugt, hieltet aus, ausgehalten, hielt aus, hielten aus, hieltest aus, erduldetet. gnawing: nagend, nagen. loathsome: ekelhaft, abscheulich, widerlich.

mire: Sumpf. refinement: Verfeinerung, Veredelung, Feinheit, Raffinesse, Raffinement, Finesse. shameful: schändlich, beschämend. sweetness: Süßigkeit, Süße, Liebenswürdigkeit, Anmut, Lieblichkeit. tearing: Zeilenreißen, Zerreißen, durchreißend. undone: offen, abgebunden, ungetan, unerledigt.

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And the worst of it was, and the root of it all, that it was all in accord with the normal fundamental laws of over-acute consciousness, and with the inertia that was the direct result of those laws, and that consequently one was not only unable to change but could do absolutely nothing. Thus it would follow, as the result of acute consciousness, that one is not to blame in being a scoundrel; as though that were any consolation to the scoundrel once he has come to realise that he actually is a scoundrel. But enough... Ech, I have talked a lot of nonsense, but what have I explained? How is enjoyment in this to be explained? But I will explain it. I will get to the bottom of it! That is why I have taken up my pen...% I, for instance, have a great deal of amour propre. I am as suspicious and prone to take offence as a humpback or a dwarf. But upon my word I sometimes have had moments when if I had happened to be slapped in the face I should, perhaps, have been positively glad of it. I say, in earnest, that I should probably have been able to discover even in that a peculiar sort of enjoyment—the enjoyment, of course, of despair; but in despair there are the most intense enjoyments, especially when one is very acutely conscious of the hopelessness of one's position. And when one is slapped in the face—why then the consciousness of being rubbed into a pulp would positively overwhelm one. The worst of it is, look at it which way one will, it still turns out that I was always the most to blame in everything. And what is most humiliating of all, to blame for no fault of my own but, so to say, through the laws of nature. In the first place, to blame because I am cleverer than any of the people surrounding me. (I have always considered myself cleverer than any of the people surrounding me, and sometimes, would you believe it, have been positively ashamed of it. At any rate, I have all my life, as it were, turned my eyes away and never could look people straight in the face.) To blame, finally, because even if I had had magnanimity, I should only have had more suffering from the sense of its uselessness. I should certainly have never been able to do anything from being magnanimous—neither to forgive, for my assailant would perhaps have slapped me from the laws of nature, and one cannot forgive the laws of nature; nor to forget, for even if it were owing to the laws of nature, it is insulting all the same.

German amour: Affären, das Liebesverhältnis, das Verhältnis, die Buhlschaft, die Liebschaft, die Poussage, Liebe, Liebschaft. assailant: Angreifer. cleverer: raffinierter. earnest: ernst, ernsthaft, gesetzt, feierlich, seriös, aufrichtig. enjoyments: Freuden, Gefallen, Genüsse. hopelessness: Hoffnungslosigkeit. humiliating: demütigend,

erniedrigend, menschenunwürdig. humpback: der Rundrücken, Ein Buckeliger, die Buckelige, der Buckelige, Bucklige, Buckel, Buckelige. inertia: Trägheit, Massenträgheit. insulting: beleidigend. magnanimity: Großherzigkeit, Großmut. overwhelm: überschütten, überwältigen, überschüttest, überschütte, überwältige,

überwältigt, überwältigst, überschüttet, überbürden, überladen, überhäufen. owing: schuldend, verdankend. pulp: Brei, Fruchtfleisch, Zellstoff, Pulpa, Mus. scoundrel: Schurke, Halunke, Schuft, Kanaille, Galgengesicht, Iltis, Hundsfötter, Aas, Giftnudel, GeriebeneKerl, Dreckskerl. uselessness: Nutzlosigkeit, Unbrauchbarkeit, Wertlosigkeit.

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Finally, %even if I had wanted to be anything but magnanimous, had desired on the contrary to revenge myself on my assailant, I could not have revenged myself on any one for anything because I should certainly never have made up my mind to do anything, even if I had been able to. Why should I not have made up my mind? About that in particular I want to say a few words.

German assailant: Angreifer. certainly: gewiss, sicher, bestimmt, allerdings, freilich, zweifellos, zwar, wohl, natürlich, ja doch, ja. contrary: Entgegengesetzt, Gegenteil, zuwider, Gegenstück, Gegensatz, verkehrt, Antipode, Kontrast, widerwärtig. desired: gewünscht, erwünscht, geforderte, gewünschte, verlangte. few: wenig, wenige, einige, mager, sparsam, ärmlich, spärlich, kärglich,

karg, ein wenig, dürftig. magnanimous: großmütig, tolerant, nobel, mild, jovial, hochwürdig, hochherzig, großzügig, freizügig, freigebig, erhaben. myself: mich, ich selbst, mir, mir selbst, mich selbst, ichselber, ichselbst. revenge: Rache, Revanche, Vergelten, Vergeltung, Rachsucht, Sich rächen, Sich revanchieren. revenged: gerächt, rächte.

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With %people who know how to revenge themselves and to stand up for themselves in general, how is it done? Why, when they are possessed, let us suppose, by the feeling of revenge, then for the time there is nothing else but that feeling left in their whole being. Such a gentleman simply dashes straight for his object like an infuriated bull with its horns down, and nothing but a wall will stop him. (By the way: facing the wall, such gentlemen—that is, the "direct" persons and men of action—are genuinely nonplussed. For them a wall is not an evasion, as for us people who think and consequently do nothing; it is not an excuse for turning aside, an excuse for which we are always very glad, though we scarcely believe in it ourselves, as a rule. No, they are nonplussed in all sincerity. The wall has for them something tranquillising, morally soothing, final—maybe even something mysterious ... but of the wall later.) Well, such a direct person I regard as the real normal man, as his tender mother nature wished to see him when she graciously brought him into being on the earth. I envy such a man till I am green in the face. He is stupid. I am not disputing that, but perhaps the normal man should be stupid, how do you know? Perhaps it is very beautiful, in fact. And I am the more persuaded of that suspicion, if one can call it so, by the fact that if you take, for instance, the antithesis of the normal man, that is, the man of acute consciousness, who has come, of course, not out of the lap of nature but out of a retort (this is almost

German antithesis: Antithese, Gegensatz, Gegenteil, Gegenstück, Gegenstellung. dashes: schmettert, sprünge. disputing: disputierend. envy: Neid, beneiden, beneidest, beneide, beneidet, Mißgunst, Jalousie, Haß, Eifersucht. evasion: Umgehung, Ausweichen, Hinterziehung. genuinely: echt, wirklich, wahrlich, wahrhaftig, fürwahr, tatsächlich.

graciously: gnädig, gütig. horns: Hörner, Geweih. infuriated: wütend. instance: Instanz, Beispiel, Fall. lap: Schoß, Plätschern, Überrunden, Klatschen, Mutterschoß, Gurgeln, Glucksen, Überlappen, Runde, Gluckern. morally: moralisch. mysterious: geheimnisvoll, mysteriös, rätselhaft, sonderbar. nonplussed: verlegen gemacht.

possessed: besaßest, besaßt, besaßen, besaß, besessen. retort: Retorte, erwidern. sincerity: Aufrichtigkeit, Herzlichkeit, Wohlgemeintheit. soothing: beruhigend, mildernd, besänftigend, lindernd, beschwichtigend. tender: zart, Angebot, weich, Verdingung, anbieten, Anerbieten, empfindlich, mürbe, präsentieren, Submission, sorgfältig.

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mysticism, %gentlemen, but I suspect this, too), this retort-made man is sometimes so nonplussed in the presence of his antithesis that with all his exaggerated consciousness he genuinely thinks of himself as a mouse and not a man. It may be an acutely conscious mouse, yet it is a mouse, while the other is a man, and therefore, et caetera, et caetera. And the worst of it is, he himself, his very own self, looks on himself as a mouse; no one asks him to do so; and that is an important point. Now let us look at this mouse in action. Let us suppose, for instance, that it feels insulted, too (and it almost always does feel insulted), and wants to revenge itself, too. There may even be a greater accumulation of spite in it than in l'homme de la nature et de la verite. The base and nasty desire to vent that spite on its assailant rankles perhaps even more nastily in it than in l'homme de la nature et de la verite. For through his innate stupidity the latter looks upon his revenge as justice pure and simple; while in consequence of his acute consciousness the mouse does not believe in the justice of it. To come at last to the deed itself, to the very act of revenge. Apart from the one fundamental nastiness the luckless mouse succeeds in creating around it so many other nastinesses in the form of doubts and questions, adds to the one question so many unsettled questions that there inevitably works up around it a sort of fatal brew, a stinking mess, made up of its doubts, emotions, and of the contempt spat upon it by the direct men of action who stand solemnly about it as judges and arbitrators, laughing at it till their healthy sides ache. Of course the only thing left for it is to dismiss all that with a wave of its paw, and, with a smile of assumed contempt in which it does not even itself believe, creep ignominiously into its mouse-hole. There in its nasty, stinking, underground home our insulted, crushed and ridiculed mouse promptly becomes absorbed in cold, malignant and, above all, everlasting spite. For forty years together it will remember its injury down to the smallest, most ignominious details, and every time will add, of itself, details still more ignominious, spitefully teasing and tormenting itself with its own imagination. It will itself be ashamed of its imaginings, but yet it will recall it all, it will go over and over every detail, it will invent unheard of things against itself, pretending that those things might happen, and will forgive nothing. Maybe it will begin to revenge itself, too, but,

German arbitrators: Schiedsrichter. everlasting: unaufhörlich, ewig, unvergänglich, anhaltend, fortwährend, Immerwährend, konstant, kontinuierlich, unabgebrochen, unablässig, unendlich. ignominious: schändlich. ignominiously: schmachvoll, schimpflich. insulted: beleidigt. luckless: glücklos.

malignant: bösartig, maligne, heimtückisch. mysticism: Mystizismus, Mystik. nastily: häßlich, schmutzig, scheußlich. nastiness: Gemeinheit, Hinterlistigkeit, Gaunerstreich, Schurkenstreich, Schurkerei, Schweinerei. paw: Pfote, Bein, Fuß, Unterschenkel, Tatze. ridiculed: verspottet.

spitefully: boshaft. stinking: stinkend, schlecht riechend, stinkig. tormenting: sekkieren, quälen, Piesacken. unheard: ungehört, unerhört. unsettled: unbeständig, veränderlich, ungeklärt, wandelbar, unbesiedelt, variabel, flatterhaft, unsicher, unbezahlt, unruhig. vent: Öffnung, abreagieren, auslassen, entlüften.

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as it were, piecemeal, in trivial ways, from behind the stove, incognito, without believing either in its own right to vengeance, or in the success of its revenge, knowing that from all its efforts at revenge it will suffer a hundred times more than he on whom it revenges itself, while he, I daresay, will not even scratch himself. On its deathbed it will recall it all over again, with interest accumulated over all the years and ...% But it is just in that cold, abominable half despair, half belief, in that conscious burying oneself alive for grief in the underworld for forty years, in that acutely recognised and yet partly doubtful hopelessness of one's position, in that hell of unsatisfied desires turned inward, in that fever of oscillations, of resolutions determined for ever and repented of again a minute later—that the savour of that strange enjoyment of which I have spoken lies. It is so subtle, so difficult of analysis, that persons who are a little limited, or even simply persons of strong nerves, will not understand a single atom of it. "Possibly," you will add on your own account with a grin, "people will not understand it either who have never received a slap in the face," and in that way you will politely hint to me that I, too, perhaps, have had the experience of a slap in the face in my life, and so I speak as one who knows. I bet that you are thinking that. But set your minds at rest, gentlemen, I have not received a slap in the face, though it is absolutely a matter of indifference to me what you may think about it. Possibly, I even regret, myself, that I have given so few slaps in the face during my life. But enough ... not another word on that subject of such extreme interest to you. I will continue calmly concerning persons with strong nerves who do not understand a certain refinement of enjoyment. Though in certain circumstances these gentlemen bellow their loudest like bulls, though this, let us suppose, does them the greatest credit, yet, as I have said already, confronted with the impossible they subside at once. The impossible means the stone wall! What stone wall? Why, of course, the laws of nature, the deductions of natural science, mathematics. As soon as they prove to you, for instance, that you are descended from a monkey, then it is no use scowling, accept it for a fact. When they prove to you that in reality one drop of your own fat must be dearer to you than a

German abominable: abscheulich. atom: Atom. bellow: brüllen, wiehern, unten, rasen, quaken, poltern, johlen, heulen, herausschreien, hausen, grassieren. bulls: Stiere. burying: begrabend, Vergrabend, beerdigend, bestattend. dearer: teuerer, lieber. deathbed: Sterbebett. deductions: Abzüge. incognito: inkognito, maskiert.

monkey: Affe, der Affe. oscillations: Schwingungen, Oszillationen. piecemeal: stückweise, stück für Stück, allmählich, in Brocken. repented: bereuten, bereute, bereutest, bereut, bereutet. revenges: rachen, rächt. savour: Geschmack. scowling: starrend. slap: Klaps, schlagen, Stoß, Schlag, Ohrfeige, Hieb, Hau, derber Schlag,

Backenstreich. slaps: ohrfeigen, schläge, klatscht. stove: Ofen, Herd, Feuerung, Erwärmung, Heizung. subside: nachlassen, abfüllen, sinken, einsacken. underworld: Unterwelt. unsatisfied: unbefriedigt, unbezahlt, unzufrieden, ungesättigt, nicht abgetragen, afgelöst, unbesoldet, ehrenamtlich. vengeance: Rache.

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hundred thousand of your fellow-creatures, and that this conclusion is the final solution of all so-called virtues and duties and all such prejudices and fancies, then you have just to accept it, there is no help for it, for twice two is a law of mathematics. Just try refuting it.% "Upon my word, they will shout at you, it is no use protesting: it is a case of twice two makes four! Nature does not ask your permission, she has nothing to do with your wishes, and whether you like her laws or dislike them, you are bound to accept her as she is, and consequently all her conclusions. A wall, you see, is a wall ... and so on, and so on." Merciful Heavens! but what do I care for the laws of nature and arithmetic, when, for some reason I dislike those laws and the fact that twice two makes four? Of course I cannot break through the wall by battering my head against it if I really have not the strength to knock it down, but I am not going to be reconciled to it simply because it is a stone wall and I have not the strength. As though such a stone wall really were a consolation, and really did contain some word of conciliation, simply because it is as true as twice two makes four. Oh, absurdity of absurdities! How much better it is to understand it all, to recognise it all, all the impossibilities and the stone wall; not to be reconciled to one of those impossibilities and stone walls if it disgusts you to be reconciled to it; by the way of the most inevitable, logical combinations to reach the most revolting conclusions on the everlasting theme, that even for the stone wall you are yourself somehow to blame, though again it is as clear as day you are not to blame in the least, and therefore grinding your teeth in silent impotence to sink into luxurious inertia, brooding on the fact that there is no one even for you to feel vindictive against, that you have not, and perhaps never will have, an object for your spite, that it is a sleight of hand, a bit of juggling, a card- sharper's trick, that it is simply a mess, no knowing what and no knowing who, but in spite of all these uncertainties and jugglings, still there is an ache in you, and the more you do not know, the worse the ache.

German absurdities: Absurditäten. absurdity: Absurdität, wertloze Zeug, Verdrehtheit, Unding, Torheit, Irrsinn, Idiotie, Narrheit. ache: schmerzen, schmerz, Weh, wehe tun, sich sehnen, sich ersehnen, lechzen nach, ersehnen, Schmerz verursachen. arithmetic: Arithmetik, arithmetisch, Rechnen, Rechenkunst. battering: Zerschlagend. brooding: Brut, brütend, Sippschaft,

Zeug, Pöbel, Plebs, Pack, Lumpengesindel, Grübeln, Grübelei, Gesindel. conciliation: Schlichtung, Versöhnung. disgusts: empört. fancies: Phantasien, wähnt. grinding: Schleifen, Reibend, Mahlen, Zähneknirschend, Geknirsch. impossibilities: Unmöglichkeiten. impotence: Impotenz, Unfähigkeit, Machtlosigkeit.

juggling: Jonglierend, Jonglieren. merciful: barmherzig, mitleidig, gnädig. prejudices: Vorurteile. reconciled: versöhntet, versöhntest, versöhnten, versöhnte, versöhnt. refuting: widerlegend. revolting: abscheulich. sleight: der Dreh, der Trick, die Geschicklichkeit, Fertigkeit, Geschicklichkeit. vindictive: rachsüchtig.

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IV

"Ha, ha, ha! You will be finding enjoyment in toothache next," you cry, with a laugh.% "Well, even in toothache there is enjoyment," I answer. I had toothache for a whole month and I know there is. In that case, of course, people are not spiteful in silence, but moan; but they are not candid moans, they are malignant moans, and the malignancy is the whole point. The enjoyment of the sufferer finds expression in those moans; if he did not feel enjoyment in them he would not moan. It is a good example, gentlemen, and I will develop it. Those moans express in the first place all the aimlessness of your pain, which is so humiliating to your consciousness; the whole legal system of nature on which you spit disdainfully, of course, but from which you suffer all the same while she does not. They express the consciousness that you have no enemy to punish, but that you have pain; the consciousness that in spite of all possible Wagenheims you are in complete slavery to your teeth; that if someone wishes it, your teeth will leave off aching, and if he does not, they will go on aching another three months; and that finally if you are still contumacious and still protest, all that is left you for your own gratification is to thrash yourself or beat your wall with your fist as hard as you can, and absolutely nothing more. Well, these mortal insults, these jeers on the part of someone unknown, end at last in an enjoyment which sometimes reaches the highest degree of voluptuousness. I ask you, gentlemen,

German aching: schmerzend, schmerzhaft. aimlessness: Ziellosigkeit. candid: offen, aufrichtig. contumacious: widerspenstig, ungehorsam. disdainfully: verachtungsvolle, verachtungsvoll, verachtenswert, verächtlich. enjoyment: Genuß. fist: Faust, Fäustchen. gentlemen: Ehrenmänner, Herren. gratification: Genugtuung, Freude,

Befriedigung, Zufriedenstellung, Genuß. insults: Beleidigt. jeers: spottet. malignancy: Malignität, Bösartigkeit, Böswilligkeit. moan: stöhnen, jammern, seufzen, ächzen, wehklagen, wimmern. moans: stöhnt. mortal: sterblich, tödlich. punish: bestrafen, bestrafst, bestraft, bestrafe, strafen, straft, strafst, strafe,

ahnden, züchtigen, ahndest. reaches: reicht. slavery: Sklaverei, Sklavenarbeit, Knechtschaft, Sklavenleben. spit: spucken, speien, Spucke, Ausspucken, auswerfen, Bratspieß, ausspeien. sufferer: Leidende. thrash: verhauen, verprügeln. toothache: Zahnschmerzen, Zahnweh, Zahnschmerz. voluptuousness: Wollust.

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listen %sometimes to the moans of an educated man of the nineteenth century suffering from toothache, on the second or third day of the attack, when he is beginning to moan, not as he moaned on the first day, that is, not simply because he has toothache, not just as any coarse peasant, but as a man affected by progress and European civilisation, a man who is "divorced from the soil and the national elements," as they express it now-a-days. His moans become nasty, disgustingly malignant, and go on for whole days and nights. And of course he knows himself that he is doing himself no sort of good with his moans; he knows better than anyone that he is only lacerating and harassing himself and others for nothing; he knows that even the audience before whom he is making his efforts, and his whole family, listen to him with loathing, do not put a ha'porth of faith in him, and inwardly understand that he might moan differently, more simply, without trills and flourishes, and that he is only amusing himself like that from ill-humour, from malignancy. Well, in all these recognitions and disgraces it is that there lies a voluptuous pleasure. As though he would say: "I am worrying you, I am lacerating your hearts, I am keeping everyone in the house awake. Well, stay awake then, you, too, feel every minute that I have toothache. I am not a hero to you now, as I tried to seem before, but simply a nasty person, an impostor. Well, so be it, then! I am very glad that you see through me. It is nasty for you to hear my despicable moans: well, let it be nasty; here I will let you have a nastier flourish in a minute..." You do not understand even now, gentlemen? No, it seems our development and our consciousness must go further to understand all the intricacies of this pleasure. You laugh? Delighted. My jests, gentlemen, are of course in bad taste, jerky, involved, lacking self-confidence. But of course that is because I do not respect myself. Can a man of perception respect himself at all?

German amusing: amüsant, amüsierend, belustigend, unterhaltsam, unterhaltend, ergötzlich, vergnüglich, vergnügend, lustig, amüsieren, drollig. awake: wach, erwachen, munter, aufwachen. civilisation: Zivilisation, Kultur. coarse: grob, ungeschliffen, rauh, abgestanden, arg, barsch, grobkörnig, unflätig, holperig, obszön, ungehobelt.

disgraces: schändet. disgustingly: anekeln, ekelerregend, ekelhaft, ekelhafte, entsetzlich. flourish: blühen, blühst, blüht, blühe, gedeihen, Schnörkel, Tusch, florieren, floriert, florierst, floriere. flourishes: blüht, floriert. harassing: schikanierend, belästigend, plagend. hearts: Herzen. impostor: Betrüger, Hochstapler. intricacies: Komplikationen,

Verwicklungen. jerky: Ruckartig. jests: scherzt, spasst. lacerating: zerreißen, zerfleischend, aufreißend. loathing: Verabscheuend, Ekel. moaned: gestöhnt, stöhnte. nastier: ekliger. recognitions: Anerkennungen. trills: trillert. voluptuous: wollüstig, üppig. worrying: Grübeln, Beunruhigend.

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Come, %can a man who attempts to find enjoyment in the very feeling of his own degradation possibly have a spark of respect for himself? I am not saying this now from any mawkish kind of remorse. And, indeed, I could never endure saying, "Forgive me, Papa, I won't do it again," not because I am incapable of saying that—on the contrary, perhaps just because I have been too capable of it, and in what a way, too. As though of design I used to get into trouble in cases when I was not to blame in any way. That was the nastiest part of it. At the same time I was genuinely touched and penitent, I used to shed tears and, of course, deceived myself, though I was not acting in the least and there was a sick feeling in my heart at the time... For that one could not blame even the laws of nature, though the laws of nature have continually all my life offended me more than anything. It is loathsome to remember it all, but it was loathsome even then. Of course, a minute or so later I would realise wrathfully that it was all a lie, a revolting lie, an affected lie, that is, all this penitence, this emotion, these vows of reform. You will ask why did I worry myself with such antics: answer, because it was very dull to sit with one's hands folded, and so one began cutting capers. That is really it. Observe yourselves more carefully, gentlemen, then you will understand that it is so. I invented adventures for myself and made up a life, so as at least to live in some way. How many times it has happened to me—well, for instance, to take offence simply on purpose, for nothing; and one

German adventures: Abenteuer, Gefahren, Geschick, Schicksale. antics: Possen. capers: Kapern. continually: fortgesetzt. deceived: betrogt, betrogst, betrogen, betrog, täuschte, täuschtet, getäuscht, täuschten, täuschtest, hintergingt, hintergingst. dull: stumpf, matt, stumpfsinnig, trübe, dumpf, glanzlos, schwach, dumm, trüb, langweilig, fade.

endure: ertragen, ertragt, ertrage, erträgst, aushalten, halte aus, halten aus, haltet aus, hältst aus, erdulden, erleiden. folded: gefaltet, umgeklapt. incapable: unfähig, inkompetent, unzuständig, unfachmännisch. invented: erfandet, erfandest, erfanden, erfand, erfunden, dachten aus, dachtest aus, dachte aus, ausgedacht, dachtet aus, ersannst. mawkish: süßlich, rührselig,

honigsüß, süß. nastiest: ekligste. offended: beleidigt, beleidigtest, Beleidigte, beleidigtet, beleidigten, kränkte, kränktet, gekränkt, kränktest, kränkten, Verwundete. penitence: Reue, Buße. penitent: reuig, bußfertig, Gestrafte. spark: Funke, Funken, Fünkchen. vows: gelübde, Gelübden, schwört. wrathfully: zornige, zornig. yourselves: sich.

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knows oneself, %of course, that one is offended at nothing; that one is putting it on, but yet one brings oneself at last to the point of being really offended. All my life I have had an impulse to play such pranks, so that in the end I could not control it in myself. Another time, twice, in fact, I tried hard to be in love. I suffered, too, gentlemen, I assure you. In the depth of my heart there was no faith in my suffering, only a faint stir of mockery, but yet I did suffer, and in the real, orthodox way; I was jealous, beside myself ... and it was all from ennui, gentlemen, all from ennui; inertia overcame me. You know the direct, legitimate fruit of consciousness is inertia, that is, conscious sitting-with-the-hands-folded. I have referred to this already. I repeat, I repeat with emphasis: all "direct" persons and men of action are active just because they are stupid and limited. How explain that? I will tell you: in consequence of their limitation they take immediate and secondary causes for primary ones, and in that way persuade themselves more quickly and easily than other people do that they have found an infallible foundation for their activity, and their minds are at ease and you know that is the chief thing. To begin to act, you know, you must first have your mind completely at ease and no trace of doubt left in it. Why, how am I, for example, to set my mind at rest? Where are the primary causes on which I am to build? Where are my foundations? Where am I to get them from? I exercise myself in reflection, and consequently with me every primary cause at once draws after itself another still more primary, and so on to infinity. That is just the essence of every sort of consciousness and reflection. It must be a case of the laws of nature again. What is the result of it in the end? Why, just the same. Remember I spoke just now of vengeance. (I am sure you did not take it in.) I said that a man revenges himself because he sees justice in it. Therefore he has found a primary cause, that is, justice. And so he is at rest on all sides, and consequently he carries out his revenge calmly and successfully, being persuaded that he is doing a just and honest thing. But I see no justice in it, I find no sort of virtue in it either, and consequently if I attempt to revenge myself, it is only out of spite. Spite, of course, might overcome everything, all my doubts, and so might serve quite successfully in place of a primary cause, precisely because it is not a cause. But what is to be done if I have not even spite (I began

German assure: versichern, versichere, versicherst, versichert, versichre, zusichern, sichere zu, sichre zu, sichert zu, sicherst zu, sichern zu. calmly: ruhig. carries: trägt. draws: zeichnet, malt, zeichnet ab, schöpft. ennui: Langeweile. impulse: Impuls, Antrieb, Trieb, Andrang, Kraftimpulsgröße, Andrift. infallible: unfehlbar, fehlerfrei,

fehlerlos, sicher. infinity: Unendlichkeit, Endlosigkeit, Grenzenlosigkeit. jealous: eifersüchtig, mißgünstig. limitation: Einschränkung, Begrenzung, Beschränkung, Verjährung, Restriktion, Limit, Vorbehalt. mockery: Spott, Spöttelei, Hohn, Spötterei, Gespött, Spotten, Spottwort, Verspottung. oneself: sich, sich selber, sich selbst.

orthodox: orthodox, rechtgläubig, strenggläubig, orthodoxe. overcame: überwältigtet, überwältigtest, überwältigten, überwältigte, überwandest, überwand, überwandet, überwanden, übermanntest, übermannten, übermanntet. pranks: Mätzchen, Allotria. stir: rühren, bewegen, Aufregung, aufwühlen, quirlen, erschüttern, Bewegung.

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with %that just now, you know). In consequence again of those accursed laws of consciousness, anger in me is subject to chemical disintegration. You look into it, the object flies off into air, your reasons evaporate, the criminal is not to be found, the wrong becomes not a wrong but a phantom, something like the toothache, for which no one is to blame, and consequently there is only the same outlet left again—that is, to beat the wall as hard as you can. So you give it up with a wave of the hand because you have not found a fundamental cause. And try letting yourself be carried away by your feelings, blindly, without reflection, without a primary cause, repelling consciousness at least for a time; hate or love, if only not to sit with your hands folded. The day after tomorrow, at the latest, you will begin despising yourself for having knowingly deceived yourself. Result: a soap-bubble and inertia. Oh, gentlemen, do you know, perhaps I consider myself an intelligent man, only because all my life I have been able neither to begin nor to finish anything. Granted I am a babbler, a harmless vexatious babbler, like all of us. But what is to be done if the direct and sole vocation of every intelligent man is babble, that is, the intentional pouring of water through a sieve?

German babbler: Schwätzer. blindly: blind, blindlings. chemical: Chemisch, Chemikalie. despising: Verachtend, geringschätzend, verschmähend. disintegration: Zerfall, Auflösung, Zersetzung. evaporate: verdunsten, verdunstest, verdunstet, verdunste, verdampfen, sich verflüchtigen, rauchen, qualmen, dampfen, dunsten, verfliegen. flies: Fliegt.

harmless: harmlos, ungefährlich. hate: hassen, Hass, Feindschaft. intelligent: intelligent, verständig, klug, scharfsinnig, denkfähig, weise, einsichtsvoll, hochgelehrt, mit Verstand begabt, schlau, gelehrt. knowingly: wissentlich, bewußt, sehenden Auges, absichtlich. letting: Lassend, vermietend, Vermietung. outlet: Ausgang, Abfluß, Abzug, Auslaß, Steckdose, treue Stütze,

Abnehmer, Verkaufsstelle, Stütze. phantom: Phantom, Gespenst, Illusion, Einbildungskraft, Geist, Traumbild, Phantasie, Trugbild, Spuk, Wahnbild, Fiktion. pouring: der Abguss, der Abstich, der Roheisenabstich, gießen, giessend, strömend, das Abstechen. repelling: abweisend, abstoßend. sieve: Sieb, durchsieben, sieben. vexatious: lästig, ärgerlich. vocation: Berufung, Beruf.

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VI

Oh, %if I had done nothing simply from laziness! Heavens, how I should have respected myself, then. I should have respected myself because I should at least have been capable of being lazy; there would at least have been one quality, as it were, positive in me, in which I could have believed myself. Question: What is he? Answer: A sluggard; how very pleasant it would have been to hear that of oneself! It would mean that I was positively defined, it would mean that there was something to say about me. "Sluggard"—why, it is a calling and vocation, it is a career. Do not jest, it is so. I should then be a member of the best club by right, and should find my occupation in continually respecting myself. I knew a gentleman who prided himself all his life on being a connoisseur of Lafitte. He considered this as his positive virtue, and never doubted himself. He died, not simply with a tranquil, but with a triumphant conscience, and he was quite right, too. Then I should have chosen a career for myself, I should have been a sluggard and a glutton, not a simple one, but, for instance, one with sympathies for everything sublime and beautiful. How do you like that? I have long had visions of it. That "sublime and beautiful" weighs heavily on my mind at forty But that is at forty; then—oh, then it would have been different! I should have found for myself a form of activity in keeping with it, to be precise, drinking to the health of everything "sublime and beautiful." I should have snatched at every opportunity to drop a tear into my glass and then to drain it to

German connoisseur: Kenner, Gastronom. conscience: Gewissen. doubted: zweifelte, angezweifelt. drain: entwässern, Abfluss, ablassen, Ablauf, drainieren, abfließen, abtropfen, Gully, leeren, ausstoßen, Abflußrohr. drinking: Trinken, Trinkend. glutton: Vielfraß, Freßsack, Fresser, Nimmersatt. laziness: Faulheit, Nichtstun, Faulenzerei, Müßiggang.

lazy: faul, träge, arbeitsscheu. occupation: Beruf, Besetzung, Beschäftigung, Tätigkeit, Gewerbe, Eroberung, Handwerk. positively: positiv. prided: bildete sich ein. respected: geachtet, angesehen, respektiert. respecting: respektierend, achtend. sluggard: Faul, Faulpelz. snatched: gegriffen. sublime: erhaben, sublim.

sympathies: Sympathien. tear: zerreißen, Träne, einreißen, zerren, reißen, Riss, aufreißen, zupfen, zerlegen, zerfetzen, tränen. tranquil: ruhig, gelassen, still, ruhige, gemütlich. triumphant: triumphierend, siegreich, erfolgreich, siegestrunken, triumphal. virtue: Tugend, Solidität, Biederkeit, Bravheit. visions: Visionen, Vision. weighs: wiegt, wägt ab, wägt.

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all that is "sublime and beautiful." I should then have turned everything into the sublime and the beautiful; in the nastiest, unquestionable trash, I should have sought out the sublime and the beautiful. I should have exuded tears like a wet sponge. An artist, for instance, paints a picture worthy of Gay. At once I drink to the health of the artist who painted the picture worthy of Gay, because I love all that is "sublime and beautiful." An author has written as you will: at once I drink to the health of "anyone you will" because I love all that is "sublime and beautiful."% I should claim respect for doing so. I should persecute anyone who would not show me respect. I should live at ease, I should die with dignity, why, it is charming, perfectly charming! And what a good round belly I should have grown, what a treble chin I should have established, what a ruby nose I should have coloured for myself, so that everyone would have said, looking at me: "Here is an asset! Here is something real and solid!" And, say what you like, it is very agreeable to hear such remarks about oneself in this negative age.

German agreeable: angenehm, behaglich, genehm, herrlich. asset: Vermögenswert, Errungenschaft, Erwerb, Beute, Aktivposten. belly: Bauch, Hinterleib, Unterleib. charming: reizend, bezaubernd, anmutig, lieblich, entzückend, hold, allerliebst, charmant, liebenswürdig, zierlich, sympathisch. chin: Kinn, das Kinn, Kinnbacken. coloured: farbig, bunt.

dignity: Würde, Anstand. ease: Bequemlichkeit, Leichtigkeit, lindern, mildern. exuded: strahlte aus. painted: gemalt, angestrichen. paints: malt. persecute: verfolgen, verfolgst, verfolgt, verfolge, nachzusetzen, fahnden, schikanieren. remarks: Bemerkungen, markiert. ruby: Rubin, Rubinrot. sponge: Schwamm, der Schwamm,

abwischen, schmarotzen. trash: Abfall, schund, Ausschuß, Plunder, Krempel, Krimskrams, verprügeln, Zeug, Kitsch, zusammenschlagen, wertloses Zeug. treble: dreifach, verdreifachen. unquestionable: fraglos, unzweifelhaft. wet: nass, naß machen, feucht, anfeuchten, befeuchten. worthy: Würdig, bieder, ehrenwert, wert.

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But %these are all golden dreams. Oh, tell me, who was it first announced, who was it first proclaimed, that man only does nasty things because he does not know his own interests; and that if he were enlightened, if his eyes were opened to his real normal interests, man would at once cease to do nasty things, would at once become good and noble because, being enlightened and understanding his real advantage, he would see his own advantage in the good and nothing else, and we all know that not one man can, consciously, act against his own interests, consequently, so to say, through necessity, he would begin doing good? Oh, the babe! Oh, the pure, innocent child! Why, in the first place, when in all these thousands of years has there been a time when man has acted only from his own interest? What is to be done with the millions of facts that bear witness that men, consciously, that is fully understanding their real interests, have left them in the background and have rushed headlong on another path, to meet peril and danger, compelled to this course by nobody and by nothing, but, as it were, simply disliking the beaten track, and have obstinately, wilfully, struck out another difficult, absurd way, seeking it almost in the darkness. So, I suppose, this obstinacy and perversity were pleasanter to them than any advantage... Advantage! What is advantage? And will you take it upon yourself to define with perfect accuracy in what the advantage of man consists? And what if it so happens that a man's advantage, sometimes, not only may, but even must, consist

German accuracy: Genauigkeit, Exaktheit, Präzision, Pünktlichkeit, Akkuratesse, Treffgenauigkeit, Richtigkeit, die Genauigkeit. acted: handelte. babe: Baby, Kleines Kind. beaten: geschlagen. cease: aufhören, verzichten, zurücktreten, etwas aufgeben, ausscheiden, ablassen. compelled: zwang, gezwungen, zwangst, zwangen, zwangt,

erzwungen. consciously: bewusst. consist: bestehen, bestehe, bestehst, besteht, besteht aus. disliking: ablehnend, nicht liebend. dreams: Träumt, Träume. enlightened: erleuchtetet, erleuchtetest, erleuchteten, erleuchtete, erleuchtet, Aufgeklärt. headlong: kopfüber. noble: edel, Adlig, edelmütig, adelig, hehr, erhaben, stattlich, nobel.

obstinacy: Eigensinn, Sturheit, Starrsinn. obstinately: stur. peril: Gefahr, Risiko. perversity: Perversität, Perversion. pleasanter: angenehmer. proclaimed: proklamiert, proklamierten, proklamiertest, proklamierte, proklamiertet. rushed: gehetzt. wilfully: absichtlich, eigensinnig, stur, vorsätzlich.

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in %his desiring in certain cases what is harmful to himself and not advantageous. And if so, if there can be such a case, the whole principle falls into dust. What do you think—are there such cases? You laugh; laugh away, gentlemen, but only answer me: have man's advantages been reckoned up with perfect certainty? Are there not some which not only have not been included but cannot possibly be included under any classification? You see, you gentlemen have, to the best of my knowledge, taken your whole register of human advantages from the averages of statistical figures and politico-economical formulas. Your advantages are prosperity, wealth, freedom, peace—and so on, and so on. So that the man who should, for instance, go openly and knowingly in opposition to all that list would to your thinking, and indeed mine, too, of course, be an obscurantist or an absolute madman: would not he? But, you know, this is what is surprising: why does it so happen that all these statisticians, sages and lovers of humanity, when they reckon up human advantages invariably leave out one? They don't even take it into their reckoning in the form in which it should be taken, and the whole reckoning depends upon that. It would be no greater matter, they would simply have to take it, this advantage, and add it to the list. But the trouble is, that this strange advantage does not fall under any classification and is not in place in any list. I have a friend for instance ... Ech! gentlemen, but of course he is your friend, too; and indeed there is no one, no one to whom he is not a friend! When he prepares for any undertaking this gentleman immediately explains to you, elegantly and clearly, exactly how he must act in accordance with the laws of reason and truth. What is more, he will talk to you with excitement and passion of the true normal interests of man; with irony he will upbraid the short- sighted fools who do not understand their own interests, nor the true significance of virtue; and, within a quarter of an hour, without any sudden outside provocation, but simply through something inside him which is stronger than all his interests, he will go off on quite a different tack—that is, act in direct opposition to what he has just been saying about himself, in opposition to the laws of reason, in opposition to his own advantage, in fact in opposition to everything ... I warn you that my friend is a compound personality and therefore it is difficult to blame him as an individual.

German accordance: Übereinstimmung, Übereinkommen, Abkommen, Akkord, Einklang, Zustimmung, Übereinkunft. advantageous: vorteilhaft, günstig, nützlich, zweckdienlich, hold, gnädig, gewogen. averages: durchschnitte, durchmesser, durchschnitten, schnitten. compound: Verbindung, zusammengesetzt, Präparat, Kompositum.

desiring: wünschend. elegantly: elegant. formulas: Formeln. harmful: schädlich, abträglich, schändlich. irony: Ironie. madman: Verrückte, Irre, Geisteskranke, Wahnsinnige, Tor, Tollkopf, Schwachsinnige, Irrsinnige, der Irre, Idiot. obscurantist: Feind der Aufklärung, die Obskurantin, der Obskurant, der

Dunkelmann, der Finsterling. prepares: bereitet vor, bereitet, bereitet zu, richtet zu. provocation: Herausforderung, Provokation. reckoned: gerechnet, rechnetest, rechnetet, rechneten, rechnete. reckoning: Rechnend, Berechnung. sighted: gesichtet. upbraid: schimpfen. warn: warnen, warnt, warnst, warne, ermahnen.

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The fact is, gentlemen, %it seems there must really exist something that is dearer to almost every man than his greatest advantages, or (not to be illogical) there is a most advantageous advantage (the very one omitted of which we spoke just now) which is more important and more advantageous than all other advantages, for the sake of which a man if necessary is ready to act in opposition to all laws; that is, in opposition to reason, honour, peace, prosperity—in fact, in opposition to all those excellent and useful things if only he can attain that fundamental, most advantageous advantage which is dearer to him than all. "Yes, but it's advantage all the same," you will retort. But excuse me, I'll make the point clear, and it is not a case of playing upon words. What matters is, that this advantage is remarkable from the very fact that it breaks down all our classifications, and continually shatters every system constructed by lovers of mankind for the benefit of mankind. In fact, it upsets everything. But before I mention this advantage to you, I want to compromise myself personally, and therefore I boldly declare that all these fine systems, all these theories for explaining to mankind their real normal interests, in order that inevitably striving to pursue these interests they may at once become good and noble—are, in my opinion, so far, mere logical exercises! Yes, logical exercises. Why, to maintain this theory of the regeneration of mankind by means of the pursuit of his own advantage is to my mind almost the same thing ... as to affirm, for instance, following Buckle, that through civilisation mankind becomes softer, and consequently less bloodthirsty and less fitted for warfare. Logically it does seem to follow from his arguments. But man has such a predilection for systems and abstract deductions that he is ready to distort the truth intentionally, he is ready to deny the evidence of his senses only to justify his logic. I take this example because it is the most glaring instance of it. Only look about you: blood is being spilt in streams, and in the merriest way, as though it were champagne. Take the whole of the nineteenth century in which Buckle lived. Take Napoleon—the Great and also the present one. Take North America—the eternal union. Take the farce of Schleswig-Holstein... And what is it that civilisation softens in us? The only gain of civilisation for mankind is the greater capacity for variety of sensations—and absolutely nothing more. And through the

German affirm: bestätigen, bestätigt, bestätigst, bestätige, behaupten, bejahen, bejahe, bejahst, bejaht, ja sagen, versichern. attain: erreichen, erreichst, erreicht, erreiche, erzielen, erlangen, erlangst, erlangt, erziele, erzielst, erzielt. bloodthirsty: blutdürstig, blutrünstig. boldly: kühn. classifications: Einstufungen, Klassifizierungen. distort: verdrehen, verzerren, verzerre, verdrehst, verdreht,

verzerrst, verzerrt, verdrehe, entstellen, verzeichnen. farce: Posse. glaring: grell, kraß, scharf, spitz, schroff, schrill, schreiend, hell, grell beleuchtet, anblitzend. illogical: unlogisch. intentionally: absichtlich, vorsätzlich, mit Vorbedacht, extra. merriest: lustigste, lustigsten. predilection: Vorliebe, Vorlieben. regeneration: Änderung,

Metamorphose, Erneuerung, Umänderung, Regenerierung, Regeneration. shatters: zerschmettert. softens: weicht auf, erweicht, enthärtet. softer: weicher. spilt: verschüttet, verschütten. streams: Ströme, Schwalle, Strömt. striving: Strebend, Bestrebend, Strebsam. upsets: wirft um.

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development of this many- sidedness man %may come to finding enjoyment in bloodshed. In fact, this has already happened to him. Have you noticed that it is the most civilised gentlemen who have been the subtlest slaughterers, to whom the Attilas and Stenka Razins could not hold a candle, and if they are not so conspicuous as the Attilas and Stenka Razins it is simply because they are so often met with, are so ordinary and have become so familiar to us. In any case civilisation has made mankind if not more bloodthirsty, at least more vilely, more loathsomely bloodthirsty. In old days he saw justice in bloodshed and with his conscience at peace exterminated those he thought proper. Now we do think bloodshed abominable and yet we engage in this abomination, and with more energy than ever. Which is worse? Decide that for yourselves. They say that Cleopatra (excuse an instance from Roman history) was fond of sticking gold pins into her slave-girls' breasts and derived gratification from their screams and writhings. You will say that that was in the comparatively barbarous times; that these are barbarous times too, because also, comparatively speaking, pins are stuck in even now; that though man has now learned to see more clearly than in barbarous ages, he is still far from having learnt to act as reason and science would dictate. But yet you are fully convinced that he will be sure to learn when he gets rid of certain old bad habits, and when common sense and science have completely re-educated human nature and turned it in a normal direction. You are confident that then man will cease from intentional error and will, so to say, be compelled not to want to set his will against his normal interests. That is not all; then, you say, science itself will teach man (though to my mind it's a superfluous luxury) that he never has really had any caprice or will of his own, and that he himself is something of the nature of a piano-key or the stop of an organ, and that there are, besides, things called the laws of nature; so that everything he does is not done by his willing it, but is done of itself, by the laws of nature. Consequently we have only to discover these laws of nature, and man will no longer have to answer for his actions and life will become exceedingly easy for him. All human actions will then, of course, be tabulated according to these laws, mathematically, like tables of logarithms up to 108,000, and entered in an index; or, better still, there would be

German abomination: Abscheu, Gräuel, Abscheulichkeit, Schrecken, Widerwille, Verabscheuung, Schrecknis, Ekel. according: gemäß, entsprechend, übereinstimmend. barbarous: barbarisch, grausam, roh. bloodshed: Blutvergießen. breasts: Brüste, Büste, Brust, Busen. candle: Kerze, Licht, Wachskerze, Wachslicht. caprice: Laune, Eigensinn, Kaprize.

civilised: Gebildete. conspicuous: auffallend, auffällig, deutlich. dictate: diktieren, diktiert, diktierst, diktiere, vorschreiben, befehlen, auferlegen, anordnen, zuerkennen, herrschen über, Herr sein über. exceedingly: außerordentlich, äußerst, überaus, ungewöhnlich, merkwürdig, ungemein, unüblich, speziell, sonderbar, selten, schlimmst. exterminated: ausgerottet, rottetet aus,

rottetest aus, rotteten aus, rottete aus, vertilgtet, vertilgtest, vertilgten, vertilgte, vertilgt. loathsomely: ekelhaft, abscheulich. mankind: Menschheit. mathematically: mathematisch. pins: Spangen, Nadeln. screams: Schreien. subtlest: feinste. superfluous: überflüssig. tabulated: tabelliert. vilely: gemein.

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published certain edifying works of the nature of encyclopaedic lexicons, in which everything will be so clearly calculated and explained that there will be no more incidents or adventures in the world.% Then—this is all what you say—new economic relations will be established, all ready-made and worked out with mathematical exactitude, so that every possible question will vanish in the twinkling of an eye, simply because every possible answer to it will be provided. Then the "Palace of Crystal" will be built. Then ... In fact, those will be halcyon days. Of course there is no guaranteeing (this is my comment) that it will not be, for instance, frightfully dull then (for what will one have to do when everything will be calculated and tabulated), but on the other hand everything will be extraordinarily rational. Of course boredom may lead you to anything. It is boredom sets one sticking golden pins into people, but all that would not matter. What is bad (this is my comment again) is that I dare say people will be thankful for the gold pins then. Man is stupid, you know, phenomenally stupid; or rather he is not at all stupid, but he is so ungrateful that you could not find another like him in all creation. I, for instance, would not be in the least surprised if all of a sudden, a propos of nothing, in the midst of general prosperity a gentleman with an ignoble, or rather with a reactionary and ironical, countenance were to arise and, putting his arms akimbo, say to us all: "I say, gentleman, hadn't we better kick over the whole show and scatter rationalism to the winds, simply to send these logarithms to the devil, and to enable us to live once more at our own sweet foolish will!" That again would not matter, but what is annoying is that he would be sure to find followers—such is the nature of man. And all that for the most foolish reason, which, one would think, was hardly worth mentioning: that is, that man everywhere and at all times, whoever he may be, has preferred to act as he chose and not in the least as his reason and advantage dictated. And one may choose what is contrary to one's own interests, and sometimes one positively ought (that is my idea). One's own free unfettered choice, one's own caprice, however wild it may be, one's own fancy worked up at times to frenzy—is that very "most advantageous advantage" which we have overlooked, which comes under no classification and against which all systems and theories are

German annoying: ärgerlich, lästig, ärgernd, ärgern, schwierig, hinderlich, irritierend, sauer, schwer, störend, unangenehm. countenance: Antlitz, Gesicht, Anblick, Szene, Schauspiel, Miene, Gesichtsausdruck. edifying: erbauend, erbaulich, fromm. encyclopaedic: enzyklopädisch. exactitude: Genauigkeit, Exaktheit, Akkuratesse, Korrektheit, Gewissenhaftigkeit,

Aufmerksamkeit. frightfully: schrecklich. guaranteeing: garantierend. halcyon: Eisvogel. ignoble: unehrenhaft. ironical: ironisch. lexicons: Lexika. phenomenally: außerordentlich, phänomenal, phänomenale, phänomenales, phantastisch, unglaublich. rationalism: Rationalismus.

reactionary: Reaktionär. scatter: streuen, zerstreuen, streue, streust, streut, Streuung, zerstreut, zerstreust, auseinandertreiben, zerstreue, auseinanderstieben. thankful: dankbar, erkenntlich. twinkling: Glitzernd, Funkelnd. unfettered: frei, zügellos, ungebunden. ungrateful: undankbar. vanish: verschwinden, verschwindet, verschwinde, verschwindest.

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continually being shattered to atoms. And how do these wiseacres know that man wants a normal, a %virtuous choice? What has made them conceive that man must want a rationally advantageous choice? What man wants is simply independent choice, whatever that independence may cost and wherever it may lead. And choice, of course, the devil only knows what choice.

German atoms: Atome. choice: Wahl, Auswahl, Auslese, Selektion, Auswahlmöglichkeit, Alternative, Auserlesen, Sortiment. conceive: denkt aus, empfange, empfangen, empfängst, empfangt, entwickele, denkst aus, konzipiert, begreift, sich vorstellen, entwickelst. cost: Kosten, Preis, Unkosten. devil: Teufel, Satan. independence: Unabhängigkeit, Selbständigkeit, Freiheit,

Ungebundenheit. independent: Unabhängig, selbständig, frei, eigenständig, Selbständige. knows: weiß, kennt. lead: Blei, leiten, führen, leitest, führst, führt, leitet, leite, führe, Vorsprung, Führung. normal: normal, Normale, üblich, gangbar, gängig, gebräuchlich, gemein, gewöhnlich, alltäglich. rationally: vernünftig, rational.

shattered: zerschmettertest, zerschmettertet, zerschmetterten, zerschmettert, zerschmetterte, zerrüttet, zerschmetterd, zertrümmerd. simply: einfach, nur, kurzweg, kurzerhand. wants: will. whatever: was auch immer. wherever: wo auch immer, wo immer, woimmer.

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"Ha! ha! ha! But you know there is no such thing as choice in reality, say what you like," you will interpose with a chuckle. "Science has succeeded in so far analysing man that we know already that choice and what is called freedom of will is nothing else than—"% Stay, gentlemen, I meant to begin with that myself I confess, I was rather frightened. I was just going to say that the devil only knows what choice depends on, and that perhaps that was a very good thing, but I remembered the teaching of science ... and pulled myself up. And here you have begun upon it. Indeed, if there really is some day discovered a formula for all our desires and caprices—that is, an explanation of what they depend upon, by what laws they arise, how they develop, what they are aiming at in one case and in another and so on, that is a real mathematical formula—then, most likely, man will at once cease to feel desire, indeed, he will be certain to. For who would want to choose by rule? Besides, he will at once be transformed from a human being into an organ-stop or something of the sort; for what is a man without desires, without free will and without choice, if not a stop in an organ? What do you think? Let us reckon the chances—can such a thing happen or not? "H'm!" you decide. "Our choice is usually mistaken from a false view of our advantage. We sometimes choose absolute nonsense because in our foolishness

German aiming: zielend, zielen, richtend. schüchterte ein, schüchtertest ein, analysing: analysierend, zergliedernd. eingeschüchtert, schüchterten ein, chuckle: Glucksen, kichern, sich ins schüchtertet ein, geängstigt. Fäustchen lachen, schmunzeln, interpose: schaltt zwischen, sich grinsen, Gegrinse, feixen, lächeln. einsetzen, trete dazwischen, treten confess: beichten, beichte, beichtest, dazwischen, schaltst zwischen, tritt beichtet, gestehen, eingestehen, dazwischen, bringt, trittst gestehen ein, gesteht ein, gesteht, dazwischen, vorbringen, tretet gestehst, gestehe ein. dazwischen, schalten zwischen. desires: wünscht. mathematical: mathematisch. frightened: erschrocken, erschrakt, mistaken: falsch, irrig, wirr, verwirrt, erschrakst, erschraken, erschrak, konfus, vertan, verstört,

durcheinander, irrtümlich. nonsense: Unsinn, Quatsch, Blödsinn, Dummes zeug, Torheit, Gallimathias, Larifari, Koller, Käse, Kauderwelsch, Verdrehtheit. organ: Orgel, Organ. transformed: wandelte um, umgewandelt, wandeltet um, wandeltest um, wandelten um, gestaltetet um, gestaltetest um, umgestaltet, gestalteten um, gestaltete um.

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we%see in that nonsense the easiest means for attaining a supposed advantage. But when all that is explained and worked out on paper (which is perfectly possible, for it is contemptible and senseless to suppose that some laws of nature man will never understand), then certainly so-called desires will no longer exist. For if a desire should come into conflict with reason we shall then reason and not desire, because it will be impossible retaining our reason to be senseless in our desires, and in that way knowingly act against reason and desire to injure ourselves. And as all choice and reasoning can be really calculated— because there will some day be discovered the laws of our so-called free will—so, joking apart, there may one day be something like a table constructed of them, so that we really shall choose in accordance with it. If, for instance, some day they calculate and prove to me that I made a long nose at someone because I could not help making a long nose at him and that I had to do it in that particular way, what freedom is left me, especially if I am a learned man and have taken my degree somewhere? Then I should be able to calculate my whole life for thirty years beforehand. In short, if this could be arranged there would be nothing left for us to do; anyway, we should have to understand that. And, in fact, we ought unwearyingly to repeat to ourselves that at such and such a time and in such and such circumstances nature does not ask our leave; that we have got to take her as she is and not fashion her to suit our fancy, and if we really aspire to formulas and tables of rules, and well, even ... to the chemical retort, there's no help for it, we must accept the retort too, or else it will be accepted without our consent..." Yes, but here I come to a stop! Gentlemen, you must excuse me for being over-philosophical; it's the result of forty years underground! Allow me to indulge my fancy. You see, gentlemen, reason is an excellent thing, there's no disputing that, but reason is nothing but reason and satisfies only the rational side of man's nature, while will is a manifestation of the whole life, that is, of the whole human life including reason and all the impulses. And although our life, in this manifestation of it, is often worthless, yet it is life and not simply extracting square roots. Here I, for instance, quite naturally want to live, in order to satisfy all my capacities for life, and not simply my capacity for reasoning, that is, not simply one twentieth of my capacity for life. What does reason

German aspire: streben, strebt, strebst, strebe, erstreben, erstrebt, trachten nach, sich bestreben, erstrebst, erstrebe, sich bewerben um. attaining: erreichend, erlangend, erzielend. beforehand: im Voraus, vorher, zuvor. capacities: Kapazitäten. contemptible: verachtenswert, verächtlich. easiest: leichteste. extracting: auswahl, extrahieren.

impulses: Impulse. indulge: verwöhnen, schonen, nachsichtig sein, nachgeben, verschonen. injure: verletzen, verletze, verletzst, verletzt, beschädigen, beschädige, beschädigst, verderben, beschädigt, kränken, schaden zufügen. joking: scherzend, scherzhaft. manifestation: Kundgebung, Manifestation. reasoning: Argumentation,

Argumentierend, Beweisführung, Denken, Gedankengang. retaining: beibehaltend, zurückhaltend, behaltend, einbehaltend. satisfies: befriedigt. senseless: bewusstlos, unvernünftig, sinnlos, unsinnig, blöde, unklug, gedankenlos, dämlich, besinnungslos, töricht, dumm. underground: unterirdisch, Untergrund, Untergrundbahn.

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know? Reason %only knows what it has succeeded in learning (some things, perhaps, it will never learn; this is a poor comfort, but why not say so frankly?) and human nature acts as a whole, with everything that is in it, consciously or unconsciously, and, even if it goes wrong, it lives. I suspect, gentlemen, that you are looking at me with compassion; you tell me again that an enlightened and developed man, such, in short, as the future man will be, cannot consciously desire anything disadvantageous to himself, that that can be proved mathematically. I thoroughly agree, it can—by mathematics. But I repeat for the hundredth time, there is one case, one only, when man may consciously, purposely, desire what is injurious to himself, what is stupid, very stupid— simply in order to have the right to desire for himself even what is very stupid and not to be bound by an obligation to desire only what is sensible. Of course, this very stupid thing, this caprice of ours, may be in reality, gentlemen, more advantageous for us than anything else on earth, especially in certain cases. And in particular it may be more advantageous than any advantage even when it does us obvious harm, and contradicts the soundest conclusions of our reason concerning our advantage—for in any circumstances it preserves for us what is most precious and most important—that is, our personality, our individuality. Some, you see, maintain that this really is the most precious thing for mankind; choice can, of course, if it chooses, be in agreement with reason; and especially if this be not abused but kept within bounds. It is profitable and sometimes even praiseworthy. But very often, and even most often, choice is utterly and stubbornly opposed to reason ... and ... and ... do you know that that, too, is profitable, sometimes even praiseworthy? Gentlemen, let us suppose that man is not stupid. (Indeed one cannot refuse to suppose that, if only from the one consideration, that, if man is stupid, then who is wise?) But if he is not stupid, he is monstrously ungrateful! Phenomenally ungrateful. In fact, I believe that the best definition of man is the ungrateful biped. But that is not all, that is not his worst defect; his worst defect is his perpetual moral obliquity, perpetual—from the days of the Flood to the Schleswig-Holstein period. Moral obliquity and consequently lack of good sense; for it has long been accepted that lack of good sense is due to no other cause than moral obliquity. Put it to the test and cast

German abused: missbraucht, missbrauchte. biped: Zweifüßler. bounds: Grenze, Begrenzt. chooses: wählt, liest aus, sucht aus, erwählt. compassion: Mitleid, Mitgefühl, Erbarmen, Anteilnahme. conclusions: Schlüsse. contradicts: widerspricht. defect: Defekt, Fehler, Mangel, überlaufen, Mißstand. disadvantageous: nachteilig.

hundredth: hundertste, hundertstel. individuality: Individualität. injurious: schädlich, angreifend. monstrously: ungeheuer. obliquity: Obliquität, Schiefe, Geneigtheits, Geneigtheit, die Verirrung, die Unregelmäßigkeit, die Schrägheit, die Schiefe, Schiefheit. ours: unsere, unseres, das unsere, der unsere, unser. perpetual: ewig, fortwährend, endlos, zeitlebens, lebenslänglich,

lebenslang, grenzenlos, entlos dauernd, auf Lebenszeit. praiseworthy: lobenswert. preserves: Eingemachte, Konfekt, Konfitüre, Konserven. soundest: taktfesteste, ton. stubbornly: halsstarrig, bockig, eigensinnig, hartknäckig, hartnäckige, stur, hartnäckig. unconsciously: unbewusst. utterly: absolut, völlig, verkehrt, schief, äußerst.

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your eyes upon the history of %mankind. What will you see? Is it a grand spectacle? Grand, if you like. Take the Colossus of Rhodes, for instance, that's worth something. With good reason Mr. Anaevsky testifies of it that some say that it is the work of man's hands, while others maintain that it has been created by nature herself. Is it many-coloured? May be it is many-coloured, too: if one takes the dress uniforms, military and civilian, of all peoples in all ages—that alone is worth something, and if you take the undress uniforms you will never get to the end of it; no historian would be equal to the job. Is it monotonous? May be it's monotonous too: it's fighting and fighting; they are fighting now, they fought first and they fought last—you will admit, that it is almost too monotonous. In short, one may say anything about the history of the world— anything that might enter the most disordered imagination. The only thing one can't say is that it's rational. The very word sticks in one's throat. And, indeed, this is the odd thing that is continually happening: there are continually turning up in life moral and rational persons, sages and lovers of humanity who make it their object to live all their lives as morally and rationally as possible, to be, so to speak, a light to their neighbours simply in order to show them that it is possible to live morally and rationally in this world. And yet we all know that those very people sooner or later have been false to themselves, playing some queer trick, often a most unseemly one. Now I ask you: what can be expected of man since he is a being endowed with strange qualities? Shower upon him every earthly blessing, drown him in a sea of happiness, so that nothing but bubbles of bliss can be seen on the surface; give him economic prosperity, such that he should have nothing else to do but sleep, eat cakes and busy himself with the continuation of his species, and even then out of sheer ingratitude, sheer spite, man would play you some nasty trick. He would even risk his cakes and would deliberately desire the most fatal rubbish, the most uneconomical absurdity, simply to introduce into all this positive good sense his fatal fantastic element. It is just his fantastic dreams, his vulgar folly that he will desire to retain, simply in order to prove to himself—as though that were so necessary—that men still are men and not the keys of a piano, which the laws of nature threaten to control so completely that soon one will be able to desire nothing but by the calendar. And

German bliss: Glück, Seligkeit, Wonne, Köstlichkeit, Glückseligkeit, Herrlichkeit, Schwein, Vortrefflichkeit, Großartigkeit. bubbles: Blasen. cakes: Kuchen. civilian: Zivilist, zivil, bürgerlich. disordered: zerrüttet. drown: ertrinken, ertrinkt, ertrinke, ertrinkst, ertränken, ertränkt, ertränke, ertränkst, ersaufen, versaufen.

earthly: irdisch, weltlich, erdhaft, terrestrisch. endowed: ausgestattet, dotiertest, dotiert, dotiertet, dotierte, stattetest aus, statteten aus, dotierten, stattete aus, stattetet aus. ingratitude: Undankbarkeit, Undank. monotonous: monoton, eintönig. queer: seltsam, sonderbar, verdächtig, komisch, eigenartig, schwul. spectacle: Schauspiel, Spektakel, Bühne, Podium, Schaubühne.

testifies: bezeugt. undress: entkleiden, entkleidest, entkleide, entkleidet, ausziehen, zieht aus, ziehst aus, ziehen aus, ziehe aus, auskleiden, sich ausziehen. uneconomical: unwirtschaftlich. uniforms: Uniformen. unseemly: ungehörig, unziemlich. vulgar: vulgär, ordinär, gewöhnlich, schäbig, trivial, üblich, schofel, geschmacklos, banal, abgeschmackt, verständlich.

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that%is not all: even if man really were nothing but a piano-key, even if this were proved to him by natural science and mathematics, even then he would not become reasonable, but would purposely do something perverse out of simple ingratitude, simply to gain his point. And if he does not find means he will contrive destruction and chaos, will contrive sufferings of all sorts, only to gain his point! He will launch a curse upon the world, and as only man can curse (it is his privilege, the primary distinction between him and other animals), may be by his curse alone he will attain his object—that is, convince himself that he is a man and not a piano-key! If you say that all this, too, can be calculated and tabulated—chaos and darkness and curses, so that the mere possibility of calculating it all beforehand would stop it all, and reason would reassert itself, then man would purposely go mad in order to be rid of reason and gain his point! I believe in it, I answer for it, for the whole work of man really seems to consist in nothing but proving to himself every minute that he is a man and not a piano-key! It may be at the cost of his skin, it may be by cannibalism! And this being so, can one help being tempted to rejoice that it has not yet come off, and that desire still depends on something we don't know? You will scream at me (that is, if you condescend to do so) that no one is touching my free will, that all they are concerned with is that my will should of itself, of its own free will, coincide with my own normal interests, with the laws of nature and arithmetic. Good heavens, gentlemen, what sort of free will is left when we come to tabulation and arithmetic, when it will all be a case of twice two make four? Twice two makes four without my will. As if free will meant that!

German calculating: berechnend, kalkulierend, rechnend, errechnend, einkalkulierend, eigennützig, rechnen. cannibalism: Kannibalismus. coincide: zusammentreffen, treffen zusammen, triffst zusammen, triff zusammen, trefft zusammen, treffe zusammen, zusammenfallen, übereinstimmen, kongruieren, fallt zusammen, fällst zusammen. condescend: geruhen, geruhst, geruht,

geruhe. contrive: entwirfst, sich ausdenken, entwirf, entwickelst, entwickeln, entwickele, entwerft, entwerfen, entwerfe, einrichten, aushecken. curse: verfluchen, fluch, verwünschen, lästern, fluchen. curses: Flüche. heavens: Himmel. perverse: pervers, verkehrt. reassert: wieder behaupten, bekräftige, bekräftigen, bekräftigt,

bekräftigst. rejoice: sich freuen, frohlocken, frohlocke, frohlockst, frohlockt. rid: befreien. scream: schreien, Schrei, Geheul, Schnitzer, Ruf, plärren, Irrtum, herausschreien, Ausruf, Aufschrei, Fehler. sufferings: Leidet. tabulation: Tabellierung, Tabelle, Tabellarische Anordnung, Verzeichnis.

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IX

Gentlemen, %I am joking, and I know myself that my jokes are not brilliant,but you know one can take everything as a joke. I am, perhaps, jesting against the grain. Gentlemen, I am tormented by questions; answer them for me. You, for instance, want to cure men of their old habits and reform their will in accordance with science and good sense. But how do you know, not only that it is possible, but also that it is desirable to reform man in that way? And what leads you to the conclusion that man's inclinations need reforming? In short, how do you know that such a reformation will be a benefit to man? And to go to the root of the matter, why are you so positively convinced that not to act against his real normal interests guaranteed by the conclusions of reason and arithmetic is certainly always advantageous for man and must always be a law for mankind? So far, you know, this is only your supposition. It may be the law of logic, but not the law of humanity. You think, gentlemen, perhaps that I am mad? Allow me to defend myself. I agree that man is pre-eminently a creative animal, predestined to strive consciously for an object and to engage in engineering— that is, incessantly and eternally to make new roads, wherever they may lead. But the reason why he wants sometimes to go off at a tangent may just be that he is predestined to make the road, and perhaps, too, that however stupid the "direct" practical man may be, the thought sometimes will occur to him that the road almost always does lead somewhere, and that the destination it leads to is less

German cure: Heilung, heilen, kurieren, genesen, Heilmittel, Kur, behandeln, wiederherstellen, gesunden. destination: Ziel, Bestimmungsort, Reiseziel, Bestimmung, Reisebestimmung. engage: einlegen, engagieren, lege ein, legt ein, legst ein, legen ein, engagiert, engagierst, engagiere, belegen, einstellen. eternally: ewig, ewiglich. guaranteed: garantiert.

habits: Gewohnheiten. humanity: Menschlichkeit, Menschheit, Humanität, Menschenfreundlichkeit. incessantly: unaufhörlich, ständig. inclinations: Neigungen. jesting: scherzend, spassend. jokes: Scherze, Scherzt, Spässe. predestined: prädestiniert, prädestiniertet, prädestiniertest, prädestinierten, prädestinierte, vorherbestimmt, bestimmtest vorher,

bestimmten vorher, bestimmte vorher, bestimmtet vorher. reformation: Reformation, Kirchenreform, Reformierung, Reform. reforming: reformieren, reformierend. strive: sich bemühen, erstreben. supposition: Annahme, Voraussetzung, Vermutung, Mutmaßung. tangent: Tangente, Tangens, Berührungsgerade, Berührungslinie.

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important than the process of making it, and that the chief thing is to save the well-conducted child from despising engineering, and so giving way to the fatal idleness, which, as we all know, is the mother of all the vices. Man likes to make roads and to create, that is a fact beyond dispute. But why has he such a passionate love for destruction and chaos also? Tell me that! But on that point I want to say a couple of words myself. May it not be that he loves chaos and destruction (there can be no disputing that he does sometimes love it) because he is instinctively afraid of attaining his object and completing the edifice he is constructing? Who knows, perhaps he only loves that edifice from a distance, and is by no means in love with it at close quarters; perhaps he only loves building it and does not want to live in it, but will leave it, when completed, for the use of les animaux domestiques—such as the ants, the sheep, and so on. Now the ants have quite a different taste. They have a marvellous edifice of that pattern which endures for ever—the ant-heap.% With the ant-heap the respectable race of ants began and with the ant- heap they will probably end, which does the greatest credit to their perseverance and good sense. But man is a frivolous and incongruous creature, and perhaps, like a chess player, loves the process of the game, not the end of it. And who knows (there is no saying with certainty), perhaps the only goal on earth to which mankind is striving lies in this incessant process of attaining, in other words, in life itself, and not in the thing to be attained, which must always be expressed as a formula, as positive as twice two makes four, and such positiveness is not life, gentlemen, but is the beginning of death. Anyway, man has always been afraid of this mathematical certainty, and I am afraid of it now. Granted that man does nothing but seek that mathematical certainty, he traverses oceans, sacrifices his life in the quest, but to succeed, really to find it, dreads, I assure you. He feels that when he has found it there will be nothing for him to look for. When workmen have finished their work they do at least receive their pay, they go to the tavern, then they are taken to the police-station—and there is occupation for a week. But where can man go? Anyway, one can observe a certain awkwardness about him when he has attained such objects. He loves the process of attaining, but does not quite like to have attained, and that, of course,

German ant: Ameise. attained: erreichtest, erreicht, erreichten, erreichtet, erreichte, erlangtet, erlangt, erlangte, erlangten, erlangtest, erzieltet. awkwardness: Ungeschicklichkeit, Ungeschicktheit, Unbeholfenheit. chess: Schach, Schachspiel. constructing: konstruierend, bauend, aufbauend. dreads: fürchtet. edifice: Gebäude.

endures: erträgt, hält aus, erduldet, erleidet, steht aus. frivolous: frivol, leichtfertig, leichtsinnig, unseriös, waaghalsig, unbesonnen, eitel, hinfällig. idleness: Untätigkeit, Trägheit, Faulheit, Nutzlosigkeit, Müßiggang. incessant: ununterbrochen, unaufhörlich, unablässig, ständig. incongruous: unpassend, unvereinbar. oceans: Ozeane, Ozean. perseverance: Beharrlichkeit,

Ausdauer, Beharren, Beharrung, Standhaftigkeit, Zähigkeit, Aushalten. positiveness: Bestimmtheit. sacrifices: opfert. tavern: Kneipe, Schenke, Gasthaus, Wirtshaus, Wirtschaft, Taverne, Krug, Schankwirtschaft, Ausschank, Café, Lokalität. traverses: durchquert. vices: Untugenden. workmen: Arbeiter.

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is very absurd. In fact, man is a comical creature; there seems to be a kind of jest in it all. But yet mathematical certainty is after all, something insufferable. Twice two makes four seems to me simply a piece of insolence. Twice two makes four is a pert coxcomb who stands with arms akimbo barring your path and spitting. I admit that twice two makes four is an excellent thing, but if we are to give everything its due, twice two makes five is sometimes a very charming thing too.% And why are you so firmly, so triumphantly, convinced that only the normal and the positive—in other words, only what is conducive to welfare—is for the advantage of man? Is not reason in error as regards advantage? Does not man, perhaps, love something besides well-being? Perhaps he is just as fond of suffering? Perhaps suffering is just as great a benefit to him as well-being? Man is sometimes extraordinarily, passionately, in love with suffering, and that is a fact. There is no need to appeal to universal history to prove that; only ask yourself, if you are a man and have lived at all. As far as my personal opinion is concerned, to care only for well-being seems to me positively ill-bred. Whether it's good or bad, it is sometimes very pleasant, too, to smash things. I hold no brief for suffering nor for well-being either. I am standing for ... my caprice, and for its being guaranteed to me when necessary. Suffering would be out of place in vaudevilles, for instance; I know that. In the "Palace of Crystal" it is unthinkable; suffering means doubt, negation, and what would be the good of a "palace of crystal" if there could be any doubt about it? And yet I think man will never renounce real suffering, that is, destruction and chaos. Why, suffering is the sole origin of consciousness. Though I did lay it down at the beginning that consciousness is the greatest misfortune for man, yet I know man prizes it and would not give it up for any satisfaction. Consciousness, for instance, is infinitely superior to twice two makes four. Once you have mathematical certainty there is nothing left to do or to understand. There will be nothing left but to bottle up your five senses and plunge into contemplation. While if you stick to consciousness, even though the same result is attained, you can at least flog yourself at times, and that will, at any rate, liven you up. Reactionary as it is, corporal punishment is better than nothing.

German barring: sperrend, Ausgenommen. comical: komisch, drollig, spaßhaft, ulkig. conducive: dienlich, förderlich, zuträglich. contemplation: Betrachtung, erneutes Erwägen. coxcomb: Kauz, Narr, Verrückte. flog: peitschen, peitschst, stäupen, peitsche, peitscht. insolence: Frechheit, Unverschämtheit.

insufferable: unerträglich, unausstehlich. liven: lebst auf, lebt auf, leben auf, gelebt, belebt, belebst, aufleben, belebe, beleben, lebe auf. misfortune: Mißgeschick, Unglück, Pech. negation: Negation, Verneinung. passionately: leidenschaftlich. pert: keck, kess, vorlaut. renounce: verzichten, verzichtet, verzichtest, verzichte, entsagen,

verstossen, verstoßt, verstößt, entsagt, entsagst, entsage. smash: zerschmettern, zerschlagen, zerbrechen, Krach, brechen, entzwei gehen, in Stücke brechen, zermalmen, zertrümmern. spitting: Spucken. triumphantly: triumphierend, siegreich, triumphal. unthinkable: undenkbar, unvorstellbar. vaudevilles: Varietes.

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X

You%believe in a palace of crystal that can never be destroyed—a palace at which one will not be able to put out one's tongue or make a long nose on the sly. And perhaps that is just why I am afraid of this edifice, that it is of crystal and can never be destroyed and that one cannot put one's tongue out at it even on the sly. You see, if it were not a palace, but a hen-house, I might creep into it to avoid getting wet, and yet I would not call the hen-house a palace out of gratitude to it for keeping me dry. You laugh and say that in such circumstances a hen-house is as good as a mansion. Yes, I answer, if one had to live simply to keep out of the rain. But what is to be done if I have taken it into my head that that is not the only object in life, and that if one must live one had better live in a mansion? That is my choice, my desire. You will only eradicate it when you have changed my preference. Well, do change it, allure me with something else, give me another ideal. But meanwhile I will not take a hen-house for a mansion. The palace of crystal may be an idle dream, it may be that it is inconsistent with the laws of nature and that I have invented it only through my own stupidity, through the old-fashioned irrational habits of my generation. But what does it matter to me that it is inconsistent? That makes no difference since it exists in my desires, or

German allure: Erscheinungsform, Statur, Erkenntlichkeit, Danken, Würdigung, Allüren, Ansicht, Aussehen, Achtung, Anerkenntnis, Verlocken, Erscheinung. Anerkennung, Bewertung, creep: Kriechen, kriecht, krieche, Erkennung, Erkenntnis. kriechst, schleichen, schleiche, idle: faul, untätig, nutzlos, Leerlauf, schleicht, schleichst. nicht belegt, müßig, leerlaufen, crystal: Kristall, Aus Kristall. freilaufen, träge, unbeschäftigt, eradicate: ausrotten, rotte aus, rottet arbeitsscheu. aus, rottest aus, rotten aus, ausreißen, inconsistent: unvereinbar, entwurzeln. inkonsequent, widersprechend, exists: existiert, besteht. inkonsistent, unbeständig, gratitude: Dankbarkeit, Dank, widersprüchlich, folgewidrig.

irrational: unvernünftig, irrational, unüberlegt, unreflektiert, unbegründet. mansion: Villa, Herrenhaus. preference: Vorzug, Vorliebe, Präferenz, Bevorzugung, Wahl, Neigung. sly: schlau, listig, durchtrieben, gewiegt, abgefeimt, verschlagen, gerieben, gerissen, spitzfindig, arglistig, ausgekocht. tongue: Zunge, Sprache, die Zunge.

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rather exists as long as my desires exist. Perhaps you are laughing again? Laugh away; I will put up with any mockery rather than pretend that I am satisfied when I am hungry. I know, anyway, that I will not be put off with a compromise, with a recurring zero, simply because it is consistent with the laws of nature and actually exists. I will not accept as the crown of my desires a block of buildings with tenements for the poor on a lease of a thousand years, and perhaps with a sign-board of a dentist hanging out. Destroy my desires, eradicate my ideals, show me something better, and I will follow you. You will say, perhaps, that it is not worth your trouble; but in that case I can give you the same answer. We are discussing things seriously; but if you won't deign to give me your attention, I will drop your acquaintance. I can retreat into my underground hole.% But while I am alive and have desires I would rather my hand were withered off than bring one brick to such a building! Don't remind me that I have just rejected the palace of crystal for the sole reason that one cannot put out one's tongue at it. I did not say because I am so fond of putting my tongue out. Perhaps the thing I resented was, that of all your edifices there has not been one at which one could not put out one's tongue. On the contrary, I would let my tongue be cut off out of gratitude if things could be so arranged that I should lose all desire to put it out. It is not my fault that things cannot be so arranged, and that one must be satisfied with model flats. Then why am I made with such desires? Can I have been constructed simply in order to come to the conclusion that all my construction is a cheat? Can this be my whole purpose? I do not believe it. But do you know what: I am convinced that we underground folk ought to be kept on a curb. Though we may sit forty years underground without speaking, when we do come out into the light of day and break out we talk and talk and talk...

German acquaintance: Bekanntschaft, Bekannter, Bekannte, Kenntnisse, Bekanntmachung, Kenntnis, Begriff. cheat: betrügen, hintergehen, beschwindeln, Gauner, bescheißen, beschummeln, prellen, täuschen, mogeln, neppen, Schuft. curb: zügeln, Bordstein, beherrschen, bändigen, unterdrücken, Bordkante, dämpfen, in Zucht halten. deign: geruhen, geruhe, geruht, geruhst.

dentist: Zahnarzt. discussing: diskutierend, besprechend, erörternd, beredend, Besprechen, Sprechen über. edifices: Gebäude. fond: zärtlich, verliebt, liebevoll. hanging: Hängen, Hängend. ideals: Ideale. pretend: vorgeben, geben vor, gibst vor, gebe vor, gebt vor, gib vor, vortäuschen, täuschen vor, täuscht vor, täuschst vor, täusche vor.

recurring: wiederkehrend. remind: erinnern, erinnerst, erinnert, erinnre, erinnere, mahnen. resented: übelgenommen. retreat: Rückzug, Abzug, Exerzitien, Exerzitienhaus, Exerzitienhäuser, Freizeit. tenements: Wohnungen. withered: verwelktet, verwelktest, verwelkt, verwelkte, verwelkten, welkten, welktest, welkte, welktet, gewelkt, verdorrtet.

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XI

The%long and the short of it is, gentlemen, that it is better to do nothing! Better conscious inertia! And so hurrah for underground! Though I have said that I envy the normal man to the last drop of my bile, yet I should not care to be in his place such as he is now (though I shall not cease envying him). No, no; anyway the underground life is more advantageous. There, at any rate, one can ... Oh, but even now I am lying! I am lying because I know myself that it is not underground that is better, but something different, quite different, for which I am thirsting, but which I cannot find! Damn underground! I will tell you another thing that would be better, and that is, if I myself believed in anything of what I have just written. I swear to you, gentlemen, there is not one thing, not one word of what I have written that I really believe. That is, I believe it, perhaps, but at the same time I feel and suspect that I am lying like a cobbler. "Then why have you written all this?" you will say to me. "I ought to put you underground for forty years without anything to do and then come to you in your cellar, to find out what stage you have reached! How can a man be left with nothing to do for forty years?" "Isn't that shameful, isn't that humiliating?" you will say, perhaps, wagging your heads contemptuously. "You thirst for life and try to settle the problems of

German believed: glaubten, glaubtest, geglaubt, glaubte, glaubtet. bile: Galle. cellar: Keller, Gewölbe. cobbler: Schuster, Schuhmacher, Flickschuster. conscious: bewusst, sehr bewußt, bei Bewusstsein, wissentlich. contemptuously: verächtlich, verachtungsvoll. drop: Tropfen, Fallen, fallen lassen, Abfall, Schnaps, sickern, sausen,

senken, sinken, aus Zink, zinken. envying: beneidend, mißgönnend. forty: vierzig. heads: Köpfe. hurrah: hurra. lying: Liegend, Verlogen, Lügnerisch, fraudulös, betrügerisch, trügerisch, unzuverlässig, lügenhaft. ought: sollte, sollen. reached: erreicht. settle: beilegen, besiedeln, legen bei, ebnen, besiedelst, besiedelt, besiedle,

tilgen, egalisieren, sinken, sich niederlassen. short: kurz, klein, kurze, barsch, knapp, Kurzschluß. suspect: verdächtigen, argwöhnen, vermuten, Verdächtige, fehlerverdächtig, ahnen, bezweifeln. thirst: Durst, Dürsten. thirsting: dürstend. wagging: wackelnd. written: geschrieben, schriftlich, verfaßt, abgefaßt.

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life%by a logical tangle. And how persistent, how insolent are your sallies, and at the same time what a scare you are in! You talk nonsense and are pleased with it; you say impudent things and are in continual alarm and apologising for them. You declare that you are afraid of nothing and at the same time try to ingratiate yourself in our good opinion. You declare that you are gnashing your teeth and at the same time you try to be witty so as to amuse us. You know that your witticisms are not witty, but you are evidently well satisfied with their literary value. You may, perhaps, have really suffered, but you have no respect for your own suffering. You may have sincerity, but you have no modesty; out of the pettiest vanity you expose your sincerity to publicity and ignominy. You doubtlessly mean to say something, but hide your last word through fear, because you have not the resolution to utter it, and only have a cowardly impudence. You boast of consciousness, but you are not sure of your ground, for though your mind works, yet your heart is darkened and corrupt, and you cannot have a full, genuine consciousness without a pure heart. And how intrusive you are, how you insist and grimace! Lies, lies, lies!" Of course I have myself made up all the things you say. That, too, is from underground. I have been for forty years listening to you through a crack under the floor. I have invented them myself, there was nothing else I could invent. It is no wonder that I have learned it by heart and it has taken a literary form... But can you really be so credulous as to think that I will print all this and give it to you to read too? And another problem: why do I call you "gentlemen," why do I address you as though you really were my readers? Such confessions as I intend to make are never printed nor given to other people to read. Anyway, I am not strong-minded enough for that, and I don't see why I should be. But you see a fancy has occurred to me and I want to realise it at all costs. Let me explain. Every man has reminiscences which he would not tell to everyone, but only to his friends. He has other matters in his mind which he would not reveal even to his friends, but only to himself, and that in secret. But there are other things which a man is afraid to tell even to himself, and every decent man has a number

German apologising: Entschuldigung. Unverschämtheit, Unverschämt sein, confessions: Bekenntnisse. Indiskretion, Impertinenz. cowardly: feig, feige. impudent: unverschämt, frech, dreist. credulous: leichtgläubig, gutgläubig, ingratiate: schmeichele ein, vertrauensselig. schmeichelt ein, schmeichle ein, doubtlessly: höchstwahrscheinlich, schmeicheln ein, einschmeichelnd, zweifellos, zweifellose. einschmeicheln, beliebt machen, gnashing: knirschend. schmeichelst ein. grimace: Fratze, Grimasse, Grimassen insolent: unverschämt, frech, machen, Grinsen, Feixen. ungeschlacht, tölpelhaft, überheblich, ignominy: Schandtat, Skandalöse Tat. unbescheiden, ungehobelt, täppisch, impudence: Frechheit, ungeschickt, klobig, ungeschliffen.

intrusive: zudringlich, aufdringlich. modesty: Bescheidenheit, Anspruchslosheit, Diskretion, Genügsamkeit, Zurückgezogenheit. pettiest: kleinlichste. reminiscences: Erinnerungen. sallies: bricht auf. tangle: verwirren, Gewirr, Chaos. utter: äußerst, äußern, ausschließen, leibhaftig, aussondern. vanity: Eitelkeit, Prunk, Einbildung, Geckenhaftigkeit, Geckerei, Prahlerei.

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of%such things stored away in his mind. The more decent he is, the greater the number of such things in his mind. Anyway, I have only lately determined to remember some of my early adventures. Till now I have always avoided them, even with a certain uneasiness. Now, when I am not only recalling them, but have actually decided to write an account of them, I want to try the experiment whether one can, even with oneself, be perfectly open and not take fright at the whole truth. I will observe, in parenthesis, that Heine says that a true autobiography is almost an impossibility, and that man is bound to lie about himself. He considers that Rousseau certainly told lies about himself in his confessions, and even intentionally lied, out of vanity. I am convinced that Heine is right; I quite understand how sometimes one may, out of sheer vanity, attribute regular crimes to oneself, and indeed I can very well conceive that kind of vanity. But Heine judged of people who made their confessions to the public. I write only for myself, and I wish to declare once and for all that if I write as though I were addressing readers, that is simply because it is easier for me to write in that form. It is a form, an empty form—I shall never have readers. I have made this plain already ... I don't wish to be hampered by any restrictions in the compilation of my notes. I shall not attempt any system or method. I will jot things down as I remember them. But here, perhaps, someone will catch at the word and ask me: if you really don't reckon on readers, why do you make such compacts with yourself—and on paper too—that is, that you won't attempt any system or method, that you jot things down as you remember them, and so on, and so on? Why are you explaining? Why do you apologise? Well, there it is, I answer. There is a whole psychology in all this, though. Perhaps it is simply that I am a coward. And perhaps that I purposely imagine an audience before me in order that I may be more dignified while I write. There are perhaps thousands of reasons. Again, what is my object precisely in writing? If it is not for the benefit

German addressing: Adressierung, adressierend, Ansprechen, Ansprache halten. attribute: Attribut, Merkmal, Eigenschaft. autobiography: Autobiographie, Selbstbiographie. compacts: Presst zusammen. compilation: Kompilation, Zusammenstellung, Kompilierung, Einsammlung, Zusammenbringen, Sammlung, Haufen, Ansammlung,

Häufung. coward: Feigling, Angsthase. declare: deklarieren, deklariert, deklarierst, deklariere, anmelden, angeben, melden, erweisen, erklären, bezeugen, bezeigen. dignified: würdevoll, ehrwürdig, würdig, geehrt, gediegen, ehrtest, ehrten, ehrte, ehrtet. fright: Schreck, Entsetzen, Schrecken, Bestürztheit, Angst, Bestürzung, Furcht, Abscheu.

hampered: hinderte, behindert. impossibility: Unmöglichkeit. jot: Jota, Pünktchen, Körnchen, Fünkchen, das Pünktchen, notieren. judged: geurteilt. lately: kürzlich, letztlich, neuerdings, neulich. lied: Gelogen, Gelegt. parenthesis: Klammer, Parenthese, Krampe. recalling: abberufend. uneasiness: Unruhe, Unbehagen.

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of the public why should I not simply recall these incidents in my own mind without putting them on paper? Quite so; but yet it is more imposing on paper. There is something more impressive in it; I shall be better able to criticise myself and improve my style. Besides, I shall perhaps obtain actual relief from writing. Today, for instance, I am particularly oppressed by one memory of a distant past. It came back vividly to my mind a few days ago, and has remained haunting me like an annoying tune that one cannot get rid of. And yet I must get rid of it somehow. I have hundreds of such reminiscences; but at times some one stands out from the hundred and oppresses me. For some reason I believe that if I write it down I should get rid of it. Why not try? Besides, I am bored, and I never have anything to do. Writing will be a sort of work. They say work makes man kind-hearted and honest. Well, here is a chance for me, anyway.% Snow is falling today, yellow and dingy. It fell yesterday, too, and a few days ago. I fancy it is the wet snow that has reminded me of that incident which I cannot shake off now. And so let it be a story A propos of the falling snow.

German bored: langweilte, gelangweilt, angebohrt. criticise: kritisieren. dingy: schäbig, schmutzig. fancy: Phantasie, sich einbilden, Laune, wähnen, lecker finden, träumen, erdichten, sich vorstellen, mögen, gerne essen, gerne trinken. haunting: verfolgend. imposing: imposant, auferlegend, imponierend, aufdrängend. incidents: Vorfälle, Zwischenfälle,

Ereignisse. kind-hearted: mild, wohltuend, sanft, sanftmütig, wohlwollend, gutherzig, gutartig, großzügig, freigebig, weitherzig, gutmütig. oppressed: beklemmte, beklemmtet, unterdrücktet, unterdrücktest, unterdrückten, unterdrückte, unterdrückt, beklemmt, bedrückte, bedrückten, beklemmten. oppresses: unterdrückt, bedrückt, beklemmt, preßt.

reminded: erinnert, erinnerte, erinnerten, erinnertest, erinnertet. shake: schütteln, schüttelt, schüttle, schüttelst, schüttele, erschüttern, erschüttre, erschütterst, erschüttert, erschüttere, rütteln. snow: Schnee, Schneien, der Schnee. stands: Gestelle, Standplätze. tune: Melodie, Lied, stimmen, abstimmen, Weise, anpassen, Liedchen, adaptieren. vividly: lebhaft.

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PART II: A PROPOS OF THE WET SNOW

When%from dark error's subjugation My words of passionate exhortation Had wrenched thy fainting spirit free; And writhing prone in thine affliction Thou didst recall with malediction The vice that had encompassed thee: And when thy slumbering conscience, fretting By recollection's torturing flame, Thou didst reveal the hideous setting Of thy life's current ere I came: When suddenly I saw thee sicken, And weeping, hide thine anguished face, Revolted, maddened, horror-stricken, At memories of foul disgrace. NEKRASSOV

German affliction: Leid, Kummer, Bedrängnis. anguished: von Schmerz geplagt, gequält. disgrace: Schande, Blamage, blamieren, Ungunst, Ungnade, Skandal, Pleite, Mißstand, jemandem blamieren. encompassed: umgab, umfaßt, umgaben, umgabt, umfaßte, umfaßten, umfaßtest, umfaßtet, umgabst, umgeben. ere: bevor, ehe.

exhortation: Ermahnung, Zuspruch. fainting: ermattend. fretting: anfressend. hideous: scheußlich, abscheulich, gräßlich, häßlich, widerlich, grundhäßlich, garstig, abscheuerregend. maddened: machte verrückt, ärgerte, ärgerten, ärgertest, ärgertet, geärgert. malediction: Verwünschung, Fluch, Verfluchung, Bannfluch. prone: anfällig.

sicken: erkranken, erkrankt, erkrankst, erkranke, anwidern. slumbering: schlummernd. subjugation: Unterwerfung, Unterjochung, Knechtung. thee: dich, ihr, sie, du, dir, euch. thine: dein. thy: Dein. torturing: folternd, Foltern. weeping: weinend, Weinen, tränend. wrenched: gerissen. writhing: krümmend, zappelnd.

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I

At %that time I was only twenty-four. My life was even then gloomy, illregulated, and as solitary as that of a savage. I made friends with no one and positively avoided talking, and buried myself more and more in my hole. At work in the office I never looked at anyone, and was perfectly well aware that my companions looked upon me, not only as a queer fellow, but even looked upon me—I always fancied this—with a sort of loathing. I sometimes wondered why it was that nobody except me fancied that he was looked upon with aversion? One of the clerks had a most repulsive, pock-marked face, which looked positively villainous. I believe I should not have dared to look at anyone with such an unsightly countenance. Another had such a very dirty old uniform that there was an unpleasant odour in his proximity. Yet not one of these gentlemen showed the slightest self-consciousness—either about their clothes or their countenance or their character in any way. Neither of them ever imagined that they were looked at with repulsion; if they had imagined it they would not have minded—so long as their superiors did not look at them in that way. It is clear to me now that, owing to my unbounded vanity and to the high standard I set for myself, I often looked at myself with furious discontent, which verged on loathing, and so I inwardly attributed the same feeling to everyone. I hated my face, for instance: I thought it disgusting, and even suspected that there was something base in my expression, and so every day when I turned up at the

German attributed: zugeschrieben. aversion: Abneigung, Antipathie, Widerwille, Widerwillen. clerks: Schreiber, Schriftführer, Sekretäre. companions: Gefährten. dared: wagtet, wagten, wagte, gewagt, wagtest. discontent: Unzufriedenheit, Unzufrieden. fancied: wähnte. gloomy: düster, finster, dunkel,

schwermütig, launisch, verdrießlich, übellaunig, trübsinnig, trübselig, schlechtgelaunt, bedrückt. odour: Geruch, Gestank, Hauch. proximity: Nähe. repulsion: Abstoßung. repulsive: abstoßend, abscheulich, widerwärtig, widerlich, grausig, häßlich, schauervoll, schaurig, schrecklich, unappetitlich, graus. savage: wild, grausam, Wilde. solitary: Einsam, allein, abgelegen,

alleinig, bloß, solitär, nur, einzig, einzeln lebend. superiors: Überlegene, Vorgesetzte. unbounded: unbegrenzt. unsightly: unansehnlich, hässlich, verlottert, verludert, hinfällig, armselig, abscheulich. verged: grenzte. villainous: unedel, schmutzig, schwächlich, schofel, schuftig, schurkisch, schwach, schweinisch, seicht, tief, schmählich.

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office I tried to behave as independently as possible, and to assume a lofty expression, so that I might not be suspected of being abject. "My face may be ugly," I thought, "but let it be lofty, expressive, and, above all, extremely intelligent." But I was positively and painfully certain that it was impossible for my countenance ever to express those qualities. And what was worst of all, I thought it actually stupid looking, and I would have been quite satisfied if I could have looked intelligent. In fact, I would even have put up with looking base if, at the same time, my face could have been thought strikingly intelligent.% Of course, I hated my fellow clerks one and all, and I despised them all, yet at the same time I was, as it were, afraid of them. In fact, it happened at times that I thought more highly of them than of myself. It somehow happened quite suddenly that I alternated between despising them and thinking them superior to myself. A cultivated and decent man cannot be vain without setting a fearfully high standard for himself, and without despising and almost hating himself at certain moments. But whether I despised them or thought them superior I dropped my eyes almost every time I met anyone. I even made experiments whether I could face so and so's looking at me, and I was always the first to drop my eyes. This worried me to distraction. I had a sickly dread, too, of being ridiculous, and so had a slavish passion for the conventional in everything external. I loved to fall into the common rut, and had a wholehearted terror of any kind of eccentricity in myself. But how could I live up to it? I was morbidly sensitive as a man of our age should be. They were all stupid, and as like one another as so many sheep. Perhaps I was the only one in the office who fancied that I was a coward and a slave, and I fancied it just because I was more highly developed. But it was not only that I fancied it, it really was so. I was a coward and a slave. I say this without the slightest embarrassment. Every decent man of our age must be a coward and a slave. That is his normal condition. Of that I am firmly persuaded. He is made and constructed to that very end. And not only at the present time owing to some casual circumstances, but always, at all times, a decent man is bound to be a coward and a slave. It is the law of nature for all decent people all over the earth. If anyone of them

German abject: elend, erbärmlich, gemein, infam, jämmerlich, verächtlich. alternated: abgewechselt. despised: verachtetet, verachtetest, verachteten, verachtete, verachtet, schätztet gering, verschmähtet, verschmähtest, geringgeschätzt, schätzte gering, verschmähten. distraction: Ablenkung, Erholung, Zerstreutheit. dread: Furcht, fürchten, Scheu, angst, Ängstlichkeit, Bangigkeit,

zurückschrecken, scheuen. eccentricity: Exzentrizität, Exentrizität, Überspanntheit. expressive: ausdrucksvoll, expressiv, sprechend. fearfully: ängstlich, furchtsam, furchtbar. hating: hassend. lofty: erhaben, hoch, hochfliegend, hochmütig, hochgestellt, pathetisch. morbidly: krankhaft, morbid. painfully: schmerzlich, schmerzhaft.

rut: Wagenspur. sickly: kränklich, krank, blass, übel, ungesund, widerlich, schlecht, eklig, ekelhaft. slave: Sklave, Sklavin, Knecht, Dienstsklave, Leibeigene. slavish: sklavisch. strikingly: auffallend. suspected: vermutet. vain: eitel, vergeblich, eingebildet, vergebens, hinfällig, nutzlos, leer. whole-hearted: zutiefst.

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happens to be valiant about something, he need not be comforted nor carried away by that; he would show the white feather just the same before something else. That is how it invariably and inevitably ends. Only donkeys and mules are valiant, and they only till they are pushed up to the wall. It is not worth while to pay attention to them for they really are of no consequence.% Another circumstance, too, worried me in those days: that there was no one like me and I was unlike anyone else. "I am alone and they are everyone," I thought—and pondered. From that it is evident that I was still a youngster. The very opposite sometimes happened. It was loathsome sometimes to go to the office; things reached such a point that I often came home ill. But all at once, a propos of nothing, there would come a phase of scepticism and indifference (everything happened in phases to me), and I would laugh myself at my intolerance and fastidiousness, I would reproach myself with being romantic. At one time I was unwilling to speak to anyone, while at other times I would not only talk, but go to the length of contemplating making friends with them. All my fastidiousness would suddenly, for no rhyme or reason, vanish. Who knows, perhaps I never had really had it, and it had simply been affected, and got out of books. I have not decided that question even now. Once I quite made friends with them, visited their homes, played preference, drank vodka, talked of promotions... But here let me make a digression. We Russians, speaking generally, have never had those foolish transcendental "romantics"—German, and still more French—on whom nothing produces any effect; if there were an earthquake, if all France perished at the barricades, they would still be the same, they would not even have the decency to affect a change, but would still go on singing their transcendental songs to the hour of their death, because they are fools. We, in Russia, have no fools; that is well known. That is what distinguishes us from foreign lands. Consequently these transcendental natures are not found amongst us in their pure form. The idea that they are is due to our "realistic" journalists and critics of that day, always on the look out for Kostanzhoglos and Uncle Pyotr Ivanitchs and

German barricades: Barrikaden, Verbarrikadiert. circumstance: Umstand, Bewandtnis. comforted: getrost, tröstete. contemplating: betrachtend. decency: Anstand, Schicklichkeit, Höflichkeit, Sittsamkeit, Korrektheit, Tugendhaftigkeit, Rechtschaffenheit, Freundlichkeit. digression: Abschweifung, Exposition, Ausweitung. distinguishes: unterscheidet, zeichnet

aus, hält auseinander. donkeys: Esel. earthquake: Erdbeben, Beben. fastidiousness: Verwöhntheit. feather: Feder. intolerance: Intoleranz. mules: Maultiere. natures: Naturen. perished: kamt um, kamst um, kamen um, kam um, umgekommen, gingt unter, gingst unter, ging unter, untergegangen, gingen unter.

pondered: erwogen. reproach: Vorwurf, Tadel, vorwerfen, zurechtweisen, Vorwürfe machen, Verübeln, tadeln, schelten, rügen, nachtragen, vorhalten. rhyme: reim, reimen, Reimerei. transcendental: transzendent, metaphysisch, übersinnlich. valiant: tapfer, mutig, beherzt, dreist, getrost, mannhaft. vodka: Wodka. youngster: Junge, Jüngling.

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foolishly%accepting them as our ideal; they have slandered our romantics, taking them for the same transcendental sort as in Germany or France. On the contrary, the characteristics of our "romantics" are absolutely and directly opposed to the transcendental European type, and no European standard can be applied to them. (Allow me to make use of this word "romantic"—an oldfashioned and much respected word which has done good service and is familiar to all.) The characteristics of our romantic are to understand everything, to see everything and to see it often incomparably more clearly than our most realistic minds see it; to refuse to accept anyone or anything, but at the same time not to despise anything; to give way, to yield, from policy; never to lose sight of a useful practical object (such as rent-free quarters at the government expense, pensions, decorations), to keep their eye on that object through all the enthusiasms and volumes of lyrical poems, and at the same time to preserve "the sublime and the beautiful" inviolate within them to the hour of their death, and to preserve themselves also, incidentally, like some precious jewel wrapped in cotton wool if only for the benefit of "the sublime and the beautiful." Our "romantic" is a man of great breadth and the greatest rogue of all our rogues, I assure you... I can assure you from experience, indeed. Of course, that is, if he is intelligent. But what am I saying! The romantic is always intelligent, and I only meant to observe that although we have had foolish romantics they don't count, and they were only so because in the flower of their youth they degenerated into Germans, and to preserve their precious jewel more comfortably, settled somewhere out there—by preference in Weimar or the Black Forest. I, for instance, genuinely despised my official work and did not openly abuse it simply because I was in it myself and got a salary for it. Anyway, take note, I did not openly abuse it. Our romantic would rather go out of his mind—a thing, however, which very rarely happens—than take to open abuse, unless he had some other career in view; and he is never kicked out. At most, they would take him to the lunatic asylum as "the King of Spain" if he should go very mad. But it is only the thin, fair people who go out of their minds in Russia. Innumerable "romantics" attain later in life to considerable rank in the service. Their manysidedness is remarkable! And what a faculty they have for the most

German asylum: Asyl, Zufluchtsstätte, Zufluchtsort, Tierheim, Freistatt. breadth: Breite, Großzügigkeit. comfortably: komfortabel, bequem. degenerated: entartet, entartetet, entartetest, entarteten, entartete, arteten aus, ausgeartet, artetest aus, artete aus, artetet aus, degenerierte. despise: verachten, verachtet, verachtest, verachte, geringschätzen, verschmähen, schätzst gering, schätze gering, schätzen gering,

schätzt gering, verschmäht. enthusiasms: Begeisterungen. foolish: dumm, albern, töricht, unklug, närrisch, idiotisch, verrückt, einfältig, blödsinnig, blöde. incidentally: übrigens, zufällig. incomparably: unvergleichlich. inviolate: unangetastet, unberührt, unbeschadet. jewel: Juwel, Edelstein, Kleinod, Kostbarkeit, Gemme. lunatic: Irre, Wahnsinnige, irrsinnig,

wahnsinnig, verrückt. lyrical: lyrisch, gefühlvoll, schwärmerisch. rogue: Schurke, Gauner, Spitzbube, Schelm, Schalk, Kanaille, Lausbube, Racker, Scherzbold, Schlauberger, Schlingel. rogues: Schurken, Schalke. romantics: Romantisch. slandered: Beauftragte. wrapped: hüllte ein, eingewickelt, übernommen.

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contradictory sensations! I was comforted by this thought even in those days, and I am of the same opinion now. That is why there are so many "broad natures" among us who never lose their ideal even in the depths of degradation; and though they never stir a finger for their ideal, though they are arrant thieves and knaves, yet they tearfully cherish their first ideal and are extraordinarily honest at heart. Yes, it is only among us that the most incorrigible rogue can be absolutely and loftily honest at heart without in the least ceasing to be a rogue. I repeat, our romantics, frequently, become such accomplished rascals (I use the term "rascals" affectionately), suddenly display such a sense of reality and practical knowledge that their bewildered superiors and the public generally can only ejaculate in amazement.% Their many-sidedness is really amazing, and goodness knows what it may develop into later on, and what the future has in store for us. It is not a poor material! I do not say this from any foolish or boastful patriotism. But I feel sure that you are again imagining that I am joking. Or perhaps it's just the contrary and you are convinced that I really think so. Anyway, gentlemen, I shall welcome both views as an honour and a special favour. And do forgive my digression. I did not, of course, maintain friendly relations with my comrades and soon was at loggerheads with them, and in my youth and inexperience I even gave up bowing to them, as though I had cut off all relations. That, however, only happened to me once. As a rule, I was always alone. In the first place I spent most of my time at home, reading. I tried to stifle all that was continually seething within me by means of external impressions. And the only external means I had was reading. Reading, of course, was a great help—exciting me, giving me pleasure and pain. But at times it bored me fearfully. One longed for movement in spite of everything, and I plunged all at once into dark, underground, loathsome vice of the pettiest kind. My wretched passions were acute, smarting, from my continual, sickly irritability I had hysterical impulses, with tears and convulsions. I had no resource except reading, that is, there was nothing in my surroundings which I could respect and

German arrant: völlig. boastful: prahlerisch, großsprecherisch, angeberisch, dicktuerisch, auffallend, auffällig, aufgebläht, aufgeblasen, hochmütig, hoffärtig, lauthals. bowing: verbeugend. ceasing: beendend, endend. cherish: knuddeln, streicheln, schmusen, kuscheln. ejaculate: ausstoßen, stoßen aus, stoße aus, stößt aus, stoßt aus, ejakulieren,

ejakuliere, ejakulierst, ejakuliert, abspritzen. incorrigible: unverbesserlich. inexperience: Unerfahrenheit. irritability: Reizbarkeit, Erregbarkeit, Verdruß, Zimperlichkeit, Verdrüsse, Verdrießlichkeit, Unwille, Unmut, Gereiztheit, Empfindlichkeit, Ärgernis. knaves: Schufte, Schurken. loftily: hoch. passions: Leidenschaften,

Begeisterung, Inbrünste, Passionen. patriotism: Patriotismus, Vaterlandsliebe. rascals: Schufte, Halunken, Schalke, Schurken, Schweine, Schelme, Schlingel. seething: siedend, Kochen, kochend, Sieden. smarting: stechend. stifle: ersticken, erstickt, erstickst, ersticke. tearfully: wehleidig.

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which attracted me. I was overwhelmed with depression, too; I had an hysterical craving for incongruity and for contrast, and so I took to vice. I have not said all this to justify myself... But, no! I am lying. I did want to justify myself. I make that little observation for my own benefit, gentlemen. I don't want to lie. I vowed to myself I would not.% And so, furtively, timidly, in solitude, at night, I indulged in filthy vice, with a feeling of shame which never deserted me, even at the most loathsome moments, and which at such moments nearly made me curse. Already even then I had my underground world in my soul. I was fearfully afraid of being seen, of being met, of being recognised. I visited various obscure haunts. One night as I was passing a tavern I saw through a lighted window some gentlemen fighting with billiard cues, and saw one of them thrown out of the window. At other times I should have felt very much disgusted, but I was in such a mood at the time, that I actually envied the gentleman thrown out of the window—and I envied him so much that I even went into the tavern and into the billiard-room. "Perhaps," I thought, "I'll have a fight, too, and they'll throw me out of the window." I was not drunk—but what is one to do—depression will drive a man to such a pitch of hysteria? But nothing happened. It seemed that I was not even equal to being thrown out of the window and I went away without having my fight. An officer put me in my place from the first moment. I was standing by the billiard-table and in my ignorance blocking up the way, and he wanted to pass; he took me by the shoulders and without a word— without a warning or explanation—moved me from where I was standing to another spot and passed by as though he had not noticed me. I could have forgiven blows, but I could not forgive his having moved me without noticing me. Devil knows what I would have given for a real regular quarrel—a more decent, a more literary one, so to speak. I had been treated like a fly. This officer was over six foot, while I was a spindly little fellow. But the quarrel was in my

German billiard: Billard. blocking: Blockierend, Blockierung, Abdichten, Abschliessen, Dichten. blows: Schläge. cues: Steht in eine Schlange, Stichwörter. disgusted: abgestoßen, empörte. envied: beneidet, beneidete, beneideten, beneidetest, beneidetet. forgiven: verziehen, vergeben. furtively: verstohlen. haunts: verfolgt.

hysteria: Hysterie. hysterical: hysterisch. incongruity: Mißverhältnis. indulged: ergingt, verschontest, schontet, verschont, verschonte, verschonten, schontest, verschontet, verwöhnt, verwöhnte, verwöhnten. lighted: beleuchtet, angemacht, angezüundet. noticing: feststellend, bemerken. overwhelmed: überwältigtest, überwältigte, überschüttetet,

überschüttetest, überschütteten, überschüttet, überwältigtet, überwältigten, überschüttete, überwältigt. quarrel: Streit, Zank, Zwietracht, zanken, Wortwechsel, streiten, Disput, Auseinandersetzung, Fehde, schimpfen, schelten. solitude: Einsamkeit. spindly: spindeldürr. timidly: furchtsam. vowed: geschwört, geschworen.

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hands. I had only to protest and I certainly would have been thrown out of the window. But I changed my mind and preferred to beat a resentful retreat. I went out of the tavern straight home, confused and troubled, and the next night I went out again with the same lewd intentions, still more furtively, abjectly and miserably than before, as it were, with tears in my eyes—but still I did go out again. Don't imagine, though, it was coward- ice made me slink away from the officer; I never have been a coward at heart, though I have always been a coward in action. Don't be in a hurry to laugh—I assure you I can explain it all.% Oh, if only that officer had been one of the sort who would consent to fight a duel! But no, he was one of those gentlemen (alas, long extinct!) who preferred fighting with cues or, like Gogol's Lieutenant Pirogov, appealing to the police. They did not fight duels and would have thought a duel with a civilian like me an utterly unseemly procedure in any case—and they looked upon the duel altogether as something impossible, something free-thinking and French. But they were quite ready to bully, especially when they were over six foot. I did not slink away through cowardice, but through an unbounded vanity. I was afraid not of his six foot, not of getting a sound thrashing and being thrown out of the window; I should have had physical courage enough, I assure you; but I had not the moral courage. What I was afraid of was that everyone present, from the insolent marker down to the lowest little stinking, pimply clerk in a greasy collar, would jeer at me and fail to understand when I began to protest and to address them in literary language. For of the point of honour—not of honour, but of the point of honour (point d'honneur)—one cannot speak among us except in literary language. You can't allude to the "point of honour" in ordinary language. I was fully convinced (the sense of reality, in spite of all my romanticism!) that they would all simply split their sides with laughter, and that the officer would not simply beat me, that is, without insulting me, but would certainly prod me in the back with his knee, kick me round the billiard- table, and only then perhaps have pity and drop me out of the window.

German abjectly: verächtlich, elend, verwerflich, verwerfliche, gemein. allude: anspielen, spiele an, spielt an, spielst an, spielen an, anspielen auf. appealing: ansprechend, attraktiv, flehend, gewinnend, reizvoll. bully: tyrannisieren, Tyrann, Bullenbeißer. collar: Kragen, Halsband, Leine, Zügel, der Kragen, Halskragen, kleineKragen, Zaum, Longe, Bund. cowardice: Feigheit.

duel: Duell, Zweikampf. duels: Duelle, Zweikämpfe. greasy: fettig, schmierig, fett, geil, schmuddelig, schlüpfrig, schweinisch, schmutzig, schmalzig, fettähnlich, feist. jeer: beschimpfen, Spott. lewd: unzüchtig, ausgelassen, unflätig, lüstern. marker: Markierung, Marke, Absatzgebiet, Vertreter, Verfechter, Markör, Verteidiger, Manndecker.

miserably: elend, jämmerlich. pimply: pickelig. prod: spitzt an, stochert, stochre, stoße, anspitzen, spitze an, spitzen an, stochere, stoßt, stochern, stoßen. resentful: mißmutig, mißgünstig, verdrießlich, unwillig, nachtragend. slink: schleichen, schleiche, schleichst, schleicht. thrashing: Prügelnd. troubled: gestört, beunruhigt, aufgewühlt, trüb, unruhig, trübe.

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Of%course, this trivial incident could not with me end in that. I often met that officer afterwards in the street and noticed him very carefully. I am not quite sure whether he recognised me, I imagine not; I judge from certain signs. But I— I stared at him with spite and hatred and so it went on ... for several years! My resentment grew even deeper with years. At first I began making stealthy inquiries about this officer. It was difficult for me to do so, for I knew no one. But one day I heard someone shout his surname in the street as I was following him at a distance, as though I were tied to him—and so I learnt his surname. Another time I followed him to his flat, and for ten kopecks learned from the porter where he lived, on which storey, whether he lived alone or with others, and so on—in fact, everything one could learn from a porter. One morning, though I had never tried my hand with the pen, it suddenly occurred to me to write a satire on this officer in the form of a novel which would unmask his villainy. I wrote the novel with relish. I did unmask his villainy, I even exaggerated it; at first I so altered his surname that it could easily be recognised, but on second thoughts I changed it, and sent the story to the otetchestvenniya zapiski. But at that time such attacks were not the fashion and my story was not printed. That was a great vexation to me. Sometimes I was positively choked with resentment. At last I determined to challenge my enemy to a duel. I composed a splendid, charming letter to him, imploring him to apologise to me, and hinting rather plainly at a duel in case of refusal. The letter was so composed that if the officer had had the least understanding of the sublime and the beautiful he would certainly have flung himself on my neck and have offered me his friendship. And how fine that would have been! How we should have got on together! "He could have shielded me with his higher rank, while I could have improved his mind with my culture, and, well ... my ideas, and all sorts of things might have happened." Only fancy, this was two years after his insult to me, and my challenge would have been a ridiculous anachronism, in spite of all the ingenuity of my letter in disguising and explaining away the anachronism. But, thank God (to this day I thank the Almighty with tears in my eyes) I did not send the letter to him. Cold

German anachronism: Anachronismus. choked: würgte. disguising: verkleidend. exaggerated: übertriebst, übertrieb, übertrieben, übertriebt, bauschte auf, bauschten auf, bauschtest auf, bauschtet auf, aufgebauscht, hyperbolisch, übertreibend. flung: geschleudert. hinting: anspielend, andeuten. imploring: anflehend, inständig. ingenuity: Genialität, Erfindungsgabe,

Erfindungsgeist, Geist, Genie, Kreativität, Schaffenskraft, Findigkeit. inquiries: Erkundigungen. insult: Beleidigung, beleidigen, beschimpfen, kränken, Insult, verletzen, schelten, schimpfen. plainly: klar. relish: schlecken, naschen, Geschmack, genießen. satire: Satire, Spottschrift, Schmähschrift, Spottgedicht,

Spottvers. shielded: abgeschirmt, schützte. stealthy: heimlich, verstohlen, geheim. storey: Stock, Etage, Stockwerk, Geschoß. surname: Familienname, Nachname, Zuname. unmask: entlarven, demaskieren, entlarvt, entlarvst, entlarve. vexation: Ärger. villainy: Böse, die Schurkerei, Schurkerei.

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shivers%run down my back when I think of what might have happened if I had sent it. And all at once I revenged myself in the simplest way, by a stroke of genius! A brilliant thought suddenly dawned upon me. Sometimes on holidays I used to stroll along the sunny side of the Nevsky about four o'clock in the afternoon. Though it was hardly a stroll so much as a series of innumerable miseries, humiliations and resentments; but no doubt that was just what I wanted. I used to wriggle along in a most unseemly fashion, like an eel, continually moving aside to make way for generals, for officers of the guards and the hussars, or for ladies. At such minutes there used to be a convulsive twinge at my heart, and I used to feel hot all down my back at the mere thought of the wretchedness of my attire, of the wretchedness and abjectness of my little scurrying figure. This was a regular martyrdom, a continual, intolerable humiliation at the thought, which passed into an incessant and direct sensation, that I was a mere fly in the eyes of all this world, a nasty, disgusting fly—more intelligent, more highly developed, more refined in feeling than any of them, of course—but a fly that was continually making way for everyone, insulted and injured by everyone. Why I inflicted this torture upon myself, why I went to the Nevsky, I don't know. I felt simply drawn there at every possible opportunity. Already then I began to experience a rush of the enjoyment of which I spoke in the first chapter. After my affair with the officer I felt even more drawn there than before: it was on the Nevsky that I met him most frequently, there I could admire him. He, too, went there chiefly on holidays, He, too, turned out of his path for generals and persons of high rank, and he too, wriggled between them like an eel; but people, like me, or even better dressed than me, he simply walked over; he made straight for them as though there was nothing but empty space before him, and never, under any circumstances, turned aside. I gloated over my resentment watching him and ... always resentfully made way for him. It exasperated me that even in the street I could not be on an even footing with him.

German abjectness: Verworfenheit. attire: Kleidung, Kleiden. convulsive: krampfhaft, krampfig, krampfartig. dawned: dämmerte. eel: Aal. exasperated: ärgerte, haßerfüllt, verbittert. footing: Fundament. generals: Generäle. gloated: freute sich hämisch. humiliations: Beschämungen,

Erniedrigung, Erniedrigungen. inflicted: fügten zu, zugefügt, fügtest zu, fügte zu, fügtet zu. innumerable: unzählig, zahllos. intolerable: unerträglich, intolerabel, untragbar. martyrdom: das Märtyrertum, Martyrium, Märtyrertod, die Marter, das Martyrium, der Märtyrertod. miseries: Elende. resentfully: ärgerlich, nachtragende. resentments: Verstimmungen.

scurrying: hastend. simplest: einfachste. stroll: spazieren, bummeln, Spaziergang, schlendern, flanieren, Bummel, promenieren, Rundgang, spazierengehen, trödeln, herumschlendern. twinge: Stich. wretchedness: Elend, Dürftigkeit, Armseligkeit, das Elend. wriggle: schlängeln. wriggled: wand.

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"Why must you invariably be the first to move aside?" I kept asking myself in hysterical rage, waking up sometimes at three o'clock in the morning. "Why is it you and not he? There's no regulation about it; there's no written law. Let the making way be equal as it usually is when refined people meet; he moves halfway and you move half-way; you pass with mutual respect." But that never happened, and I always moved aside, while he did not even notice my making way for him. And lo and behold a bright idea dawned upon me! "What," I thought, "if I meet him and don't move on one side? What if I don't move aside on purpose, even if I knock up against him? How would that be?" This audacious idea took such a hold on me that it gave me no peace. I was dreaming of it continually, horribly, and I purposely went more frequently to the Nevsky in order to picture more vividly how I should do it when I did do it. I was delighted. This intention seemed to me more and more practical and possible.% "Of course I shall not really push him," I thought, already more goodnatured in my joy. "I will simply not turn aside, will run up against him, not very violently, but just shouldering each other—just as much as decency permits. I will push against him just as much as he pushes against me." At last I made up my mind completely. But my preparations took a great deal of time. To begin with, when I carried out my plan I should need to be looking rather more decent, and so I had to think of my get-up. "In case of emergency, if, for instance, there were any sort of public scandal (and the public there is of the most recherche: the Countess walks there; Prince D. walks there; all the literary world is there), I must be well dressed; that inspires respect and of itself puts us on an equal footing in the eyes of the society." With this object I asked for some of my salary in advance, and bought at Tchurkin's a pair of black gloves and a decent hat. Black gloves seemed to me both more dignified and bon ton than the lemon-coloured ones which I had contemplated at first. "The colour is too gaudy, it looks as though one were trying to be conspicuous," and I did not take the lemon-coloured ones. I had got ready long beforehand a good shirt, with white bone studs; my overcoat was the

German audacious: kühn, dreist, unverfroren, verwegen, keck, waghalsig, tollkühn, übermütig, unbesonnen, leichtsinnig. behold: sehen, erblicken, siehe, sieh, siehst, seht, erblickst, sehe, erblicke, erblickt, wahrnehmen. contemplated: betrachtete, betrachtetet, betrachtetest, betrachteten, betrachtet. dreaming: Träumend. gaudy: grell, farbenprächtig, aufpoliert.

gloves: Handschuhe. horribly: entsetzlich. inspires: inspiriert, gibt ein, begeistert, flößt ein. lo: siehe. natured: geartet. overcoat: Mantel, Überzieher, Paletot, Jacke, Überrock. permits: erlaubt, genehmigungen. pushes: stöße. recherche: Recherche. refined: verfeinert, verfeinertet,

verfeinertest, raffiniertest, verfeinerten, verfeinerte, raffiniert, raffinierte, raffinierten, raffiniertet, fein. shouldering: schulternd. studs: Stollen, Wandpfosten, Säulen, Beschlägt. ton: Tonne. violently: heftig. waking: Wachend, Bewachen, Beaufsichtigen, auf Streifegehen, Streifen, Patrouillieren.

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only%thing that held me back. The coat in itself was a very good one, it kept me warm; but it was wadded and it had a raccoon collar which was the height of vulgarity. I had to change the collar at any sacrifice, and to have a beaver one like an officer's. For this purpose I began visiting the Gostiny Dvor and after several attempts I pitched upon a piece of cheap German beaver. Though these German beavers soon grow shabby and look wretched, yet at first they look exceedingly well, and I only needed it for the occasion. I asked the price; even so, it was too expensive. After thinking it over thoroughly I decided to sell my raccoon collar. The rest of the money—a considerable sum for me, I decided to borrow from Anton Antonitch Syetotchkin, my immediate superior, an unassuming person, though grave and judicious. He never lent money to anyone, but I had, on entering the service, been specially recommended to him by an important personage who had got me my berth. I was horribly worried. To borrow from Anton Antonitch seemed to me monstrous and shameful. I did not sleep for two or three nights. Indeed, I did not sleep well at that time, I was in a fever; I had a vague sinking at my heart or else a sudden throbbing, throbbing, throbbing! Anton Antonitch was surprised at first, then he frowned, then he reflected, and did after all lend me the money, receiving from me a written authorisation to take from my salary a fortnight later the sum that he had lent me. In this way everything was at last ready. The handsome beaver replaced the mean-looking raccoon, and I began by degrees to get to work. It would never have done to act offhand, at random; the plan had to be carried out skilfully, by degrees. But I must confess that after many efforts I began to despair: we simply could not run into each other. I made every preparation, I was quite determined—it seemed as though we should run into one another directly—and before I knew what I was doing I had stepped aside for him again and he had passed without noticing me. I even prayed as I approached him that God would grant me determination. One time I had made up my mind thoroughly, but it ended in my stumbling and falling at his feet because at the very last instant when I was six inches from him my courage failed me. He very calmly stepped

German authorisation: Genehmigung. beaver: Biber. beavers: Biber. berth: Anlegen, Liegeplatz, Koje, Anlegeplatz, Bettplatz. fever: Fieber, das Fieber. judicious: vernünftig, umsichtig, urteilsfähig. monstrous: ungeheuer, mißgestaltet, monströs, abscheulich, ungeheuerlich, riesig, widerlich, gräßlich, ekelerregend,

abscheuerregend, grundhäßlich. offhand: aus dem Stegreif, unvorbereitet, ohne weiteres, lässig, brüsk, flapsig. personage: Persönlichkeit. pitched: geworfen, warf. prayed: betetet, gebetet, betetest, beteten, betete. raccoon: Waschbär. shabby: schäbig, abgetragen, ärmlich, armselig, armutig, dürftig, gering, verlottert.

sinking: Senkung. skilfully: geschickt. stumbling: stolpernd, poltern, gepolter, straucheln, stolpern. throbbing: klopfend. unassuming: bescheiden, anspruchslos. vulgarity: Gemeinheit. wadded: wattierte. wretched: elend, erbärmlich, jämmerlich, miserabel, unglücklich, jämmerliche, erbärmliche, elende.

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over me, while I flew on one side like a ball. That night I was ill again, feverish and delirious. And %suddenly it ended most happily. The night before I had made up my mind not to carry out my fatal plan and to abandon it all, and with that object I went to the Nevsky for the last time, just to see how I would abandon it all. Suddenly, three paces from my enemy, I unexpectedly made up my mind—I closed my eyes, and we ran full tilt, shoulder to shoulder, against one another! I did not budge an inch and passed him on a perfectly equal footing! He did not even look round and pretended not to notice it; but he was only pretending, I am convinced of that. I am convinced of that to this day! Of course, I got the worst of it—he was stronger, but that was not the point. The point was that I had attained my object, I had kept up my dignity, I had not yielded a step, and had put myself publicly on an equal social footing with him. I returned home feeling that I was fully avenged for everything. I was delighted. I was triumphant and sang Italian arias. Of course, I will not describe to you what happened to me three days later; if you have read my first chapter you can guess for yourself. The officer was afterwards transferred; I have not seen him now for fourteen years. What is the dear fellow doing now? Whom is he walking over?

German abandon: verlassen, verlaß, verlasse, verlaßt, verläßt, aufgeben, gibst auf, aussetzen, gebe auf, gebt auf, gib auf. arias: Arien. avenged: gerächt, rächtet, rächtest, rächten, rächte, ahndete, geahndet. budge: bewegen, bewegt, bewege, bewegst. delighted: erfreut, entzückt, heiter, vergnügt, vergnüglich, entzückte, munter, begeistert. delirious: irreredend.

feverish: fieberhaft, fiebrig, hitzig, fiebernd, fieberig, erhitzt. inch: Zoll, Haarbreit. paces: Gangarten, Schritte. pretended: gab vor, vorgegeben, gabt vor, gaben vor, gabst vor, täuschtet vor, täuschtest vor, täuschten vor, täuschte vor, vorgetäuscht, angeblich. pretending: Vorgebend, Vortäuschend, heuchelnd, heuchlerisch. publicly: öffentlich.

sang: sangt, sangst, Sangen, Sang, Gesungen. tilt: neigen, Neigung, Kippen, hinneigen. unexpectedly: unerwartet, plötzlich, auf einmal, unvorhergesehen, unversehens, unvermutet, unverhofft, jählings. yielded: wicht, wichst, wichen, wich, gewichen, gab nach, brachtest ein, gewonnen, brachten ein, eingebracht, brachte ein.

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II

But %the period of my dissipation would end and I always felt very sick afterwards. It was followed by remorse—I tried to drive it away; I felt too sick. By degrees, however, I grew used to that too. I grew used to everything, or rather I voluntarily resigned myself to enduring it. But I had a means of escape that reconciled everything—that was to find refuge in "the sublime and the beautiful," in dreams, of course. I was a terrible dreamer, I would dream for three months on end, tucked away in my corner, and you may believe me that at those moments I had no resemblance to the gentleman who, in the perturbation of his chicken heart, put a collar of German beaver on his great-coat. I suddenly became a hero. I would not have admitted my six-foot lieutenant even if he had called on me. I could not even picture him before me then. What were my dreams and how I could satisfy myself with them—it is hard to say now, but at the time I was satisfied with them. Though, indeed, even now, I am to some extent satisfied with them. Dreams were particularly sweet and vivid after a spell of dissipation; they came with remorse and with tears, with curses and transports. There were moments of such positive intoxication, of such happiness, that there was not the faintest trace of irony within me, on my honour. I had faith, hope, love. I believed blindly at such times that by some miracle, by some external circumstance, all this would suddenly open out, expand; that suddenly a vista of suitable activity—beneficent, good, and, above

German dissipation: Verschwendung, Mysterium. Zerstreuung, Vertreibung, Ableitung, perturbation: Störung, Beunruhigung. Ausschweifung. refuge: Zuflucht, Schutz, Hort, dreamer: Träumer, Phantast, Utopist. Luftschutzraum, Ruhepunkt, enduring: ertragend, aushaltend, Schlupfloch, Schlupfwinkel, erleidend, erduldend, andauernd, Unterkunft, Unterschlupf, ausstehend, bleibend, dauerhaft. Unterstand, Zufluchtstätte. happiness: Glück, Fröhlichkeit. resemblance: Ähnlichkeit, intoxication: Rausch, Intoxikation, Gleichförmigkeit, Vergiftung, Trunkenheit. Augenscheinlichkeit, Gleichnis, lieutenant: Leutnant, Oberleutnant. Übereinstimmung, Verwandtschaft, miracle: Wunder, Wundertat, Mirakel, Ebenbild.

resigned: dankte ab, verzichtete, verzichteten, verzichtet, verzichtetet, danktet ab, danktest ab, dankten ab, verzichtetest, abgedankt, sich fügend. transports: Transporte. tucked: streifte zurück, eingeschlagen. vista: Durchblick, Blick. vivid: lebhaft. voluntarily: freiwillig, ungezwungen, frei, zwanglos, ungekünstelt, uneigennützig, spontan, natürlich, freiwilligen.

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all, %ready made (what sort of activity I had no idea, but the great thing was that it should be all ready for me)—would rise up before me—and I should come out into the light of day, almost riding a white horse and crowned with laurel. Anything but the foremost place I could not conceive for myself, and for that very reason I quite contentedly occupied the lowest in reality. Either to be a hero or to grovel in the mud—there was nothing between. That was my ruin, for when I was in the mud I comforted myself with the thought that at other times I was a hero, and the hero was a cloak for the mud: for an ordinary man it was shameful to defile himself, but a hero was too lofty to be utterly defiled, and so he might defile himself. It is worth noting that these attacks of the "sublime and the beautiful" visited me even during the period of dissipation and just at the times when I was touching the bottom. They came in separate spurts, as though reminding me of themselves, but did not banish the dissipation by their appearance. On the contrary, they seemed to add a zest to it by contrast, and were only sufficiently present to serve as an appetising sauce. That sauce was made up of contradictions and sufferings, of agonising inward analysis, and all these pangs and pin-pricks gave a certain piquancy, even a significance to my dissipation—in fact, completely answered the purpose of an appetising sauce. There was a certain depth of meaning in it. And I could hardly have resigned myself to the simple, vulgar, direct debauchery of a clerk and have endured all the filthiness of it. What could have allured me about it then and have drawn me at night into the street? No, I had a lofty way of getting out of it all. And what loving-kindness, oh Lord, what loving-kindness I felt at times in those dreams of mine! in those "flights into the sublime and the beautiful"; though it was fantastic love, though it was never applied to anything human in reality, yet there was so much of this love that one did not feel afterwards even the impulse to apply it in reality; that would have been superfluous. Everything, however, passed satisfactorily by a lazy and fascinating transition into the sphere of art, that is, into the beautiful forms of life, lying ready, largely stolen from the poets and novelists and adapted to all sorts of needs and uses. I, for instance, was triumphant over everyone; everyone, of course, was in dust and ashes, and was forced spontaneously to recognise my superiority, and I forgave

German agonising: quälen. allured: verlockte. appetising: Appetitanregend. ashes: Asche, Welle, Achse. banish: verbannen, verbanne, verbannt, verbannst, vertreiben, bannen, abschieben, ausweisen. contentedly: zufrieden. contradictions: Widersprüche. crowned: krönte. debauchery: Ausschweifung, Liederlichkeit.

defile: defilieren, entweihen, entweihe, profanieren, entweiht, entweihst, Engpaß, defilierst, entheiligen, defiliere, defiliert. defiled: defilierte, entweihtet, entweihtest, entweihten, entweihte, entweiht, defiliertet, defilierten, defiliert, defiliertest. filthiness: Schmutzigkeit. grovel: kriechen. laurel: Lorbeer, Lorbeerbaum, mit Lorbeeren Schmücken.

noting: merken, notierend. novelists: Romanschriftsteller. pangs: Schmerzen, Schmerzensstiche. piquancy: Pikanterie, Pikantheit, Pikantheits, die Pikanterie, die Schärfe, die Würze. poets: Dichter, Poet. reminding: erinnernd. satisfactorily: zufrieden stellend. sauce: Soße, Sauce, Tunke, Brühe. spontaneously: spontan. zest: Begeisterung.

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them%all. I was a poet and a grand gentleman, I fell in love; I came in for countless millions and immediately devoted them to humanity, and at the same time I confessed before all the people my shameful deeds, which, of course, were not merely shameful, but had in them much that was "sublime and beautiful" something in the Manfred style. Everyone would kiss me and weep (what idiots they would be if they did not), while I should go barefoot and hungry preaching new ideas and fighting a victorious Austerlitz against the obscurantists. Then the band would play a march, an amnesty would be declared, the Pope would agree to retire from Rome to Brazil; then there would be a ball for the whole of Italy at the Villa Borghese on the shores of Lake Como, Lake Como being for that purpose transferred to the neighbourhood of Rome; then would come a scene in the bushes, and so on, and so on—as though you did not know all about it? You will say that it is vulgar and contemptible to drag all this into public after all the tears and transports which I have myself confessed. But why is it contemptible? Can you imagine that I am ashamed of it all, and that it was stupider than anything in your life, gentlemen? And I can assure you that some of these fancies were by no means badly composed... It did not all happen on the shores of Lake Como. And yet you are right—it really is vulgar and contemptible. And most contemptible of all it is that now I am attempting to justify myself to you. And even more contemptible than that is my making this remark now. But that's enough, or there will be no end to it; each step will be more contemptible than the last... I could never stand more than three months of dreaming at a time without feeling an irresistible desire to plunge into society. To plunge into society meant to visit my superior at the office, Anton Antonitch Syetotchkin. He was the only permanent acquaintance I have had in my life, and I wonder at the fact myself now. But I only went to see him when that phase came over me, and when my dreams had reached such a point of bliss that it became essential at once to embrace my fellows and all mankind; and for that purpose I needed, at least, one human being, actually existing. I had to call on Anton Antonitch, however, on Tuesday—his at-home day; so I had always to time my passionate desire to embrace humanity so that it might fall on a Tuesday.

German amnesty: Amnestie, Amnestieren, Begnadigung, Straferlaß. barefoot: barfuß, barfüßig. bushes: Gebüsch, Büsche, Strauch, Busch, Büschel, Buschwerk, Hölzer, Staude, Sträucher, Unterholz, Kopf. confessed: beichtete, beichtetet, beichtetest, beichteten, gebeichtet, gestanden ein, gestand ein, gestanden, gestandet, gestandst, gestandst ein. countless: zahllos, unzählig, Legion,

ungezählt. deeds: Taten. embrace: umarmen, Umarmung, umfassen, umschlingen. fellows: Gefährten, Kameraden, Kollegen. hungry: hungrig. idiots: Idioten. irresistible: unwiderstehlich, unaufhaltsam. obscurantists: Dunkelmänner. passionate: leidenschaftlich,

heißblütig, hitzig, passioniert, hemmungslos, eifrig, hingebungsvoll, enthusiastisch, begeistert, hitzköpfig, aufgeregt. plunge: Eintauchen, stürzen, tauchen. preaching: Predigend. shores: Ufer. stupider: Dümmer. victorious: siegreich. weep: weinen, weint, weine, weinst, tränen, flennen, tränt, tränst, plärren, heulen, träne.

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This Anton Antonitch lived on the fourth storey in a house in Five Corners, in four low-pitched rooms, one smaller than the other, of a particularly frugal and sallow appearance. He had two daughters and their aunt, who used to pour out the tea. Of the daughters one was thirteen and another fourteen, they both had snub noses, and I was awfully shy of them because they were always whispering and giggling together. The master of the house usually sat in his study on a leather couch in front of the table with some grey-headed gentleman, usually a colleague from our office or some other department. I never saw more than two or three visitors there, always the same. They talked about the excise duty; about business in the senate, about salaries, about promotions, about His Excellency, and the best means of pleasing him, and so on. I had the patience to sit like a fool beside these people for four hours at a stretch, listening to them without knowing what to say to them or venturing to say a word. I became stupefied, several times I felt myself perspiring, I was overcome by a sort of paralysis; but this was pleasant and good for me. On returning home I deferred for a time my desire to embrace all mankind.% I had however one other acquaintance of a sort, Simonov, who was an old schoolfellow. I had a number of schoolfellows, indeed, in Petersburg, but I did not associate with them and had even given up nodding to them in the street. I believe I had transferred into the department I was in simply to avoid their company and to cut off all connection with my hateful childhood. Curses on that school and all those terrible years of penal servitude! In short, I parted from my schoolfellows as soon as I got out into the world. There were two or three left to whom I nodded in the street. One of them was Simonov, who had in no way been distinguished at school, was of a quiet and equable disposition; but I discovered in him a certain independence of character and even honesty I don't even suppose that he was particularly stupid. I had at one time spent some rather soulful moments with him, but these had not lasted long and had somehow been suddenly clouded over. He was evidently uncomfortable at these reminiscences, and was, I fancy, always afraid that I might take up the same tone again. I suspected that he had an aversion for me, but still I went on going to see him, not being quite certain of it.

German awfully: furchtbar, schrecklich. clouded: bewölkt. deferred: aufgeschoben, verschoben, verschob. equable: gleichmäßig. excise: Verbrauchssteuer, Akzise. frugal: genügsam, einfach, sparsam, nicht vollwertig. giggling: kichernd, Gekicher, gelach. grey-headed: grauhaarig. hateful: verhasst, abscheulich. nodding: schlafend, das Nicken,

nicken, nickend. noses: Nasen. paralysis: Lähmung, Paralyse, Lahmheit. perspiring: schwitzend, transpirierend, Schwitzen, Transpirieren. pleasing: Angenehm, gefällig. promotions: Beförderungen, Verkaufsfördernde Aktionen. sallow: bleich, fahl, teigig, farblos, blaß, blässlich.

schoolfellow: der Schulkamerad, der Mitschüler. servitude: Sklaverei, Dienstbarkeit, Leibeigenschaft, Frondienst, Frone. snub: brüskieren, anfahren. soulful: seelenvoll. stupefied: verblüfft, erschrocken, fassungslos, verblüffte, verblüfftest, verblüfftet, verblüfften. venturing: riskierend. whispering: Geflüster, flüsternd, Flüstern, leise, gedämpft, raunend.

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And %so on one occasion, unable to endure my solitude and knowing that as it was Thursday Anton Antonitch's door would be closed, I thought of Simonov. Climbing up to his fourth storey I was thinking that the man disliked me and that it was a mistake to go and see him. But as it always happened that such reflections impelled me, as though purposely, to put myself into a false position, I went in. It was almost a year since I had last seen Simonov.

German closed: schloß, geschlossen, schloßt, schlossen, schlossest, verschlossest, verschloßt, verschlossen, verschloß, machtet zu, abgeschlossen. disliked: abgelehnt, konnte nicht leiden. endure: ertragen, ertragt, ertrage, erträgst, aushalten, halte aus, halten aus, haltet aus, hältst aus, erdulden, erleiden. false: falsch, unwahr, unaufrichtig, unrichtig, fehlerhaft, hinterhältig,

unrecht, schief, unzutreffend, ungenau, tückisch. fourth: vierte, Viertel, vierter, viertes. happened: geschahst, geschahen, geschah, geschaht, geschehen, passiertet, passierte, passiert, passiertest, passierten. impelled: getrieben, triebt, triebst, trieben, trieb. knowing: wissend, kennend. mistake: Fehler, Irrtum, Versehen, Fehlgriff, Missverständnis, Schnitzer,

daneben sein, Fehlschuß, Fehlschläge, Fehlschlag, Mißerfolg. occasion: Anlass, Gelegenheit, Veranlassung, Ereignis, Mal. purposely: absichtlich, vorsätzlich. reflections: Reflexionen. solitude: Einsamkeit. storey: Stock, Etage, Stockwerk, Geschoß. thinking: Denkend, Denken. unable: unfähig, außerstande, untauglich, hilflos.

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I%found two of my old schoolfellows with him. They seemed to be discussing an important matter. All of them took scarcely any notice of my entrance, which was strange, for I had not met them for years. Evidently they looked upon me as something on the level of a common fly. I had not been treated like that even at school, though they all hated me. I knew, of course, that they must despise me now for my lack of success in the service, and for my having let myself sink so low, going about badly dressed and so on—which seemed to them a sign of my incapacity and insignificance. But I had not expected such contempt. Simonov was positively surprised at my turning up. Even in old days he had always seemed surprised at my coming. All this disconcerted me: I sat down, feeling rather miserable, and began listening to what they were saying. They were engaged in warm and earnest conversation about a farewell dinner which they wanted to arrange for the next day to a comrade of theirs called Zverkov, an officer in the army, who was going away to a distant province. This Zverkov had been all the time at school with me too. I had begun to hate him particularly in the upper forms. In the lower forms he had simply been a pretty, playful boy whom everybody liked. I had hated him, however, even in the lower forms, just because he was a pretty and playful boy. He was always bad at his lessons and got worse and worse as he went on; however, he

German comrade: Kamerad, Genosse. contempt: Verachtung, Geringschätzung, Mißachtung. disconcerted: beirrte, verdutzte, verwirrtet, verwirrtest, verwirrten, verwirrte, befremdetet, vereitelt, befremdet, beunruhigtet, beunruhigtest. engaged: besetzt, beschäftigt, legte ein, legtet ein, legtest ein, engagierte, sich befassen, sich beschäftigen, engagierten, engagiertest, legten ein.

farewell: Lebewohl, Abschied, Lebe wohl, Adieu, auf Wiedersehen, Valet. hated: gehaßt, verhaßt, unbeliebt. incapacity: Unfähigkeit, Inkompetenz, Untauglichkeit. insignificance: Unwichtigkeit. lessons: Lektionen. miserable: elend, jämmerlich, erbärmlich, miserabel, schlecht, unglücklich, traurig, arm, gräßlich, böse, unpäßlich. playful: spielerisch, verspielt,

ausgelassen, übermütig, jovial, wild. province: Provinz, Bereich, Bezirk, Gegend, Gouvernement, Gebiet, Landstrich, Rechtsgebiet, Region, Zone, Ort. scarcely: kaum, fast kein, schwerlich, knapp, gering, fast keine. sink: sinken, Spülbecken, Ausguss, senken, versenken, untergehen, versinken, einsinken, Waschtisch, Waschbecken, untertauchen. theirs: ihre, ihr, ihres, ihrer.

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left with a good certificate, as he had powerful interests. During his last year at school %he came in for an estate of two hundred serfs, and as almost all of us were poor he took up a swaggering tone among us. He was vulgar in the extreme, but at the same time he was a good-natured fellow, even in his swaggering. In spite of superficial, fantastic and sham notions of honour and dignity, all but very few of us positively grovelled before Zverkov, and the more so the more he swaggered. And it was not from any interested motive that they grovelled, but simply because he had been favoured by the gifts of nature. Moreover, it was, as it were, an accepted idea among us that Zverkov was a specialist in regard to tact and the social graces. This last fact particularly infuriated me. I hated the abrupt self-confident tone of his voice, his admiration of his own witticisms, which were often frightfully stupid, though he was bold in his language; I hated his handsome, but stupid face (for which I would, however, have gladly exchanged my intelligent one), and the free-and-easy military manners in fashion in the "'forties." I hated the way in which he used to talk of his future conquests of women (he did not venture to begin his attack upon women until he had the epaulettes of an officer, and was looking forward to them with impatience), and boasted of the duels he would constantly be fighting. I remember how I, invariably so taciturn, suddenly fastened upon Zverkov, when one day talking at a leisure moment with his schoolfellows of his future relations with the fair sex, and growing as sportive as a puppy in the sun, he all at once declared that he would not leave a single village girl on his estate unnoticed, that that was his droit de seigneur, and that if the peasants dared to protest he would have them all flogged and double the tax on them, the bearded rascals. Our servile rabble applauded, but I attacked him, not from compassion for the girls and their fathers, but simply because they were applauding such an insect. I got the better of him on that occasion, but though Zverkov was stupid he was lively and impudent, and so laughed it off, and in such a way that my victory was not really complete; the laugh was on his side. He got the better of me on several occasions afterwards, but without malice, jestingly, casually. I remained angrily and contemptuously silent and would not answer him. When we left school he made advances to me; I did not rebuff them, for I was flattered,

German applauded: applaudiert, applaudierte, applaudiertet, applaudierten, applaudiertest, klatschtet, geklatscht, klatschtest, klatschten, klatschte, akklamierte. applauding: applaudierend, klatschend, akklamierend. bearded: bärtig. boasted: prahlte, geprahlt. conquests: Eroberungen. epaulettes: Schulterstücke. flattered: geschmeichelt,

schmeicheltet, schmeicheltest, schmeichelte, schmeichelten. flogged: peitschtet, peitschten, peitschte, gepeitscht, peitschtest. gladly: gern, gerne, froh, mit Vergnügen. graces: Anmut. rabble: Gesindel, Pöbel, Zucht, Brut, Gezücht. rebuff: die Zurückweisung, Schroff Abweisung, die Abfuhr, Abschlägig Bescheid, die Absage.

seigneur: Feudalherr. serfs: Leibeigenen. servile: servil, unterwürfig, sklavisch. sham: Anschein, Heuchler, Schein, Fassade. sportive: mutwillig. swaggered: schwadronierte, schwadronierten. swaggering: die Angeberei. taciturn: schweigsam, wortkarg, wenig sprechend. tact: Takt.

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but we soon parted and quite naturally. Afterwards I heard of his barrack-room success as a lieutenant, and of the fast life he was leading. Then there came other rumours—of his successes in the service. By then he had taken to cutting me in the street, and I suspected that he was afraid of compromising himself by greeting a personage as insignificant as me. I saw him once in the theatre, in the third tier of boxes. By then he was wearing shoulder-straps. He was twisting and twirling about, ingratiating himself with the daughters of an ancient General. In three years he had gone off considerably, though he was still rather handsome and adroit. One could see that by the time he was thirty he would be corpulent. So it was to this Zverkov that my schoolfellows were going to give a dinner on his departure. They had kept up with him for those three years, though privately they did not consider themselves on an equal footing with him, I am convinced of that.% Of Simonov's two visitors, one was Ferfitchkin, a Russianised German—a little fellow with the face of a monkey, a blockhead who was always deriding everyone, a very bitter enemy of mine from our days in the lower forms—a vulgar, impudent, swaggering fellow, who affected a most sensitive feeling of personal honour, though, of course, he was a wretched little coward at heart. He was one of those worshippers of Zverkov who made up to the latter from interested motives, and often borrowed money from him. Simonov's other visitor, Trudolyubov, was a person in no way remarkable—a tall young fellow, in the army, with a cold face, fairly honest, though he worshipped success of every sort, and was only capable of thinking of promotion. He was some sort of distant relation of Zverkov's, and this, foolish as it seems, gave him a certain importance among us. He always thought me of no consequence whatever; his behaviour to me, though not quite courteous, was tolerable. "Well, with seven roubles each," said Trudolyubov, "twenty-one roubles between the three of us, we ought to be able to get a good dinner. Zverkov, of course, won't pay." "Of course not, since we are inviting him," Simonov decided.

German adroit: geschickt, gewandt, wach, fix, flink, frisch, aufgeweckt, anstellig, geübt, hurtig, munter. blockhead: Dummkopf. borrowed: geliehen. compromising: kompromiss schliessend. corpulent: beleibt, dick, korpulent. courteous: höflich, artig, anständig, galant. daughters: Töchter. deriding: verspottend.

greeting: Gruß, Begrüßung, Grüßend, begrüßend. ingratiating: einnehmend, schmeichlerisch, beliebt machend. insignificant: unbedeutend, bedeutungslos, geringfügig, minimal, klein, gering. inviting: einladend. motives: Motiv, Beweggrund, Ansporne, Antriebe. parted: auseinandergegangen, getrennt.

privately: privat. successes: Erfolge. tier: Etage, Reihe, Stufe, Rang. tolerable: erträglich, tolerierbar, duldbar, erduldbar, leidlich, tolerabel, zulässig. twirling: wirbelnd. twisting: Krümmung, Verschlingung, Verdrillen, Verdrehung, verdrehend, Schlinge, sichschlängelnd, Windung, Schleife, schlängelnd, Kurve. worshippers: Verehrer.

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"Can you imagine," Ferfitchkin interrupted hotly and conceitedly, like some insolent flunkey boasting of his master the General's decorations, "can you imagine that Zverkov will let us pay alone? He will accept from delicacy, but he will order half a dozen bottles of champagne." "Do we want half a dozen for the four of us?" observed Trudolyubov, taking notice only of the half dozen.% "So the three of us, with Zverkov for the fourth, twenty-one roubles, at the Hotel de Paris at five o'clock tomorrow," Simonov, who had been asked to make the arrangements, concluded finally. "How twenty-one roubles?" I asked in some agitation, with a show of being offended; "if you count me it will not be twenty-one, but twenty-eight roubles." It seemed to me that to invite myself so suddenly and unexpectedly would be positively graceful, and that they would all be conquered at once and would look at me with respect. "Do you want to join, too?" Simonov observed, with no appearance of pleasure, seeming to avoid looking at me. He knew me through and through. It infuriated me that he knew me so thoroughly. "Why not? I am an old schoolfellow of his, too, I believe, and I must own I feel hurt that you have left me out," I said, boiling over again. "And where were we to find you?" Ferfitchkin put in roughly. "You never were on good terms with Zverkov," Trudolyubov added, frowning. But I had already clutched at the idea and would not give it up. "It seems to me that no one has a right to form an opinion upon that," I retorted in a shaking voice, as though something tremendous had happened. "Perhaps that is just my reason for wishing it now, that I have not always been on good terms with him." "Oh, there's no making you out ... with these refinements," Trudolyubov jeered.

German agitation: Bewegung, Aufruhr, Agitation, Aufstand, Hektik, Ruhelosigkeit, Streß, Krawall, Nervosität, Tumult, Getümmel. boasting: Prahlend, Aufschneidend, Prahlerei. boiling: kochend, siedend, Kochen. bottles: Flaschen. clutched: packte. conceitedly: Eingebildet. conquered: erobert, eroberte, eroberten, erobertet, erobertest.

decorations: Dekorationen, Verzierungen. delicacy: Delikatesse, Leckerbissen, Feinheit, Zierlichkeit, Zartgefühl, Takt, Nascherei, Leckerei, Erquickung, Erfrischung, Dünne. flunkey: der Lakai, Lakai. frowning: missbilligend, die Stirne runzelnd, kraus. graceful: graziös, anmutig, zierlich, hold, elegant, würdevoll, verschmitzt, reizend, lieblich, schick,

entzückend. hotly: heiß. interrupted: unterbrochen. invite: einladen, ladet ein, laden ein, lädst ein, lade ein, bitten, auffordern, engagieren. seeming: scheinend, scheinbar. shaking: schüttelnd, erschütternd, rüttelnd, bebend, Schütteln. thoroughly: gründlich, durch und durch. wishing: Wünschend.

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"We'll put your name down," Simonov decided, addressing me. "Tomorrow at five-o'clock at the Hotel de Paris." "What about the money?" Ferfitchkin began in an undertone, indicating me to Simonov, but he broke off, for even Simonov was embarrassed.% "That will do," said Trudolyubov, getting up. "If he wants to come so much, let him." "But it's a private thing, between us friends," Ferfitchkin said crossly, as he, too, picked up his hat. "It's not an official gathering." "We do not want at all, perhaps ..." They went away. Ferfitchkin did not greet me in any way as he went out, Trudolyubov barely nodded. Simonov, with whom I was left tete-a-tete, was in a state of vexation and perplexity, and looked at me queerly. He did not sit down and did not ask me to. "H'm ... yes ... tomorrow, then. Will you pay your subscription now? I just ask so as to know," he muttered in embarrassment. I flushed crimson, as I did so I remembered that I had owed Simonov fifteen roubles for ages—which I had, indeed, never forgotten, though I had not paid it. "You will understand, Simonov, that I could have no idea when I came here... I am very much vexed that I have forgotten..." "All right, all right, that doesn't matter. You can pay tomorrow after the dinner. I simply wanted to know... Please don't ..." He broke off and began pacing the room still more vexed. As he walked he began to stamp with his heels. "Am I keeping you?" I asked, after two minutes of silence. "Oh!" he said, starting, "that is—to be truthful—yes. I have to go and see someone ... not far from here," he added in an apologetic voice, somewhat abashed.

German abashed: beschämte, beschämtest, beschämt, beschämtet, beschämten, verlegen. apologetic: entschuldigend, apologetisch. crimson: Karmesinrot, Karmesin, purpurrot. crossly: böse. flushed: scheuchte auf, errötet, durchflutet, ausgespült. greet: grüßen, grüßt, grüße, grüßst, begrüßen, begrüßst, begrüßt,

begrüße, willkommen heissen, salutieren. heels: Absätze, Fersen, Hacken, Schuhabsätze. indicating: anzeigend, zeigend, indizierend, hinweisend, anzeigen. muttered: gemurmelt. owed: geschuldet, schuldete, schuldeten, schuldetest, schuldetet. pacing: Durchschreitend. perplexity: Verwirrung, Verlegenheit, Bestürzung, Entsetzung, Hemmnis,

Lästiges. queerly: seltsam. stamp: Briefmarke, Stempel, abstempeln, prägen, Stempeln, stampfen, Marke, Gepräge, Postwertzeichen, frankieren, Klebemarke. subscription: Abonnement, Zeichnung, Subskription. undertone: Unterton, Leiser Ton. vexed: geärgert, ärgerte, ärgerten, ärgertest, ärgertet, verärgert.

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"My goodness, why didn't you say so?" I cried, seizing my cap, with an astonishingly free-and-easy air, which was the last thing I should have expected of myself. "It's close by ... not two paces away," Simonov repeated, accompanying me to the front door with a fussy air which did not suit him at all. "So five o'clock, punctually, tomorrow," he called down the stairs after me. He was very glad to get rid of me. I was in a fury.% "What possessed me, what possessed me to force myself upon them?" I wondered, grinding my teeth as I strode along the street, "for a scoundrel, a pig like that Zverkov! Of course I had better not go; of course, I must just snap my fingers at them. I am not bound in any way. I'll send Simonov a note by tomorrow's post..." But what made me furious was that I knew for certain that I should go, that I should make a point of going; and the more tactless, the more unseemly my going would be, the more certainly I would go. And there was a positive obstacle to my going: I had no money. All I had was nine roubles, I had to give seven of that to my servant, Apollon, for his monthly wages. That was all I paid him—he had to keep himself. Not to pay him was impossible, considering his character. But I will talk about that fellow, about that plague of mine, another time. However, I knew I should go and should not pay him his wages. That night I had the most hideous dreams. No wonder; all the evening I had been oppressed by memories of my miserable days at school, and I could not shake them off. I was sent to the school by distant relations, upon whom I was dependent and of whom I have heard nothing since—they sent me there a forlorn, silent boy, already crushed by their reproaches, already troubled by doubt, and looking with savage distrust at everyone. My schoolfellows met me with spiteful and merciless jibes because I was not like any of them. But I could not endure their taunts; I could not give in to them with the ignoble readiness with which they gave in to one another. I hated them from the first, and shut

German accompanying: begleitend, zuzüglich, geleitend. astonishingly: erstaunlicherweise. cried: geschrieen, schrie. crushed: zerbrochen, zerdrückte. distrust: Misstrauen, Argwohn. forlorn: verlassen, einsam, verloren, öde, vereinsamt. fussy: heikel, wählerisch, pingelig, umständlich. goodness: Güte, Tugend. jibes: Stimmt zu.

merciless: erbarmungslos, unbarmherzig, gnadenlos, mitleidlos, mitleidslos, schonungslos, gewissenlos. obstacle: Hindernis, Behinderung, Hürde, Klippe, Schranke. pig: Schwein, Eber, das Schwein. plague: pest, plagen, Plage, Seuche, Epidemie. punctually: pünktlich. readiness: Bereitschaft. reproaches: wirft vor.

seizing: Ergreifend, greifend, einziehend. snap: Knacken, schnappen, Schnappschuß, schnipsen, kaputtmachen, aufbrechen, beschädigen, brechen. strode: schritt, überschreiten, Schreiten, ausschreiten, übersteigen, stiefelte, stiefeln, schreitete, gestiefelt, geschritten, durchschreiten. tactless: taktlos. taunts: stichelt.

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myself away from everyone in timid, wounded and disproportionate pride. Their coarseness revolted me. They laughed cynically at my face, at my clumsy figure; and yet what stupid faces they had themselves. In our school the boys' faces seemed in a special way to degenerate and grow stupider. How many finelooking %boys came to us! In a few years they became repulsive. Even at sixteen I wondered at them morosely; even then I was struck by the pettiness of their thoughts, the stupidity of their pursuits, their games, their conversations. They had no understanding of such essential things, they took no interest in such striking, impressive subjects, that I could not help considering them inferior to myself. It was not wounded vanity that drove me to it, and for God's sake do not thrust upon me your hackneyed remarks, repeated to nausea, that "I was only a dreamer," while they even then had an understanding of life. They understood nothing, they had no idea of real life, and I swear that that was what made me most indignant with them. On the contrary, the most obvious, striking reality they accepted with fantastic stupidity and even at that time were accustomed to respect success. Everything that was just, but oppressed and looked down upon, they laughed at heartlessly and shamefully. They took rank for intelligence; even at sixteen they were already talking about a snug berth. Of course, a great deal of it was due to their stupidity, to the bad examples with which they had always been surrounded in their childhood and boyhood. They were monstrously depraved. Of course a great deal of that, too, was superficial and an assumption of cynicism; of course there were glimpses of youth and freshness even in their depravity; but even that freshness was not attractive, and showed itself in a certain rakishness. I hated them horribly, though perhaps I was worse than any of them. They repaid me in the same way, and did not conceal their aversion for me. But by then I did not desire their affection: on the contrary, I continually longed for their humiliation. To escape from their derision I purposely began to make all the progress I could with my studies and forced my way to the very top. This impressed them. Moreover, they all began by degrees to grasp that I had already read books none of them could read, and understood things (not forming part of our school curriculum) of which they had not even heard. They took a savage and sarcastic view of it, but were morally impressed,

German boyhood: Jugend, Kindheit. coarseness: Vulgarität, Derbheit, Ungeschliffenheit, Plattheit. cynically: zynisch. cynicism: Zynismus. degenerate: entarten, entarte, entartet, entartest, ausarten, arte aus, degenerieren, artest aus, artet aus, arten aus, degeneriert. depraved: verdarben, verworfen, verdorben, verdarbst, verdarbt, verdarb, lasterhaft.

derision: Verspottung, Hohn, Spott, Spotten, Spöttelei. disproportionate: unverhältnismäßig, verhältniswidrig. freshness: Frische. glimpses: Blicke, Erblickt flüchtig. hackneyed: abgedroschen, banal. heartlessly: herzlos. indignant: entrüstet, ungehalten, empört, unwillig. morosely: mürrisch. nausea: Übelkeit, Ekel, Brechreiz,

Nausea. pettiness: Geringfügigkeit, Kleinlichkeit, Bürgerlichkeit, Bürgerlichsein. pursuits: Verfolgungen. revolted: aufgelehnt. sarcastic: sarkastisch, scharf, anzüglich, gehässig, schneidend, bissig, ätzend, stoppelig, stachlig, beißend. shamefully: schändlich. snug: behaglich, gemütlich, mollig.

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especially as the teachers began to notice me on those grounds. The mockery ceased, but the hostility remained, and cold and strained relations became permanent between us. In the end I could not put up with it: with years a craving for society, for friends, developed in me. I attempted to get on friendly terms with some of my schoolfellows; %but somehow or other my intimacy with them was always strained and soon ended of itself. Once, indeed, I did have a friend. But I was already a tyrant at heart; I wanted to exercise unbounded sway over him; I tried to instil into him a contempt for his surroundings; I required of him a disdainful and complete break with those surroundings. I frightened him with my passionate affection; I reduced him to tears, to hysterics. He was a simple and devoted soul; but when he devoted himself to me entirely I began to hate him immediately and repulsed him—as though all I needed him for was to win a victory over him, to subjugate him and nothing else. But I could not subjugate all of them; my friend was not at all like them either, he was, in fact, a rare exception. The first thing I did on leaving school was to give up the special job for which I had been destined so as to break all ties, to curse my past and shake the dust from off my feet... And goodness knows why, after all that, I should go trudging off to Simonov's! Early next morning I roused myself and jumped out of bed with excitement, as though it were all about to happen at once. But I believed that some radical change in my life was coming, and would inevitably come that day. Owing to its rarity, perhaps, any external event, however trivial, always made me feel as though some radical change in my life were at hand. I went to the office, however, as usual, but sneaked away home two hours earlier to get ready. The great thing, I thought, is not to be the first to arrive, or they will think I am overjoyed at coming. But there were thousands of such great points to consider, and they all agitated and overwhelmed me. I polished my boots a second time with my own hands; nothing in the world would have induced Apollon to clean them twice a day, as he considered that it was more than his duties required of him. I stole the brushes to clean them from the passage, being careful he should not detect it, for fear of his contempt. Then I minutely examined my clothes and thought that everything looked old, worn and threadbare. I had let myself get

German agitated: regtet auf, regte auf, regten auf, aufgeregt, regtest auf, beunruhigt, beunruhigte, beunruhigten, beunruhigtest, beunruhigtet, erregt. brushes: handbesen, handfeger, bürste von Schweinsborsten. destined: bestimmt, bestimmte, bestimmten, bestimmtest, bestimmtet. disdainful: schnöde, verachtungsvoll, verächtlich.

hysterics: Hysterie. instil: einschärfen. intimacy: Vertrautheit, Intimität, Innigkeit, Vertraulichkeit. minutely: haarfein, haarklein, haarscharf, genau, haargenau, exakt. overjoyed: überglücklich. rarity: Seltenheit, Rarität. repulsed: abgewiesen. roused: geweckt, weckten, wecktest, weckte, wecktet. sneaked: geschlichen.

subjugate: unterwerfen, bezwingen, unterwirf, bezwinge, bezwingst, bezwingt, überwältigen, überwinden, unterbreiten, unterwerfe, unterwerft. sway: schwingen, schwanken, wiegen, schwenken, schlingern, wanken, taumeln, schlingen, schleudern, schlenkern, pendeln. threadbare: fadenscheinig, abgegriffen, abgenutzt, abgewetzt. trudging: sich schleppend. tyrant: Tyrann, Wüterich, Despot.

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too slovenly. My uniform, perhaps, was tidy, but I could not go out to dinner in my uniform. The worst of it was that on the knee of my trousers was a big yellow stain. I had a foreboding that that stain would deprive me of nine-tenths of my personal dignity. I knew, too, that it was very poor to think so. "But this is no %time for thinking: now I am in for the real thing," I thought, and my heart sank. I knew, too, perfectly well even then, that I was monstrously exaggerating the facts. But how could I help it? I could not control myself and was already shaking with fever. With despair I pictured to myself how coldly and disdainfully that "scoundrel" Zverkov would meet me; with what dull-witted, invincible contempt the blockhead Trudolyubov would look at me; with what impudent rudeness the insect Ferfitchkin would snigger at me in order to curry favour with Zverkov; how completely Simonov would take it all in, and how he would despise me for the abjectness of my vanity and lack of spirit—and, worst of all, how paltry, unliterary, commonplace it would all be. Of course, the best thing would be not to go at all. But that was most impossible of all: if I feel impelled to do anything, I seem to be pitchforked into it. I should have jeered at myself ever afterwards: "So you funked it, you funked it, you funked the real thing!" On the contrary, I passionately longed to show all that "rabble" that I was by no means such a spiritless creature as I seemed to myself. What is more, even in the acutest paroxysm of this cowardly fever, I dreamed of getting the upper hand, of dominating them, carrying them away, making them like me—if only for my "elevation of thought and unmistakable wit." They would abandon Zverkov, he would sit on one side, silent and ashamed, while I should crush him. Then, perhaps, we would be reconciled and drink to our everlasting friendship; but what was most bitter and humiliating for me was that I knew even then, knew fully and for certain, that I needed nothing of all this really, that I did not really want to crush, to subdue, to attract them, and that I did not care a straw really for the result, even if I did achieve it. Oh, how I prayed for the day to pass quickly! In unutterable anguish I went to the window, opened the movable pane and looked out into the troubled darkness of the thickly falling wet snow. At last my wretched little clock hissed out five. I seized my hat and, trying not to look at Apollon, who had been all day expecting his month's wages, but in his

German curry: Striegeln, Curry. deprive: berauben, beraubt, beraubst, beraube, entwenden, fortnehmen, entnehmen, wegnehmen, rauben, stehlen, abnehmen. dominating: dominierend, herrschend. exaggerating: übertreibend, aufbauschend, übertreiben. foreboding: Ahnend, Vorahnung. invincible: unbesiegbar. movable: beweglich, aufzuheben,

hebbar. paltry: dürftig, erbärmlich, armselig, gemein. pane: Scheibe, Raute, Quadrat, Pepita, Viereck. paroxysm: Anfall. rudeness: Grobheit, Unverschämtheit, Frechheit, Dreistigkeit. slovenly: schlampig, liederlich. snigger: kichern. spiritless: lustlos, ohne Energie, Schlaff.

subdue: überwältigen, unterwerfen, überwältigst, überwältigt, unterwirfst, unterwirf, unterwerft, unterwerfe, überwältige, überwinden, bezwingen. thickly: dick. unmistakable: unmissverständlich, unverkennbar, klar, deutlich, eindeutig, offensichtlich, sonnenklar, sicher. unutterable: unaussprechlich, unsagbar.

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foolishness was unwilling to be the first to speak about it, I slipped between him and the door and, jumping into a high-class sledge, on which I spent my last half rouble, I drove up in grand style to the Hotel de Paris. %

German de: Ent. drove: Fuhr, fuhrst, fuhren, fuhrt, trieben an, triebt an, triebt, triebst an, triebst, trieben, trieb an. foolishness: Dummheit, Torheit, Idiotie, Kinderei, Kindlichkeit, Kleinigkeit, Naivität, Narrheit, Gutgläubigkeit, Schlichtheit, Unschuld. grand: großartig, gewaltig, gross, grandios, ansehnlich, prachtvoll.

jumping: Springend, Springen, ausgegeben, verbraucht. Sprunghaft, Hüpfen, Gehüpfe. style: Stil, Griffel, stilisieren, rouble: Rubel. Entwerfen, Art. sledge: Schlitten, schlittenfahren, unwilling: widerwillig, Schlitten fahren. nichtdienstwillig, ungefällig, slipped: ausgerutscht. nichthilfsbereit, abweisend, speak: sprechen, sprichst, spreche, unfreundlich. sprecht, sprich, reden. spent: verbrachtet, gaben aus, gabt aus, verbracht, verbrachte, gabst aus, verbrachten, verbrachtest, gab aus,

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I %had been certain the day before that I should be the first to arrive. But it was not a question of being the first to arrive. Not only were they not there, but I had difficulty in finding our room. The table was not laid even. What did it mean? After a good many questions I elicited from the waiters that the dinner had been ordered not for five, but for six o'clock. This was confirmed at the buffet too. I felt really ashamed to go on questioning them. It was only twentyfive minutes past five. If they changed the dinner hour they ought at least to have let me know—that is what the post is for, and not to have put me in an absurd position in my own eyes and ... and even before the waiters. I sat down; the servant began laying the table; I felt even more humiliated when he was present. Towards six o'clock they brought in candles, though there were lamps burning in the room. It had not occurred to the waiter, however, to bring them in at once when I arrived. In the next room two gloomy, angry- looking persons were eating their dinners in silence at two different tables. There was a great deal of noise, even shouting, in a room further away; one could hear the laughter of a crowd of people, and nasty little shrieks in French: there were ladies at the dinner. It was sickening, in fact. I rarely passed more unpleasant moments, so much so that when they did arrive all together punctually at six I was overjoyed to see them, as though they were my deliverers, and even forgot that it was incumbent upon me to show resentment.

German ashamed: beschämt, enttäuscht, verschämt. buffet: Büfett, Büffet, Schankraum, Schlag, Buffet, Puff. candles: Kerzen. deliverers: Befreier, Austeiler, Austräger. dinners: Diners. eating: Essend, speisend. elicited: entlocktest, hervorgelockt, entlocktet, entlockten, entlockte, entlockt.

forgot: vergaßt, vergass, vergaßen, vergaßest, vergessen. humiliated: erniedrigt, gedemütigt, erniedrigtet, erniedrigtest, erniedrigte, demütigtet, demütigtest, demütigten, demütigte, erniedrigten. incumbent: obliegend, Amtsinhaber, Generalgouverneur, Statthalter, Regent, Gouverneur, Fürst, Herrscher. lamps: Lampen. laying: Legend, Eierlegen, Legen.

questioning: fragend, Befragung. resentment: Ärger, Verstimmung, Mißgunst, Ressentiment. shouting: Schreien, schreiend. shrieks: kreischt. sickening: erkrankend, widerlich. unpleasant: unangenehm, brummig, unwirsch, unerfreulich, unbequem, schwer, kaltherzig, störend, lästig. waiter: Kellner, Ober. waiters: Kellner, Kellnerin, Ober, Servierin.

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Zverkov walked in at the head of them; evidently he was the leading spirit. He and all of them were laughing; but, seeing me, Zverkov drew himself up a little, walked up to me deliberately with a slight, rather jaunty bend from the waist. He shook hands with me in a friendly, but not over- friendly, fashion, with a sort of circumspect courtesy like that of a General, as though in giving me his hand he were warding off something. I had imagined, on the contrary, that on coming in he would at once break into his habitual thin, shrill laugh and fall to making his insipid jokes and witticisms. I had been preparing for them ever since the previous day, but I had not expected such condescension, such highofficial courtesy. So, then, he felt himself ineffably superior to me in every respect! If he only meant to insult me by that high-official tone, it would not matter, I thought—I could pay him back for it one way or another. But what if, in reality, without the least desire to be offensive, that sheepshead had a notion in earnest that he was superior to me and could only look at me in a patronising way? The very supposition made me gasp.% "I was surprised to hear of your desire to join us," he began, lisping and drawling, which was something new. "You and I seem to have seen nothing of one another. You fight shy of us. You shouldn't. We are not such terrible people as you think. Well, anyway, I am glad to renew our acquaintance." And he turned carelessly to put down his hat on the window. "Have you been waiting long?" Trudolyubov inquired. "I arrived at five o'clock as you told me yesterday," I answered aloud, with an irritability that threatened an explosion. "Didn't you let him know that we had changed the hour?" said Trudolyubov to Simonov. "No, I didn't. I forgot," the latter replied, with no sign of regret, and without even apologising to me he went off to order the hors d'oeuvre. "So you've been here a whole hour? Oh, poor fellow!" Zverkov cried ironically, for to his notions this was bound to be extremely funny. That rascal

German aloud: laut, lauthals, lautstark, unsanft, tosend, streng, steif, schwierig, schrill, schnell, sauer. carelessly: sorglos, nachlässig. circumspect: vorsichtig, umsichtig. condescension: Herablassung. courtesy: Höflichkeit, Wohlwollen, Verbindlichkeit. drawling: dehnend, affektiert. evidently: offensichtlich, augenscheinlich. habitual: gewohnheitsmäßig,

gewohnt, habituell, gewohnte. ineffably: unaussprechlich, unbeschreiblich. inquired: forschtet aus, fahndeten, fahndetest, fahndetet, forschte, forschte aus, forschten, forschten aus, forschtest, forschtet, gefahndet. insipid: fade, fad, flau. ironically: ironisch. jaunty: munter. lisping: lispelnd. notions: Ahnungen.

offensive: offensiv, Anstößig, angreifend, beleidigend, abstoßend, aggressiv, widerwärtig, gewaltsam. patronising: Begünstigen. renew: erneuern, erneuere, erneuerst, erneuert, erneure, verlängern. shrill: schrill, grell, höllisch, schroff, gellend, anzüglich, eindringlich, durchdringend, scharf klingend. shy: Scheu, schüchtern, kopfscheu, verlegen, befangen. waist: Taille, die Taille.

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Ferfitchkin followed with his nasty little snigger like a puppy yapping. My position struck him, too, as exquisitely ludicrous and embarrassing.% "It isn't funny at all!" I cried to Ferfitchkin, more and more irritated. "It wasn't my fault, but other people's. They neglected to let me know. It was ... it was ... it was simply absurd." "It's not only absurd, but something else as well," muttered Trudolyubov, naively taking my part. "You are not hard enough upon it. It was simply rudeness—unintentional, of course. And how could Simonov ... h'm!" "If a trick like that had been played on me," observed Ferfitchkin, "I should ..." "But you should have ordered something for yourself," Zverkov interrupted, "or simply asked for dinner without waiting for us." "You will allow that I might have done that without your permission," I rapped out. "If I waited, it was ..." "Let us sit down, gentlemen," cried Simonov, coming in. "Everything is ready; I can answer for the champagne; it is capitally frozen... You see, I did not know your address, where was I to look for you?" he suddenly turned to me, but again he seemed to avoid looking at me. Evidently he had something against me. It must have been what happened yesterday. All sat down; I did the same. It was a round table. Trudolyubov was on my left, Simonov on my right, Zverkov was sitting opposite, Ferfitchkin next to him, between him and Trudolyubov. "Tell me, are you ... in a government office?" Zverkov went on attending to me. Seeing that I was embarrassed he seriously thought that he ought to be friendly to me, and, so to speak, cheer me up. "Does he want me to throw a bottle at his head?" I thought, in a fury. In my novel surroundings I was unnaturally ready to be irritated. "In the N-—office," I answered jerkily, with my eyes on my plate.

German attending: besuchend, pflegend, beiwohnend. capitally: kapital. champagne: Champagner, Sekt. cheer: zujubeln, Hochruf, jubeln, bejubeln, Jubelruf, bejauchzen, komplimentieren, feiern, Freudenruf, Freudenschrei, zujauchzen. embarrassed: verlegen, gehindert, unbehaglich, umbequem, verwirrte, lästig, betreten, unbequem, unangenehm.

exquisitely: vorzüglich. fury: Wut, Furie, Raserei, Zorn, Tobsucht, Verrücktheit, Grimmigkeit, Koller. jerkily: ruckartig. ludicrous: lächerlich, albern. naively: naiv. nasty: garstig, widerlich, böse, hässlich, gemein, scheußlich, heimtückisch, unangenehm, ekelhaft, übel, eklig. neglected: vernachlässigt,

verwahrlost, verwildert, ungepflegt, unversorgt, vernachlässigte, zerzaust. puppy: Welpe, Jung, Junge, Junger Hund. struck: angeschlagen. surroundings: Umgebung, Umgebungen. trick: List, Kniff, Kunstgriff, Trick, Streich, Pfiffigkeit, Tücke, Ausflucht, Witzigkeit, Schlauheit, Narren. unnaturally: unnatürlich. yapping: quasselnd, gekläfft, kläffend.

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"And ha-ave you a go-od berth? I say, what ma-a-de you leave your original job?" "What ma-a-de me was that I wanted to leave my original job," I drawled more than he, hardly able to control myself. Ferfitchkin went off into a guffaw. Simonov looked at me ironically. Trudolyubov left off eating and began looking at me with curiosity.% Zverkov winced, but he tried not to notice it. "And the remuneration?" "What remuneration?" "I mean, your sa-a-lary?" "Why are you cross-examining me?" However, I told him at once what my salary was. I turned horribly red. "It is not very handsome," Zverkov observed majestically. "Yes, you can't afford to dine at cafes on that," Ferfitchkin added insolently. "To my thinking it's very poor," Trudolyubov observed gravely. "And how thin you have grown! How you have changed!" added Zverkov, with a shade of venom in his voice, scanning me and my attire with a sort of insolent compassion. "Oh, spare his blushes," cried Ferfitchkin, sniggering. "My dear sir, allow me to tell you I am not blushing," I broke out at last; "do you hear? I am dining here, at this cafe, at my own expense, not at other people's—note that, Mr. Ferfitchkin." "Wha-at? Isn't every one here dining at his own expense? You would seem to be ..." Ferfitchkin flew out at me, turning as red as a lobster, and looking me in the face with fury. "Tha-at," I answered, feeling I had gone too far, "and I imagine it would be better to talk of something more intelligent." "You intend to show off your intelligence, I suppose?" "Don't disturb yourself, that would be quite out of place here."

German answered: geantwortet. cafe: Café. cafes: Kaffeehäuser. dine: speisen, speist, speise. dining: Speisend. disturb: stören, störst, stört, störe, genieren, beengen, geniert, genierst, lästig werden, hindern, geniere. drawled: dehnte, dehnten, dehntest, dehntet, gedehnt, sprach affektiert. expense: Ausgabe, Aufwand, Geldausgabe, Aufwendung.

flew: flog, flogst, flogt, flogen. gravely: ernst, ernstlich, schwerlich. guffaw: Schallendes Gelächter. insolently: unverschämt. intend: beabsichtigen, beabsichtige, beabsichtigst, beabsichtigt, vorhaben, hast vor, habt vor, haben vor, habe vor, hab vor, bezwecken. lobster: Hummer, Seekrebs, Seekrabbe, Languste, Krebs, der Hummer. majestically: majestätisch.

salary: Gehalt, Lohn, Besoldung, Gage, Monatslohn, Verdienst, Salär, Arbeitslohn, Erwerbseinkünfte, Einkünfte, Einkommen. scanning: Abtastung, abtastend, überfliegend, Lesend. shade: Schatten, schattieren, Schattierung, Farbton, Nuance, Abstufung, beschatten, Ton, Leuchtenschirm. sniggering: kichernd. venom: Gift, Gehässigkeit.

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"Why are you clacking away like that, my good sir, eh? Have you gone out of your wits in your office?" "Enough, gentlemen, enough!" Zverkov cried, authoritatively.% "How stupid it is!" muttered Simonov. "It really is stupid. We have met here, a company of friends, for a farewell dinner to a comrade and you carry on an altercation," said Trudolyubov, rudely addressing himself to me alone. "You invited yourself to join us, so don't disturb the general harmony." "Enough, enough!" cried Zverkov. "Give over, gentlemen, it's out of place. Better let me tell you how I nearly got married the day before yesterday..." And then followed a burlesque narrative of how this gentleman had almost been married two days before. There was not a word about the marriage, however, but the story was adorned with generals, colonels and kammerjunkers, while Zverkov almost took the lead among them. It was greeted with approving laughter; Ferfitchkin positively squealed. No one paid any attention to me, and I sat crushed and humiliated. "Good Heavens, these are not the people for me!" I thought. "And what a fool I have made of myself before them! I let Ferfitchkin go too far, though. The brutes imagine they are doing me an honour in letting me sit down with them. They don't understand that it's an honour to them and not to me! I've grown thinner! My clothes! Oh, damn my trousers! Zverkov noticed the yellow stain on the knee as soon as he came in... But what's the use! I must get up at once, this very minute, take my hat and simply go without a word ... with contempt! And tomorrow I can send a challenge. The scoundrels! As though I cared about the seven roubles. They may think... Damn it! I don't care about the seven roubles. I'll go this minute!" Of course I remained. I drank sherry and Lafitte by the glassful in my discomfiture. Being unaccustomed to it, I was quickly affected. My annoyance increased as the wine went to my head. I longed all at once to insult them all in a most flagrant manner and then go away. To seize the moment and show what I

German adorned: schmücktest, geschmückt, schmücktet, schmückte, schmückten, ziertet, ziertest, geziert, zierten, zierte. annoyance: Verdruss, Belästigung, Ärger, Weh, Harm, Gram, Betrübnis. approving: genehmigend, billigend, zustimmend, gutheißend, Einstimmung, Zustimmung, beifällig. brutes: Scheusale, Unmenschen. burlesque: Burlesk, Burleske. clacking: klappernd.

colonels: Oberste. discomfiture: Niederlage. flagrant: schamlos, abscheulich. glassful: Glasvoll. longed: gesehnt. narrative: Erzählung, erzählend, Geschichte, Bericht, Schilderung, erzählerisch. rudely: flegelhaft, grob, unverschämt. scoundrels: Schufte, Schurken. seize: ergreifen, ergreife, greifen, ergreifst, ergreift, greife, greifst,

greift, beschlagnahmen, einziehen, hervorholen. sherry: Sherry. squealed: petzte. stain: Fleck, beflecken, flecken, Beize, beizen, Klecks, einflecken, beschmutzen, leicht schmutzig werden, sudeln. thinner: Verdünnungsmittel, Verdünnung, Farbverdünner. unaccustomed: ungewohnt. wits: Verstand, Witze.

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could do, so that they would say, "He's clever, though he is absurd," and ... and ... in fact, damn them all! I scanned them all insolently with my drowsy eyes. But they seemed to have forgotten me altogether. They were noisy, vociferous, cheerful. Zverkov was talking all the time. I began listening. Zverkov was talking of some exuberant lady whom he had at last led on to declaring her love (of course, he was lying like a horse), and how he had been helped in this affair by an intimate friend of his, a Prince Kolya, an officer in the hussars, who had three thousand serfs.% "And yet this Kolya, who has three thousand serfs, has not put in an appearance here tonight to see you off," I cut in suddenly. For one minute every one was silent. "You are drunk already." Trudolyubov deigned to notice me at last, glancing contemptuously in my direction. Zverkov, without a word, examined me as though I were an insect. I dropped my eyes. Simonov made haste to fill up the glasses with champagne. Trudolyubov raised his glass, as did everyone else but me. "Your health and good luck on the journey!" he cried to Zverkov. "To old times, to our future, hurrah!" They all tossed off their glasses, and crowded round Zverkov to kiss him. I did not move; my full glass stood untouched before me. "Why, aren't you going to drink it?" roared Trudolyubov, losing patience and turning menacingly to me. "I want to make a speech separately, on my own account ... and then I'll drink it, Mr. Trudolyubov." "Spiteful brute!" muttered Simonov. I drew myself up in my chair and feverishly seized my glass, prepared for something extraordinary, though I did not know myself precisely what I was going to say. "Silence!" cried Ferfitchkin. "Now for a display of wit!" Zverkov waited very gravely, knowing what was coming.

German cheerful: fröhlich, heiter, lustig, vergnügt, gutgelaunt, munter, herzensfroh, aufgekratzt, froh, freudig, entzückt. crowded: überfüllt, gedrängt, vollgestopft, voll, übervoll, gerammelt voll, gedrängt voll. declaring: deklarierend, erklärend. deigned: geruhtet, geruhtest, geruhten, geruhte, geruht. drowsy: schläfrig, schlaftrunken, dumpf, schlaff, dösig, dumpfig,

duselig, stumpfsinnig, verschlafen, betäubt. extraordinary: außerordentlich, außergewöhnlich. exuberant: üppig, überschwänglich, ausgelassen, überschäumend, fröhlich. feverishly: fieberhaft, fieberig. glancing: blickend, überblicken. haste: Eile, Hast, Geschwindigkeit. menacingly: bedrohen, bedrohende. noisy: laut, geräuschvoll, ausgelassen,

unbändig, lärmend, lärmig. patience: Geduld, Ausdauer. scanned: tasteten ab, tastetest ab, tastetet ab, abgetastet, tastete ab, überflogen, überflog, überflogt, überflogst. tossed: geworfen. untouched: unberührt, unangetastet, unversehrt, unverfälscht, unbeschädigt, unbefleckt, pur, jungfräulich, ganz, fehlerfrei, rein. vociferous: lautstark.

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"Mr. Lieutenant Zverkov," I began, "let me tell you that I hate phrases, phrasemongers and men in corsets ... that's the first point, and there is a second one to follow it." There was a general stir.% "The second point is: I hate ribaldry and ribald talkers. Especially ribald talkers! The third point: I love justice, truth and honesty." I went on almost mechanically, for I was beginning to shiver with horror myself and had no idea how I came to be talking like this. "I love thought, Monsieur Zverkov; I love true comradeship, on an equal footing and not ... H'm ... I love ... But, however, why not? I will drink your health, too, Mr. Zverkov. Seduce the Circassian girls, shoot the enemies of the fatherland and ... and ... to your health, Monsieur Zverkov!" Zverkov got up from his seat, bowed to me and said: "I am very much obliged to you." He was frightfully offended and turned pale. "Damn the fellow!" roared Trudolyubov, bringing his fist down on the table. "Well, he wants a punch in the face for that," squealed Ferfitchkin. "We ought to turn him out," muttered Simonov. "Not a word, gentlemen, not a movement!" cried Zverkov solemnly, checking the general indignation. "I thank you all, but I can show him for myself how much value I attach to his words." "Mr. Ferfitchkin, you will give me satisfaction tomorrow for your words just now!" I said aloud, turning with dignity to Ferfitchkin. "A duel, you mean? Certainly," he answered. But probably I was so ridiculous as I challenged him and it was so out of keeping with my appearance that everyone including Ferfitchkin was prostrate with laughter. "Yes, let him alone, of course! He is quite drunk," Trudolyubov said with disgust. "I shall never forgive myself for letting him join us," Simonov muttered again.

German attach: befestigen, befestigt, befestigst, befestige, anheften, Attach, heftet an, heftest an, heften an, hefte an, beifügen. bowed: verbeugte, gebeugt. challenged: herausgefordert. checking: Kontrolle, überprüfung, Prüfung, abzählen. comradeship: Kameradschaft. corsets: Korsetts. disgust: Ekel, Ekeln, Empören, Abstoß, Übelkeit.

drink: trinken, Getränk, saufen, Trank, zechen, Schluck, Alhohol trinken. enemies: Feinde. fatherland: Vaterland, Heimat. indignation: Empörung, Entrüstung, Ärger. justice: Gerechtigkeit, Justiz, Recht. mechanically: mechanisch. phrases: Phrasen. prostrate: niederwerfen, erschöpft, hingestreckt. punch: Punsch, Faustschlag, Stempel,

Durchschlag, Locher, Schlag, schlagen, Stanze, stanzen, punzen, Puff. ribald: deftig. ribaldry: Schlüpfrigkeit, Schäbigkeit, Obszönität. shiver: zittern, zucken, beben, Splitter, Frösteln, schlottern, bibbern, Erschütterung, frieren, schaudern, Schauer. tomorrow: morgen. truth: Wahrheit.

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"Now%is the time to throw a bottle at their heads," I thought to myself. I picked up the bottle ... and filled my glass... "No, I'd better sit on to the end," I went on thinking; "you would be pleased, my friends, if I went away. Nothing will induce me to go. I'll go on sitting here and drinking to the end, on purpose, as a sign that I don't think you of the slightest consequence. I will go on sitting and drinking, because this is a public-house and I paid my entrance money. I'll sit here and drink, for I look upon you as so many pawns, as inanimate pawns. I'll sit here and drink ... and sing if I want to, yes, sing, for I have the right to ... to sing ... H'm!" But I did not sing. I simply tried not to look at any of them. I assumed most unconcerned attitudes and waited with impatience for them to speak first. But alas, they did not address me! And oh, how I wished, how I wished at that moment to be reconciled to them! It struck eight, at last nine. They moved from the table to the sofa. Zverkov stretched himself on a lounge and put one foot on a round table. Wine was brought there. He did, as a fact, order three bottles on his own account. I, of course, was not invited to join them. They all sat round him on the sofa. They listened to him, almost with reverence. It was evident that they were fond of him. "What for? What for?" I wondered. From time to time they were moved to drunken enthusiasm and kissed each other. They talked of the Caucasus, of the nature of true passion, of snug berths in the service, of the income of an hussar called Podharzhevsky, whom none of them knew personally, and rejoiced in the largeness of it, of the extraordinary grace and beauty of a Princess D., whom none of them had ever seen; then it came to Shakespeare's being immortal. I smiled contemptuously and walked up and down the other side of the room, opposite the sofa, from the table to the stove and back again. I tried my very utmost to show them that I could do without them, and yet I purposely made a noise with my boots, thumping with my heels. But it was all in vain. They paid no attention. I had the patience to walk up and down in front of them from eight o'clock till eleven, in the same place, from the table to the stove and back again. "I walk up and down to please myself and no one can prevent me."

German alas: leider, ach, bedauerlich. berths: Kojen, Stellungen. drunken: betrunken, trunken. grace: Gnade, Anmut, Zieren, Grazie, Wohltätigkeit, Wohltat, Verzieren, Liebeswerk, Schmücken. hussar: Husar. immortal: Unsterblich, unvergänglich. impatience: Ungeduld. inanimate: leblos, unbelebt. induce: induzieren, veranlassen, induziere, induzierst, induziert,

bewegen, schließen, veranlasse, folgern, veranlaßt. kissed: geküßt, küsste. largeness: Größe. listened: hörte zu, hörten zu, hörtest zu, zugehört, hörtet zu, angehört, hörte an, hörten an, hörtest an, hörtet an, horchte. lounge: Salon, Aula, Gesellschaftsraum, faulenzen. pawns: verpfändet, faustpfänder. rejoiced: frohlockt, frohlockte,

frohlockten, frohlocktest, frohlocktet, freute sich. reverence: Ehrfurcht. sofa: Sofa, Couch, Kanapee, Divan, Sitzbank, Bank. stretched: gedehnt, ausgestreckt, aufgespannt. thumping: Stöße. unconcerned: gleichgültig, unbesorgt, unbeteiligt, nicht betroffen, unbekümmert. utmost: äußerst, alleräußerste.

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The%waiter who came into the room stopped, from time to time, to look at me. I was somewhat giddy from turning round so often; at moments it seemed to me that I was in delirium. During those three hours I was three times soaked with sweat and dry again. At times, with an intense, acute pang I was stabbed to the heart by the thought that ten years, twenty years, forty years would pass, and that even in forty years I would remember with loathing and humiliation those filthiest, most ludicrous, and most awful moments of my life. No one could have gone out of his way to degrade himself more shamelessly, and I fully realised it, fully, and yet I went on pacing up and down from the table to the stove. "Oh, if you only knew what thoughts and feelings I am capable of, how cultured I am!" I thought at moments, mentally addressing the sofa on which my enemies were sitting. But my enemies behaved as though I were not in the room. Once—only once—they turned towards me, just when Zverkov was talking about Shakespeare, and I suddenly gave a contemptuous laugh. I laughed in such an affected and disgusting way that they all at once broke off their conversation, and silently and gravely for two minutes watched me walking up and down from the table to the stove, taking no notice of them. But nothing came of it: they said nothing, and two minutes later they ceased to notice me again. It struck eleven. "Friends," cried Zverkov getting up from the sofa, "let us all be off now, there!" "Of course, of course," the others assented. I turned sharply to Zverkov. I was so harassed, so exhausted, that I would have cut my throat to put an end to it. I was in a fever; my hair, soaked with perspiration, stuck to my forehead and temples. "Zverkov, I beg your pardon," I said abruptly and resolutely. "Ferfitchkin, yours too, and everyone's, everyone's: I have insulted you all!" "Aha! A duel is not in your line, old man," Ferfitchkin hissed venomously. It sent a sharp pang to my heart. "No, it's not the duel I am afraid of, Ferfitchkin! I am ready to fight you tomorrow, after we are reconciled. I insist upon it, in fact, and you cannot refuse.

German assented: stimmte zu. beg: bitten, bittet, bittest, bitte, betteln, bettele, bettelt, bettle, ersuchen, bettelst, ersuche. behaved: benahm sich, benahm. contemptuous: geringschätzig, verachtungsvoll. cultured: kultiviert, gebildet, gesittet, gezüchtet. degrade: degradieren, degradiere, degradierst, degradiert, absetzen, setzt ab, setze ab, setzen ab,

erniedrigen, herabsetzen, herabmindern. delirium: Delirium. filthiest: schmutzigste. giddy: schwindlig, schwindelnd. harassed: schikaniert, schikaniertest, schikanierten, schikaniertet, schikanierte, belästigtet, belästigtest, belästigten, belästigte, belästigt, geplagt. hissed: gezischt. humiliation: Erniedrigung,

Demütigung, Beschämung. pang: Schmerz, Stechen. perspiration: Schweiß, Transpiration. resolutely: entschlossen. shamelessly: schamlos. soaked: durchnässt, durch und durch naß, getränkt, durchdrungen, durchgeweicht, klitschnaß, klatschnaß. stabbed: gestochen. temples: Tempel, Schläfen. venomously: giftig.

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I want to show you that I am not afraid of a duel. You shall fire first and I shall fire into the air." "He is comforting himself," said Simonov.% "He's simply raving," said Trudolyubov. "But let us pass. Why are you barring our way? What do you want?" Zverkov answered disdainfully. They were all flushed, their eyes were bright: they had been drinking heavily. "I ask for your friendship, Zverkov; I insulted you, but ..." "Insulted? you insulted me? Understand, sir, that you never, under any circumstances, could possibly insult me." "And that's enough for you. Out of the way!" concluded Trudolyubov. "Olympia is mine, friends, that's agreed!" cried Zverkov. "We won't dispute your right, we won't dispute your right," the others answered, laughing. I stood as though spat upon. The party went noisily out of the room. Trudolyubov struck up some stupid song. Simonov remained behind for a moment to tip the waiters. I suddenly went up to him. "Simonov! give me six roubles!" I said, with desperate resolution. He looked at me in extreme amazement, with vacant eyes. drunk.

He, too, was

"You don't mean you are coming with us?" "Yes." "I've no money," he snapped out, and with a scornful laugh he went out of the room. I clutched at his overcoat. It was a nightmare. "Simonov, I saw you had money. Why do you refuse me? Am I a scoundrel? Beware of refusing me: if you knew, if you knew why I am asking! My whole future, my whole plans depend upon it!"

German amazement: Verwunderung, Verblüffung, Erstaunen. comforting: tröstlich, trostreich, tröstend. drunk: betrunken, blau, getrunken, berauscht, trunken, stockbetrunken, sinnlos betrunken, schwer betrunken, stockbesoffen, besoffen, völlig betrunken. friendship: Freundschaft, Kameradschaft. heavily: schwer, schwerlich.

i've: Ich habe. laughing: lachend, lachen, gekicher, lacher, gelächter, kichern. nightmare: Alptraum, Alpdrücken, Spuktraum, Alp. noisily: laut. refuse: verweigern, Abfall, ablehnen, abschlagen, Ausschuss, versagen, abweisen, ausschlagen, weigern. refusing: ablehnend, Abweisen, Zurückweisen, Abschlagen, Ablehnen.

scornful: verächtlich, höhnisch, verspottend, schofel, schmählich, geringschätzig, geringschätzend, abschätzig, abfällig. snapped: geknackt, geknipste, schnappte. spat: Gamasche. tip: Spitze, Trinkgeld, Zipfel, Wink, Hinweis, Gipfel, Tipp, kippen, Stift, Indiz, Kippe. vacant: leer, unbesetzt, frei, leerstehend.

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Simonov pulled out the money and almost flung it at me. "Take it, if you have no sense of shame!" he pronounced pitilessly, and ran to overtake them.% I was left for a moment alone. Disorder, the remains of dinner, a broken wine-glass on the floor, spilt wine, cigarette ends, fumes of drink and delirium in my brain, an agonising misery in my heart and finally the waiter, who had seen and heard all and was looking inquisitively into my face. "I am going there!" I cried. "Either they shall all go down on their knees to beg for my friendship, or I will give Zverkov a slap in the face!"

German alone: allein, alleine, einzig, nur, bloß, alleinig, einsam. brain: Gehirn, Hirn, Verstand. broken: kaputt, gebrochen, zerbrochen, defekt, kaputtgebrochen, geknickt, durchgebrochen. cigarette: Zigarette, Kippe. dinner: Abendessen, Diner, Mittagessen, Abendmahlzeit, Festessen, Hauptmahlzeit. ends: enden, endet. fumes: Raucht, Räuchert.

inquisitively: wißbegierig, neugierig. knees: Kniet. misery: Elend, Not, Leid, Unglück, Schlamassel, Schicksalsschläge, Schicksalsschlag, Misere, Mißgeschick. overtake: überholen, überhole, überholst, überholt, überraschen. pitilessly: unbarmherzig. pronounced: sprach aus, ausgesprochen, spracht aus, sprachst aus, sprachen aus, ausgeprägt.

pulled: gezogen, zogst, zogen, zog, zogt, gezerrt, zerrtet, zerrtest, zerrte, zerrten, riß. ran: lieft, liefst, liefen, lief, rannten, rannte, ranntet, ranntest, eilte, eiltet, eiltest. remains: Bleibt, Rest, Reste, Überrest, Restant, Restposten, Restbestand, Nachlaß, Überbleibsel, Überreste, Verbleibt. wine: Wein, Weinrebe, Rebstock, der Wein.

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V

"So%this is it, this is it at last—contact with real life," I muttered as I ran headlong downstairs. "This is very different from the Pope's leaving Rome and going to Brazil, very different from the ball on Lake Como!" "You are a scoundrel," a thought flashed through my mind, "if you laugh at this now." "No matter!" I cried, answering myself. "Now everything is lost!" There was no trace to be seen of them, but that made no difference—I knew where they had gone. At the steps was standing a solitary night sledge-driver in a rough peasant coat, powdered over with the still falling, wet, and as it were warm, snow. It was hot and steamy. The little shaggy piebald horse was also covered with snow and coughing, I remember that very well. I made a rush for the roughly made sledge; but as soon as I raised my foot to get into it, the recollection of how Simonov had just given me six roubles seemed to double me up and I tumbled into the sledge like a sack. "No, I must do a great deal to make up for all that," I cried. "But I will make up for it or perish on the spot this very night. Start!" We set off. There was a perfect whirl in my head.

German answering: antwortend, Anrufbeantwortung. coat: Mantel, Anstrich, Paletot, Fell, bedecken, Überzieher, Überrock, Umkleiden, Schicht. coughing: Hustend, Husten. downstairs: unten, treppabwärts. flashed: leuchtete auf, aufgeblitzt. peasant: Bauer. perish: umkommen, kommt um, kommst um, kommen um, komme um, untergehen, gehe unter, geht

unter, gehen unter, zu Grunde gehen, gehst unter. piebald: scheckig. powdered: gepulvert. recollection: Erinnerung, Andenken, Gedächtnis. roughly: ungefähr, grob, annähernd, geschätzt. rush: hetzen, Eile, eilen, Andrang, Gedränge, hasten, Anstürmen, jagen, Gedrängtheit, Getreibe, Hast. sack: Sack, entlassen, Beutel,

plündern, verabschieden, abdanken, Rausschmiß. shaggy: zottig, struppig, gezottelt, haarig, rauhhaarig. steamy: dampfig, dunstig. trace: Spur, Linie, Grundriss, durchzeichnen, erkunden, prüfen, nachspüren, nachprüfen, nachgehen, nachforschen, forschen. tumbled: gefallen. whirl: wirbeln, sich drehen, kreiseln, quirlen, schwingen, Wirbel.

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"They won't go down on their knees to beg for my friendship. That is a mirage, cheap mirage, revolting, romantic and fantastical—that's another ball on Lake Como. And so I am bound to slap Zverkov's face! It is my duty to. And so it is settled; I am flying to give him a slap in the face. Hurry up!" The driver tugged at the reins.% "As soon as I go in I'll give it him. Ought I before giving him the slap to say a few words by way of preface? No. I'll simply go in and give it him. They will all be sitting in the drawing-room, and he with Olympia on the sofa. That damned Olympia! She laughed at my looks on one occasion and refused me. I'll pull Olympia's hair, pull Zverkov's ears! No, better one ear, and pull him by it round the room. Maybe they will all begin beating me and will kick me out. That's most likely, indeed. No matter! Anyway, I shall first slap him; the initiative will be mine; and by the laws of honour that is everything: he will be branded and cannot wipe off the slap by any blows, by nothing but a duel. He will be forced to fight. And let them beat me now. Let them, the ungrateful wretches! Trudolyubov will beat me hardest, he is so strong; Ferfitchkin will be sure to catch hold sideways and tug at my hair. But no matter, no matter! That's what I am going for. The blockheads will be forced at last to see the tragedy of it all! When they drag me to the door I shall call out to them that in reality they are not worth my little finger. Get on, driver, get on!" I cried to the driver. He started and flicked his whip, I shouted so savagely. "We shall fight at daybreak, that's a settled thing. I've done with the office. Ferfitchkin made a joke about it just now. But where can I get pistols? Nonsense! I'll get my salary in advance and buy them. And powder, and bullets? That's the second's business. And how can it all be done by daybreak? and where am I to get a second? I have no friends. Nonsense!" I cried, lashing myself up more and more. "It's of no consequence! The first person I meet in the street is bound to be my second, just as he would be bound to pull a drowning man out of water. The most eccentric things may happen. Even if I were to ask the director himself to be my second tomorrow, he would be bound to consent, if only from a feeling of chivalry, and to keep the secret! Anton Antonitch..."

German blockheads: Schwachköpfe, Schafsköpfe, Dussel. branded: mit Schutzmarke versehen, gebrandmarkt. bullets: Kugeln. chivalry: Rittertum, Ritterlichkeit, Adel, Ritterwesen, Ritterstand. damned: verdammt, gottverdammt, verflixt, verflucht, verdammt noch mal. daybreak: Tagesanbruch. drawing-room: Empfangsraum, Salon,

Halle, Galerie, Foyer, Empfangsräume, Empfangszimmer. drowning: ertrinkend, ertrinken, ertränkend. eccentric: exzentrisch, Exzenter, ungewöhnlich, Exzentriker, fremd, fremdartig, kurios, merkwürdig, sonderbar, eigen, wunderlich. flicked: schlug. hardest: härteste. lashing: peitschend, Zurring. mirage: Luftspiegelung, Fata

Morgana. pistols: Pistolen. preface: Vorwort, Einleitung, Vorrede. savagely: wild. tug: Schlepper, zerren, ziehen, Zug, reißen, Trosse, verziehen, Trawler, anziehen. tugged: gezerrt. wipe: wischen, wische, wischt, wischst, abstreifen, streife ab, streifen ab, streifst ab, abwischen, streift ab. wretches: Kerle, Schufte.

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The fact is, that at that very minute the disgusting absurdity of my plan and the other side of the question was clearer and more vivid to my imagination than it could be to anyone on earth. But...% "Get on, driver, get on, you rascal, get on!" "Ugh, sir!" said the son of toil. Cold shivers suddenly ran down me. Wouldn't it be better ... to go straight home? My God, my God! Why did I invite myself to this dinner yesterday? But no, it's impossible. And my walking up and down for three hours from the table to the stove? No, they, they and no one else must pay for my walking up and down! They must wipe out this dishonour! Drive on! And what if they give me into custody? They won't dare! They'll be afraid of the scandal. And what if Zverkov is so contemptuous that he refuses to fight a duel? He is sure to; but in that case I'll show them ... I will turn up at the posting station when he's setting off tomorrow, I'll catch him by the leg, I'll pull off his coat when he gets into the carriage. I'll get my teeth into his hand, I'll bite him. "See what lengths you can drive a desperate man to!" He may hit me on the head and they may belabour me from behind. I will shout to the assembled multitude: "Look at this young puppy who is driving off to captivate the Circassian girls after letting me spit in his face!" Of course, after that everything will be over! The office will have vanished off the face of the earth. I shall be arrested, I shall be tried, I shall be dismissed from the service, thrown in prison, sent to Siberia. Never mind! In fifteen years when they let me out of prison I will trudge off to him, a beggar, in rags. I shall find him in some provincial town. He will be married and happy. He will have a grown-up daughter... I shall say to him: "Look, monster, at my hollow cheeks and my rags! I've lost everything—my career, my happiness, art, science, the woman i loved, and all through you. Here are pistols. I have come to discharge my pistol and ... and I ... forgive you. Then I shall fire into the air and he will hear nothing more of me..." I was actually on the point of tears, though I knew perfectly well at that moment that all this was out of Pushkin's silvio and Lermontov's masquerade.

German assembled: montierte, montiert, montiertet, montiertest, montierten, zusammengekommen, kam zusammen, kamen zusammen, kamst zusammen, kamt zusammen, zusammengebaut. beggar: Bettler. bite: Biss, beißen, bissen, zubeissen, anbeißen, Happen, stechen, schneiden, Knacks. captivate: gefangen nehmen. clearer: heller, Reiniger.

dishonour: Unehre, entehren, verletzen, überfallen, schänden, Schande, angreifen. hollow: hohl, höhle, Hohlraum. masquerade: Maskerade. monster: Ungeheuer, Monstrum, Ungetüm, Unhold, Scheusal, Untier, Köter, Monster. multitude: Menge, Vielzahl, von allem etwas, alles mögliche, Haufen, Stapel. pistol: Pistole, Spritze, Wehr, Waffe, Knarre, Flinte.

posting: Buchung, Postzustellung. rags: Lumpen, Klamotten, Lappen, Kluft, Fetzen. refuses: verweigert. shivers: Schauer, schaudert, Schauder. toil: schleppen, sich fort schleppen. trudge: zuckeln, stapfen, trödeln, trotten, trudeln. ugh: Bah. vanished: verschwunden, verschwandet, verschwandest, verschwanden, verschwand.

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And all at once I felt horribly ashamed, so ashamed that I stopped the horse, got out of the sledge, and stood still in the snow in the middle of the street. The driver gazed at me, sighing and astonished.% What was I to do? I could not go could not leave things as they were, Heavens, how could I leave things! throwing myself into the sledge again. on!"

on there—it was evidently stupid, and I because that would seem as though ... And after such insults! "No!" I cried, "It is ordained! It is fate! Drive on, drive

And in my impatience I punched the sledge-driver on the back of the neck. "What are you up to? What are you hitting me for?" the peasant shouted, but he whipped up his nag so that it began kicking. The wet snow was falling in big flakes; I unbuttoned myself, regardless of it. I forgot everything else, for I had finally decided on the slap, and felt with horror that it was going to happen now, at once, and that no force could stop it. The deserted street lamps gleamed sullenly in the snowy darkness like torches at a funeral. The snow drifted under my great-coat, under my coat, under my cravat, and melted there. I did not wrap myself up—all was lost, anyway. At last we arrived. I jumped out, almost unconscious, ran up the steps and began knocking and kicking at the door. I felt fearfully weak, particularly in my legs and knees. The door was opened quickly as though they knew I was coming. As a fact, Simonov had warned them that perhaps another gentleman would arrive, and this was a place in which one had to give notice and to observe certain precautions. It was one of those "millinery establishments" which were abolished by the police a good time ago. By day it really was a shop; but at night, if one had an introduction, one might visit it for other purposes. I walked rapidly through the dark shop into the familiar drawing- room, where there was only one candle burning, and stood still in amazement: there was no one there. "Where are they?" I asked somebody. But by now, of course, they had separated. Before me was standing a person with a stupid smile, the "madam" herself, who had seen me before. A minute later a door opened and another person came in.

German abolished: schafftet ab, abgeschafft, schafften ab, schafftest ab, schaffte ab. cravat: Krawatte, Halstuch. deserted: verlassen, menschenleer, öde, ausgestorben. drifted: getrieben, trieb dahin. establishments: Einrichtungen. flakes: flocken. gazed: gestarrt, starrte an. gleamed: glänzte, schimmerte. kicking: Tretend, Stoßend, Getrete,

Gestosse. knocking: Klopfen, Klopfend. melted: geschmolzen. nag: Nörgler, klagen, Griesgram, Gaul, Ekel, einrammen, einhämmern, durchstoßen, ärgern, striezen, Meckerer. ordained: bestimmt, bestimmte, bestimmten, bestimmtest, bestimmtet, ordinierte, ordiniertet, ordinierten, ordiniert, ordiniertest. precautions: Vorsorgen.

punched: gestanzt. sighing: seufzen. snowy: verschneit, schneeig, schlackig, schneebedeckt. sullenly: mürrisch. throwing: Schmeißen. torches: Fackeln. unbuttoned: knöpften auf, knöpftet auf, knöpftest auf, aufgeknöpft, knöpfte auf. whipped: gepeitscht. wrap: einwickeln, wickeln, hüllen.

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Taking no notice of anything I strode about the room, and, I believe, I talked to myself. I felt as though I had been saved from death and was conscious of this, joyfully, all over: I should have given that slap, I should certainly, certainly have given it! But now they were not here and ... everything had vanished and changed! I looked round. I could not realise my condition yet. I looked mechanically at the girl who had come in: and had a glimpse of a fresh, young, rather pale face, with straight, dark eyebrows, and with grave, as it were wondering, eyes that attracted me at once; I should have hated her if she had been smiling. I began looking at her more intently and, as it were, with effort. I had not fully collected my thoughts. There was something simple and goodnatured in her face, but something strangely grave. I am sure that this stood in her way here, and no one of those fools had noticed her. She could not, however, have been called a beauty, though she was tall, strong-looking, and well built. She was very simply dressed. Something loathsome stirred within me. I went straight up to her.% I chanced to look into the glass. My harassed face struck me as revolting in the extreme, pale, angry, abject, with dishevelled hair. "No matter, I am glad of it," I thought; "I am glad that I shall seem repulsive to her; I like that."

German attracted: angezogen, zogt an, zogst an, zogen an, zog an, lockten, gelockt, locktet, locktest, lockte. chanced: riskierte. collected: sammeltet, sammelte, sammeltest, gesammelt, sammelten, sammeltet ein, sammelte ein, eingesammelt, sammelten ein, sammeltest ein, gefasst. dishevelled: aufgelöst, zerrauft, zerzaust. dressed: kleidete, gekleidet, piekfein,

korrekt, hübsch, gepflegt, schick, angezogen, angekleidet, angetan, elegant. eyebrows: Augenbrauen. glimpse: Blick, flüchtiger Eindruck. good-natured: angenehm, attent, behilflich, bereitwillig, dienstbereit, dienstfertig, entgegenkommend, erfreulich, freundlich, freundschaftlich, gefällig. grave: Grab, ernst, Gruft, gemütlich, gewichtig, kritisch, schlicht, sittsam,

gemäßigt, schlimm, bedeckt. intently: eifrig. joyfully: freudig. realise: realisieren, bemerken. saved: rettetet, rettetest, retteten, rettete, gerettet, speichertest, speicherten, gespeichert, speicherte, speichertet, spartet. smiling: Lächelnd. stirred: gemischt, durchgerührt. strangely: merkwürdig, seltsam. wondering: wundernd, staunend.

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...Somewhere%behind a screen a clock began wheezing, as though oppressed by something, as though someone were strangling it. After an unnaturally prolonged wheezing there followed a shrill, nasty, and as it were unexpectedly rapid, chime—as though someone were suddenly jumping forward. It struck two. I woke up, though I had indeed not been asleep but lying half-conscious. It was almost completely dark in the narrow, cramped, low-pitched room, cumbered up with an enormous wardrobe and piles of cardboard boxes and all sorts of frippery and litter. The candle end that had been burning on the table was going out and gave a faint flicker from time to time. In a few minutes there would be complete darkness. I was not long in coming to myself; everything came back to my mind at once, without an effort, as though it had been in ambush to pounce upon me again. And, indeed, even while I was unconscious a point seemed continually to remain in my memory unforgotten, and round it my dreams moved drearily. But strange to say, everything that had happened to me in that day seemed to me now, on waking, to be in the far, far away past, as though I had long, long ago lived all that down. My head was full of fumes. Something seemed to be hovering over me, rousing me, exciting me, and making me restless. Misery and spite seemed

German ambush: Hinterhalt, Versteck, Überfall, Falle, Anstand. cardboard: Karton, Pappe, Pappschachtel, Pappdeckel, Pappartig, Aus Pappe. cramped: verkrampft, beengt, eng. cumbered: belastete. drearily: düster, langweilig, trostlos, trostlose. flicker: flimmern, Flackern. frippery: Plunder, Flitter, der Firlefanz, der Flitterkram.

hovering: schwebend. litter: Streu, Bahre, Abfall, Träger, Tragbahre, Wurf, Streusel. piles: Haufen. pounce: klaut, sich stürzen, Klauen, klaust, Fang, Glättpulver, Klaue, Satz. prolonged: anhaltend, verlängert, verlängerte, verlängerten, dehntet aus, ausgedehnt, dehnte aus, dehnten aus, dehntest aus, verlängertet, verlängertest.

restless: ruhelos, rastlos, unruhig. rousing: weckend, wachrufend, stürmisch. strangling: Erdrosselnd, Erwürgend, drosselnd. unconscious: unbewusst, Bewußtlos, besinnungslos, ohnmächtig. unforgotten: unvergessen. wardrobe: Garderobe, Kleiderschrank, Vorrat Kleidungsstücke, Kleiderbestand. wheezing: keuchend.

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surging up in me again and seeking an outlet. Suddenly I saw beside me two wide open eyes scrutinising me curiously and persistently. The look in those eyes was coldly detached, sullen, as it were utterly remote; it weighed upon me.% A grim idea came into my brain and passed all over my body, as a horrible sensation, such as one feels when one goes into a damp and mouldy cellar. There was something unnatural in those two eyes, beginning to look at me only now. I recalled, too, that during those two hours I had not said a single word to this creature, and had, in fact, considered it utterly superfluous; in fact, the silence had for some reason gratified me. Now I suddenly realised vividly the hideous idea—revolting as a spider—of vice, which, without love, grossly and shamelessly begins with that in which true love finds its consummation. For a long time we gazed at each other like that, but she did not drop her eyes before mine and her expression did not change, so that at last I felt uncomfortable. "What is your name?" I asked abruptly, to put an end to it. "Liza," she answered almost in a whisper, but somehow far from graciously, and she turned her eyes away. I was silent. "What weather! The snow ... it's disgusting!" I said, almost to myself, putting my arm under my head despondently, and gazing at the ceiling. She made no answer. This was horrible. "Have you always lived in Petersburg?" I asked a minute later, almost angrily, turning my head slightly towards her. "No." "Where do you come from?" "From Riga," she answered reluctantly. "Are you a German?" "No, Russian." "Have you been here long?"

German abruptly: plötzlich, jäh. angrily: ärgerlich. coldly: kalt. consummation: Vollendung, Vollziehung. curiously: neugierig. despondently: verzagt. detached: trenntest ab, trennten ab, abgetrennt, trenntet ab, trennte ab, abgelöst, losgelöst, gelöst, freistehend. gazing: starr, anstarrend.

gratified: befriedigtest, befriedigtet, befriedigten, befriedigte, befriedigt. grim: grimmig, verbissen, verkniffen, hart. grossly: gröblich. mouldy: schimmelig, verschimmelt, modrig, moderig, dumpfig, kahmig. persistently: beharrlich. reluctantly: widerstrebend, ungern, widerwillig, unwillig, widerspenstig, zögernd. sensation: Sensation, Empfindung,

Sinn, Aufsehen. sullen: mürrisch, verdrießlich, mißmutig. surging: wogend. unnatural: unnatürlich. vice: Schraubstock, Untugend, Laster, Tugend, Klemmblock. weighed: wogen, wogt, gewogen, wog, wogst, wog ab, abgewogen, wogst ab, wogt ab, wogen ab. whisper: Flüstern, tuscheln, zischeln, säuseln, munkeln, Geflüster, lispeln.

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"Where?" "In this house?" "A fortnight." She spoke more and more jerkily. The candle went out; I could no longer distinguish her face.% "Have you a father and mother?" "Yes ... no ... I have." "Where are they?" "There ... in Riga." "What are they?" "Oh, nothing." "Nothing? Why, what class are they?" "Tradespeople." "Have you always lived with them?" "Yes." "How old are you?" "Twenty." "Why did you leave them?" "Oh, for no reason." That answer meant "Let me alone; I feel sick, sad." We were silent. God knows why I did not go away. I felt myself more and more sick and dreary. The images of the previous day began of themselves, apart from my will, flitting through my memory in confusion. I suddenly recalled something I had seen that morning when, full of anxious thoughts, I was hurrying to the office.

German anxious: besorgt, unruhig, ängstlich, bange, sorgenvoll. apart: abgesondert, einzeln, auseinander, abseits, getrennt, entzwei, separat, besonders, extra, besonder, beiseite. confusion: Verwirrung, Verwechslung, Durcheinander, Gewirr, Trubel, Verworrenheit, Wirrsal, Verwechselung, Verschmelzung, Konfusion, Wirbel. distinguish: unterscheiden,

unterscheidet, unterscheide, unterscheidest, auszeichnen, zeichnet aus, hervorheben, zeichnen aus, zeichnest aus, auseinanderhalten, zeichne aus. dreary: trostlos, düster, wüste, widerwärtig, trübe, öde, mismutig, garstig, dunkel, langweilig. flitting: flirtend, flitzend, tändelnd, wandernd. hurrying: eilend, Gehetz, beeilend, Gelaufe, Gerenne, Hetzerei,

spornstreichs. images: Bilder. longer: Länger. meant: gemeint, bedeutete. recalled: wiedergerufen. sick: krank, übel, geschmacklos, makaber. silent: schweigend, still, schweigsam, verschwiegen, ruhig, geräuschlos, stillschweigend. thoughts: Gedanken, Dachte.

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"I saw them carrying a coffin out yesterday and they nearly dropped it," I suddenly said aloud, not that I desired to open the conversation, but as it were by accident. "A coffin?" "Yes, in the Haymarket; they were bringing it up out of a cellar." "From a cellar?" "Not from a cellar, but a basement. Oh, you know ... down below ... from a house of ill-fame. It was filthy all round ... Egg-shells, litter ... a stench. It was loathsome." Silence.% "A nasty day to be buried," I began, simply to avoid being silent. "Nasty, in what way?" "The snow, the wet." (I yawned.) "It makes no difference," she said suddenly, after a brief silence. "No, it's horrid." (I yawned again). "The gravediggers must have sworn at getting drenched by the snow. And there must have been water in the grave." "Why water in the grave?" she asked, with a sort of curiosity, but speaking even more harshly and abruptly than before. I suddenly began to feel provoked. "Why, there must have been water at the bottom a foot deep. You can't dig a dry grave in Volkovo Cemetery." "Why?" "Why? Why, the place is waterlogged. It's a regular marsh. So they bury them in water. I've seen it myself ... many times." (I had never seen it once, indeed I had never been in Volkovo, and had only heard stories of it.) "Do you mean to say, you don't mind how you die?" "But why should I die?" she answered, as though defending herself.

German basement: Kellergeschoß, Keller, Untergeschoss, Souterrrain. bury: begraben, vergraben, beerdigen, begrabt, begräbst, beerdige, beerdigst, beerdigt, begrabe, vergräbst, vergrabt. coffin: Sarg, Grabkiste. curiosity: Neugierde, Neugier, Seltenheit, Kuriosität, Kuriosum, Seltsames Exemplar, Wißbegier, Sehenswürdigkeit, Neugierigkeit, Exentrizität.

defending: verteidigend, wehren, abwehren, verteidigen. dig: graben, grabt, gräbst, grabe, wühlen, wühlst, wühlt, wühle, schaufeln, ausgraben, ausheben. drenched: durchnässt. filthy: schmutzig, dreckig, widerlich, scheußlich, schmierig, abgestanden, abscheuerregend, abscheulich, ekelerregend, ekelhaft, eklig. gravediggers: Totengräber. harshly: herb.

marsh: Sumpf, Marsch. provoked: reiztet, reizten, reiztest, gereizt, reizte, reizten auf, reizte auf, herausgefordert, provoziertest, provozierten, provozierte. stench: Gestank, Geruch. sworn: geschworen, bezeugt, schwören, beeidigt, geflucht, vereidigt. waterlogged: voll Wasser, wassergesättigt. yawned: gähnte, gegähnt.

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"Why, some day you will die, and you will die just the same as that dead woman. She was ... a girl like you. She died of consumption." "A wench would have died in hospital ..." (She knows all about it already: she said "wench," not "girl.") "She was in debt to her madam," I retorted, more and more provoked by the discussion; "and went on earning money for her up to the end, though she was in consumption. Some sledge-drivers standing by were talking about her to some soldiers and telling them so. No doubt they knew her. They were laughing. They were going to meet in a pot-house to drink to her memory." A great deal of this was my invention. Silence followed, profound silence. She did not stir.% "And is it better to die in a hospital?" "Isn't it just the same? Besides, why should I die?" she added irritably. "If not now, a little later." "Why a little later?" "Why, indeed? Now you are young, pretty, fresh, you fetch a high price. But after another year of this life you will be very different—you will go off." "In a year?" "Anyway, in a year you will be worth less," I continued malignantly. "You will go from here to something lower, another house; a year later—to a third, lower and lower, and in seven years you will come to a basement in the Haymarket. That will be if you were lucky. But it would be much worse if you got some disease, consumption, say ... and caught a chill, or something or other. It's not easy to get over an illness in your way of life. If you catch anything you may not get rid of it. And so you would die." "Oh, well, then I shall die," she answered, quite vindictively, and she made a quick movement. "But one is sorry." "Sorry for whom?"

German catch: fangen, fangt, fange, fängst, erwischen, erwischt, erwische, erwischst, Fang, ertappen, ertappt. chill: Kälte, Erkältung, Kühle, erstarren, Schnupfen. consumption: Verbrauch, Konsum, Schwindsucht, Verzehr, Genuß, Phtisis. debt: Schuld, Ausstand, Verschuldung, Verpflichtung, Forderung. die: sterben, stirbst, stirb, sterbt,

sterbe, Würfel, krepieren, krepiert, krepierst, krepiere, einschlafen. earning: verdienend, verdienen. fetch: holen, bringen, holst, hole, bringt, Abruf, bringe, bringst, holt, eintragen, heranbringen. illness: Krankheit, Erkrankung, Übel, Unwohlsein, Leiden, Periode, Unpäßlichkeit, Regel, Menstruation. invention: Erfindung, Entdeckung, Fund. irritably: reizbar.

lucky: glücklich. malignantly: Bösartig. profound: tief, tiefschürfend, gründlich, tiefsinnig, weise, innig, zärtlich, profund, tiefgründig, tiefgehend, tiefdenkend. quick: schnell, rasch, hurtig, geschwind, flüchtig, prompt, flott, kurz, wach. soldiers: Soldaten. vindictively: rachsüchtig. wench: Mädchen, Dirne.

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"Sorry for life." Silence. "Have you been engaged to be married? Eh?" "What's that to you?" "Oh, I am not cross-examining you. It's nothing to me. Why are you so cross? Of course you may have had your own troubles. What is it to me? It's simply that I felt sorry." "Sorry for whom?" "Sorry for you." "No need," she whispered hardly audibly, and again made a faint movement.% That incensed me at once. What! I was so gentle with her, and she... "Why, do you think that you are on the right path?" "I don't think anything." "That's what's wrong, that you don't think. Realise it while there is still time. There still is time. You are still young, good-looking; you might love, be married, be happy..." "Not all married women are happy," she snapped out in the rude abrupt tone she had used at first. "Not all, of course, but anyway it is much better than the life here. Infinitely better. Besides, with love one can live even without happiness. Even in sorrow life is sweet; life is sweet, however one lives. But here what is there but ... foulness? Phew!" I turned away with disgust; I was no longer reasoning coldly. I began to feel myself what I was saying and warmed to the subject. I was already longing to expound the cherished ideas I had brooded over in my corner. Something suddenly flared up in me. An object had appeared before me. "Never mind my being here, I am not an example for you. I am, perhaps, worse than you are. I was drunk when I came here, though," I hastened, however, to say in self-defence. "Besides, a man is no example for a woman. It's

German abrupt: plötzlich, brüsk, schroff, abrupt, abgebrochen, barsch, abgerissen, abschüssig, grob, hastig, unvermutet. audibly: hörbar. brooded: brütete. cherished: schätzte, gepflegte. expound: erklären, erläutern, erklärt, erklärst, erkläre. faint: Schwach, matt, ohnmächtig werden, in Ohnmacht fallen, Ohnmacht, flau, hinfällig, lustlos,

lahm, gelinde, kränklich. flared: flackerte, geflackert. foulness: die Verdorbenheit, Schmutz, die Gemeinheit, der Schmutz, Schmutzigkeit. good-looking: gutaussehend, hübsch. hastened: geeilt, eilte, eilten, eiltest, eiltet. incensed: erzürnen, weihrauch, wütend, duft. longing: Sehnsucht, Verlangen, Sehnsüchtig, Schmachten, Verlangt,

Sich sehnen nach, Sehnen, Sehnend, Begierde, Begehren. sorrow: Kummer, Sorge, Betrübnis, Leid. tone: Ton, Tonus, Klang, Timbre, Klangfarbe. troubles: Empörumg, Problem, Probleme, Schererei, Scherereien, Berührung, Aufruhr. warmed: erwärmte, erwärmten, gewärmt. whispered: geflüstert.

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a%different thing. I may degrade and defile myself, but I am not anyone's slave. I come and go, and that's an end of it. I shake it off, and I am a different man. But you are a slave from the start. Yes, a slave! You give up everything, your whole freedom. If you want to break your chains afterwards, you won't be able to; you will be more and more fast in the snares. It is an accursed bondage. I know it. I won't speak of anything else, maybe you won't understand, but tell me: no doubt you are in debt to your madam? There, you see," I added, though she made no answer, but only listened in silence, entirely absorbed, "that's a bondage for you! You will never buy your freedom. They will see to that. It's like selling your soul to the devil... And besides ... perhaps, I too, am just as unlucky—how do you know—and wallow in the mud on purpose, out of misery? You know, men take to drink from grief; well, maybe I am here from grief. Come, tell me, what is there good here? Here you and I ... came together ... just now and did not say one word to one another all the time, and it was only afterwards you began staring at me like a wild creature, and I at you. Is that loving? Is that how one human being should meet another? It's hideous, that's what it is!" "Yes!" she assented sharply and hurriedly. I was positively astounded by the promptitude of this "Yes." So the same thought may have been straying through her mind when she was staring at me just before. So she, too, was capable of certain thoughts? "Damn it all, this was interesting, this was a point of likeness!" I thought, almost rubbing my hands. And indeed it's easy to turn a young soul like that! It was the exercise of my power that attracted me most. She turned her head nearer to me, and it seemed to me in the darkness that she propped herself on her arm. Perhaps she was scrutinising me. How I regretted that I could not see her eyes. I heard her deep breathing. "Why have you come here?" I asked her, with a note of authority already in my voice. "Oh, I don't know."

German absorbed: absorbiert, absorbierte, absorbiertest, absorbiertet, absorbierten, saugtet auf, saugtest auf, saugten auf, saugte auf, aufgesaugt, nahmst auf. astounded: verblüffte. bondage: Hörigkeit, Sklaverei, Leibeigenschaft, Knechtschaft. breathing: atmend, Atmen, Atmung. chains: Ketten. creature: Geschöpf, Lebewesen, Kreatur, Gebilde, Erzeugnis.

damn: verdammen, verurteilen, verdammt, verwünschen, verfluchen, verdammtnochmal. grief: Gram, Kummer, Betrübnis, Trauer, Verdruß, Weh, Harm, Ärger, Bekümmernis, Griesgram, Verdrießlichkeit. hurriedly: eilig. loving: liebend, liebevoll, liebreich. madam: gnädige Frau, Frau. mud: Schlamm, Schmutz, Matsch, Schlick, Dreck, Kot.

nearer: näher. promptitude: die Bereitwilligkeit, die Promptheit, die Pünktlichkeit, die Schnelligkeit, Promptheit, Promptheits. propped: gestützt, stützte. regretted: bedauerte. rubbing: Reiben, Reibend. snares: Fallstricke, Schlingen. straying: abirrend, abschweifen, abirrung, abschweifung. wallow: sich wälzen.

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"But how nice it would be to be living in your father's house! It's warm and free; you have a home of your own." "But what if it's worse than this?" "I must take the right tone," flashed through my mind. "I may not get far with sentimentality." But it was only a momentary thought. I swear she really did interest me. Besides, I was exhausted and moody. And cunning so easily goes hand-in-hand with feeling.% "Who denies it!" I hastened to answer. "Anything may happen. I am convinced that someone has wronged you, and that you are more sinned against than sinning. Of course, I know nothing of your story, but it's not likely a girl like you has come here of her own inclination..." "A girl like me?" she whispered, hardly audibly; but I heard it. Damn it all, I was flattering her. That was horrid. But perhaps it was a good thing... She was silent. "See, Liza, I will tell you about myself. If I had had a home from childhood, I shouldn't be what I am now. I often think that. However bad it may be at home, anyway they are your father and mother, and not enemies, strangers. Once a year at least, they'll show their love of you. Anyway, you know you are at home. I grew up without a home; and perhaps that's why I've turned so ... unfeeling." I waited again. "Perhaps she doesn't understand," I thought, "and, indeed, it is absurd—it's moralising." "If I were a father and had a daughter, I believe I should love my daughter more than my sons, really," I began indirectly, as though talking of something else, to distract her attention. I must confess I blushed. "Why so?" she asked. Ah! so she was listening! "I don't know, Liza. I knew a father who was a stern, austere man, but used to go down on his knees to his daughter, used to kiss her hands, her feet, he couldn't make enough of her, really. When she danced at parties he used to

German austere: streng, entsagend, nüchtern, mäßig, ernst, sachlich, schlicht, einfach, sparsam, ärmlich. blushed: rot angelaufen, erröten, errötet, errötete. convinced: überzeugten, überzeugtest, überzeugtet, überzeugte, überzeugt, bewußt. cunning: schlau, listig, Gerissenheit, gerieben, durchtrieben, gerissen, Hinterlist, Schlauheit, ausgekocht, Arglist, arglistig.

danced: getanzt, tanzte. denies: leugnet, verweigert, bestreitet, verneint, streitet ab. distract: zerstreuen, ablenken, lenkst ab, zerstreut, zerstreust, zerstreue, lenkt ab, lenken ab, lenke ab. exhausted: erschöpft, gerädert, abgehetzt, schachmatt, ausgebraucht. flattering: schmeichelnd, schmeichelhaft, schönschwätzer, schmeichelei, schöntuerei. indirectly: indirekt.

kiss: Kuss, küssen, der Kuss. momentary: augenblicklich, momentan, vorübergehend, monentele, augenblickliche. moody: launisch, Verstimmt, launenhaft. sinning: Sündigen. sons: Söhne. stern: Heck, ernst, das Heck, streng. strangers: Fremde, Fremder, Unbekannter. wronged: schadete.

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stand for five hours at a stretch, gazing at her. He was mad over her: I understand that! She would fall asleep tired at night, and he would wake to kiss her in her sleep and make the sign of the cross over her. He would go about in a dirty old coat, he was stingy to everyone else, but would spend his last penny for her, giving her expensive presents, and it was his greatest delight when she was pleased with what he gave her. Fathers always love their daughters more than the mothers do. Some girls live happily at home! And I believe I should never let my daughters marry." "What next?" she said, with a faint smile.% "I should be jealous, I really should. To think that she should kiss anyone else! That she should love a stranger more than her father! It's painful to imagine it. Of course, that's all nonsense, of course every father would be reasonable at last. But I believe before I should let her marry, I should worry myself to death; I should find fault with all her suitors. But I should end by letting her marry whom she herself loved. The one whom the daughter loves always seems the worst to the father, you know. That is always so. So many family troubles come from that." "Some are glad to sell their daughters, rather than marrying them honourably." Ah, so that was it! "Such a thing, Liza, happens in those accursed families in which there is neither love nor God," I retorted warmly, "and where there is no love, there is no sense either. There are such families, it's true, but I am not speaking of them. You must have seen wickedness in your own family, if you talk like that. Truly, you must have been unlucky. H'm! ... that sort of thing mostly comes about through poverty." "And is it any better with the gentry? Even among the poor, honest people who live happily?" "H'm ... yes. Perhaps. Another thing, Liza, man is fond of reckoning up his troubles, but does not count his joys. If he counted them up as he ought, he

German asleep: schlafend. counted: gezählt, zählte, abgezählt. delight: Entzücken, Lust, Freude, Vergnügen, verzücken, bezaubern. gentry: die Leute, Pack, Niederer Adel, Leute, der Adel, Nieder Adel. happily: glücklicherweise, glücklich, erfreulicherweise, fröhlich. joys: Freuden. loves: liebt. marry: heiraten, heiratet, heiratest, heirate, sich verheiraten, sich

vermählen, in den Ehestand treten, sich verehelichen. marrying: heiratend. painful: schmerzhaft, schmerzlich, peinlich. penny: Pfennig, Penny, Groschen, Heller, Deut. pleased: zufrieden, erfreut. presents: Geschenke. stingy: geizig, knauserig. stranger: Fremder, Fremdling, Fremde.

stretch: strecken, dehnen, spannen, aufziehen, Dehnbarkeit, beziehen, bespannen, ausweiten, Ausdehnung, anspannen, Strecke. unlucky: unglücklich. wake: wecken, aufwecken, aufwachen, Kielwasser, erwachen, Totenwache, erwecken, Totenmesse, Wachtposten, Wache, Sog. warmly: warm, herzlich. wickedness: Bosheit, Schlechtigkeit, Verderbtheit.

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would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it. And what if all goes well with the family, if the blessing of God is upon it, if the husband is a good one, loves you, cherishes you, never leaves you! There is happiness in such a family! Even sometimes there is happiness in the midst of sorrow; and indeed sorrow %is everywhere. If you marry you will find out for yourself. But think of the first years of married life with one you love: what happiness, what happiness there sometimes is in it! And indeed it's the ordinary thing. In those early days even quarrels with one's husband end happily. Some women get up quarrels with their husbands just because they love them. Indeed, I knew a woman like that: she seemed to say that because she loved him, she would torment him and make him feel it. You know that you may torment a man on purpose through love. Women are particularly given to that, thinking to themselves 'I will love him so, I will make so much of him afterwards, that it's no sin to torment him a little now.' And all in the house rejoice in the sight of you, and you are happy and gay and peaceful and honourable... Then there are some women who are jealous. If he went off anywhere—I knew one such woman, she couldn't restrain herself, but would jump up at night and run off on the sly to find out where he was, whether he was with some other woman. That's a pity. And the woman knows herself it's wrong, and her heart fails her and she suffers, but she loves— it's all through love. And how sweet it is to make up after quarrels, to own herself in the wrong or to forgive him! And they both are so happy all at once— as though they had met anew, been married over again; as though their love had begun afresh. And no one, no one should know what passes between husband and wife if they love one another. And whatever quarrels there may be between them they ought not to call in their own mother to judge between them and tell tales of one another. They are their own judges. Love is a holy mystery and ought to be hidden from all other eyes, whatever happens. That makes it holier and better. They respect one another more, and much is built on respect. And if once there has been love, if they have been married for love, why should love pass away? Surely one can keep it! It is rare that one cannot keep it. And if the husband is kind and straightforward, why should not love last? The first phase of married love will pass, it is true, but then there will come a love that is better

German afresh: wieder, von neuem, abermals, erneut, wiederholt, zurück, abermalig. anew: von neuem, erneut, aufs Neue, wieder, abermalig, abermals. blessing: segnend, Segen, Heil, Einsetzung, Glückwunsch, Einsegnung, Heiligkeit, Heiligung, Herrlichkeit, Segenspendung, Segenswunsch. cherishes: schätzt, pflegt. fails: scheitert, Versagt.

forgive: verzeihen, verzeiht, verzeihst, verzeihe, vergeben, vergibst, vergib, vergebt, vergebe, entschuldigen, verzeihung gewären. holier: heiliger. husbands: Ehemänner. midst: Inmitten, Mitte. passes: Ausweise, Karten. peaceful: friedlich, friedfertig, einträchtig, geruhsam, gemütlich. quarrels: Steitigkeiten, Zankt, Kräche, Streitereien.

restrain: zurückhalten, hältst zurück, haltet zurück, halten zurück, halte zurück, beherrschen, beherrsche, beherrscht, beherrschst, enthalten, sich beruhigen. sin: Sünde, Sündigen, Sich versündigen, gegen etwas verstoßen. suffers: leidet. tales: Geschichten. torment: Qual, quälen, martern, peinigen, Marter, Quälung, Pein, Belästigung.

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still. % Then there will be the union of souls, they will have everything in common, there will be no secrets between them. And once they have children, the most difficult times will seem to them happy, so long as there is love and courage. Even toil will be a joy, you may deny yourself bread for your children and even that will be a joy, They will love you for it afterwards; so you are laying by for your future. As the children grow up you feel that you are an example, a support for them; that even after you die your children will always keep your thoughts and feelings, because they have received them from you, they will take on your semblance and likeness. So you see this is a great duty. How can it fail to draw the father and mother nearer? People say it's a trial to have children. Who says that? It is heavenly happiness! Are you fond of little children, Liza? I am awfully fond of them. You know—a little rosy baby boy at your bosom, and what husband's heart is not touched, seeing his wife nursing his child! A plump little rosy baby, sprawling and snuggling, chubby little hands and feet, clean tiny little nails, so tiny that it makes one laugh to look at them; eyes that look as if they understand everything. And while it sucks it clutches at your bosom with its little hand, plays. When its father comes up, the child tears itself away from the bosom, flings itself back, looks at its father, laughs, as though it were fearfully funny, and falls to sucking again. Or it will bite its mother's breast when its little teeth are coming, while it looks sideways at her with its little eyes as though to say, 'Look, I am biting!' Is not all that happiness when they are the three together, husband, wife and child? One can forgive a great deal for the sake of such moments. Yes, Liza, one must first learn to live oneself before one blames others!" "It's by pictures, pictures like that one must get at you," I thought to myself, though I did speak with real feeling, and all at once I flushed crimson. "What if she were suddenly to burst out laughing, what should I do then?" That idea drove me to fury. Towards the end of my speech I really was excited, and now my vanity was somehow wounded. The silence continued. I almost nudged her. "Why are you—" she began and stopped. But I understood: there was a quiver of something different in her voice, not abrupt, harsh and unyielding as

German blames: tadelt. bosom: Busen, Brust. chubby: pausbäckig, pummelig, rundlich, mollig. clutches: Kupplungen. excited: aufgeregt, erregte, erregten, erregtest, erregtet, erregt, angeregt, gereizt. flings: schleudert, wirft. heavenly: himmlisch, formidabel, köstlich, hervorragend, göttlich, vorzüglich, ausgezeichnet,

auserlesen, vortrefflich, herrlich. laughs: lachen, lacht. likeness: Ähnlichkeit, Bildnis, Konterfei. nails: Nägel, nagelt. nudged: stieß leise an. plump: mollig, prall, fleischig, rundlich, nicht elegant, pummelig, dick, grob. quiver: zittern, beben, Köcher, zucken, brennen, klopfen, unruhig warten auf etwas.

rosy: rosig, rosenfarbig. secrets: Geheimnisse. semblance: Anschein. sideways: seitwärts, seitlich. snuggling: Kuschelnd. souls: Seelen. sprawling: ausbreitend, ausstreckend, riesig, sich der Länge nach hinstreckend, Ausgebreitet. sucking: Saugend, Vollsaugen. sucks: saugt. unyielding: unnachgiebig, unbiegsam.

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before, but something soft and shamefaced, so shamefaced that I suddenly felt ashamed and guilty. "What?" I asked, with tender curiosity. "Why, you ..." "What?" "Why, you ... speak somehow like a book," she said, and again there was a note of irony in her voice.% That remark sent a pang to my heart. It was not what I was expecting. I did not understand that she was hiding her feelings under irony, that this is usually the last refuge of modest and chaste-souled people when the privacy of their soul is coarsely and intrusively invaded, and that their pride makes them refuse to surrender till the last moment and shrink from giving expression to their feelings before you. I ought to have guessed the truth from the timidity with which she had repeatedly approached her sarcasm, only bringing herself to utter it at last with an effort. But I did not guess, and an evil feeling took possession of me. "Wait a bit!" I thought.

German approached: genähert. coarsely: grob, ungehobelt. evil: Übel, böse, schlecht, schlimm, boshaft. expecting: erwartend. guessed: geraten, vermutete. hiding: versteckend, verhehlend, Verheimlichend, bergend. intrusively: zudringlich. invaded: fiel ein, fielst ein, eingefallen, eingedrungen, fielt ein, drangst ein, drangen ein, drang ein, fielen ein,

drangt ein. zusammenschrumpfen, verringern, pride: Stolz, Hochmut, Hoffahrt. reduzieren, mindern, zurückgehen, privacy: Ruhe, Privatleben. einlaufen, abnehmen. remark: Bemerkung, Anmerkung, surrender: aufgeben, kapitulieren, sich Kommentar, bemerken, Äußerung, ergeben, ergeben, Abtretung, sich Tadel. übergeben, Übergabe, übergeben, repeatedly: wiederholt, wiederholend, überliefern, Verzichtleistung, immer, jedesmal, mehrfach. zuerkennen. sarcasm: Sarkasmus, Spott. timidity: Ängstlichkeit, shamefaced: schamhaft. Schüchternheit, Furcht, Scheu, shrink: schrumpfen, einschrumpfen, Zaghaftigkeit, Verlegenheit, schwinden, vermindern, Bangigkeit, Scheuheit.

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"Oh, %hush, Liza! How can you talk about being like a book, when it makes even me, an outsider, feel sick? Though I don't look at it as an outsider, for, indeed, it touches me to the heart... Is it possible, is it possible that you do not feel sick at being here yourself? Evidently habit does wonders! God knows what habit can do with anyone. Can you seriously think that you will never grow old, that you will always be good- looking, and that they will keep you here for ever and ever? I say nothing of the loathsomeness of the life here... Though let me tell you this about it—about your present life, I mean; here though you are young now, attractive, nice, with soul and feeling, yet you know as soon as I came to myself just now I felt at once sick at being here with you! One can only come here when one is drunk. But if you were anywhere else, living as good people live, I should perhaps be more than attracted by you, should fall in love with you, should be glad of a look from you, let alone a word; I should hang about your door, should go down on my knees to you, should look upon you as my betrothed and think it an honour to be allowed to. I should not dare to have an impure thought about you. But here, you see, I know that I have only to whistle and you have to come with me whether you like it or not. I don't consult your wishes, but you mine. The lowest labourer hires himself as a workman, but he doesn't make a slave of himself altogether; besides, he knows that he will be free again presently. But when are you free? Only think what

German besides: außerdem, außer, neben, darüber, übrigens, zudem, namentlich, fort, sonstig, weiter, zusätzlich. betrothed: verlobte, verlobten, verlobt, verlobtest, verlobtet. dare: wagen, wagt, wage, wagst, sich trauen, sich getrauen, riskieren, sich wagen. glad: froh, erfreut, freudig. habit: Gewohnheit, Angewohnheit, Gebrauch, Kutte, Gewand,

Gepflogenheit, Usus, Anwendung, Kirchengewand, Verwendung, Benutzung. hires: mietet, heuert, dingt, Entgelte. honour: Ehre, ehren, beehren, verehren, Ehrung, Gewinn, Ehrerbietung erweisen, achten, hochachten, Aufwendung, huldigen. impure: unrein. labourer: Arbeiter, Arbeitskraft, Lohnarbeiter. loathsomeness: Widerlichkeit.

lowest: unterst, unterste. outsider: Außenseiter, Außenstehende, Outsider, Außenstehender. presently: gegenwärtig, bald, jetzt. soul: Seele, Gemüt. touches: berührungen, rührt an, berührt, befühlt, streift. whistle: Pfeife, pfeifen, Pfiff. wishes: wünsche. wonders: Wunder. workman: Arbeiter.

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you are giving up here? % What is it you are making a slave of? It is your soul, together with your body; you are selling your soul which you have no right to dispose of! You give your love to be outraged by every drunkard! Love! But that's everything, you know, it's a priceless diamond, it's a maiden's treasure, love—why, a man would be ready to give his soul, to face death to gain that love. But how much is your love worth now? You are sold, all of you, body and soul, and there is no need to strive for love when you can have everything without love. And you know there is no greater insult to a girl than that, do you understand? To be sure, I have heard that they comfort you, poor fools, they let you have lovers of your own here. But you know that's simply a farce, that's simply a sham, it's just laughing at you, and you are taken in by it! Why, do you suppose he really loves you, that lover of yours? I don't believe it. How can he love you when he knows you may be called away from him any minute? He would be a low fellow if he did! Will he have a grain of respect for you? What have you in common with him? He laughs at you and robs you—that is all his love amounts to! You are lucky if he does not beat you. Very likely he does beat you, too. Ask him, if you have got one, whether he will marry you. He will laugh in your face, if he doesn't spit in it or give you a blow—though maybe he is not worth a bad halfpenny himself. And for what have you ruined your life, if you come to think of it? For the coffee they give you to drink and the plentiful meals? But with what object are they feeding you up? An honest girl couldn't swallow the food, for she would know what she was being fed for. You are in debt here, and, of course, you will always be in debt, and you will go on in debt to the end, till the visitors here begin to scorn you. And that will soon happen, don't rely upon your youth—all that flies by express train here, you know. You will be kicked out. And not simply kicked out; long before that she'll begin nagging at you, scolding you, abusing you, as though you had not sacrificed your health for her, had not thrown away your youth and your soul for her benefit, but as though you had ruined her, beggared her, robbed her. And don't expect anyone to take your part: the others, your companions, will attack you, too, win her favour, for all are in slavery here, and have lost all conscience and pity here long ago. They have become utterly vile, and nothing on earth is viler,

German abusing: missbrauchend, mißbrauchen. dispose: anordnen. drunkard: Säufer, Trinker. nagging: Geschwatze, Piesacken, keifend, Genörgel, Getratsche, Gequengel, Gequake, Zwiebeln, Gemecker, Geleier, Gejammer. outraged: empört. plentiful: reichlich, massenhaft. priceless: unbezahlbar, unschätzbar. robbed: geraubt, raubtet, raubtest,

raubte, raubten, geplündert, plünderte, plünderten, plündertest, plündertet, beraubten. robs: raubt, plündert, beraubt, raubt aus. sacrificed: geopfert, aufgeopfert. scolding: Ausputzer, Gekeife, Geschimpfe, Geschrei, Gezänk, Keiferei, zankend. scorn: Hohn, Verachtung, verachten, Bitterkeit, Gespött, Schärfe. swallow: Schwalbe, schlucken,

Rauchschwalbe, Schluck, wegschlucken, Bauernschwalbe, herunterschlucken, hinunterschlingen, hinunterschlucken, runterschlucken, schlingen. treasure: schatz, Tresor. vile: gemein, landläufig, hinterlistig, infam, schuftig, kleinlich, mies, niederträchtig, winzig, hinterhältig, schmählich. viler: schändlicher.

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more loathsome, and more insulting than their abuse. % And you are laying down everything here, unconditionally, youth and health and beauty and hope, and at twenty-two you will look like a woman of five-and-thirty, and you will be lucky if you are not diseased, pray to God for that! No doubt you are thinking now that you have a gay time and no work to do! Yet there is no work harder or more dreadful in the world or ever has been. One would think that the heart alone would be worn out with tears. And you won't dare to say a word, not half a word when they drive you away from here; you will go away as though you were to blame. You will change to another house, then to a third, then somewhere else, till you come down at last to the Haymarket. There you will be beaten at every turn; that is good manners there, the visitors don't know how to be friendly without beating you. You don't believe that it is so hateful there? Go and look for yourself some time, you can see with your own eyes. Once, one New Year's Day, I saw a woman at a door. They had turned her out as a joke, to give her a taste of the frost because she had been crying so much, and they shut the door behind her. At nine o'clock in the morning she was already quite drunk, dishevelled, half-naked, covered with bruises, her face was powdered, but she had a black-eye, blood was trickling from her nose and her teeth; some cabman had just given her a drubbing. She was sitting on the stone steps, a salt fish of some sort was in her hand; she was crying, wailing something about her luck and beating with the fish on the steps, and cabmen and drunken soldiers were crowding in the doorway taunting her. You don't believe that you will ever be like that? I should be sorry to believe it, too, but how do you know; maybe ten years, eight years ago that very woman with the salt fish came here fresh as a cherub, innocent, pure, knowing no evil, blushing at every word. Perhaps she was like you, proud, ready to take offence, not like the others; perhaps she looked like a queen, and knew what happiness was in store for the man who should love her and whom she should love. Do you see how it ended? And what if at that very minute when she was beating on the filthy steps with that fish, drunken and dishevelled—what if at that very minute she recalled the pure early days in her father's house, when she used to go to school and the neighbour's son watched for her on the way, declaring that he would love her as

German beating: Schlagen, Klopfen. blushing: errötend. bruises: Quetscht, Zerstampft. cabman: Taxifahrer. cabmen: Taxifahrer. cherub: Cherub, der Engel, Unschuldiges Kind. crowding: die Überbevölkerung, Verdrängen, Zusammendrängend. crying: schreiend, schreiende, Weinen. doorway: Türöffnung, Eingang, Türeingang, Torweg, Öffnung, Loch,

Höhlung, Höhle, Grube. dreadful: schrecklich, furchtbar, grässlich, entsetzlich, fürchterlich, schauderhaft. drubbing: Verprügeln, Niederlage, Eine Tracht Prügel, Verprügelnd, Prügel. frost: Frost, Eisbildung. gay: fröhlich, heiter, schwul, lustig, vergnügt, homosexuell, munter, Schwule, euphorisch, strahlend, wohlgemut.

harder: Härter. manners: Umgangsformen, Sitten, Manieren, Weisen, Benehmen, Kinderstube. pray: beten, betet, betest, bete, betteln, bitten, flehen. trickling: tröpfelnd. unconditionally: bedingungslos. wailing: klagend, jammernd. worn: abgetragen, getragen, abgegriffen, vertreten, abgenutzt, abgewetzt.

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long as he lived, that he would devote his life to her, and when %they vowed to love one another for ever and be married as soon as they were grown up! No, Liza, it would be happy for you if you were to die soon of consumption in some corner, in some cellar like that woman just now. In the hospital, do you say? You will be lucky if they take you, but what if you are still of use to the madam here? Consumption is a queer disease, it is not like fever. The patient goes on hoping till the last minute and says he is all right. He deludes himself And that just suits your madam. Don't doubt it, that's how it is; you have sold your soul, and what is more you owe money, so you daren't say a word. But when you are dying, all will abandon you, all will turn away from you, for then there will be nothing to get from you. What's more, they will reproach you for cumbering the place, for being so long over dying. However you beg you won't get a drink of water without abuse: 'Whenever are you going off, you nasty hussy, you won't let us sleep with your moaning, you make the gentlemen sick.' That's true, I have heard such things said myself. They will thrust you dying into the filthiest corner in the cellar—in the damp and darkness; what will your thoughts be, lying there alone? When you die, strange hands will lay you out, with grumbling and impatience; no one will bless you, no one will sigh for you, they only want to get rid of you as soon as may be; they will buy a coffin, take you to the grave as they did that poor woman today, and celebrate your memory at the tavern. In the grave, sleet, filth, wet snow—no need to put themselves out for you—'Let her down, Vanuha; it's just like her luck—even here, she is headforemost, the hussy. Shorten the cord, you rascal.' 'It's all right as it is.' 'All right, is it? Why, she's on her side! She was a fellow-creature, after all! But, never mind, throw the earth on her.' And they won't care to waste much time quarrelling over you. They will scatter the wet blue clay as quick as they can and go off to the tavern ... and there your memory on earth will end; other women have children to go to their graves, fathers, husbands. While for you neither tear, nor sigh, nor remembrance; no one in the whole world will ever come to you, your name will vanish from the face of the earth—as though you had never existed, never been born at all! Nothing but filth and mud, however you knock at your coffin lid at night, when the dead arise, however you cry: 'Let

German bless: segnen, segnet, segne, segnest. celebrate: feiern, feierst, feiert, feiere, feire, zelebrieren, zelebrierst, zelebriert, zelebriere, einFestfeiern. cord: Schnur, Strick, Kordel, Leine, Strang, Kabel, Seil, Kord, Flexible Leitung, Garn, Saite. cumbering: belastend. deludes: täuscht. devote: widmen, widmet, widmest, widme, zueignen, weihen. fathers: Väter, Männlicher Elternteil.

filth: Schmutz, Dreck, Schweinerei. graves: Gräber. grumbling: murrend, unwirsch, verdrießlich, kribbelig, Klagen, mürrisch, nörglerisch, sauertöpfisch, Schimpferei, Stöhnen, knurrig. hussy: Flittchen, Kindchen, Wicht, Kind. lid: Deckel, Bedeckung, Decke, Lid, Umschlag, Verdeck, Verschlusskappe, Augenlid. moaning: elend, jammervoll, klagend,

kläglich, nörglerisch, quengelig. owe: schulden, schulde, schuldest, schuldet, schuldig sein. quarrelling: streiten. remembrance: Erinnerung, Andenken, Gedächtnis, Memorandum, Mahnung, Abberufung, Erinnerungsvermögen, Denkwürdigkeit, Denkschrift. sigh: Seufzen, Seufzer, Gier, Sucht. sleet: Schneeregen, graupeln. suits: passt.

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me out, kind people, to live in the light of day! My life was no life at all; my life has been thrown away like a dish- clout; it was drunk away in the tavern at the Haymarket; let me out, kind people, to live in the world again.'" And I worked myself up to such a pitch that I began to have a lump in my throat myself, and ... and all at once I stopped, sat up in dismay and, bending over apprehensively, began to listen with a beating heart. I had reason to be troubled.% I had felt for some time that I was turning her soul upside down and rending her heart, and—and the more I was convinced of it, the more eagerly I desired to gain my object as quickly and as effectually as possible. It was the exercise of my skill that carried me away; yet it was not merely sport... I knew I was speaking stiffly, artificially, even bookishly, in fact, I could not speak except "like a book." But that did not trouble me: I knew, I felt that I should be understood and that this very bookishness might be an assistance. But now, having attained my effect, I was suddenly panic-stricken. Never before had I witnessed such despair! She was lying on her face, thrusting her face into the pillow and clutching it in both hands. Her heart was being torn. Her youthful body was shuddering all over as though in convulsions. Suppressed sobs rent her bosom and suddenly burst out in weeping and wailing, then she pressed closer into the pillow: she did not want anyone here, not a living soul, to know of her anguish and her tears. She bit the pillow, bit her hand till it bled (I saw that afterwards), or, thrusting her fingers into her dishevelled hair, seemed rigid with the effort of restraint, holding her breath and clenching her teeth. I began saying something, begging her to calm herself, but felt that I did not dare; and all at once, in a sort of cold shiver, almost in terror, began fumbling in the dark, trying hurriedly to get dressed to go. It was dark; though I tried my best I could not finish dressing quickly. Suddenly I felt a box of matches and a candlestick with a whole candle in it. As soon as the room was lighted up, Liza sprang up, sat up in bed, and with a contorted face, with a half insane smile, looked at me almost senselessly. I sat down beside her and took her hands; she

German anguish: Pein, Qual, Schreckhaftigkeit, Angst. apprehensively: bedenkliche, begreifend. artificially: gekünstelt, künstlich. begging: Bittend, Bettelnd, Bettelei, ersuchend, Betteln, Abstauben, Schnorren. bled: blutete, blutetet, blutetest, bluteten, geblutet. bookishness: Stubengelehrsamkeit. candlestick: Leuchter, Kerzenhalter,

Kerzenständer. clenching: zusammenbeißend. clout: Kopfnuss, Lappen. clutching: packend. contorted: verdrehtest, verdrehtet, verdreht, verdrehte, verdrehten, verzogen, verschroben, verzerrt. dismay: in Bestürzung versetzen, Schrecken, Niedergeschlagenheit, Konsternieren, Bestürzt machen, Bestürzung. effectually: wirksam.

fumbling: umhertastend, fummelnd, linkisch, tastend. insane: wahnsinnig, verrückt, irre, geisteskrank, toll, irrsinnig. rending: leistend. senselessly: sinnlos. shuddering: schaudernd. sobs: Schluchzt. stiffly: steif. thrusting: Stoßen. upside: Oberseite, Oberhalb. youthful: jugendlich, jung.

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came to herself, made an impulsive movement towards me, would have caught hold of me, but did not dare, and slowly bowed her head before me. "Liza, my dear, I was wrong ... forgive me, my dear," I began, but she squeezed my hand in her fingers so tightly that I felt I was saying the wrong thing and stopped.% "This is my address, Liza, come to me." "I will come," she answered resolutely, her head still bowed. "But now I am going, good-bye ... till we meet again." I got up; she, too, stood up and suddenly flushed all over, gave a shudder, snatched up a shawl that was lying on a chair and muffled herself in it to her chin. As she did this she gave another sickly smile, blushed and looked at me strangely. I felt wretched; I was in haste to get away—to disappear. "Wait a minute," she said suddenly, in the passage just at the doorway, stopping me with her hand on my overcoat. She put down the candle in hot haste and ran off; evidently she had thought of something or wanted to show me something. As she ran away she flushed, her eyes shone, and there was a smile on her lips—what was the meaning of it? Against my will I waited: she came back a minute later with an expression that seemed to ask forgiveness for something. In fact, it was not the same face, not the same look as the evening before: sullen, mistrustful and obstinate. Her eyes now were imploring, soft, and at the same time trustful, caressing, timid. The expression with which children look at people they are very fond of, of whom they are asking a favour. Her eyes were a light hazel, they were lovely eyes, full of life, and capable of expressing love as well as sullen hatred. Making no explanation, as though I, as a sort of higher being, must understand everything without explanations, she held out a piece of paper to me. Her whole face was positively beaming at that instant with naive, almost childish, triumph. I unfolded it. It was a letter to her from a medical student or someone of that sort—a very high-flown and flowery, but extremely respectful, love-letter. I don't recall the words now, but I remember well that through the

German beaming: strahlend, abstrahlend, blank, glatt, glimmend, schimmernd. caressing: liebkosend, einschmeichelnd. childish: kindisch, kindlich, infantil, albern. flowery: blumig. good-bye: Abschied. hazel: Haselnußstrauch, Hasel, nußbraun, Haselnußsträucher. impulsive: impulsiv, unbesonnen. mistrustful: mißtrauisch.

muffled: umhüllt. obstinate: hartnäckig, starrsinnig, eigensinnig, starrköpfig, stur, halsstarrig, trotzig, widerspenstig, widerhaarig, schwerhandhabbar, widersetzlich. respectful: ehrerbietig, achtungsvoll, respektvoll, ehrfurchtsvoll, andächtig. shawl: Schal, Umschlagetuch, Umhängetuch, Kopftuch, Umhang, Haartuch, Shawl, Halstuch.

shone: schien, geschienen. shudder: schaudern, Schauder, sich gruseln, sich grausen, grausen. timid: zaghaft, befangen, schüchtern, Furchtsam, scheu, verlegen, bang, verschämt. trustful: vertrauensvoll. unfolded: entfaltetest, entfaltetet, entfalteten, entfaltete, entfaltet, auseinandergefaltet, klapptest auf, aufgeklappt, offengelegt, falteten auseinander, faltetest auseinander.

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high-flown phrases there was apparent a genuine feeling, which cannot be feigned. When I had finished reading it I met her glowing, questioning, and childishly impatient eyes fixed upon me. She fastened her eyes upon my face and waited impatiently for what I should say. In a few words, hurriedly, but with a sort of joy and pride, she explained to me that she had been to a dance somewhere in a private house, a family of "very nice people, who knew nothing, absolutely nothing, for she had only come here so lately and it had all happened ... and she hadn't made up her mind to stay and was certainly going away as soon as she had paid her debt..." and at that party there had been the student who had danced with her all the evening. He had talked to her, and it turned out that he had known her in old days at Riga when he was a child, they had played together, but a very long time ago—and he knew her parents, but about this he knew nothing, nothing whatever, and had no suspicion! And the day after the dance (three days ago) he had sent her that letter through the friend with whom she had gone to the party ... and ... well, that was all." She dropped her shining eyes with a sort of bashfulness as she finished.% The poor girl was keeping that student's letter as a precious treasure, and had run to fetch it, her only treasure, because she did not want me to go away without knowing that she, too, was honestly and genuinely loved; that she, too, was addressed respectfully. No doubt that letter was destined to lie in her box and lead to nothing. But none the less, I am certain that she would keep it all her life as a precious treasure, as her pride and justification, and now at such a minute she had thought of that letter and brought it with naive pride to raise herself in my eyes that I might see, that I, too, might think well of her. I said nothing, pressed her hand and went out. I so longed to get away ... I walked all the way home, in spite of the fact that the melting snow was still falling in heavy flakes. I was exhausted, shattered, in bewilderment. But behind the bewilderment the truth was already gleaming. The loathsome truth.

German addressed: adressiert. bashfulness: Verschämtheit. bewilderment: Verwirrung, Schüchternheit, Verdutztheit. childishly: kindlich, kindisch. fastened: befestigten, befestigtest, befestigte, befestigt, befestigtet. feigned: geheuchelt, vorgeblich, heuchelten, unnatürlich, unecht, künstlich, heuchlerisch, gekünstelt, heucheltet, heucheltest, vorgeschützt. gleaming: Glänzend, schimmernd,

durchschimmernd. glowing: glühend. honestly: ehrlich, ehrenvoll. impatient: ungeduldig, rastlos, ruhelos, rührig, steif, unruhig, zappelig, flatterhaft, unbeständig. impatiently: ungeduldig. justification: Justierung, Rechtfertigung, Einstellung, Blocksatz, Entschuldigung, Verzeihung, Ausrichtung, Justifikation.

melting: Schmelzen, schmelzend, Tauwetter, Abtauen. naive: naiv, unbefangen. precious: kostbar, selten, wertvoll, edel. respectfully: respektvoll, hochachtungsvoll. shining: glänzend, strahlend, leuchtend, glimmend. suspicion: Verdacht, Argwohn, Vermutung, Vorgefühl, Ahnung, Mißtrauen.

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It%was some time, however, before I consented to recognise that truth. Waking up in the morning after some hours of heavy, leaden sleep, and immediately realising all that had happened on the previous day, I was positively amazed at my last night's sentimentality with Liza, at all those "outcries of horror and pity." "To think of having such an attack of womanish hysteria, pah!" I concluded. And what did I thrust my address upon her for? What if she comes? Let her come, though; it doesn't matter... But obviously, that was not now the chief and the most important matter: I had to make haste and at all costs save my reputation in the eyes of Zverkov and Simonov as quickly as possible; that was the chief business. And I was so taken up that morning that I actually forgot all about Liza. First of all I had at once to repay what I had borrowed the day before from Simonov. I resolved on a desperate measure: to borrow fifteen roubles straight off from Anton Antonitch. As luck would have it he was in the best of humours that morning, and gave it to me at once, on the first asking. I was so delighted at this that, as I signed the IOU with a swaggering air, I told him casually that the night before "I had been keeping it up with some friends at the Hotel de Paris; we were giving a farewell party to a comrade, in fact, I might say a friend of my childhood, and you know—a desperate rake, fearfully spoilt—of course, he belongs to a good family, and has considerable means, a brilliant career; he is

German amazed: erstaunt, verwunderten, verwundertest, verwundertet, verwundert, verwunderte, erstauntest, erstaunten, erstaunte, erstauntet, verblüffte. belongs: gehört zu. borrow: borgen, entlehnen, leihen, ausleihen, zur Ausleihe bekommen, verleihen, etwas von jemadem geliehen haben, darleihen. casually: gelegentlich, zufällig, ungezwungen, beiläufig.

concluded: beendet, beendetet, beendetest, beendete, beendeten, schloß ab, schlossen ab, schlossest ab, schloßt ab, abgeschlossen. consented: zugestimmt. desperate: Verzweifelt, hoffnungslos, ratlos. horror: Gräuel, Abscheu, Horror, Schrecken, Spinnkopf, Spuck. humours: humore. leaden: bleiern. rake: Harke, harken, Rechen, lockere

Vogel, Schürzenjäger, zusammenharken. realising: Erkennen. repay: vergelten, vergelte, vergeltet, vergilt, vergiltst, zurückzahlen. resolved: aufgelöst, entschlossen. sentimentality: Sentimentalität. thrust: Schub, stoßen, Schubkraft, treiben, Druck, Vorstoß, dringen, rücken, Stoß, Staudruck. womanish: weibisch, feminin, tuntenhaft, effemiert.

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witty, charming, a regular Lovelace, you understand; we drank an extra 'halfdozen' and ..." And it went off all right; all this was uttered very easily, unconstrainedly and complacently.% On reaching home I promptly wrote to Simonov. To this hour I am lost in admiration when I recall the truly gentlemanly, good-humoured, candid tone of my letter. With tact and good- breeding, and, above all, entirely without superfluous words, I blamed myself for all that had happened. I defended myself, "if I really may be allowed to defend myself," by alleging that being utterly unaccustomed to wine, I had been intoxicated with the first glass, which I said, I had drunk before they arrived, while I was waiting for them at the Hotel de Paris between five and six o'clock. I begged Simonov's pardon especially; I asked him to convey my explanations to all the others, especially to Zverkov, whom "I seemed to remember as though in a dream" I had insulted. I added that I would have called upon all of them myself, but my head ached, and besides I had not the face to. I was particularly pleased with a certain lightness, almost carelessness (strictly within the bounds of politeness, however), which was apparent in my style, and better than any possible arguments, gave them at once to understand that I took rather an independent view of "all that unpleasantness last night"; that I was by no means so utterly crushed as you, my friends, probably imagine; but on the contrary, looked upon it as a gentleman serenely respecting himself should look upon it. "On a young hero's past no censure is cast!" "There is actually an aristocratic playfulness about it!" I thought admiringly, as I read over the letter. "And it's all because I am an intellectual and cultivated man! Another man in my place would not have known how to extricate himself, but here I have got out of it and am as jolly as ever again, and all because I am 'a cultivated and educated man of our day.' And, indeed, perhaps, everything was due to the wine yesterday. H'm!" ... No, it was not the wine. I did not drink anything at all between five and six when I was waiting for them. I had lied to

German ached: schmerzte, geschmerzt. admiration: Bewunderung. admiringly: bewundern, bewundernd, bewundernde. alleging: behauptend. aristocratic: aristokratisch, vornehm, adlig. begged: bat, batet, baten, gebeten, batest, betteltet, betteltest, gebettelt, bettelte, bettelten, ersuchtet. carelessness: Nachlässigkeit, Achtlosigkeit, Sorglosigkeit,

Unvorsichtigkeit. censure: tadeln, Tadel, begutachten, kritisieren. extricate: befreien, befreie, befreist, befreit. gentlemanly: weltmännisch, vornehm, gebildet. good-humoured: gutgelaunt, gutgesinnt, wohlgesinnt. intoxicated: berauscht, betrunken, trunken. jolly: Vergnügt, lustig, fröhlich, heiter.

lightness: Helligkeit, Leichtigkeit, Leichtheit, Luftigkeit. playfulness: Ausgelassenheit. politeness: Höflichkeit, Freundlichkeit, Korrektheit, Herzlichkeit, Gutherzigkeit, Gutartigkeit, Anstand. promptly: sofort, prompt. serenely: gelassen, ruhig. unpleasantness: Unbehagen, Mißbehagen. uttered: geäußert.

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Simonov; I had lied shamelessly; and indeed I wasn't ashamed now... Hang it all though, the great thing was that I was rid of it.% I put six roubles in the letter, sealed it up, and asked Apollon to take it to Simonov. When he learned that there was money in the letter, Apollon became more respectful and agreed to take it. Towards evening I went out for a walk. My head was still aching and giddy after yesterday. But as evening came on and the twilight grew denser, my impressions and, following them, my thoughts, grew more and more different and confused. Something was not dead within me, in the depths of my heart and conscience it would not die, and it showed itself in acute depression. For the most part I jostled my way through the most crowded business streets, along Myeshtchansky Street, along Sadovy Street and in Yusupov Garden. I always liked particularly sauntering along these streets in the dusk, just when there were crowds of working people of all sorts going home from their daily work, with faces looking cross with anxiety. What I liked was just that cheap bustle, that bare prose. On this occasion the jostling of the streets irritated me more than ever, I could not make out what was wrong with me, I could not find the clue, something seemed rising up continually in my soul, painfully, and refusing to be appeased. I returned home completely upset, it was just as though some crime were lying on my conscience. The thought that Liza was coming worried me continually. It seemed queer to me that of all my recollections of yesterday this tormented me, as it were, especially, as it were, quite separately. Everything else I had quite succeeded in forgetting by the evening; I dismissed it all and was still perfectly satisfied with my letter to Simonov. But on this point I was not satisfied at all. It was as though I were worried only by Liza. "What if she comes," I thought incessantly, "well, it doesn't matter, let her come! H'm! it's horrid that she should see, for instance, how I live. Yesterday I seemed such a hero to her, while now, h'm! It's horrid, though, that I have let myself go so, the room looks like a beggar's. And I brought myself to go out to dinner in such a suit! And my American leather sofa with the stuffing sticking out. And my dressing-gown, which will not cover me, such tatters, and she will see all this and she will see Apollon. That beast is

German beast: Tier, Biest, Bestie, Vieh, Getier. bustle: Gesumm, Betrieb, Gemurmel. clue: Hinweis, Anhaltspunkt, Indiz, Spur, Wink, Verweisung, Tip, Fingerzeig. crowds: Menschenmassen, Schwärme, Mengen. denser: dichter. depths: Tiefen. dusk: Dämmerung, Abenddämmerung, Zwielicht. forgetting: vergessend.

hero: Held, Heroe, Heros. impressions: Eindrücke. jostled: angerempelt. jostling: Anrempelnd, Drängelei. prose: Prosa. recollections: Erinnerungen. sauntering: schlendernd, bummelnd, bummeln, flanieren, geschlender, schlendern. sealed: versiegelt, abgedichtet, frankiert. separately: getrennt, separat,

besonders, einzeln, für sich, gesondert, eigens. sticking: adhäsion, verwachsung, stecken, klebend, festklebend, einbrennen, einsatz. stuffing: Füllung, Füllsel, Füllstoff, Stopfend, Polstermaterial. tatters: Fetzen, Lumpen, Zerfetzt. twilight: Dämmerung, Zwielicht, Abenddämmerung, Dämmerlicht, Finsternis, Halbdunkel, Glühen, Flimmern.

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certain to insult her. He will fasten upon her in order to be rude to me. And I, of course, shall be panic-stricken as usual, I shall begin bowing and scraping before her and pulling my dressing-gown round me, I shall begin smiling, telling lies. Oh, the beastliness! And it isn't the beastliness of it that matters most! There is something more important, more loathsome, viler! Yes, viler! And to put on that dishonest lying mask again! ..." When I reached that thought I fired up all at once.% "Why dishonest? How dishonest? I was speaking sincerely last night. I remember there was real feeling in me, too. What I wanted was to excite an honourable feeling in her... Her crying was a good thing, it will have a good effect." Yet I could not feel at ease. All that evening, even when I had come back home, even after nine o'clock, when I calculated that Liza could not possibly come, still she haunted me, and what was worse, she came back to my mind always in the same position. One moment out of all that had happened last night stood vividly before my imagination; the moment when I struck a match and saw her pale, distorted face, with its look of torture. And what a pitiful, what an unnatural, what a distorted smile she had at that moment! But I did not know then, that fifteen years later I should still in my imagination see Liza, always with the pitiful, distorted, inappropriate smile which was on her face at that minute. Next day I was ready again to look upon it all as nonsense, due to overexcited nerves, and, above all, as exaggerated. I was always conscious of that weak point of mine, and sometimes very much afraid of it. "I exaggerate everything, that is where I go wrong," I repeated to myself every hour. But, however, "Liza will very likely come all the same," was the refrain with which all my reflections ended. I was so uneasy that I sometimes flew into a fury: "She'll come, she is certain to come!" I cried, running about the room, "if not today, she will come tomorrow; she'll find me out! The damnable romanticism of these pure hearts! Oh, the vileness—oh, the silliness—oh, the stupidity of these 'wretched sentimental souls!' Why, how fail to understand? How could one fail to understand? ..."

German beastliness: Elend, Unannehmlichkeit, verdrehtet, verdrehten. Schlamassel, Gemeinheit, Bestialität, exaggerate: übertreiben, übertreibst, Unmenschlichkeit. übertreibt, übertreibe, aufbauschen, damnable: verdammenswert, bauschst auf, bauscht auf, bauschen abscheulich. auf, bausche auf, aufblasen, dishonest: unehrlich, unlauter, andicken. unverdient, ungerecht, unfair, excite: erregen, errege, aufregen, unbillig, unberechtigt, in böser erregst, erregt, anregen, reizen, absicht, malafide. anreizen, aufreizen, den Hof machen, distorted: verzerrtet, verzerrtest, ermutigen. verzerrten, verzerrte, verzerrt, fasten: befestigen, befestigst, befestigt, verdrehte, verdreht, verdrehtest, befestige, fixieren, verriegeln,

festsetzen, anschließen, zuriegeln. haunted: verfolgte. pitiful: erbärmlich, mitleidig, jämmerlich, kläglich, jammervoll, miserabel, bedauernswert. refrain: Refrain, Kehrreim. romanticism: Romantik. scraping: Kratzend. sentimental: sentimental, empfindsam, melodramatisch, gefühlvoll, gefühlsduselig, rührselig. uneasy: unruhig, unbehaglich.

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But at this point I stopped short, and in great confusion, indeed.% And how few, how few words, I thought, in passing, were needed; how little of the idyllic (and affectedly, bookishly, artificially idyllic too) had sufficed to turn a whole human life at once according to my will. That's virginity, to be sure! Freshness of soil! At times a thought occurred to me, to go to her, "to tell her all," and beg her not to come to me. But this thought stirred such wrath in me that I believed I should have crushed that "damned" Liza if she had chanced to be near me at the time. I should have insulted her, have spat at her, have turned her out, have struck her! One day passed, however, another and another; she did not come and I began to grow calmer. I felt particularly bold and cheerful after nine o'clock, I even sometimes began dreaming, and rather sweetly: I, for instance, became the salvation of Liza, simply through her coming to me and my talking to her... I develop her, educate her. Finally, I notice that she loves me, loves me passionately. I pretend not to understand (I don't know, however, why I pretend, just for effect, perhaps). At last all confusion, transfigured, trembling and sobbing, she flings herself at my feet and says that I am her saviour, and that she loves me better than anything in the world. I am amazed, but... "Liza," I say, "can you imagine that I have not noticed your love? I saw it all, I divined it, but I did not dare to approach you first, because I had an influence over you and was afraid that you would force yourself, from gratitude, to respond to my love, would try to rouse in your heart a feeling which was perhaps absent, and I did not wish that ... because it would be tyranny ... it would be indelicate (in short, I launch off at that point into European, inexplicably lofty subtleties a la George Sand), but now, now you are mine, you are my creation, you are pure, you are good, you are my noble wife. 'Into my house come bold and free,

Its rightful mistress there to be'."

Then we begin living together, go abroad and so on, and so on. In fact, in the end it seemed vulgar to me myself, and I began putting out my tongue at myself.

German affectedly: affektiert, geziert, geschraubt. calmer: ruhiger. divined: ahnte voraus. educate: erziehen, erziehst, erzieht, erziehe, bilden, ausbilden, bildet aus, bildet, unterrichten, bildest aus, bilden aus. idyllic: idyllisch. indelicate: taktlos. inexplicably: unerklärlich, unerklärlicherweise.

noticed: bemerkt, notierte. rightful: rechtmäßig. rouse: wecken, weckst, weckt, wecke, stimulieren, reizen, erregen, aufhetzen, ermutigen, anregen, anfeuern. saviour: Retter. sobbing: Schluchzen, Schluchzend, Weinen, Jammern, Geweine, Geschluchtze, Geheul. subtleties: Feinheiten. sufficed: genügtest, genügten,

genügtet, genügt, genügte, reichten aus, ausgereicht, reichtet aus, reichtest aus, reichte aus, reichtet hin. sweetly: süß. transfigured: umgestaltet. trembling: zitternd, Zittern, Erschütterung, Beben. tyranny: Tyrannei, Gewaltherrschaft, Despotismus. virginity: Jungfräulichkeit. wrath: Zorn, Wut, Erbitterung, Grimm, Gram.

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Besides, %they won't let her out, "the hussy!" I thought. They don't let them go out very readily, especially in the evening (for some reason I fancied she would come in the evening, and at seven o'clock precisely). Though she did say she was not altogether a slave there yet, and had certain rights; so, h'm! Damn it all, she will come, she is sure to come! It was a good thing, in fact, that Apollon distracted my attention at that time by his rudeness. He drove me beyond all patience! He was the bane of my life, the curse laid upon me by Providence. We had been squabbling continually for years, and I hated him. My God, how I hated him! I believe I had never hated anyone in my life as I hated him, especially at some moments. He was an elderly, dignified man, who worked part of his time as a tailor. But for some unknown reason he despised me beyond all measure, and looked down upon me insufferably. Though, indeed, he looked down upon everyone. Simply to glance at that flaxen, smoothly brushed head, at the tuft of hair he combed up on his forehead and oiled with sunflower oil, at that dignified mouth, compressed into the shape of the letter V, made one feel one was confronting a man who never doubted of himself. He was a pedant, to the most extreme point, the greatest pedant I had met on earth, and with that had a vanity only befitting Alexander of Macedon. He was in love with every button on his coat, every nail on his fingers—absolutely in love with them, and he looked it! In his behaviour to me he was a perfect tyrant, he spoke very little to me, and if he chanced to glance at me he gave me a firm, majestically self- confident and invariably ironical look that drove me sometimes to fury. He did his work with the air of doing me the greatest favour, though he did scarcely anything for me, and did not, indeed, consider himself bound to do anything. There could be no doubt that he looked upon me as the greatest fool on earth, and that "he did not get rid of me" was simply that he could get wages from me every month. He consented to do nothing for me for seven roubles a month. Many sins should be forgiven me for what I suffered from him. My hatred reached such a point that sometimes his very step almost threw me into convulsions. What I loathed particularly was his lisp. His tongue must have been a little too long or something of that sort, for he continually lisped, and seemed to be very proud of

German bane: Verderben, Ruin. befitting: ziemend. brushed: gebürstet, bürstete. combed: gekämmt, kämmte. compressed: komprimiert, drückte zusammen. confronting: Konfrontierend. distracted: abgelenkt, zerstreute, lenktet ab, lenktest ab, lenkten ab, lenkte ab, zerstreuten, zerstreut, verwirrte, zerstreutet, zerstreutest. flaxen: flachsartig, flachsblond,

hellblond, blond. forehead: Stirn, die Stirn. hatred: Hass. insufferably: unerträglich. lisp: lispeln, munkeln, murmeln, brummeln, brabbeln, quaken. lisped: gelispelt. loathed: verabscheut, verabscheute, verabscheuten, verabscheutest, verabscheutet. nail: Nagel, nageln, festnageln, Stift, schlagen, Nägel einschlagen,

tischlern, hämmern, einhämmern, der Nagel, annageln. oiled: geölt. pedant: Pedant. sins: Sünden. smoothly: reibungslos, glatt, weich. squabbling: Streiterei. sunflower: Sonnenblume. tailor: Schneider, schneidern, Maßschneider. threw: warf, geworfen. tuft: Büschel, Schopf, Quaste.

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it, imagining that it greatly added to his dignity. He spoke in a slow, measured tone, with his hands behind his back and his eyes fixed on the ground. He maddened me particularly when he read aloud the psalms to himself behind his partition. Many a battle I waged over that reading! But he was awfully fond of reading aloud in the evenings, in a slow, even, sing-song voice, as though over the dead. It is interesting that that is how he has ended: he hires himself out to read the psalms over the dead, and at the same time he kills rats and makes blacking. But at that time I could not get rid of him, it was as though he were chemically combined with my existence. Besides, nothing would have induced him to consent to leave me. I could not live in furnished lodgings: my lodging was my private solitude, my shell, my cave, in which I concealed myself from all mankind, and Apollon seemed to me, for some reason, an integral part of that flat, and for seven years I could not turn him away.% To be two or three days behind with his wages, for instance, was impossible. He would have made such a fuss, I should not have known where to hide my head. But I was so exasperated with everyone during those days, that I made up my mind for some reason and with some object to punish Apollon and not to pay him for a fortnight the wages that were owing him. I had for a long time—for the last two years—been intending to do this, simply in order to teach him not to give himself airs with me, and to show him that if I liked I could withhold his wages. I purposed to say nothing to him about it, and was purposely silent indeed, in order to score off his pride and force him to be the first to speak of his wages. Then I would take the seven roubles out of a drawer, show him I have the money put aside on purpose, but that I won't, I won't, I simply won't pay him his wages, I won't just because that is "what I wish," because "I am master, and it is for me to decide," because he has been disrespectful, because he has been rude; but if he were to ask respectfully I might be softened and give it to him, otherwise he might wait another fortnight, another three weeks, a whole month... But angry as I was, yet he got the better of me. I could not hold out for four days. He began as he always did begin in such cases, for there had been such cases already, there had been attempts (and it may be observed I knew all this

German airs: Lüftet. blacking: Lästern, Schwarz machen. cave: Höhle, Höhlung, Grube, Grotte, Vertiefung. chemically: chemisch. disrespectful: respektlos, respektwidrig, ehrfurchtslos, unhöflich. imagining: denkend, annehmend, ausmalend, einbildend, eingebildet, sich vorstellend, vermutend, ausdenkend, vorstellend.

kills: tötet. lodging: Unterkunft, Bleibe, Beherbergung, Unterbringung, Wohnung, Mitbewohnung. lodgings: Möbliert Zimmer, Wohnung, Unterkünfte, Unterkunft, Nachtquartier, Möblierte Unterkunft, Logis, Möbliertes Zimmer. partition: Teilung, Trennung, Trennwand, Abteilung, Zwischenwand, Partition, Aufteilung, Abtrennung,

Zwischenmauer, Abteil, Absonderung. psalms: Psalmen. purposed: beabsichtigte. softened: weichtest auf, aufgeweicht, weichte auf, weichtet auf, weichten auf, erweichte, erweicht, erweichten, erweichtest, erweichtet, enthärtet. waged: geführt. withhold: vorenthalten, zurückhalten, enthältst vor, enthalte vor, enthalten vor, enthaltet vor.

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beforehand, I knew his nasty tactics by heart). He would begin by fixing upon me an exceedingly severe stare, keeping it up for several minutes at a time, particularly on meeting me or seeing me out of the house. If I held out and pretended not to notice these stares, he would, still in silence, proceed to further tortures. All at once, a propos of nothing, he would walk softly and smoothly into my room, when I was pacing up and down or reading, stand at the door, one hand behind his back and one foot behind the other, and fix upon me a stare more than severe, utterly contemptuous. If I suddenly asked him what he wanted, he would make me no answer, but continue staring at me persistently for some seconds, then, with a peculiar compression of his lips and a most significant air, deliberately turn round and deliberately go back to his room. Two hours later he would come out again and again present himself before me in the same way. It had happened that in my fury I did not even ask him what he wanted, but simply raised my head sharply and imperiously and began staring back at him. So we stared at one another for two minutes; at last he turned with deliberation and dignity and went back again for two hours.% If I were still not brought to reason by all this, but persisted in my revolt, he would suddenly begin sighing while he looked at me, long, deep sighs as though measuring by them the depths of my moral degradation, and, of course, it ended at last by his triumphing completely: I raged and shouted, but still was forced to do what he wanted. This time the usual staring manoeuvres had scarcely begun when I lost my temper and flew at him in a fury. I was irritated beyond endurance apart from him. "Stay," I cried, in a frenzy, as he was slowly and silently turning, with one hand behind his back, to go to his room. "Stay! Come back, come back, I tell you!" and I must have bawled so unnaturally, that he turned round and even looked at me with some wonder. However, he persisted in saying nothing, and that infuriated me. "How dare you come and look at me like that without being sent for? Answer!"

German bawled: grölte. compression: Kompression, Komprimierung, Verdichtung, Druck, Verdichting. deliberation: Überlegung, Anbetracht, Erwägung. endurance: Ausdauer, Dauer, Standhaftigkeit. fix: befestigen, befestigt, befestige, befestigst, reparieren, fixieren, festsetzen, fixiere, anberaumen, setze fest, setzt fest.

fixing: Befestigend, festsetzend, Befestigung, Fixierend, reparierend. frenzy: Wahnsinn, Ekstase, Raserei, Zügellosigkeit, Unbändigkeit. imperiously: gebieterisch. measuring: Messen, Messend, Messung, Abmessen. persisted: beharrt, beharrte, beharrten, beharrtest, beharrtet. raged: gerast. revolt: Aufstand, revoltieren, Revolte, Aufruhr, rebellieren, auflehnen, sich

empören, Empörung. sighs: seufzer, seufzt. silently: schweigend, still, geräuschlos, lautlos. stare: starren, anstarren, stieren, anglotzen. stares: starrt. temper: Stimmung, härten, Laune, hart machen, abhärten, Humor, Temperament, stählen. tortures: foltert, foltern. triumphing: triumphierend, siegreich.

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After looking at me calmly for half a minute, he began turning round again.% "Stay!" I roared, running up to him, "don't stir! There. Answer, now: what did you come in to look at?" "If you have any order to give me it's my duty to carry it out," he answered, after another silent pause, with a slow, measured lisp, raising his eyebrows and calmly twisting his head from one side to another, all this with exasperating composure. "That's not what I am asking you about, you torturer!" I shouted, turning crimson with anger. "I'll tell you why you came here myself: you see, I don't give you your wages, you are so proud you don't want to bow down and ask for it, and so you come to punish me with your stupid stares, to worry me and you have no sus-pic-ion how stupid it is—stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid! ..." He would have turned round again without a word, but I seized him. "Listen," I shouted to him. "Here's the money, do you see, here it is," (I took it out of the table drawer); "here's the seven roubles complete, but you are not going to have it, you ... are ... not ... going ... to ... have it until you come respectfully with bowed head to beg my pardon. Do you hear?" "That cannot be," he answered, with the most unnatural self-confidence. "It shall be so," I said, "I give you my word of honour, it shall be!" "And there's nothing for me to beg your pardon for," he went on, as though he had not noticed my exclamations at all. "Why, besides, you called me a 'torturer,' for which I can summon you at the police-station at any time for insulting behaviour." "Go, summon me," I roared, "go at once, this very minute, this very second! You are a torturer all the same! a torturer!" But he merely looked at me, then turned, and regardless of my loud calls to him, he walked to his room with an even step and without looking round.

German anger: Ärger, Zorn, Groll, Wut, Ingrimm, ärgern, Verärgerung. bow: bogen, Bug, sich verneigen, Verbeugung, Bügel, biegen, Reverenz, Geigenstock, Geigenbogen, Handbogen, Handbögen. composure: Gelassenheit, Gefaßtheit. exasperating: ärgerlich, quälend. exclamations: Ausrufe. loud: laut, lautstark, geräuschvoll, schreiend, lärmend, lärmig. measured: gemessen, bemessen,

maßvoll, passend, abgemessen reden, abgemessen. pardon: Verzeihung, Begnadigung, Vergebung, verzeihen, entschuldigen, amnestieren, Entschuldigung. pause: Pause, pausieren, Unterbrechung, zögern. raising: sich erhebend, Erhöhung, aufbringend, steigernd. regardless: ohne Bezug, ungeachtet, unbekümmert, trotzdem, ohne

Rücksicht, achtlos, ohne Rücksicht auf. seized: ergriff, ergriffen, ergrifft, ergriffst, griff, gegriffen, griffen, griffst, grifft, zog ein, zogen ein. shouted: geschrieen. slow: langsam, träge, verlangsamen. summon: rufen, einberufen, vorladen, herbeirufen, kommen lassen, aufbieten, Ladung, aufrufen, zu sich rufen, anrufen. torturer: Folterer, Folterknecht.

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"If it had not been for Liza nothing of this would have happened," I decided inwardly. Then, after waiting a minute, I went myself behind his screen with a dignified and solemn air, though my heart was beating slowly and violently.% "Apollon," I said quietly and emphatically, though I was breathless, "go at once without a minute's delay and fetch the police-officer." He had meanwhile settled himself at his table, put on his spectacles and taken up some sewing. But, hearing my order, he burst into a guffaw. "At once, go this minute! Go on, or else you can't imagine what will happen." "You are certainly out of your mind," he observed, without even raising his head, lisping as deliberately as ever and threading his needle. "Whoever heard of a man sending for the police against himself? And as for being frightened— you are upsetting yourself about nothing, for nothing will come of it." "Go!" I shrieked, clutching him by the shoulder. I felt I should strike him in a minute. But I did not notice the door from the passage softly and slowly open at that instant and a figure come in, stop short, and begin staring at us in perplexity I glanced, nearly swooned with shame, and rushed back to my room. There, clutching at my hair with both hands, I leaned my head against the wall and stood motionless in that position. Two minutes later I heard Apollon's deliberate footsteps. "There is some woman asking for you," he said, looking at me with peculiar severity. Then he stood aside and let in Liza. He would not go away, but stared at us sarcastically. "Go away, go away," I commanded in desperation. At that moment my clock began whirring and wheezing and struck seven.

German breathless: atemlos, außer Atem. commanded: befahl, befohlene. deliberate: absichtlich, bewusst, überlegen, sich beraten, vorsätzlich, überlegt, bedachtsam, beratschlagen, mit Vorbedacht, vorsichtig, wohlüberlegt. desperation: Verzweiflung, Verzweifelung, Hoffnungslosigkeit, Erschütterung, Zerrüttung. emphatically: nachdrücklich, ausdrücklich.

footsteps: Schritte, Tritte, Fußstapfen. glanced: blickte. instant: Augenblick, Moment, sofortig. leaned: gelehnt. motionless: bewegungslos, regungslos, reglos, still. needle: Nadelt, die Nadel, Stecknadel. sarcastically: sarkastisch. severity: Strenge, Härte, Unerbittlichkeit, Schwierigkeit, Ernst. sewing: Vernähend, Nähend, Stickerei, heftend.

shame: Scham, Schande, schade, Pfui. shrieked: gekreischt. solemn: feierlich, festlich, ernst, erhaben, herrschaftlich, würdig, würdevoll, stattlich, vornehm, königlich, hocherhaben. spectacles: Brille, Schauspiele, Augengläser. swooned: in Ohnmacht gefallen. threading: einfädelnd, durchziehen. upsetting: umwerfend. whirring: schwirrend, Geschnurre.

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"Into%my house come bold and free, Its rightful mistress there to be." I stood before her crushed, crestfallen, revoltingly confused, and I believe I smiled as I did my utmost to wrap myself in the skirts of my ragged wadded dressing-gown—exactly as I had imagined the scene not long before in a fit of depression. After standing over us for a couple of minutes Apollon went away, but that did not make me more at ease. What made it worse was that she, too, was overwhelmed with confusion, more so, in fact, than I should have expected. At the sight of me, of course. "Sit down," I said mechanically, moving a chair up to the table, and I sat down on the sofa. She obediently sat down at once and gazed at me open-eyed, evidently expecting something from me at once. This naivete of expectation drove me to fury, but I restrained myself. She ought to have tried not to notice, as though everything had been as usual, while instead of that, she ... and I dimly felt that I should make her pay dearly for all this. "You have found me in a strange position, Liza," I began, stammering and knowing that this was the wrong way to begin. "No, no, don't imagine

German bold: fett, dreist, kühn, keck, frech, Mutig, ungezogen, schamlos, schlimm, taktlos, tapfer. crestfallen: geknickt, niedergeschlagen, niedergedrückt, belemmert, bedripst, betreten. dearly: teuer, lieb. dimly: dunkel, düster, schwach, trübe, undeutlich, verschwommen. expectation: Erwartung, Erwartungswert, Anwartschaft. imagined: stelltet vor, maltest aus,

maltet aus, nahm an, nahmen an, nahmst an, nahmt an, stellte vor, stelltest vor, gedacht, vermutet. mistress: Herrin, Gebieterin, Geliebte, Mätresse, Freundin, Geliebter, Freund, Liebchen, Liebhaber, Liebste, Meisterin. naivete: Naivität. obediently: gehorsam. ragged: zerlumpt, zottig, zerfetzt, verludert, verlottert, armselig, unansehnlich, schlottrig, schäbig,

mittellos, elend. restrained: hielt zurück, hielten zurück, hieltest zurück, hieltet zurück, zurückgehalten, beherrschtet, beherrscht, beherrschte, beherrschten, beherrschtest, verlegen. revoltingly: widerlich, ekelhaft, abstoßend, abscheulich. scene: Szene, Schauplatz, Bühne. skirts: Röcke. stammering: stammelnd, stotternd, gestammel.

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anything," I cried, seeing that she had suddenly flushed. "I am not ashamed of my poverty... On the contrary, I look with pride on my poverty. I am poor but honourable... One can be poor and honourable," I muttered. "However ... would you like tea?..." "No," she was beginning.% "Wait a minute." I leapt up and ran to Apollon. I had to get out of the room somehow. "Apollon," I whispered in feverish haste, flinging down before him the seven roubles which had remained all the time in my clenched fist, "here are your wages, you see I give them to you; but for that you must come to my rescue: bring me tea and a dozen rusks from the restaurant. If you won't go, you'll make me a miserable man! You don't know what this woman is... This is— everything! You may be imagining something… But you don't know what that woman is! ..." Apollon, who had already sat down to his work and put on his spectacles again, at first glanced askance at the money without speaking or putting down his needle; then, without paying the slightest attention to me or making any answer, he went on busying himself with his needle, which he had not yet threaded. I waited before him for three minutes with my arms crossed a la napoleon. My temples were moist with sweat. I was pale, I felt it. But, thank God, he must have been moved to pity, looking at me. Having threaded his needle he deliberately got up from his seat, deliberately moved back his chair, deliberately took off his spectacles, deliberately counted the money, and finally asking me over his shoulder: "Shall I get a whole portion?" deliberately walked out of the room. As I was going back to Liza, the thought occurred to me on the way: shouldn't I run away just as I was in my dressing-gown, no matter where, and then let happen what would? I sat down again. She looked at me uneasily. For some minutes we were silent.

German askance: schief. asking: Fragend, bittend, auffordernd, anfragend. busying: beschäftigend. clenched: biß zusammen. crossed: gekreuzt. deliberately: absichtlich, vorsätzlich, absichtliche. dozen: Dutzend. flinging: werfend, schleudern, schleudernd. leapt: gesprungen.

moist: feucht, beschlagen, feuchtkalt, klamm, naß. pity: Mitleid, Bemitleiden, Erbarmen, Schade, Mitleid haben, Sich erbarmen, Mitgefühl. poverty: Armut, Elend, Not. putting: stellend, Setzend, steckend. rescue: retten, Rettung, erretten, erlösen, Bergung, Errettung, bergen, Befreiung. rusks: Zwieback. seeing: sehend, sägend,

wahrnehmend. shoulder: Schulter, Achsel, schultern, tragen, die Schulter, Bankett, Seitenstreifen. somehow: irgendwie, einigermaßen. speaking: Sprechend, Redend. sweat: Schweiß, schwitzen. tea: Tee. threaded: fädelte ein, eingefädelt, durchzogen. uneasily: unruhig, unbehaglich. you'll: du wirst.

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"I will kill him," I shouted suddenly, striking the table with my fist so that the ink spurted out of the inkstand. "What are you saying!" she cried, starting.% "I will kill him! kill him!" I shrieked, suddenly striking the table in absolute frenzy, and at the same time fully understanding how stupid it was to be in such a frenzy. "You don't know, Liza, what that torturer is to me. He is my torturer... He has gone now to fetch some rusks; he ..." And suddenly I burst into tears. It was an hysterical attack. How ashamed I felt in the midst of my sobs; but still I could not restrain them. She was frightened. "What is the matter? What is wrong?" she cried, fussing about me. "Water, give me water, over there!" I muttered in a faint voice, though I was inwardly conscious that I could have got on very well without water and without muttering in a faint voice. But I was, what is called, putting it on, to save appearances, though the attack was a genuine one. She gave me water, looking at me in bewilderment. At that moment Apollon brought in the tea. It suddenly seemed to me that this commonplace, prosaic tea was horribly undignified and paltry after all that had happened, and I blushed crimson. Liza looked at Apollon with positive alarm. He went out without a glance at either of us. "Liza, do you despise me?" I asked, looking at her fixedly, trembling with impatience to know what she was thinking. She was confused, and did not know what to answer. "Drink your tea," I said to her angrily. I was angry with myself, but, of course, it was she who would have to pay for it. A horrible spite against her suddenly surged up in my heart; I believe I could have killed her. To revenge myself on her I swore inwardly not to say a word to her all the time. "She is the cause of it all," I thought.

German appearances: Erscheinungen. commonplace: Alltäglich, banal, fade, Gemeinplatz, trivial, abgedroschen. confused: verwirrten, verwirrt, verwirrte, verwirrtest, verwirrtet, verwechseltet, verwechseltest, verwechselten, verwechselte, verwechselt, konfus. fixedly: starr, unbeweglich, bestimmt, unverwandt. fussing: aufregung, betulich, machen verrückt, sich aufregen, getue.

horrible: entsetzlich, schrecklich, gräßlich, abscheulich, furchtbar, grausig, fürchterlich, garstig, widerwärtig, unheimlich, unangenehm. ink: Tinte, Druckfarbe, mit Tinte befeuchten, Farbe, Einfärben. inkstand: Tintenfaß, Schreibzeug. muttering: murmelnd. prosaic: prosaisch. spurted: gespurtet, spurtete. striking: auffallend, eindrucksvoll,

ungewöhnlich, schlagend, unverkennbar, prononciert, beachtenswert, hervorragend, plakativ, bemerkenswert, anschlagend. surged: gewogt. swore: schwurst, schwur, schwurt, schwuren, schwor, fluchtet, fluchtest, fluchten, fluchte, beeidigtet, beeidigten. tears: Tränen. undignified: würdelos.

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Our silence lasted for five minutes. The tea stood on the table; we did not touch it. I had got to the point of purposely refraining from beginning in order to embarrass her further; it was awkward for her to begin alone. Several times she glanced at me with mournful perplexity. I was obstinately silent. I was, of course, myself the chief sufferer, because I was fully conscious of the disgusting meanness of my spiteful stupidity, and yet at the same time I could not restrain myself.% "I want to... get away ... from there altogether," she began, to break the silence in some way, but, poor girl, that was just what she ought not to have spoken about at such a stupid moment to a man so stupid as I was. My heart positively ached with pity for her tactless and unnecessary straightforwardness. But something hideous at once stifled all compassion in me; it even provoked me to greater venom. I did not care what happened. Another five minutes passed. "Perhaps I am in your way," she began timidly, hardly audibly, and was getting up. But as soon as I saw this first impulse of wounded dignity I positively trembled with spite, and at once burst out. "Why have you come to me, tell me that, please?" I began, gasping for breath and regardless of logical connection in my words. I longed to have it all out at once, at one burst; I did not even trouble how to begin. "Why have you come? Answer, answer," I cried, hardly knowing what I was doing. "I'll tell you, my good girl, why you have come. You've come because I talked sentimental stuff to you then. So now you are soft as butter and longing for fine sentiments again. So you may as well know that I was laughing at you then. And I am laughing at you now. Why are you shuddering? Yes, I was laughing at you! I had been insulted just before, at dinner, by the fellows who came that evening before me. I came to you, meaning to thrash one of them, an officer; but I didn't succeed, I didn't find him; I had to avenge the insult on someone to get back my own again; you turned up, I vented my spleen on you and laughed at you. I had been humiliated, so I wanted to humiliate; I had been treated like a rag, so I wanted to

German avenge: rächen, räche, rächst, rächt, ahnden. embarrass: verwirren, verhindern, durcheinander bringen, jemanden verlegen machen. gasping: keuchend, keuchen, geröchel. humiliate: erniedrigen, demütigen, erniedrigt, demütige, demütigst, demütigt, erniedrigst, erniedrige. lasted: gedauert. logical: logisch, folgerichtig. meanness: Gemeinheit, Niedrtracht,

Niederträchtigkeit. mournful: traurig, trauervoll. rag: Lappen, Fetzen, Lumpen, kleiner Lappen, einem die Fuchstaufe erteilen, Flicken, Hader, Stoffetzen, Stofflappen, wertlose Zeug, Wisch. refraining: zurückhaltend. sentiments: Empfindungen, Gefühle. stifled: erstickt, erstickte, erstickten, ersticktest, ersticktet. straightforwardness: die Geradlinigkeit, Einfachheits,

Einfachheit, Offenheit, die Überschaubarkeit, die Einfachheit, die Ehrlichkeit, die Direktheit, die Aufrichtigkeit, die Freimütigkeit, die Unkompliziertheit. trembled: bangte, gezittert. unnecessary: unnötig, überflüssig, entbehrlich. vented: ließ aus. wounded: Verwundet, angeschossen, wund, getroffen, verletzt, verwundete.

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show my power... That's what it was, and you imagined I had come there on purpose to save you. Yes? You imagined that? You imagined that?" I knew that she would perhaps be muddled and not take it all in exactly, but I knew, too, that she would grasp the gist of it, very well indeed. And so, indeed, she did. She turned white as a handkerchief, tried to say something, and her lips worked painfully; but she sank on a chair as though she had been felled by an axe. And all the time afterwards she listened to me with her lips parted and her eyes wide open, shuddering with awful terror. The cynicism, the cynicism of my words overwhelmed her...% "Save you!" I went on, jumping up from my chair and running up and down the room before her. "Save you from what? But perhaps I am worse than you myself. Why didn't you throw it in my teeth when I was giving you that sermon: 'But what did you come here yourself for? was it to read us a sermon?' Power, power was what I wanted then, sport was what I wanted, I wanted to wring out your tears, your humiliation, your hysteria—that was what I wanted then! Of course, I couldn't keep it up then, because I am a wretched creature, I was frightened, and, the devil knows why, gave you my address in my folly. Afterwards, before I got home, I was cursing and swearing at you because of that address, I hated you already because of the lies I had told you. Because I only like playing with words, only dreaming, but, do you know, what I really want is that you should all go to hell. That is what I want. I want peace; yes, I'd sell the whole world for a farthing, straight off, so long as I was left in peace. Is the world to go to pot, or am I to go without my tea? I say that the world may go to pot for me so long as I always get my tea. Did you know that, or not? Well, anyway, I know that I am a blackguard, a scoundrel, an egoist, a sluggard. Here I have been shuddering for the last three days at the thought of your coming. And do you know what has worried me particularly for these three days? That I posed as such a hero to you, and now you would see me in a wretched torn dressing-gown, beggarly, loathsome. I told you just now that I was not ashamed of my poverty; so you may as well know that I am ashamed of it; I am more ashamed of it than of anything, more afraid of it than of being found out if I were

German axe: Axt, Beil, Hacke, Streitaxt, streichen, Spalter, kürzen, Hackbeil, Hackmesser, Buschmesser. beggarly: arm. blackguard: Schurke, Rabauke. cursing: verwünschend. egoist: Egoist. farthing: der Viertelpenny, Heller. felled: fällte. folly: Torheit, Verrücktheit, Dummheit, Verblendung, Unsinn, Narrheit, Flause, Betörung.

gist: Hauptpunkt, Essenz, Wesentliches, Wesen. grasp: greifen, Griff, ergreifen, Verständnis, Stich, Nehmen, angreifen. handkerchief: Taschentuch, Schnupftuch. muddled: durcheinander. posed: posiert, posierte, posierten, posiertest, posiertet. pot: Topf, Kanne, Krug, der Topf, Hafen.

sank: sanken. sermon: Predigt, Epistel. swearing: schwörend, fluchend, Beeidigung, beeidigend, Krönung, feierliche Einsetzung, Vereidigung. terror: Schrecken, Schreck, Grauen, Entzetzen, Entsetzen. throw: werfen, Wurf, schleudern. torn: zerrissen, gerissen, riss, eingerissen. wring: wringen, wringe, wringst, wringt, erzwingen.

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a%thief, because I am as vain as though I had been skinned and the very air blowing on me hurt. Surely by now you must realise that I shall never forgive you for having found me in this wretched dressing-gown, just as I was flying at Apollon like a spiteful cur. The saviour, the former hero, was flying like a mangy, unkempt sheep-dog at his lackey, and the lackey was jeering at him! And I shall never forgive you for the tears I could not help shedding before you just now, like some silly woman put to shame! And for what I am confessing to you now, I shall never forgive you either! Yes—you must answer for it all because you turned up like this, because I am a blackguard, because I am the nastiest, stupidest, absurdest and most envious of all the worms on earth, who are not a bit better than I am, but, the devil knows why, are never put to confusion; while I shall always be insulted by every louse, that is my doom! And what is it to me that you don't understand a word of this! And what do I care, what do I care about you, and whether you go to ruin there or not? Do you understand? How I shall hate you now after saying this, for having been here and listening. Why, it's not once in a lifetime a man speaks out like this, and then it is in hysterics! ... What more do you want? Why do you still stand confronting me, after all this? Why are you worrying me? Why don't you go?" But at this point a strange thing happened. I was so accustomed to think and imagine everything from books, and to picture everything in the world to myself just as I had made it up in my dreams beforehand, that I could not all at once take in this strange circumstance. What happened was this: Liza, insulted and crushed by me, understood a great deal more than I imagined. She understood from all this what a woman understands first of all, if she feels genuine love, that is, that I was myself unhappy. The frightened and wounded expression on her face was followed first by a look of sorrowful perplexity. When I began calling myself a scoundrel and a blackguard and my tears flowed (the tirade was accompanied throughout by tears) her whole face worked convulsively. She was on the point of getting up and stopping me; when I finished she took no notice of my shouting: "Why are you here, why don't you go away?" but realised only that it must have been very

German accustomed: gewöhnt, gewöhnte, gewöhntet, gewöhntest, gewöhnten, gewohnt, üblich, angewöhnt, gewöhnten an, gewöhntest an, gewöhntet an. blowing: Blasend, Blasen, Sausen, Geblas, Gepus. confessing: beichtend, gestehend, eingestehend, zugebend. convulsively: krampfhaft. cur: Köter, Hundsfott. doom: Verhängnis, Schicksal,

Verderben. envious: neidisch, eifersüchtig, haßerfüllt. flowed: geflossen. jeering: johlend, Gemecker, Genörgel, Geschimpfe, Schimpferei. lackey: Lakai, Bedienter. louse: Laus, Kopflaus. mangy: räudig, krätzig. ruin: Ruine, verderben, Ruin, Trümmer, ruinieren, umbringen, Trümmerhaufen, vergiften,

verheeren, verleiden, vergällen. shedding: Vergiessend. skinned: enthäutet, enthäutete, enthülst, gehäutet, geschält. sorrowful: kummervoll, traurig, vergrämt. speaks: Spricht. tirade: Tirade. understands: versteht, begreift, erfaßt, kapiert. unkempt: ungepflegt, ungekämmt. worms: Würmer.

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bitter to me to say all this. Besides, she was so crushed, poor girl; she considered herself infinitely beneath me; how could she feel anger or resentment? She suddenly leapt up from her chair with an irresistible impulse and held out her hands, yearning towards me, though still timid and not daring to stir... At this point there was a revulsion in my heart too. Then she suddenly rushed to me, threw her arms round me and burst into tears. I, too, could not restrain myself, and sobbed as I never had before.% "They won't let me ... I can't be good!" I managed to articulate; then I went to the sofa, fell on it face downwards, and sobbed on it for a quarter of an hour in genuine hysterics. She came close to me, put her arms round me and stayed motionless in that position. But the trouble was that the hysterics could not go on for ever, and (I am writing the loathsome truth) lying face downwards on the sofa with my face thrust into my nasty leather pillow, I began by degrees to be aware of a far-away, involuntary but irresistible feeling that it would be awkward now for me to raise my head and look Liza straight in the face. Why was I ashamed? I don't know, but I was ashamed. The thought, too, came into my overwrought brain that our parts now were completely changed, that she was now the heroine, while I was just a crushed and humiliated creature as she had been before me that night—four days before... And all this came into my mind during the minutes I was lying on my face on the sofa. My God! surely I was not envious of her then. I don't know, to this day I cannot decide, and at the time, of course, I was still less able to understand what I was feeling than now. I cannot get on without domineering and tyrannising over someone, but ... there is no explaining anything by reasoning and so it is useless to reason. I conquered myself, however, and raised my head; I had to do so sooner or later ... and I am convinced to this day that it was just because I was ashamed to look at her that another feeling was suddenly kindled and flamed up in my heart ... a feeling of mastery and possession. My eyes gleamed with passion, and I gripped her hands tightly. How I hated her and how I was drawn to her at that minute! The one feeling intensified the other. It was almost like an act of

German articulate: artikulieren, deutlich, formulieren. daring: wagend, wagemutig, gewagt, Tollkühnheit, Wagemut, Kühnheit, Schneidigkeit, sich Getrauen, verwegen, Schneid, Mut haben. domineering: tyrannisch, tyrannisierend. downwards: abwärts. far-away: abgelegen, entlegen, weitentfernt. flamed: aufgeflammt, gemasert,

maserig. gripped: gegriffen. heroine: Heldin. infinitely: unendlich. intensified: intensiviertet, intensivierte, intensivierten, intensiviertest, verstärkt, intensiviert. involuntary: unfreiwillig, unabsichtlich, unwillkürlich, verpflichtet, gezwungen, zwangsmässig. kindled: entzündetest, zündetet an,

entzündete, entzündet, zündeten an, zündete an, angezündet, entzündetet, zündetest an, entzündeten, entflammt. mastery: Herrschaft, Beherrschung, Meisterschaft. overwrought: überarbeitet, überreizt. revulsion: Ableitung, Umschwung. sobbed: geschluchzt. tyrannising: Tyrannisieren. yearning: Sehnsucht, sehnsüchtig, schmachtend, sehnsuchtsvoll.

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vengeance. At first there was a look of amazement, even of terror on her face, but only for one instant. She warmly and rapturously embraced me. %

German amazement: Verwunderung, Verblüffung, Erstaunen. embraced: umarmte. instant: Augenblick, Moment, sofortig. rapturously: hingerissen, entzückt. terror: Schrecken, Schreck, Grauen, Entzetzen, Entsetzen. vengeance: Rache. warmly: warm, herzlich.

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A %quarter of an hour later I was rushing up and down the room in frenzied impatience, from minute to minute I went up to the screen and peeped through the crack at Liza. She was sitting on the ground with her head leaning against the bed, and must have been crying. But she did not go away, and that irritated me. This time she understood it all. I had insulted her finally, but ... there's no need to describe it. She realised that my outburst of passion had been simply revenge, a fresh humiliation, and that to my earlier, almost causeless hatred was added now a personal hatred, born of envy... Though I do not maintain positively that she understood all this distinctly; but she certainly did fully understand that I was a despicable man, and what was worse, incapable of loving her. I know I shall be told that this is incredible—but it is incredible to be as spiteful and stupid as I was; it may be added that it was strange I should not love her, or at any rate, appreciate her love. Why is it strange? In the first place, by then I was incapable of love, for I repeat, with me loving meant tyrannising and showing my moral superiority. I have never in my life been able to imagine any other sort of love, and have nowadays come to the point of sometimes thinking that love really consists in the right—freely given by the beloved object—to tyrannise over her. Even in my underground dreams I did not imagine love except as a struggle. I began it always with hatred and ended it with moral subjugation, and

German appreciate: schätzen, würdigen, würdige, schätze, schätzt, würdigt, würdigst, achten, wertschätzen, achtet, achtest. beloved: geliebt, Geliebte, lieb, beliebt, Herzchen, allerliebst, auserkoren, auserwählt, Geliebten, heißgeliebt, Juwel. causeless: grundlos. consists: besteht. crack: Riss, Sprung, Krachen, Knarren, Spalte, knacken, brechen, knallen,

Spalt, Knall, entschlüsseln. distinctly: verschieden, klar. ended: beendet, endete, zu Ende sein. frenzied: wahnsinnig, rasend. incredible: unglaublich, unglaubhaft. leaning: Lehnend, Anlehnen, schief, lehnen. nowadays: Heutzutage, heute, aktuell, zur Zeit, derzeitig, gegenwärtig, heutig, gegenwartig. outburst: Ausbruch. passion: Leidenschaft, Passion, Glut,

Feuer, Inbrunst, Lust. peeped: piepste. repeat: Wiederholen, wiederhole, wiederholt, wiederholst, Wiederholung, Wiederholungstest, nacherzählen, entgegnen, wiedergeben. rushing: Hetzend. superiority: Übermacht, Überlegenheit, Überheblichkeit, Superiorität, Mehrheit, Majorität, Überzahl.

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afterwards I never knew what to do with the subjugated object. And what is there to wonder at in that, since I had succeeded in so corrupting myself, since I was so out of touch with "real life," as to have actually thought of reproaching her, and putting her to shame for having come to me to hear "fine sentiments"; and did not even guess that she had come not to hear fine sentiments, but to love me, because to a woman all reformation, all salvation from any sort of ruin, and all moral renewal is included in love and can only show itself in that form.% I did not hate her so much, however, when I was running about the room and peeping through the crack in the screen. I was only insufferably oppressed by her being here. I wanted her to disappear. I wanted "peace," to be left alone in my underground world. Real life oppressed me with its novelty so much that I could hardly breathe. But several minutes passed and she still remained, without stirring, as though she were unconscious. I had the shamelessness to tap softly at the screen as though to remind her... She started, sprang up, and flew to seek her kerchief, her hat, her coat, as though making her escape from me... Two minutes later she came from behind the screen and looked with heavy eyes at me. I gave a spiteful grin, which was forced, however, to keep up appearances, and I turned away from her eyes. "Good-bye," she said, going towards the door. I ran up to her, seized her hand, opened it, thrust something in it and closed it again. Then I turned at once and dashed away in haste to the other corner of the room to avoid seeing, anyway... I did mean a moment since to tell a lie—to write that I did this accidentally, not knowing what I was doing through foolishness, through losing my head. But I don't want to lie, and so I will say straight out that I opened her hand and put the money in it ... from spite. It came into my head to do this while I was running up and down the room and she was sitting behind the screen. But this I can say for certain: though I did that cruel thing purposely, it was not an impulse from the heart, but came from my evil brain. This cruelty was so affected, so purposely made up, so completely a product of the brain, of books, that I could

German accidentally: zufällig. breathe: atmen, atmest, atmet, atme. corrupting: verderbend, korrumpierend. cruel: grausam. cruelty: Grausamkeit. dashed: geschlagen. disappear: verschwinden, verschwindet, verschwindest, verschwinde, entschwinden, entschwinde, entschwindest, entschwindet.

grin: Grinsen, Lächeln, Grimasse. kerchief: Kopftuch, Halstuch. novelty: Neuheit, Novität, Neuigkeit, Neues. peeping: piepsend. renewal: Erneuerung, Neuerung, Neugestaltung. reproaching: vorwerfend. salvation: Heil, Seelenheil, Rettung, Erlösung. shamelessness: Schamlosigkeit. sprang: gesprungen, sprang,

herstammen von, springen. stirring: mitreißend. subjugated: unterwarf, unterwarfen, unterwarfst, unterwarft, unterworfen, bezwangt, bezwangst, bezwangen, bezwang, bezwungen. succeeded: gelangt, gelungen, gelangst, gelangen, gelang. tap: Hahn, zapfen, Kran, Wasserhahn, anzapfen, abzapfen, Zapfhahn, abnehmen, Gewindebohrer, Hähne, klopfen.

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not even keep it up a minute—first I dashed away to avoid seeing her, and then in shame and despair rushed after Liza. I opened the door in the passage and began listening.% "Liza! Liza!" I cried on the stairs, but in a low voice, not boldly. There was no answer, but I fancied I heard her footsteps, lower down on the stairs. "Liza!" I cried, more loudly. No answer. But at that minute I heard the stiff outer glass door open heavily with a creak and slam violently; the sound echoed up the stairs. She had gone. oppressed.

I went back to my room in hesitation.

I felt horribly

I stood still at the table, beside the chair on which she had sat and looked aimlessly before me. A minute passed, suddenly I started; straight before me on the table I saw... In short, I saw a crumpled blue five- rouble note, the one I had thrust into her hand a minute before. It was the same note; it could be no other, there was no other in the flat. So she had managed to fling it from her hand on the table at the moment when I had dashed into the further corner. Well! I might have expected that she would do that. Might I have expected it? No, I was such an egoist, I was so lacking in respect for my fellow-creatures that I could not even imagine she would do so. I could not endure it. A minute later I flew like a madman to dress, flinging on what I could at random and ran headlong after her. She could not have got two hundred paces away when I ran out into the street. It was a still night and the snow was coming down in masses and falling almost perpendicularly, covering the pavement and the empty street as though with a pillow. There was no one in the street, no sound was to be heard. The street lamps gave a disconsolate and useless glimmer. I ran two hundred paces to the cross-roads and stopped short. Where had she gone? And why was I running after her? Why? To fall down before her, to sob with remorse, to kiss her feet, to entreat her forgiveness! I longed for that, my whole breast was being rent to

German aimlessly: ziellos. creak: Knarren, knarre, knarrst, knarrt, knirschen, fletschen. cross-roads: Gabelung, Kreuzung, Abzweigung. crumpled: zerknittert, zerknittertet, zerknitterte, zerknittertest, zerknitterten, zerknautscht, zerknauscht. disconsolate: trostlos. echoed: widerhallt. entreat: ersuchst, flehst an, flehen an,

fleht an, ersucht, ersuche, bitten inständig, anflehen, flehe an, ersuchen. fling: schleudern, werfen, schmeißen, schlingen, schwingen, pfeffern. glimmer: Schimmern, Schimmer, Glimmen, Blinken, Dämmern, Flimmern. hesitation: Zögern, Unschlüssigkeit, Schwanken, Schwankung, Unentschlossenheit, Bedenken, Verzögerung, Zweifel, Zwiespalt.

loudly: laut, laute. masses: Masse, Massen, Mengen. perpendicularly: senkrecht. pillow: Kopfkissen, Kissen, Polster, das Kissen. slam: zuschlagen, zuwerfen, zuknallen, Schlemm. sob: Schluchzen, Schluchzer, flennen, greinen, heulen, plärren, schreien, herausschreien. stiff: Steif, starr, hart, schwierig, spröde, fest.

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pieces, and never, never shall I recall that minute with indifference. But—what for? I thought. Should I not begin to hate her, perhaps, even tomorrow, just because I had kissed her feet today? Should I give her happiness? Had I not recognised that day, for the hundredth time, what I was worth? Should I not torture her? I stood in the snow, gazing into the troubled darkness and pondered this.% "And will it not be better?" I mused fantastically, afterwards at home, stifling the living pang of my heart with fantastic dreams. "Will it not be better that she should keep the resentment of the insult for ever? Resentment—why, it is purification; it is a most stinging and painful consciousness! Tomorrow I should have defiled her soul and have exhausted her heart, while now the feeling of insult will never die in her heart, and however loathsome the filth awaiting her—the feeling of insult will elevate and purify her ... by hatred ... h'm! ... perhaps, too, by forgiveness... Will all that make things easier for her though? ..." And, indeed, I will ask on my own account here, an idle question: which is better—cheap happiness or exalted sufferings? Well, which is better? So I dreamed as I sat at home that evening, almost dead with the pain in my soul. Never had I endured such suffering and remorse, yet could there have been the faintest doubt when I ran out from my lodging that I should turn back half-way? I never met Liza again and I have heard nothing of her. I will add, too, that I remained for a long time afterwards pleased with the phrase about the benefit from resentment and hatred in spite of the fact that I almost fell ill from misery.

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German awaiting: wartend, erwartend, harrend. consciousness: Bewusstsein, Bewußtheit, Besinnung, Gewissenhaftigkeit. dreamed: träumte. elevate: heben, hochheben, anhäufen, hebst hoch, hebst, heben hoch, hebe hoch, hebe, erhöhen, erheben, aufhöhen. exalted: erhoben, verherrlichte, erhaben.

fantastic: phantastisch, fantastische, fantastisch, imposant, imponierend, hervorragend, großartige, großartig, grandios, gewaltig, überwältigend. fantastically: phantastisch. ill: krank, übel, schlecht, schlimm. indifference: Gleichgültigkeit, Indifferenz, Empfindungslosigkeit, Unempfindlichkeit, Phlegma, Kaltblütigkeit, Gefühllosigkeit, Gedankenlosigkeit. memories: Erinnerungen, Souvenirs,

Andenken. purification: Reinigung, Klärung. purify: reinigen, reinigst, reinige, reinigt. recognised: Erkannt, anerkannt. stifling: erstickend, stickig, schwül. stinging: stechend, stachlig. suffering: leidend, Leiden. torture: Folter, martern, peinigen, Qual, Folterung, foltern, Tortur, Kasteiung, kasteien, verletzen, Peinigung.

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believe I made a mistake in beginning to write them, anyway I have felt ashamed all the time I've been writing this story; so it's hardly literature so much as a corrective %punishment. Why, to tell long stories, showing how I have spoiled my life through morally rotting in my corner, through lack of fitting environment, through divorce from real life, and rankling spite in my underground world, would certainly not be interesting; a novel needs a hero, and all the traits for an anti-hero are expressly gathered together here, and what matters most, it all produces an unpleasant impression, for we are all divorced from life, we are all cripples, every one of us, more or less. We are so divorced from it that we feel at once a sort of loathing for real life, and so cannot bear to be reminded of it. Why, we have come almost to looking upon real life as an effort, almost as hard work, and we are all privately agreed that it is better in books. And why do we fuss and fume sometimes? Why are we perverse and ask for something else? We don't know what ourselves. It would be the worse for us if our petulant prayers were answered. Come, try, give any one of us, for instance, a little more independence, untie our hands, widen the spheres of our activity, relax the control and we ... yes, I assure you ... we should be begging to be under control again at once. I know that you will very likely be angry with me for that, and will begin shouting and stamping. Speak for yourself, you will say, and for your miseries in your underground holes, and don't dare to say all of us—excuse me, gentlemen, I am not justifying myself with that "all of us." As for what concerns me in particular I have only in my life carried to an extreme what you have not dared to carry halfway, and what's more, you have taken your cowardice for good sense, and have found comfort in deceiving yourselves. So that perhaps, after all, there is more life in me than in you. Look into it more carefully! Why, we don't even know what living means now, what it is, and what it is called? Leave us alone without books and we shall be lost and in confusion at once. We shall not know what to join on to, what to cling to, what to love and what to hate, what to respect and what to despise. We are oppressed at being men—men with a real individual body and blood, we are ashamed of it, we think it a disgrace and try to contrive to be some sort of impossible generalised man. We are stillborn, and for generations past have been begotten,

German begotten: gezeugt. cling: klammern, klammerst, klammre, klammere, kleben, klammert, ankleben, anleimen, festkleben, anschmiegen, leimen. corrective: korrigierend, fehlerbehebend. cripples: Krüppel. deceiving: betrügend, täuschend, hintergehend. expressly: ausdrücklich, schnellstens. fume: Rauch, Dunst, Ausdünstung,

rauchen, dampf. generalised: Verallgemeinert. justifying: rechtfertigend. petulant: gereizt, mutwillig, kribbelig, übermütig, schelmisch, schalkhaft, quengelig, nörglerisch, launisch, ausgelassen, ärgerlich. rotting: Verfaulend, Faulend, Verwesung, Verrottend, Vergammelnd, Verfall, Morsch, Auflösung, Abfaulen. spoiled: verdorben, verwöhnt.

stamping: stempeln, Stempelung, Prägung, Abstempeln, einstampfend. stillborn: totgeboren. traits: Eigenschaften, Züge, Charakterzüge. untie: aufbinden, bindest auf, bindet auf, binden auf, binde auf, aufschnüren, losbinden, entbinden. widen: erweitern, erweitere, erweiterst, erweitre, erweitert, verbreitern, ausweiten, ausbreiten, vergrößerung, verbreitre, verbreitert.

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not by living fathers, and that suits us better and better. We are developing a taste for it. Soon we shall contrive to be born somehow from an idea. But enough; I don't want to write more from "Underground."% [The notes of this paradoxalist do not end here, however. He could not refrain from going on with them, but it seems to us that we may stop here.]

German born: Geboren, kreiert, erschaffen, gebürtig, gemacht, geschaffen. contrive: entwirfst, sich ausdenken, entwirf, entwickelst, entwickeln, entwickele, entwerft, entwerfen, entwerfe, einrichten, aushecken. developing: entwickelnd, entfaltend. fathers: Väter, Männlicher Elternteil. living: lebend, Lebensunterhalt, wohnend, lebendig, wohnen, hausend, Lebensweise, ansässig, sich Aufhalten, wohnhaft.

notes: die Mitschrift, Aufzeichnungen, taste: Geschmack, kosten, schmecken, Notizen, hinweise, effekte, der probieren, abschmecken, Anhang, anhang zur Bilanz, Geschmackempfindung, testen, Anmerkungen, Anleihen, der prüfen. Konzernanhang. write: schreiben, schreibt, schreibst, refrain: Refrain, Kehrreim. schreibe, verfassen, verfasse, verfaßt, somehow: irgendwie, einigermaßen. abfassen, fasse ab, faßt ab, fassen ab. stop: anhalten, aufhören, höre auf, hältst an, halte an, haltet an, hören auf, hörst auf, hört auf, halten an, Haltestelle. suits: passt.

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GLOSSARY abandon: verlassen, verlaß, verlasse, verlaßt, verläßt, aufgeben, gibst auf, aussetzen, gebe auf, gebt auf, gib auf abashed: beschämte, beschämtest, beschämt, beschämtet, beschämten, verlegen abject: elend, erbärmlich, gemein, infam, jämmerlich, verächtlich abjectly: verächtlich, elend, verwerflich, verwerfliche, gemein abjectness: Verworfenheit abnormal: abnormal, anormal, abartig, unnormal, abnorm abolished: schafftet ab, abgeschafft, schafften ab, schafftest ab, schaffte ab abominable: abscheulich abomination: Abscheu, Gräuel, Abscheulichkeit, Schrecken, Widerwille, Verabscheuung, Schrecknis, Ekel abroad: im Ausland, ins Ausland, auswärtig, draußen, äußerlich, ausländisch, überallhin, fremd abrupt: plötzlich, brüsk, schroff, abrupt, abgebrochen, barsch, abgerissen, abschüssig, grob, hastig, unvermutet abruptly: plötzlich, jäh absent: abwesend, fehlend, fernbleiben absolute: absolut, unbedingt, unbeschränkt, uneingeschränkt absolutely: absolut, durchaus, unbedingt, wirklich, sicher, wahrlich, wahrhaftig, freilich, fürwahr, ungezweifelt, unfehlbar absorbed: absorbiert, absorbierte, absorbiertest, absorbiertet, absorbierten, saugtet auf, saugtest auf, saugten auf, saugte auf, aufgesaugt, nahmst auf abstract: abstrakt, Zusammenfassung, zusammenfassen, begrifflich, Abstrakte, Abriß, abstrahieren, theoretisch, entziehen, abhalten,

folgern absurd: absurd, widersinnig, abgeschmackt, albern, lächerlich, ungereimt absurdities: Absurditäten absurdity: Absurdität, wertloze Zeug, Verdrehtheit, Unding, Torheit, Irrsinn, Idiotie, Narrheit abuse: Missbrauch, missbrauchen, beschimpfen, Beleidigung, mißhandeln, Schmähung, quälen, peinigen, Schädigung, Schändung, Anstoß abused: missbraucht, missbrauchte abusing: missbrauchend, mißbrauchen accepted: nahmen an, nahmt an, nahm an, nahmst an, angenommen, akzeptierten, akzeptierte, akzeptiertest, akzeptiertet, akzeptiert, anerkannt accident: Unfall, Zufall, Missgeschick, Schicksalsschläge, Unglück, Unglücksfall, Widerwärtigkeiten, Schicksalsschlag, Havarie accidental: Zufällig, akzidentell, unbeabsichtigt, versehentlich accidentally: zufällig accompanied: begleitetet, begleitet, begleitetest, begleiteten, begleitete, begleiten, begleit accompanying: begleitend, zuzüglich, geleitend accomplished: vollbrachte, vollbrachten, vollbrachtest, vollbrachtet, vollbracht, erreichtet, erreichtest, erreichten, erreichte, erreicht, erfahren accord: Übereinstimmung, Abkommen, Akkord, Übereinkunft, Einklang, Übereinkommen, gestatten, erteilen, erlauben, Einverständnis accordance: Übereinstimmung, Übereinkommen, Abkommen, Akkord, Einklang, Zustimmung,

Übereinkunft according: gemäß, entsprechend, übereinstimmend accumulated: akkumulierten, akkumuliert, akkumuliertest, akkumulierte, akkumuliertet, sammelten an, sammeltest an, angesammelt, sammeltet an, sammelte an, häufte an accumulation: Ansammlung, Akkumulation, Haufen, Anhäufung, Häufung, Menge, Ansammeln, Aufstapeln, Masse, Anhäufen, Anreicherung accuracy: Genauigkeit, Exaktheit, Präzision, Pünktlichkeit, Akkuratesse, Treffgenauigkeit, Richtigkeit, die Genauigkeit accursed: verflucht, verhaßt, verwünscht accustomed: gewöhnt, gewöhnte, gewöhntet, gewöhntest, gewöhnten, gewohnt, üblich, angewöhnt, gewöhnten an, gewöhntest an, gewöhntet an ache: schmerzen, schmerz, Weh, wehe tun, sich sehnen, sich ersehnen, lechzen nach, ersehnen, Schmerz verursachen ached: schmerzte, geschmerzt aching: schmerzend, schmerzhaft acquaintance: Bekanntschaft, Bekannter, Bekannte, Kenntnisse, Bekanntmachung, Kenntnis, Begriff acted: handelte acting: Handelnd, Amtierend, Stellvertretend actions: Aktionen, Handlungen acts: die Apostelgeschichte, Taten, Apostelgeschichte acute: akut, intensiv, scharf, heftig, hitzig, herb, sofort, spitz, spitzfindig, direkt, grell acutely: akut adapted: paßten an, paßtest an, passte an, angepaßt, paßtet an, adaptiert, adaptiertest, adaptiertet,

130 adaptierten, adaptierte address: Adresse, Anschrift, adressieren, ansprechen, Ansprache, Anrede, die Adresse, Hausadresse addressed: adressiert addressing: Adressierung, adressierend, Ansprechen, Ansprache halten adds: fügt zu, addiert, fügt bei, ergänzt, fügt an, gibt bei admiration: Bewunderung admire: bewundern, bewundere, bewunderst, bewundert, bewundre admiringly: bewundern, bewundernd, bewundernde admit: zulassen, lassen zu, laßt zu, laß zu, läßt zu, lasse zu, gestehen, gestatten, erlauben, einlassen, eingestehen admitted: ließ zu, zugelassen, ließt zu, ließest zu, ließen zu, ließ ein, ließen ein, eingelassen, ließest ein, ließt ein, gab zu adorned: schmücktest, geschmückt, schmücktet, schmückte, schmückten, ziertet, ziertest, geziert, zierten, zierte adroit: geschickt, gewandt, wach, fix, flink, frisch, aufgeweckt, anstellig, geübt, hurtig, munter advance: Vorschuss, Fortschritt, fortschreiten, Avancieren, Fortschritt machen, proponieren, vorschlagen, borgen, Vorschiessen, verfrühen, Darlehen advances: Vorschüsse advantageous: vorteilhaft, günstig, nützlich, zweckdienlich, hold, gnädig, gewogen advantages: Vorteile adventures: Abenteuer, Gefahren, Geschick, Schicksale affair: Angelegenheit, Sache, Affäre, Ding, Beziehung, Verbindung, Kopplung, Fall, Werk affect: beeinflussen, beeinflusse, beeinflußt, berühren, berührst, berührt, betreffen, berühre, betriffst, betreffe, Affekt affectation: Affektiertheit, Vorliebe, Gezier affected: beeinflußtest, beeinflußten, beeinflußtet, beeinflußte, beeinflußt, berührten, berührtest, berührte, berührtet, geziert, berührt affectedly: affektiert, geziert, geschraubt affection: Zuneigung, Neigung, Affekt, Bewegung, Erkrankung, Gemütsbewegung, Krankheit, Liebe, Wohlwollen, Rührung affirm: bestätigen, bestätigt,

Notes from Underground bestätigst, bestätige, behaupten, bejahen, bejahe, bejahst, bejaht, ja sagen, versichern affliction: Leid, Kummer, Bedrängnis afford: erlauben, erlaube, leisten, gestatten, produzieren, erzeugen, erlaubt, erlaubst, hervorbringen afraid: ängstlich, bange, bang, besorgt, Angst haben, zaghaft, scheu, feige, eingeschüchtert afresh: wieder, von neuem, abermals, erneut, wiederholt, zurück, abermalig afterwards: nachher, hinterher, danach, hernach, später, darauf, hinten, dann, hierauf, anschließend, nachträglich ages: Ewigkeit, von unendlicher Dauer, Unendlichkeit agitated: regtet auf, regte auf, regten auf, aufgeregt, regtest auf, beunruhigt, beunruhigte, beunruhigten, beunruhigtest, beunruhigtet, erregt agitation: Bewegung, Aufruhr, Agitation, Aufstand, Hektik, Ruhelosigkeit, Streß, Krawall, Nervosität, Tumult, Getümmel agonies: Qualen agonising: quälen agreeable: angenehm, behaglich, genehm, herrlich aha: ha, ach, ah ails: schmerzt aiming: zielend, zielen, richtend aimlessly: ziellos aimlessness: Ziellosigkeit airs: Lüftet alarm: Alarm, alarmieren, beängstigen, beunruhigen, verscheuchen, Grauen, in Bestürzung versetzen, konsternieren, Entsetzen, einschüchtern, Notsignal alas: leider, ach, bedauerlich alexander: Gelbdolde, Gespenstdolde, Macerone, Pferdeeppich, Pferdesilge alive: lebendig, lebend, belebt, existierend, am Leben alleging: behauptend allude: anspielen, spiele an, spielt an, spielst an, spielen an, anspielen auf allure: Erscheinungsform, Statur, Allüren, Ansicht, Aussehen, Verlocken, Erscheinung allured: verlockte almighty: allmächtig, übermächtig alone: allein, alleine, einzig, nur, bloß, alleinig, einsam aloud: laut, lauthals, lautstark, unsanft, tosend, streng, steif,

schwierig, schrill, schnell, sauer altered: ändertest, ändertet, geändert, änderte, änderten, umgeändert, ändertet um, änderte um, änderten um, ändertest um, verändert alternated: abgewechselt altogether: insgesamt, zusammen, Gänzlich, überhaupt, völlig, miteinander, im Ganzen, gemeinsam, gemein, alles, gemeinschaftlich amazed: erstaunt, verwunderten, verwundertest, verwundertet, verwundert, verwunderte, erstauntest, erstaunten, erstaunte, erstauntet, verblüffte amazement: Verwunderung, Verblüffung, Erstaunen amazing: erstaunlich, verwundernd, erstaunend, staunenswert, staunenerregend, verblüffend ambush: Hinterhalt, Versteck, Überfall, Falle, Anstand amnesty: Amnestie, Amnestieren, Begnadigung, Straferlaß amongst: unter, inmitten, zwischen amounts: beträgt amour: Affären, das Liebesverhältnis, das Verhältnis, die Buhlschaft, die Liebschaft, die Poussage, Liebe, Liebschaft amuse: amüsieren, belustigen, amüsiere, amüsierst, amüsiert, belustigst, unterhalten, belustigt, belustige, unterhältst, vergnügen amusing: amüsant, amüsierend, belustigend, unterhaltsam, unterhaltend, ergötzlich, vergnüglich, vergnügend, lustig, amüsieren, drollig anachronism: Anachronismus analysing: analysierend, zergliedernd ancient: alt, uralt, antik, altertümlich, ehemalig anew: von neuem, erneut, aufs Neue, wieder, abermalig, abermals anger: Ärger, Zorn, Groll, Wut, Ingrimm, ärgern, Verärgerung angrily: ärgerlich angry: zornig, böse, ärgerlich, wütend, verärgert, aufgebracht, erzürnt, Haßerfüllt, arg, bitterböse, borstig anguish: Pein, Qual, Schreckhaftigkeit, Angst anguished: von Schmerz geplagt, gequält animal: Tier, Tierisch, Animalisch announced: kündigten an, angekündigt, kündigtest an, kündigte an, kündigtet an,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky verkündetet, verkündetest, verkündeten, verkündete, verkündet, meldetest an annoyance: Verdruss, Belästigung, Ärger, Weh, Harm, Gram, Betrübnis annoying: ärgerlich, lästig, ärgernd, ärgern, schwierig, hinderlich, irritierend, sauer, schwer, störend, unangenehm answered: geantwortet answering: antwortend, Anrufbeantwortung ant: Ameise antics: Possen antithesis: Antithese, Gegensatz, Gegenteil, Gegenstück, Gegenstellung ants: Ameisen anxiety: Angst, Ängstlichkeit, Unruhe, Beklemmung, Besorgnis anxious: besorgt, unruhig, ängstlich, bange, sorgenvoll anybody: irgendjemand, jemand, jeder, irgendeiner, irgendwer, einer, irgend einer, ein gewisser anywhere: irgendwo, irgendwohin, überall, wo auch immer apart: abgesondert, einzeln, auseinander, abseits, getrennt, entzwei, separat, besonders, extra, besonder, beiseite apologetic: entschuldigend, apologetisch apologising: Entschuldigung apparent: anscheinend, scheinbar, offenbar, offensichtlich, ersichtlich appealing: ansprechend, attraktiv, flehend, gewinnend, reizvoll appearance: Erscheinung, Aussehen, Anschein, Erscheinen, Äußere, Anblick, Schein, Augenschein, Erscheinungsbild, Auftritt, Ansehen appearances: Erscheinungen appeared: erschient, erschienst, erschienen, erschien, aufgetreten, traten auf, trat auf, tratet auf, tratest auf appeased: beruhigt, beruhigte, beruhigtest, beruhigtet, beruhigten, besänftigtet, besänftigtest, besänftigten, besänftigte, besänftigt appetising: Appetitanregend applauded: applaudiert, applaudierte, applaudiertet, applaudierten, applaudiertest, klatschtet, geklatscht, klatschtest, klatschten, klatschte, akklamierte applauding: applaudierend, klatschend, akklamierend applied: wandtet an, wandte an, wandten an, angewandt, wandtest an, galt, galten, galtet, galtst,

gegolten, legtet auf appreciate: schätzen, würdigen, würdige, schätze, schätzt, würdigt, würdigst, achten, wertschätzen, achtet, achtest apprehensively: bedenkliche, begreifend approached: genähert approving: genehmigend, billigend, zustimmend, gutheißend, Einstimmung, Zustimmung, beifällig arbitrators: Schiedsrichter arguments: Argumente arias: Arien arise: entstehen, entstehst, entsteht, entstehe, sich erheben, entspringen, werden, aufgehen, steigen, entspringe, entspringt aristocratic: aristokratisch, vornehm, adlig arithmetic: Arithmetik, arithmetisch, Rechnen, Rechenkunst arrange: anordnen, einrichten, ordnen an, ordnen, ordnst an, ordnt an, richte ein, richtest ein, ordne an, richten ein, richtet ein arranged: richtetet ein, richtetest ein, richteten ein, angeordnt, richtete ein, ordntet an, ordntest an, ordnten an, ordnte an, eingerichtet, ordnetet arrangements: Zusammenstellungen arrant: völlig arrested: verhaftet, verhaftete, gefangen arrive: ankommen, kommst an, kommt an, kommen an, komme an, eintreffen, trefft ein, triff ein, treffe ein, treffen ein, triffst ein arrived: angekommen, kam an, kamen an, kamt an, kamst an, eingetroffen, traft ein, trafst ein, trafen ein, traf ein, langtest an articulate: artikulieren, deutlich, formulieren artificially: gekünstelt, künstlich artist: Künstler, Artist, Künstlerin, Artistin ashamed: beschämt, enttäuscht, verschämt ashes: Asche, Welle, Achse aside: Beiseite, Abseits, daneben, seitlich, zur Seite askance: schief asking: Fragend, bittend, auffordernd, anfragend asks: fragt, bittet, fordert auf, fragt an asleep: schlafend aspire: streben, strebt, strebst, strebe, erstreben, erstrebt, trachten nach, sich bestreben, erstrebst, erstrebe, sich bewerben um

131 assailant: Angreifer assembled: montierte, montiert, montiertet, montiertest, montierten, zusammengekommen, kam zusammen, kamen zusammen, kamst zusammen, kamt zusammen, zusammengebaut assented: stimmte zu assessor: der Schätzer, der Gutachter, Steuerbeamte, der Steuereinschätzer, der Schadensachverständiger, der Begutachter, der Assessor, Beurteilender, Beisitzer, Schätzer, der Beisitzer asset: Vermögenswert, Errungenschaft, Erwerb, Beute, Aktivposten assistance: Unterstützung, Beistand, Hilfe, Mithilfe, Assistenz associate: assoziieren, Mitarbeiter, verknüpfen, angeschlossen, in Verbindung bringen, Kollege, verbinden assume: annehmen, nehmt an, nehmen an, nehme an, nimm an, nimmst an, vermuten assumed: angenommen, nahm an, nahmen an, nahmt an, nahmst an, vorausgesetzt assumption: Annahme, Voraussetzung, Vermutung, Übernahme assure: versichern, versichere, versicherst, versichert, versichre, zusichern, sichere zu, sichre zu, sichert zu, sicherst zu, sichern zu astonished: erstaunt, überraschte, überraschtet, überraschten, überrascht, erstauntet, überraschtest, erstauntest, erstaunten, erstaunte astonishingly: erstaunlicherweise astounded: verblüffte asylum: Asyl, Zufluchtsstätte, Zufluchtsort, Tierheim, Freistatt atom: Atom atoms: Atome attach: befestigen, befestigt, befestigst, befestige, anheften, Attach, heftet an, heftest an, heften an, hefte an, beifügen attacked: angegriffen attacks: angriffe attain: erreichen, erreichst, erreicht, erreiche, erzielen, erlangen, erlangst, erlangt, erziele, erzielst, erzielt attained: erreichtest, erreicht, erreichten, erreichtet, erreichte, erlangtet, erlangt, erlangte, erlangten, erlangtest, erzieltet attaining: erreichend, erlangend,

132 erzielend attempted: probiertest, erprobtest, erprobtet, probiert, probierte, erprobten, erprobte, probiertet, versucht, probierten, erprobt attempting: probierend, versuchend, erprobend, probieren, versuchen attempts: erprobt, probiert, versucht attending: besuchend, pflegend, beiwohnend attire: Kleidung, Kleiden attitudes: Haltungen, Stellungen attract: anziehen, ziehe an, zieht an, ziehst an, ziehen an, locken, lockt, lockst, locke, ködern attracted: angezogen, zogt an, zogst an, zogen an, zog an, lockten, gelockt, locktet, locktest, lockte attractive: attraktiv, anziehend, reizvoll, verlockend, hübsch, zierlich, schön, schmackhaft, reizend, lieblich, anmutsvoll attribute: Attribut, Merkmal, Eigenschaft attributed: zugeschrieben audacious: kühn, dreist, unverfroren, verwegen, keck, waghalsig, tollkühn, übermütig, unbesonnen, leichtsinnig audibly: hörbar audience: Audienz, Publikum, Zuhörer aunt: Tante, die Tante austere: streng, entsagend, nüchtern, mäßig, ernst, sachlich, schlicht, einfach, sparsam, ärmlich author: Autor, Verfasser, Schriftsteller, Urheber, Autorin, Dichterin, Poet, Schreiber, Schriftstellerin, Dichter authorisation: Genehmigung authoritatively: gutachtlich, herrische, autoritativ, maßgebend autobiography: Autobiographie, Selbstbiographie avenge: rächen, räche, rächst, rächt, ahnden avenged: gerächt, rächtet, rächtest, rächten, rächte, ahndete, geahndet averages: durchschnitte, durchmesser, durchschnitten, schnitten aversion: Abneigung, Antipathie, Widerwille, Widerwillen avoided: vermied, vermieden, vermiedest, vermiedet, mied, miedet, miedest, mieden, gemieden awaiting: wartend, erwartend, harrend awake: wach, erwachen, munter, aufwachen awful: furchtbar, schrecklich,

Notes from Underground miserabel, elend awfully: furchtbar, schrecklich awkward: unbeholfen, unangenehm, ungeschickt, linkisch, peinlich, mißlich, ungünstig, täppisch, schwierig, ungelenk, unbequem awkwardness: Ungeschicklichkeit, Ungeschicktheit, Unbeholfenheit axe: Axt, Beil, Hacke, Streitaxt, streichen, Spalter, kürzen, Hackbeil, Hackmesser, Buschmesser babble: babbeln, plappern, stammeln, schwatzen babbler: Schwätzer babe: Baby, Kleines Kind background: Hintergrund, Nulleffekt, Grundhelligkeit badly: schlecht, dringend bane: Verderben, Ruin banish: verbannen, verbanne, verbannt, verbannst, vertreiben, bannen, abschieben, ausweisen barbarous: barbarisch, grausam, roh bare: bloß, nackt, entblößen, kahl, auskleiden, aufdecken, entblößt, enthüllen, freilegen, offen hinlegen, bloßlegen barefoot: barfuß, barfüßig barely: kaum, knapp barricades: Barrikaden, Verbarrikadiert barrier: Sperre, Barriere, Schranke, Absperrung, Hindernis, Umhüllung, Sperrbaum, Verschluß, Sperrung, Schlagbaum, Hürde barring: sperrend, Ausgenommen basement: Kellergeschoß, Keller, Untergeschoss, Souterrrain bashfulness: Verschämtheit battering: Zerschlagend battle: schlacht, Kampf, Gefecht, Krieg, Feldschlacht, kämpfen bawled: grölte beaming: strahlend, abstrahlend, blank, glatt, glimmend, schimmernd bear: Bär, tragen, ertragen, aushalten, gebären, Baissier, hervorbringen, Baissespekulant, einziehen, ausharren, leiden bearded: bärtig beast: Tier, Biest, Bestie, Vieh, Getier beastliness: Elend, Unannehmlichkeit, Schlamassel, Gemeinheit, Bestialität, Unmenschlichkeit beat: schlagen, schlag, hauen, Schwebung, klopfen, Runde, einen Klaps geben beaten: geschlagen beating: Schlagen, Klopfen beauty: Schönheit, Pracht, Hübschheit

beaver: Biber beavers: Biber befitting: ziemend beforehand: im Voraus, vorher, zuvor beg: bitten, bittet, bittest, bitte, betteln, bettele, bettelt, bettle, ersuchen, bettelst, ersuche beggar: Bettler beggarly: arm begged: bat, batet, baten, gebeten, batest, betteltet, betteltest, gebettelt, bettelte, bettelten, ersuchtet begging: Bittend, Bettelnd, Bettelei, ersuchend, Betteln, Abstauben, Schnorren begins: fängt an, beginnt, bricht an begotten: gezeugt begun: angefangen, Begonnen, begann, aufgenommen, angebrochen behave: sich benehmen, sich verhalten, sich betragen, sich aufführen, benehmen behaved: benahm sich, benahm behold: sehen, erblicken, siehe, sieh, siehst, seht, erblickst, sehe, erblicke, erblickt, wahrnehmen belief: Glaube, Glauben, Überzeugung believed: glaubten, glaubtest, geglaubt, glaubte, glaubtet believing: Glaubend bellow: brüllen, wiehern, unten, rasen, quaken, poltern, johlen, heulen, herausschreien, hausen, grassieren belly: Bauch, Hinterleib, Unterleib belongs: gehört zu beloved: geliebt, Geliebte, lieb, beliebt, Herzchen, allerliebst, auserkoren, auserwählt, Geliebten, heißgeliebt, Juwel bend: biegen, Kurve, beugen, Biegung, krümmen, verbiegen, sich beugen, Krümmung, neigen, Drehung, hinneigen bending: Biegen, Umkehr, Umgestaltung, Umbruch, Umbiegen, Trendwende, Kenterung, Umschlag, biegend, Änderung, Abwandlung beneath: unter, unterhalb, darunter, unten, neben berth: Anlegen, Liegeplatz, Koje, Anlegeplatz, Bettplatz berths: Kojen, Stellungen beside: neben, an, außer, bei, zu besides: außerdem, außer, neben, darüber, übrigens, zudem, namentlich, fort, sonstig, weiter, zusätzlich

Fyodor Dostoyevsky bet: wette, wetten betrothed: verlobte, verlobten, verlobt, verlobtest, verlobtet beware: hüten bewildered: verwirrten, verwirrtest, verwirrte, verwirrt, verwirrtet, irre, geistig durcheinander, fassungslos bewilderment: Verwirrung, Schüchternheit, Verdutztheit bile: Galle billiard: Billard biped: Zweifüßler bite: Biss, beißen, bissen, zubeissen, anbeißen, Happen, stechen, schneiden, Knacks bitter: bitter, herb, bitterlich bitterness: Bitterkeit, Verbitterung, Groll blackguard: Schurke, Rabauke blacking: Lästern, Schwarz machen blame: Tadel, beschuldigen, schuld, Vorwürfe machen, vorwerfen, Vorwurf, verklagen, imputieren, Vergehen, zur Last legen, zuschreiben blamed: getadelt, tadelte blames: tadelt bled: blutete, blutetet, blutetest, bluteten, geblutet bless: segnen, segnet, segne, segnest blessing: segnend, Segen, Heil, Einsetzung, Glückwunsch, Einsegnung, Heiligkeit, Heiligung, Herrlichkeit, Segenspendung, Segenswunsch blindly: blind, blindlings bliss: Glück, Seligkeit, Wonne, Köstlichkeit, Glückseligkeit, Herrlichkeit, Schwein, Vortrefflichkeit, Großartigkeit block: Block, blockieren, Klotz, verstopfen, sperren, Druckstock, zusperren, zustopfen, versperren, stopfen, Scheit blockhead: Dummkopf blockheads: Schwachköpfe, Schafsköpfe, Dussel blocking: Blockierend, Blockierung, Abdichten, Abschliessen, Dichten bloodshed: Blutvergießen bloodthirsty: blutdürstig, blutrünstig blowing: Blasend, Blasen, Sausen, Geblas, Gepus blows: Schläge blushed: rot angelaufen, erröten, errötet, errötete blushing: errötend boast: prahlen, Prahlerei, angeben, aufschneiden, renommieren, großeRedeführen, rühmen, sich brüsten, brüsten, ausposaunen, sich mit etwas brüsten

boasted: prahlte, geprahlt boastful: prahlerisch, großsprecherisch, angeberisch, dicktuerisch, auffallend, auffällig, aufgebläht, aufgeblasen, hochmütig, hoffärtig, lauthals boasting: Prahlend, Aufschneidend, Prahlerei boiling: kochend, siedend, Kochen bold: fett, dreist, kühn, keck, frech, Mutig, ungezogen, schamlos, schlimm, taktlos, tapfer boldly: kühn bondage: Hörigkeit, Sklaverei, Leibeigenschaft, Knechtschaft bone: Knochen, Gräte, Bein, Knöchern, Gebeine, Gebein, Entgräten, Beinern, der Knochen bookishness: Stubengelehrsamkeit boots: Stiefel, Kofferräume, Stiefeletten bored: langweilte, gelangweilt, angebohrt boredom: Langeweile, Langweiligkeit borrow: borgen, entlehnen, leihen, ausleihen, zur Ausleihe bekommen, verleihen, etwas von jemadem geliehen haben, darleihen borrowed: geliehen bosom: Busen, Brust bottle: Flasche, Einmachen, Abfüllen, Konservieren, Füllen, Anzapfen, auf Flaschen ziehen, Einbüchsen, die Flasche bottles: Flaschen bottom: Boden, Grund, Hintern, Unterseite, Gesäß, unten, Popo, Arsch bound: gebunden, begrenzen, Grenze, abgrenzen, eindämmen, einschränken, Schranke, beschränken bounds: Grenze, Begrenzt bow: bogen, Bug, sich verneigen, Verbeugung, Bügel, biegen, Reverenz, Geigenstock, Geigenbogen, Handbogen, Handbögen bowed: verbeugte, gebeugt bowing: verbeugend boxes: Kästen, Schrankkoffer boyhood: Jugend, Kindheit brain: Gehirn, Hirn, Verstand branded: mit Schutzmarke versehen, gebrandmarkt brazil: Brasilien bread: Brot, Panieren, Weizenbrot breadth: Breite, Großzügigkeit breaks: unterbricht, abbruch, bruch, trennung, Unterbrechung breast: Brust, Busen, Mutterbrust

133 breasts: Brüste, Büste, Brust, Busen breath: Atem, Hauch, Atemzug, Schnaufer, Inhalation, Einatmung, Aspiration breathe: atmen, atmest, atmet, atme breathing: atmend, Atmen, Atmung breathless: atemlos, außer Atem breeding: Zucht, Züchtung, züchtend, Erziehung, brüten, Züchten, Fortpflanzung brew: Gebräu, brauen, kochen, aufbrühen, gären, Gemisch bribes: Bestechungsgelder, Schmiergelder brick: Ziegelstein, Backstein, Ziegel, Baustein, Stein brief: kurz, Schriftsatz, instruieren, benachrichtigen bright: hell, blank, gescheit, leuchtend, klug, intelligent, licht, heiter, helle, aufgeweckt, frisch brilliant: glänzend, brillant, hervorragend, blank, genial, besser als die anderen bringing: Bringend, mitbringend, Anbringend, überbringend, einbringend brings: bringt, bringt mit, bringt ein, überbringt, bringt an broad: Breit, weit, deutlich, umfassend, globaal, gesamt, hell, im Großen und Ganzen, Breite broke: pleite, brach, bankrott, mit leerer Tasche, blank, abgebrannt brooded: brütete brooding: Brut, brütend, Sippschaft, Zeug, Pöbel, Plebs, Pack, Lumpengesindel, Grübeln, Grübelei, Gesindel bruises: Quetscht, Zerstampft brushed: gebürstet, bürstete brushes: handbesen, handfeger, bürste von Schweinsborsten brutes: Scheusale, Unmenschen bubbles: Blasen buckle: Schnalle, zuschnallen, Spange, anschnallen, festschnallen, schnallen budge: bewegen, bewegt, bewege, bewegst buffet: Büfett, Büffet, Schankraum, Schlag, Buffet, Puff bull: Stier, Bulle, Haussier, Haussespekulant bullets: Kugeln bulls: Stiere bully: tyrannisieren, Tyrann, Bullenbeißer buried: begruben, beerdigt, beerdigte, beerdigten, beerdigtest, beerdigtet, begrub, vergrubst, begrubst, begrubt, vergraben

134 burlesque: Burlesk, Burleske burning: brennend, verbrennend, Verbrennung, Brandverletzung, anbrennend, Brandwunde burst: platzen, bersten, zerplatzen, zerspringen, Explosion, explodieren, Bruch, Ausbruch bury: begraben, vergraben, beerdigen, begrabt, begräbst, beerdige, beerdigst, beerdigt, begrabe, vergräbst, vergrabt burying: begrabend, Vergrabend, beerdigend, bestattend bushes: Gebüsch, Büsche, Strauch, Busch, Büschel, Buschwerk, Hölzer, Staude, Sträucher, Unterholz, Kopf bustle: Gesumm, Betrieb, Gemurmel busy: besetzt, belegt, beschäftigt, geschäftig, emsig, fleißig, belebt, betriebsam busying: beschäftigend butter: Butter, Buttern, Bestreichen, die Butter, Fett button: Knopf, Zuknöpfen, Taste, Schaltfläche, Druckknopf, Knöpfen, der Knopf cabman: Taxifahrer cabmen: Taxifahrer cafe: Café cafes: Kaffeehäuser cakes: Kuchen calculate: berechnen, berechnest, berechne, berechnet, kalkulieren, kalkuliere, kalkulierst, kalkuliert, rechnen, rechne, rechnet calculated: berechnet, berechnete, berechnetet, berechnetest, berechneten, kalkuliertet, kalkuliertest, kalkulierten, kalkulierte, kalkuliert, rechnete calculating: berechnend, kalkulierend, rechnend, errechnend, einkalkulierend, eigennützig, rechnen calendar: Kalender, Zeitrechnung calling: rufend, Anrufend, heißend, aufrufend, Rufen, Berufung, Anrufung, Ruf, Zurufen, Schreien, Vokation calls: ruft, ruft an, heißt, ruft auf, schreit calm: ruhig, beruhigen, still, gelassen, Flaute, sanft, windstill, Stille, lindern, gemütlich, zugänglich calmer: ruhiger calmly: ruhig candid: offen, aufrichtig candle: Kerze, Licht, Wachskerze, Wachslicht candles: Kerzen candlestick: Leuchter, Kerzenhalter, Kerzenständer

Notes from Underground cannibalism: Kannibalismus cannot: kann nicht cap: Kappe, Mütze, Haube, Deckel, bedecken, Barett, Hut, Knallplätzchen, Kopfbedeckung, Decke, Käppchen capable: fähig, tüchtig, imstande, kompetent, tauglich, kapabel, kundig, geübt, geschult, gescheit, fachmännisch capacities: Kapazitäten capacity: Kapazität, Fassungsvermögen, Leistung, Leistungsfähigkeit, Fähigkeit, Inhalt, Vermögen, Hubraum, Energie, Leistungsvermögen, Potential capers: Kapern capitally: kapital caprice: Laune, Eigensinn, Kaprize captivate: gefangen nehmen card: Karte, Zettel, Landkarte, Spielkarte cardboard: Karton, Pappe, Pappschachtel, Pappdeckel, Pappartig, Aus Pappe cared: sorgte careful: vorsichtig, sorgfältig, sorgsam, behutsam, besorgt, bedachtsam, reiflich, akkurat, bedächtig, besonnen, eingehend carelessly: sorglos, nachlässig carelessness: Nachlässigkeit, Achtlosigkeit, Sorglosigkeit, Unvorsichtigkeit caressing: liebkosend, einschmeichelnd carriage: Wagen, Kutsche, Lafette, Transport, Wagenvorschub, Beförderung, Wagon, Karosse, Kalesche, Bahnwagen, Schlitten carries: trägt carrying: tragend cast: Besetzung, werfen, Guss, gießen, Abguss, geworfen, Wurf, Gips, Gipsverband casual: beiläufig, zufällig, gelegentlich, flüchtig, unverbindlich, informell, inoffiziell, ungezwungen casually: gelegentlich, zufällig, ungezwungen, beiläufig catch: fangen, fangt, fange, fängst, erwischen, erwischt, erwische, erwischst, Fang, ertappen, ertappt caught: gefangen, fing, fingst, fingt, fingen, erwischt, erwischte, erwischten, erwischtest, erwischtet, ertappten causeless: grundlos causes: anlässe, veranlässt, Ursachen cave: Höhle, Höhlung, Grube, Grotte, Vertiefung

cease: aufhören, verzichten, zurücktreten, etwas aufgeben, ausscheiden, ablassen ceased: aufgehört, hörte auf ceasing: beendend, endend ceiling: Decke, Zimmerdecke, Obergrenze, Plafond, die Decke, Dachboden, Höchstgrenze, Höhegrenze, Deckenboden celebrate: feiern, feierst, feiert, feiere, feire, zelebrieren, zelebrierst, zelebriert, zelebriere, einFestfeiern cellar: Keller, Gewölbe cemetery: Friedhof, Kirchhof, Gottesacker, der Friedhof censure: tadeln, Tadel, begutachten, kritisieren certainty: Gewissheit, Sicherheit, Bestimmtheit, Überzeugung, Zuversicht, Pfand, Garantie certificate: Zertifikat, Attest, Bescheinigung, Zeugnis, Schein, Urkunde, Notiz, Zertifikaat, Vermerk, Prüfungszeugnis, Anmerkung chains: Ketten challenge: Herausforderung, herausfordern challenged: herausgefordert champagne: Champagner, Sekt chanced: riskierte chaos: Chaos, Durcheinander, Unordnung, Wirrwarr, Wirbel, Verwüstung, Verworrenheit, Verwirrung, Sammelsurium, Mischmasch, Gewirr characteristics: Charakteristik, Eigenschaften characterless: charakterlos charming: reizend, bezaubernd, anmutig, lieblich, entzückend, hold, allerliebst, charmant, liebenswürdig, zierlich, sympathisch cheap: billig, minderwertig, preiswert cheat: betrügen, hintergehen, beschwindeln, Gauner, bescheißen, beschummeln, prellen, täuschen, mogeln, neppen, Schuft checking: Kontrolle, überprüfung, Prüfung, abzählen cheeks: Backen cheer: zujubeln, Hochruf, jubeln, bejubeln, Jubelruf, bejauchzen, komplimentieren, feiern, Freudenruf, Freudenschrei, zujauchzen cheerful: fröhlich, heiter, lustig, vergnügt, gutgelaunt, munter, herzensfroh, aufgekratzt, froh, freudig, entzückt chemical: Chemisch, Chemikalie chemically: chemisch

Fyodor Dostoyevsky cherish: knuddeln, streicheln, schmusen, kuscheln cherished: schätzte, gepflegte cherishes: schätzt, pflegt cherub: Cherub, der Engel, Unschuldiges Kind chess: Schach, Schachspiel chicken: Huhn, Hühnchen, Küken, Henne, Hähnchen, Kücken, Poulet chiefly: hauptsächlich, vornehmlich, speziell, zumal, zumeist, insbesondere, vorzüglich, eigens, überwiegend, besonders, ausschlaggebend childhood: Kindheit, Kinderjahre, Kinderzeit childish: kindisch, kindlich, infantil, albern childishly: kindlich, kindisch chill: Kälte, Erkältung, Kühle, erstarren, Schnupfen chin: Kinn, das Kinn, Kinnbacken chivalry: Rittertum, Ritterlichkeit, Adel, Ritterwesen, Ritterstand choked: würgte chooses: wählt, liest aus, sucht aus, erwählt chose: wählte, wählten, wähltet, wähltest, gewählt, lasen aus, suchten aus, suchtest aus, suchte aus, last aus, lasest aus chosen: gewählt, ausgewählt, auserkoren, ausgelesen, ausgesucht, bevorzugt, erwählt, auserlesen, auserwählt chubby: pausbäckig, pummelig, rundlich, mollig chuckle: Glucksen, kichern, sich ins Fäustchen lachen, schmunzeln, grinsen, Gegrinse, feixen, lächeln cigarette: Zigarette, Kippe circumspect: vorsichtig, umsichtig circumstance: Umstand, Bewandtnis civilian: Zivilist, zivil, bürgerlich civilisation: Zivilisation, Kultur civilised: Gebildete clacking: klappernd clanked: klirrte clanking: klirrend classification: Klassifikation, Klassifizierung, Einstufung, Einordnung, Einteilung, Klasseneinteilung, Wertung, Zuordnung classifications: Einstufungen, Klassifizierungen clay: Ton, Lehm, Tonerde, Kleie, Irden, Tönern clean: sauber, rein, reinigen, reinige, reinigst, reinigt, säubern, putzen, putzt, säubere, säubre clearer: heller, Reiniger

clenched: biß zusammen clenching: zusammenbeißend cleopatra: Kleopatra clerk: Büroangestellte, Schreiber, Beamte, Handlungsgehilfe, Verkäufer, Kanzlist, Angestellte, Angestellter, Kommiß, Ladengehilfe, Schriftführer clerks: Schreiber, Schriftführer, Sekretäre clever: geschickt, klug, schlau, listig, gescheit, raffiniert, gewandt, abgefeimt, anstellig, arglistig, behende cleverer: raffinierter climate: Klima climbing: Klettern, Steigend, Kletternd, Bergsteigen, Ansteigend cling: klammern, klammerst, klammre, klammere, kleben, klammert, ankleben, anleimen, festkleben, anschmiegen, leimen cloak: Mantel, Umhang, Deckmantel, Gewand clock: Uhr, Taktgeber, Takt, Taktgenerator, Stoppen, die Uhr, Standuhr closed: schloß, geschlossen, schloßt, schlossen, schlossest, verschlossest, verschloßt, verschlossen, verschloß, machtet zu, abgeschlossen closer: näher clouded: bewölkt clout: Kopfnuss, Lappen clue: Hinweis, Anhaltspunkt, Indiz, Spur, Wink, Verweisung, Tip, Fingerzeig clumsy: unbeholfen, ungeschickt, schwerfällig, plump, täppisch, taktlos, stümperhaft, stelzbeinig, schlapp, schlaff, schlacksig clutched: packte clutches: Kupplungen clutching: packend coarse: grob, ungeschliffen, rauh, abgestanden, arg, barsch, grobkörnig, unflätig, holperig, obszön, ungehobelt coarsely: grob, ungehobelt coarseness: Vulgarität, Derbheit, Ungeschliffenheit, Plattheit coat: Mantel, Anstrich, Paletot, Fell, bedecken, Überzieher, Überrock, Umkleiden, Schicht cobbler: Schuster, Schuhmacher, Flickschuster coffee: Kaffee, der Kaffee coffin: Sarg, Grabkiste coincide: zusammentreffen, treffen zusammen, triffst zusammen, triff zusammen, trefft zusammen, treffe zusammen, zusammenfallen,

135 übereinstimmen, kongruieren, fallt zusammen, fällst zusammen coldly: kalt collar: Kragen, Halsband, Leine, Zügel, der Kragen, Halskragen, kleineKragen, Zaum, Longe, Bund colleague: Kollege, Amtsbruder, Amtsgenosse, Mitarbeiter, Mitbruder, Kollegin, Fachgenosse, Genosse, Amtsbrüder, Amstsschwester, Amtsgenossin collected: sammeltet, sammelte, sammeltest, gesammelt, sammelten, sammeltet ein, sammelte ein, eingesammelt, sammelten ein, sammeltest ein, gefasst collegiate: akademisch colonels: Oberste colossus: Koloss, Riese, Ungetüm, Monstrum, Gigant coloured: farbig, bunt combed: gekämmt, kämmte combinations: Kombinationen combined: kombiniert, kombinierte, kombiniertet, kombinierten, kombiniertest, aneinander, zusammen, ineinander comfort: Komfort, Behaglichkeit, trösten, Bequemlichkeit, Trost, Ermutigung, Gemütlichkeit, Trost spenden, unterstützen, Zuspruch, Ermunterung comfortably: komfortabel, bequem comforted: getrost, tröstete comforting: tröstlich, trostreich, tröstend comical: komisch, drollig, spaßhaft, ulkig commanded: befahl, befohlene comment: Kommentar, Bemerkung, kommentieren, Stellungnahme, Anmerkung, Erläuterung commit: anvertrauen, vertraust an, vertraue an, treiben, betreiben, vertrauen an, pflegen, vertraut an, ausüben committed: anvertraut, vertrautet an, gebunden, gezwungen, unfrei, vertraute an, vertrauten an, vertrautest an commonplace: Alltäglich, banal, fade, Gemeinplatz, trivial, abgedroschen compacts: Presst zusammen companions: Gefährten comparatively: vergleichsweise, verhältnismäßig compassion: Mitleid, Mitgefühl, Erbarmen, Anteilnahme compelled: zwang, gezwungen, zwangst, zwangen, zwangt, erzwungen compilation: Kompilation,

136 Zusammenstellung, Kompilierung, Einsammlung, Zusammenbringen, Sammlung, Haufen, Ansammlung, Häufung complacently: selbstgefällig, selbstzufrieden completed: abgeschlossen, fertig, vollendet, beendet, vervollständigt, geschafft, erledigt, parat, klar, bereit, aus completing: Gestaltung, Ergänzung, Erfüllung, Eintragen, Einlösung, Bekleidung, absolvierend, vervollständigend, Ausfüllung composed: gelassen, ruhig, zusammengestellt, gefasst, zusammengesetzt, jovial, verfaßtest, zugänglich, komponierte, verfaßtet, komponierten composure: Gelassenheit, Gefaßtheit compound: Verbindung, zusammengesetzt, Präparat, Kompositum compressed: komprimiert, drückte zusammen compression: Kompression, Komprimierung, Verdichtung, Druck, Verdichting compromise: Kompromiss, kompromittieren, sich nicht festlegen, ausweeichen compromising: kompromiss schliessend comrade: Kamerad, Genosse comrades: Kameraden, Waffenbrüder comradeship: Kameradschaft conceal: verbergen, verbirgst, verbergt, verberge, verbirg, verheimlichen, verheimlicht, verheimlichst, verheimliche, verstecken, verhehlen concealed: verbargt, verbargen, verborgen, verbargst, verbarg, verheimlicht, verheimlichten, verheimlichtest, verheimlichtet, verheimlichte, heimlich conceitedly: Eingebildet conceive: denkt aus, empfange, empfangen, empfängst, empfangt, entwickele, denkst aus, konzipiert, begreift, sich vorstellen, entwickelst concerning: betreffend, bezüglich, in Bezug auf, hinsichtlich, betreffs, über, von, anbelangt, anbelangend, wegen, in der Nähe concerns: betrifft, stimmt zu, Bestürzung, Entsetzung conciliation: Schlichtung, Versöhnung concluded: beendet, beendetet, beendetest, beendete, beendeten, schloß ab, schlossen ab, schlossest

Notes from Underground ab, schloßt ab, abgeschlossen conclusion: Schluss, Folgerung, Schlussfolgerung, Abschluss, Ergebnis, Resultat, Konklusion, Rückschluss, Gesamtzahl, Gesamtergebnis, Endergebnis conclusions: Schlüsse condescend: geruhen, geruhst, geruht, geruhe condescension: Herablassung conducive: dienlich, förderlich, zuträglich confess: beichten, beichte, beichtest, beichtet, gestehen, eingestehen, gestehen ein, gesteht ein, gesteht, gestehst, gestehe ein confessed: beichtete, beichtetet, beichtetest, beichteten, gebeichtet, gestanden ein, gestand ein, gestanden, gestandet, gestandst, gestandst ein confessing: beichtend, gestehend, eingestehend, zugebend confessions: Bekenntnisse confident: überzeugt, zuversichtlich, vertrauend, sicher confirmed: bestätigtest, bestätigtet, bestätigten, bestätigte, bestätigt, bekräftigtest, bekräftigtet, bekräftigten, bekräftigte, bekräftigt, konfirmierte conflict: Konflikt, Widerstreit, Streit confronted: konfrontiert, konfrontiertet, konfrontiertest, konfrontierten, konfrontierte confronting: Konfrontierend confused: verwirrten, verwirrt, verwirrte, verwirrtest, verwirrtet, verwechseltet, verwechseltest, verwechselten, verwechselte, verwechselt, konfus confusion: Verwirrung, Verwechslung, Durcheinander, Gewirr, Trubel, Verworrenheit, Wirrsal, Verwechselung, Verschmelzung, Konfusion, Wirbel connection: Verbindung, Anschluss, Zusammenhang, Verband, Beziehung, Liga, Vertrag, Konnex, Allianz, Band, Binde connoisseur: Kenner, Gastronom conquered: erobert, eroberte, eroberten, erobertet, erobertest conquests: Eroberungen conscience: Gewissen conscious: bewusst, sehr bewußt, bei Bewusstsein, wissentlich consciously: bewusst consciousness: Bewusstsein, Bewußtheit, Besinnung, Gewissenhaftigkeit consent: Zustimmung, zustimmen,

einwilligen, Einwilligung, Einverständnis, Gutdünken, Eintracht, Konsens, Einigkeit, Votum, zuwilligen consented: zugestimmt consequence: Konsequenz, Folge, Schnitt, Wirkung, Wertpapier, Tätigkeit, Sequenz, Lösung, Auswirkung, Effekt consequently: folglich, infolgedessen, konsequent, somit, mithin, demzufolge, deshalb considerably: beträchtlich consideration: Erwägung, Überlegung, Abwägung, Gegenleistung, Anbetracht, Bedenken, Betracht, Erwägen, Hinweis, Nachdenken, Nachsinnen considering: erwägend, berücksichtigend, betrachtend, in Anbetracht, erachtend, entsprechend, ansehend considers: erwägt, berücksichtigt, betrachtet, erachtet, sieht an, bedenkt consist: bestehen, bestehe, bestehst, besteht, besteht aus consistent: folgerichtig, einheitlich, konsequent, konsistent, vereinbar, beständig, gleichbleibend consists: besteht consolation: Trost, Vertröstung, Tröstung conspicuous: auffallend, auffällig, deutlich constantly: ständig, stetig, beständig, stets, immer, dauernd, konstant constructed: konstruiert, konstruiertet, konstruierte, konstruierten, konstruiertest, bauten, baute, bautest, bautet, gebaut, bauten auf constructing: konstruierend, bauend, aufbauend construction: Konstruktion, Bau, Aufbau, Errichtung, Struktur, Bauwerk, Erbauung, Bauart, Zusammensetzung, System, Rangordnung consult: konsultieren, konsultiere, konsultierst, konsultiert, befragen, befrage, befragt, zu Rate ziehen, befragst, heranziehen, zieht heran consulting: konsultierend, befragend, um Rat fragend, heranziehend, beratend consuming: verbrauchend, verzehrend, konsumierend, aufzehrend, aufbrauchend consummation: Vollendung, Vollziehung consumption: Verbrauch, Konsum,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky Schwindsucht, Verzehr, Genuß, Phtisis contain: enthalten, enthältst, enthaltet, enthalte contemplated: betrachtete, betrachtetet, betrachtetest, betrachteten, betrachtet contemplating: betrachtend contemplation: Betrachtung, erneutes Erwägen contempt: Verachtung, Geringschätzung, Mißachtung contemptible: verachtenswert, verächtlich contemptuous: geringschätzig, verachtungsvoll contemptuously: verächtlich, verachtungsvoll contentedly: zufrieden contention: Streit, Wettstreit continual: fortwährend, dauernd, beständig, konstant, unablässig, ständig, stetig, fest continually: fortgesetzt continuation: Fortsetzung, Fortführung, Weiterführung, Fortdauern contorted: verdrehtest, verdrehtet, verdreht, verdrehte, verdrehten, verzogen, verschroben, verzerrt contradictions: Widersprüche contradictory: Widersprüchlich, widerspruchsvoll, unverträglich, unvereinbar, gegensätzlich, entgegengesetzt contradicts: widerspricht contrary: Entgegengesetzt, Gegenteil, zuwider, Gegenstück, Gegensatz, verkehrt, Antipode, Kontrast, widerwärtig contrast: Kontrast, Gegensatz, Gegensätzlichkeit, Gegensätze contrive: entwirfst, sich ausdenken, entwirf, entwickelst, entwickeln, entwickele, entwerft, entwerfen, entwerfe, einrichten, aushecken contumacious: widerspenstig, ungehorsam conventional: konventionell, hergebracht, herkömmlich, üblich conversation: Gespräch, Unterhaltung, Konversation, Unterredung, Aussprache, Dialog, Geplauder, Talk conversations: Unterhaltungen, Gespräche convey: herreichen, einhändigen, transportieren, aushändigen, angeben, überliefern, übermitteln conviction: Überzeugung, Standpunkt, Anschauung, Ansicht, Auffassung, Denkweise, Gesinnung,

Überführung, Verurteilung, Glaube convince: überzeugen, überzeugst, überzeuge, überzeugt, überreden convinced: überzeugten, überzeugtest, überzeugtet, überzeugte, überzeugt, bewußt convulsions: Zuckungen convulsive: krampfhaft, krampfig, krampfartig convulsively: krampfhaft cord: Schnur, Strick, Kordel, Leine, Strang, Kabel, Seil, Kord, Flexible Leitung, Garn, Saite corners: Ecken corporal: Unteroffizier, Korporal, körperlich corpulent: beleibt, dick, korpulent corrective: korrigierend, fehlerbehebend corrupt: verdorben, bestechlich, korrupt, korrumpieren, verderben, korrumpiert, korrumpierst, korrumpiere, käuflich, entstellen, entarten corrupting: verderbend, korrumpierend corsets: Korsetts cotton: Baumwolle, Kattun couch: Couch, Liege, Sofa, Kanapee, Divan, Liegesofa, Ruhelager, Schlafcouch coughing: Hustend, Husten counsellors: Ratgeber count: zählen, Zählung, abzählen, Graf, rechnen, kalkulieren, erachten, Zählereignis, Zählimpuls, passen, berechnen counted: gezählt, zählte, abgezählt countenance: Antlitz, Gesicht, Anblick, Szene, Schauspiel, Miene, Gesichtsausdruck countess: Gräfin, Landgräfin countless: zahllos, unzählig, Legion, ungezählt courage: Mut, Tüchtigkeit, Schneidigkeit, Rüstigkeit courteous: höflich, artig, anständig, galant courtesy: Höflichkeit, Wohlwollen, Verbindlichkeit covered: bedeckt, gedeckt, zugedeckt, bedeckte, eindeckt, überdacht, überdeckt, abgedeckt, überlegen covering: Deckung, Abdeckung, Zudeckend, übergreifend, überwölbend, Schutz, Belag, Zudeckung coward: Feigling, Angsthase cowardice: Feigheit cowardly: feig, feige coxcomb: Kauz, Narr, Verrückte crack: Riss, Sprung, Krachen,

137 Knarren, Spalte, knacken, brechen, knallen, Spalt, Knall, entschlüsseln cramped: verkrampft, beengt, eng cravat: Krawatte, Halstuch craving: Verlangen, erflehend, Begehr, Lust, Heftiges Verlangen, Flehend, Ein großes Verlangen, Begehren, Atemzug creak: Knarren, knarre, knarrst, knarrt, knirschen, fletschen created: schafftet, geschafft, schafftest, schafften, schaffte, erschuf, erschuft, erschufen, erschaffen, erschufst, geschaffen creating: schaffend, erschaffend, erstellend, verfertigung, anfertigung, anfertigen, herstellung, kreieren, kreierend creation: Schöpfung, Kreation, Erzeugung, Schaffung, Verfertigung, Herstellung, Anfertigung, Anfertigen, Schöpfungswerk creative: kreativ, schöpferisch, sinnreich, scharfsinnig, erfinderisch, schöpfend creature: Geschöpf, Lebewesen, Kreatur, Gebilde, Erzeugnis credulous: leichtgläubig, gutgläubig, vertrauensselig creep: Kriechen, kriecht, krieche, kriechst, schleichen, schleiche, schleicht, schleichst crestfallen: geknickt, niedergeschlagen, niedergedrückt, belemmert, bedripst, betreten cried: geschrieen, schrie crimes: Verbrechen, Verbreche, Untaten criminal: Verbrecher, verbrecherisch, kriminell, Kriminelle, kriminal, strafrechtlich, Bösewicht, strafbar crimson: Karmesinrot, Karmesin, purpurrot cripples: Krüppel criticise: kritisieren critics: Kritiker cross: Kreuz, böse, Kreuzung, übertreten, quer, Kreuzchen, durchkreuzen, überqueren, kreuzen, arg, übergeben crossed: gekreuzt crossly: böse cross-roads: Gabelung, Kreuzung, Abzweigung crowd: Menge, Menschenmenge, Haufen, Masse, Gedränge, Horde, Volksmenge, Stapel, Gewirr, Gewühl, Menschenmasse crowded: überfüllt, gedrängt, vollgestopft, voll, übervoll, gerammelt voll, gedrängt voll

138 crowding: die Überbevölkerung, Verdrängen, Zusammendrängend crowds: Menschenmassen, Schwärme, Mengen crown: Krone, Kranz, Krönen, die Krone crowned: krönte cruel: grausam cruelty: Grausamkeit crumpled: zerknittert, zerknittertet, zerknitterte, zerknittertest, zerknitterten, zerknautscht, zerknauscht crush: zermalmen, zerstoßen, zerdrücken, erdrücken, zerkleinern, zerstampfen, zerschmettern, zermahlen, zerquetschen, kleinstoßen, zerbrechen crushed: zerbrochen, zerdrückte cry: weinen, Schrei, schreien, heulen, Ruf, kreischen, jammern, wehklagen, brüllen, rufen crying: schreiend, schreiende, Weinen crystal: Kristall, Aus Kristall cues: Steht in eine Schlange, Stichwörter cultivated: kultiviertest, kultiviert, kultiviertet, kultivierten, kultivierte, bebaute, bebaut cultured: kultiviert, gebildet, gesittet, gezüchtet cumbered: belastete cumbering: belastend cunning: schlau, listig, Gerissenheit, gerieben, durchtrieben, gerissen, Hinterlist, Schlauheit, ausgekocht, Arglist, arglistig cur: Köter, Hundsfott curb: zügeln, Bordstein, beherrschen, bändigen, unterdrücken, Bordkante, dämpfen, in Zucht halten cure: Heilung, heilen, kurieren, genesen, Heilmittel, Kur, behandeln, wiederherstellen, gesunden curiosity: Neugierde, Neugier, Seltenheit, Kuriosität, Kuriosum, Seltsames Exemplar, Wißbegier, Sehenswürdigkeit, Neugierigkeit, Exentrizität curiously: neugierig curriculum: Lehrplan, Studienplan curry: Striegeln, Curry curse: verfluchen, fluch, verwünschen, lästern, fluchen curses: Flüche cursing: verwünschend custody: Haft, Aufbewahrung, Gewahrsam, Bewachung, Sorgerecht cutting: Schneiden, Schnitt, abschneidend, schneidend, Sprößling, Schnipsel, Sproß, Schuß,

Notes from Underground Schößling, ausschnitt, Trieb cynically: zynisch cynicism: Zynismus daily: Täglich, alltäglich, Wochentag damn: verdammen, verurteilen, verdammt, verwünschen, verfluchen, verdammtnochmal damnable: verdammenswert, abscheulich damned: verdammt, gottverdammt, verflixt, verflucht, verdammt noch mal damp: Feucht, Feuchtigkeit, dunstig, dämpfen, dampfend, qualmig, neblig dance: tanzen, Tanz, Ball, Tänzchen danced: getanzt, tanzte danger: Gefahr dare: wagen, wagt, wage, wagst, sich trauen, sich getrauen, riskieren, sich wagen dared: wagtet, wagten, wagte, gewagt, wagtest daring: wagend, wagemutig, gewagt, Tollkühnheit, Wagemut, Kühnheit, Schneidigkeit, sich Getrauen, verwegen, Schneid, Mut haben darkened: verdunkeltet, verdunkeltest, verdunkelten, verdunkelte, verdunkelt, dunkelten, gedunkelt, dunkeltet, dunkeltest, dunkelte darkness: Dunkelheit, Finsternis, Halbdunkel, Dämmerlicht, Dämmerung dashed: geschlagen dashes: schmettert, sprünge daughters: Töchter dawned: dämmerte daybreak: Tagesanbruch dearer: teuerer, lieber dearly: teuer, lieb deathbed: Sterbebett debauchery: Ausschweifung, Liederlichkeit debt: Schuld, Ausstand, Verschuldung, Verpflichtung, Forderung deceived: betrogt, betrogst, betrogen, betrog, täuschte, täuschtet, getäuscht, täuschten, täuschtest, hintergingt, hintergingst deceiving: betrügend, täuschend, hintergehend decency: Anstand, Schicklichkeit, Höflichkeit, Sittsamkeit, Korrektheit, Tugendhaftigkeit, Rechtschaffenheit, Freundlichkeit decent: anständig, ehrbar, sittsam, dezent, schicklich, menschenwürdig, ordentlich, korrekt, sauber, tugendhaft, höflich

declare: deklarieren, deklariert, deklarierst, deklariere, anmelden, angeben, melden, erweisen, erklären, bezeugen, bezeigen declared: deklariert, deklarierte, deklarierten, deklariertest, deklariertet, erklärt, angegeben, erklärte declaring: deklarierend, erklärend decorations: Dekorationen, Verzierungen deductions: Abzüge deed: Tat, Urkunde, Handlung, Akt, Werk deeds: Taten deeper: tiefer deeply: tief, zutiefst, weh defect: Defekt, Fehler, Mangel, überlaufen, Mißstand defend: verteidigen, verteidigst, verteidige, verteidigt, behaupten, beschützen defended: verteidigtet, verteidigt, verteidigte, verteidigten, verteidigtest, geschützt defending: verteidigend, wehren, abwehren, verteidigen deferred: aufgeschoben, verschoben, verschob defile: defilieren, entweihen, entweihe, profanieren, entweiht, entweihst, Engpaß, defilierst, entheiligen, defiliere, defiliert defiled: defilierte, entweihtet, entweihtest, entweihten, entweihte, entweiht, defiliertet, defilierten, defiliert, defiliertest define: definieren, definiere, definierst, definiert, bestimmen, festlegen, festsetzen, näher umschreiben, näher beschreiben, umschreiben, beschreiben defined: definiert, definiertet, definiertest, definierte, definierten definition: Definition, Begriffsbestimmung, Bestimmung, Bestimmtheit, Auflösung, Attribut, Adverbiale degenerate: entarten, entarte, entartet, entartest, ausarten, arte aus, degenerieren, artest aus, artet aus, arten aus, degeneriert degenerated: entartet, entartetet, entartetest, entarteten, entartete, arteten aus, ausgeartet, artetest aus, artete aus, artetet aus, degenerierte degradation: Degradierung, Abbau, Absetzung, Herabsetzung, Beschneidung, Verringerung, Verminderung, Senkung, Schrumpfung, Schändung degrade: degradieren, degradiere,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky degradierst, degradiert, absetzen, setzt ab, setze ab, setzen ab, erniedrigen, herabsetzen, herabmindern degrees: Grad deign: geruhen, geruhe, geruht, geruhst deigned: geruhtet, geruhtest, geruhten, geruhte, geruht delay: Verzögerung, verzögern, Aufschub, Verspätung, aufschieben, Verzug, zügern, zaudern, Ausstand, aufhalten, stunden deliberate: absichtlich, bewusst, überlegen, sich beraten, vorsätzlich, überlegt, bedachtsam, beratschlagen, mit Vorbedacht, vorsichtig, wohlüberlegt deliberately: absichtlich, vorsätzlich, absichtliche deliberation: Überlegung, Anbetracht, Erwägung delicacy: Delikatesse, Leckerbissen, Feinheit, Zierlichkeit, Zartgefühl, Takt, Nascherei, Leckerei, Erquickung, Erfrischung, Dünne delight: Entzücken, Lust, Freude, Vergnügen, verzücken, bezaubern delighted: erfreut, entzückt, heiter, vergnügt, vergnüglich, entzückte, munter, begeistert delirious: irreredend delirium: Delirium deliverers: Befreier, Austeiler, Austräger deludes: täuscht denies: leugnet, verweigert, bestreitet, verneint, streitet ab denser: dichter dentist: Zahnarzt deny: leugnen, leugnest, leugnet, leugne, verweigern, verweigre, verweigerst, verweigert, verweigere, bestreiten, bestreitet departure: Abfahrt, Abreise, Abgang, Abzug, Abflug, Start, Abmarsch, Aufbruch, Abweichung depend: abhängen, hänge ab, hängt ab, hängst ab, hängen ab, von der Situation abhängend dependent: abhängig, abhängige, abhängig von, unfrei depends: hängt ab, es kommt darauf an depraved: verdarben, verworfen, verdorben, verdarbst, verdarbt, verdarb, lasterhaft depravity: Verderbtheit depression: Depression, Vertiefung, Bedrückung, Krise, Tief, Krisis, Senke, Trübsinn, Gemütsleiden, Melancholie

deprive: berauben, beraubt, beraubst, beraube, entwenden, fortnehmen, entnehmen, wegnehmen, rauben, stehlen, abnehmen depth: Tiefe, Höhe depths: Tiefen deriding: verspottend derision: Verspottung, Hohn, Spott, Spotten, Spöttelei derived: leitetet ab, leitete ab, leitetest ab, leiteten ab, abgeleitet, hergeleitet, leiteten her, leitetest her, leitetet her, leitete her, abgestammt descended: abstammen, kam herunter, heruntergekommen, kamen herunter, kamst herunter, stieg ab, kamt herunter, abgestammt describe: beschreiben, beschreibe, beschreibst, beschreibt, schildern, umschreiben, wiedergeben, entwerfen, skizzieren, erklären, abbilden deserted: verlassen, menschenleer, öde, ausgestorben desirable: wünschenswert, begehrenswert, erwünscht, geliebt, populär, sehr begehrenswert, sehr begehrt, heißgeliebt, gewünscht, gewollt, gerngesehen desire: Wunsch, wünschen, Begierde, begehren, Verlangen, Lust, Begehr, hoffen, Gier, herbeisehnen, erwarten desired: gewünscht, erwünscht, geforderte, gewünschte, verlangte desires: wünscht desiring: wünschend despair: Verzweiflung, verzweifeln, Schwermut, Ratlosigkeit, Mutlosigkeit, Lebensmüdigkeit, Trübsal desperate: Verzweifelt, hoffnungslos, ratlos desperation: Verzweiflung, Verzweifelung, Hoffnungslosigkeit, Erschütterung, Zerrüttung despicable: verächtlich, jämmerlich, schäbig, schweinisch, tückisch, verachtenswert despise: verachten, verachtet, verachtest, verachte, geringschätzen, verschmähen, schätzst gering, schätze gering, schätzen gering, schätzt gering, verschmäht despised: verachtetet, verachtetest, verachteten, verachtete, verachtet, schätztet gering, verschmähtet, verschmähtest, geringgeschätzt, schätzte gering, verschmähten despising: Verachtend, geringschätzend, verschmähend despondently: verzagt destination: Ziel, Bestimmungsort,

139 Reiseziel, Bestimmung, Reisebestimmung destined: bestimmt, bestimmte, bestimmten, bestimmtest, bestimmtet destroy: zerstören, zerstört, zerstörst, zerstöre, vernichten, zertrümmern, umbringen, zugrunde richten, verheeren, verderben, umreißen destroyed: zerstört, zerstörtet, zerstörtest, zerstörten, zerstörte, vernichtete destruction: Zerstörung, Vernichtung, Verheerung, Verwüstung, Verderben, Fall detached: trenntest ab, trennten ab, abgetrennt, trenntet ab, trennte ab, abgelöst, losgelöst, gelöst, freistehend detail: Detail, Einzelheit, Besonderheit, Eigenart, Einzelteil, Sonderbarkeit, Ausschnitt detect: erkennen, entdecken, nachweisen, ermitteln, erkennt, erkennst, erkenne determination: Bestimmung, Entschlossenheit, Entschluss, Bestimmtheit, Festlegung, Anordnung, Beschluss, Verordnung, Feststellung, Entschiedenheit determined: entschlossen, bestimmte, bestimmten, bestimmtest, bestimmtet, bestimmt, determiniertest, resolut, determiniert, determinierten, determiniertet developing: entwickelnd, entfaltend devil: Teufel, Satan devote: widmen, widmet, widmest, widme, zueignen, weihen devoted: anhänglich, widmete, widmeten, gewidmet, widmetest, widmetet, ergeben, hingebungsvoll, zugetan diamond: Diamant, Karo, Stern dictate: diktieren, diktiert, diktierst, diktiere, vorschreiben, befehlen, auferlegen, anordnen, zuerkennen, herrschen über, Herr sein über dictated: diktiert, diktiertet, diktiertest, diktierten, diktierte die: sterben, stirbst, stirb, sterbt, sterbe, Würfel, krepieren, krepiert, krepierst, krepiere, einschlafen differently: anders, abweichend, unterschiedlich, andernfalls, sonst, verschieden difficulty: Schwierigkeit, Unannehmlichkeit, Griesgram, Last, Lästigkeit, Problem, Verdrießlichkeit, Schererei, Trauer, Unbequemlichkeit, Gram

140 dig: graben, grabt, gräbst, grabe, wühlen, wühlst, wühlt, wühle, schaufeln, ausgraben, ausheben dignified: würdevoll, ehrwürdig, würdig, geehrt, gediegen, ehrtest, ehrten, ehrte, ehrtet dignity: Würde, Anstand digression: Abschweifung, Exposition, Ausweitung dimly: dunkel, düster, schwach, trübe, undeutlich, verschwommen dine: speisen, speist, speise dingy: schäbig, schmutzig dining: Speisend dinner: Abendessen, Diner, Mittagessen, Abendmahlzeit, Festessen, Hauptmahlzeit dinners: Diners dirty: schmutzig, dreckig, unlauter, beschmutzen, gemein, unanständig disadvantageous: nachteilig disappear: verschwinden, verschwindet, verschwindest, verschwinde, entschwinden, entschwinde, entschwindest, entschwindet discharge: Entladung, entladen, Entlastung, Abfluß, verabschieden, entlassen, Entlassung, Abdanken, Quittung, Durchfluss, Austrag discomfiture: Niederlage disconcerted: beirrte, verdutzte, verwirrtet, verwirrtest, verwirrten, verwirrte, befremdetet, vereitelt, befremdet, beunruhigtet, beunruhigtest disconsolate: trostlos discontent: Unzufriedenheit, Unzufrieden discover: entdecken, entdeckt, entdeckst, entdecke, auffinden, finden, finde, enthüllen, abdecken, ausfindig machen, finde auf discovered: entdeckt, entdeckte, entdeckten, entdecktest, entdecktet, fanden auf, fandest auf, fandet, fandest, gefunden, fandet auf discussing: diskutierend, besprechend, erörternd, beredend, Besprechen, Sprechen über disdainful: schnöde, verachtungsvoll, verächtlich disdainfully: verachtungsvolle, verachtungsvoll, verachtenswert, verächtlich diseased: krank diseases: Krankheiten disgrace: Schande, Blamage, blamieren, Ungunst, Ungnade, Skandal, Pleite, Mißstand, jemandem blamieren disgraces: schändet

Notes from Underground disguising: verkleidend disgust: Ekel, Ekeln, Empören, Abstoß, Übelkeit disgusted: abgestoßen, empörte disgusting: ekelhaft, ekelnd, widerlich, anekelnd, eklig disgustingly: anekeln, ekelerregend, ekelhaft, ekelhafte, entsetzlich disgusts: empört dish: Schüssel, Gericht, Schale, Speise, Teller, Schälchen, Schüsselchen dishevelled: aufgelöst, zerrauft, zerzaust dishonest: unehrlich, unlauter, unverdient, ungerecht, unfair, unbillig, unberechtigt, in böser absicht, malafide dishonour: Unehre, entehren, verletzen, überfallen, schänden, Schande, angreifen disintegration: Zerfall, Auflösung, Zersetzung dislike: Abneigung, Antipathie, Widerwillen disliked: abgelehnt, konnte nicht leiden disliking: ablehnend, nicht liebend dismay: in Bestürzung versetzen, Schrecken, Niedergeschlagenheit, Konsternieren, Bestürzt machen, Bestürzung dismiss: entlassen, entlasse, entlaß, entlaßt, entläßt, verabschieden, verabschiedest, abweisen, verabschiedet, verabschiede, feuern dismissed: entlassen, entließen, entließ, entließest, entließt, verabschiedetest, verabschiedetet, verabschiedete, verabschiedeten, verabschiedet, wiest ab disorder: Unordnung, Durcheinander, durcheinander bringen, Übel, Unordentlichkeit, Störung, Schlamperei, Nachlässigkeit, durcheinander werfen, Chaos disordered: zerrüttet display: Anzeige, Auslage, Ausstellung, Bildschirm, prunken, ausstellen, anzeigen, zeigen, darstellen, aushängen, darbieten dispose: anordnen disposition: Disposition, Gemüt, Anordnung, Art, Wesen, Verwendung, Aufstellung, Seele, Verfügung, Veranlagung, Einteilung disproportionate: unverhältnismäßig, verhältniswidrig dispute: streiten, Streit, Disput, Zank, disputieren, anfechten,

Auseinandersetzung, Abstreiten, debattieren, Uneinigkeit, Wortwechsel disputing: disputierend disrespectful: respektlos, respektwidrig, ehrfurchtslos, unhöflich dissipation: Verschwendung, Zerstreuung, Vertreibung, Ableitung, Ausschweifung distant: entfernt, fern, abstehend, entlegen, weit distinction: Unterscheidung, Auszeichnung, Vornehmheit, Würde distinctly: verschieden, klar distinguish: unterscheiden, unterscheidet, unterscheide, unterscheidest, auszeichnen, zeichnet aus, hervorheben, zeichnen aus, zeichnest aus, auseinanderhalten, zeichne aus distinguished: unterschiedet, unterschied, unterschiedest, unterschieden, vornehm, ausgezeichnet, zeichnete aus, zeichneten aus, zeichnetest aus, zeichnetet aus, hieltest auseinander distinguishes: unterscheidet, zeichnet aus, hält auseinander distort: verdrehen, verzerren, verzerre, verdrehst, verdreht, verzerrst, verzerrt, verdrehe, entstellen, verzeichnen distorted: verzerrtet, verzerrtest, verzerrten, verzerrte, verzerrt, verdrehte, verdreht, verdrehtest, verdrehtet, verdrehten distract: zerstreuen, ablenken, lenkst ab, zerstreut, zerstreust, zerstreue, lenkt ab, lenken ab, lenke ab distracted: abgelenkt, zerstreute, lenktet ab, lenktest ab, lenkten ab, lenkte ab, zerstreuten, zerstreut, verwirrte, zerstreutet, zerstreutest distraction: Ablenkung, Erholung, Zerstreutheit distrust: Misstrauen, Argwohn disturb: stören, störst, stört, störe, genieren, beengen, geniert, genierst, lästig werden, hindern, geniere divined: ahnte voraus divorce: Scheidung, Ehescheidung, scheiden, trennen divorced: geschieden doctors: Doktoren, Ärzte doll: Puppe, entzückende Kind, niedliche Kind, willenlose Person, süße Kind, Spielzeugpuppe, Marionette, Gelenkpuppe, Gliederpuppe dominating: dominierend,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky herrschend domineering: tyrannisch, tyrannisierend donkeys: Esel doom: Verhängnis, Schicksal, Verderben doorway: Türöffnung, Eingang, Türeingang, Torweg, Öffnung, Loch, Höhlung, Höhle, Grube double: doppelt, verdoppeln, doppel, Doppelgänger, zweifach, reproduzieren, Verdoppelung, vermehren, fälschen, vervielfältigen, multiplizieren doubt: Zweifel, bezweifeln, zweifeln, Bedenken, anzweifeln doubted: zweifelte, angezweifelt doubtful: fraglich, zweifelhaft, unsicher doubtlessly: höchstwahrscheinlich, zweifellos, zweifellose doubts: Zweifel downstairs: unten, treppabwärts downwards: abwärts dozen: Dutzend drag: ziehen, zieht, ziehe, ziehst, schleppen, schleppst, schleppt, schleppe, nachschleppen, zerren, dreggen drain: entwässern, Abfluss, ablassen, Ablauf, drainieren, abfließen, abtropfen, Gully, leeren, ausstoßen, Abflußrohr drank: trank, getrunken drawer: Schublade, Lade, Zeichner, Schubfach, Aussteller, Trassant, Tischlade drawing: Zeichnend, Zeichnung, Ziehung, Ziehen, abzeichnend, malend, schöpfend, Verlosung, Auslosung drawing-room: Empfangsraum, Salon, Halle, Galerie, Foyer, Empfangsräume, Empfangszimmer drawled: dehnte, dehnten, dehntest, dehntet, gedehnt, sprach affektiert drawling: dehnend, affektiert draws: zeichnet, malt, zeichnet ab, schöpft dread: Furcht, fürchten, Scheu, angst, Ängstlichkeit, Bangigkeit, zurückschrecken, scheuen dreadful: schrecklich, furchtbar, grässlich, entsetzlich, fürchterlich, schauderhaft dreads: fürchtet dream: Traum, träumen, herbeisehnen, schwärmen, wähnen dreamed: träumte dreamer: Träumer, Phantast, Utopist dreaming: Träumend dreams: Träumt, Träume

drearily: düster, langweilig, trostlos, trostlose dreary: trostlos, düster, wüste, widerwärtig, trübe, öde, mismutig, garstig, dunkel, langweilig drenched: durchnässt dress: Kleid, anziehen, ankleiden, kleiden, bekleiden, verbinden, Kleidung, sichanziehen, das Kleid, Robe, anlegen dressed: kleidete, gekleidet, piekfein, korrekt, hübsch, gepflegt, schick, angezogen, angekleidet, angetan, elegant dressing: Verband, Soße, Ankleiden drew: zeichnetet, zeichnetest, zeichneten, zeichnete, malte, zeichnetest ab, malten, zeichnetet ab, zeichneten ab, zeichnete ab, maltest drifted: getrieben, trieb dahin drinking: Trinken, Trinkend driver: Fahrer, Treiber, Autofahrer, Chauffeur, Fuhrmann, Kraftfahrer, Kutscher, Mitnehmer, Steuermann, Lenker driving: fahrend, treibend, antreibend, fahren drop: Tropfen, Fallen, fallen lassen, Abfall, Schnaps, sickern, sausen, senken, sinken, aus Zink, zinken dropped: gefallen, abgeworfen drove: Fuhr, fuhrst, fuhren, fuhrt, trieben an, triebt an, triebt, triebst an, triebst, trieben, trieb an drown: ertrinken, ertrinkt, ertrinke, ertrinkst, ertränken, ertränkt, ertränke, ertränkst, ersaufen, versaufen drowning: ertrinkend, ertrinken, ertränkend drowsy: schläfrig, schlaftrunken, dumpf, schlaff, dösig, dumpfig, duselig, stumpfsinnig, verschlafen, betäubt drubbing: Verprügeln, Niederlage, Eine Tracht Prügel, Verprügelnd, Prügel drunk: betrunken, blau, getrunken, berauscht, trunken, stockbetrunken, sinnlos betrunken, schwer betrunken, stockbesoffen, besoffen, völlig betrunken drunkard: Säufer, Trinker drunken: betrunken, trunken dry: trocken, trocknen, dörren, austrocknen, abtrocknen, dürr, langweilig, kühl, gleichgültig, dorren, nüchtern due: fällig, schuldig, gebührend duel: Duell, Zweikampf duels: Duelle, Zweikämpfe

141 dull: stumpf, matt, stumpfsinnig, trübe, dumpf, glanzlos, schwach, dumm, trüb, langweilig, fade dusk: Dämmerung, Abenddämmerung, Zwielicht dust: Staub, abstauben, abklopfen, Abnehmen, abwischen, bestäuben, entstauben, Staub abklopfen, Staub abnehmen, abschlagen duties: Pflichten, Steuern dwarf: Zwerg, Bursche, Heinzelmännchen, sehr kleiner Mensch dying: Sterbend, krepierend, Absterben, Sterben, Hinscheiden eagerly: eifrig ear: Ohr, Ähre, das Ohr earnest: ernst, ernsthaft, gesetzt, feierlich, seriös, aufrichtig earning: verdienend, verdienen ears: Ohren earthly: irdisch, weltlich, erdhaft, terrestrisch earthquake: Erdbeben, Beben ease: Bequemlichkeit, Leichtigkeit, lindern, mildern easier: leichter easiest: leichteste eating: Essend, speisend eccentric: exzentrisch, Exzenter, ungewöhnlich, Exzentriker, fremd, fremdartig, kurios, merkwürdig, sonderbar, eigen, wunderlich eccentricity: Exzentrizität, Exentrizität, Überspanntheit echoed: widerhallt edifice: Gebäude edifices: Gebäude edifying: erbauend, erbaulich, fromm educate: erziehen, erziehst, erzieht, erziehe, bilden, ausbilden, bildet aus, bildet, unterrichten, bildest aus, bilden aus educated: gebildet, erzog, erzogen, erzogst, erzogt, bildete aus, bildetet, bildetest aus, bildetest, bildetet aus, bildeten eel: Aal effectually: wirksam efforts: Bemühungen, Kraftanstrengungen, Anstrengungen, Anstrengung egoist: Egoist eh: wie eighteen: achtzehn eighty: achtzig ejaculate: ausstoßen, stoßen aus, stoße aus, stößt aus, stoßt aus, ejakulieren, ejakuliere, ejakulierst, ejakuliert, abspritzen elderly: ältlich, bejahrt, älter, alten, senior, alt, Alte

142 elegantly: elegant element: Element, Fundament, Grundlage elements: Elemente, Anfangsgründe, Alphabet elevate: heben, hochheben, anhäufen, hebst hoch, hebst, heben hoch, hebe hoch, hebe, erhöhen, erheben, aufhöhen elevation: Erhebung, Erhöhung, Elevation, Erhabenheit eleven: elf elicited: entlocktest, hervorgelockt, entlocktet, entlockten, entlockte, entlockt embarrass: verwirren, verhindern, durcheinander bringen, jemanden verlegen machen embarrassed: verlegen, gehindert, unbehaglich, umbequem, verwirrte, lästig, betreten, unbequem, unangenehm embarrassing: peinlich, hindernd, genant, unangenhem embarrassment: Verlegenheit, Geniertheit, Lästiges, Scham, Scheu, Schüchternheit, Zaghaftigkeit, Hemmnis embittered: verbittert, verbitterten, verbittertest, verbittertet, verbitterte, wild, wüst, wütend, grimmig, tüchtig, tobend embrace: umarmen, Umarmung, umfassen, umschlingen embraced: umarmte emergency: Notfall, Notstand, Notlage, dringende Fall, Krisis, Krise, Not, Dringlichkeitsfall emotion: Rührung, Gefühl, Ergriffenheit, Bewegung, Gemütserregung, Emotion, Empfindung, Bewogenheit emotions: Gefühle, Emotionen emphasis: Betonung, Nachdruck, Emphase, Akzent, Begeisterung, Hauptton, Hervorhebung, Schwerpunkt, Schwung emphatically: nachdrücklich, ausdrücklich empty: leer, entleeren, inhaltslos, ausleeren, unausgefüllt, unbesetzt, ohne Inhalt, offen, leeren, ledig, hohl enable: aktivieren, aktiviere, aktivierst, aktiviert, ermöglichen encompassed: umgab, umfaßt, umgaben, umgabt, umfaßte, umfaßten, umfaßtest, umfaßtet, umgabst, umgeben encyclopaedic: enzyklopädisch ended: beendet, endete, zu Ende sein endowed: ausgestattet, dotiertest, dotiert, dotiertet, dotierte, stattetest

Notes from Underground aus, statteten aus, dotierten, stattete aus, stattetet aus ends: enden, endet endurance: Ausdauer, Dauer, Standhaftigkeit endure: ertragen, ertragt, ertrage, erträgst, aushalten, halte aus, halten aus, haltet aus, hältst aus, erdulden, erleiden endured: ertragen, ertrug, ertrugen, ertrugst, ertrugt, hieltet aus, ausgehalten, hielt aus, hielten aus, hieltest aus, erduldetet endures: erträgt, hält aus, erduldet, erleidet, steht aus enduring: ertragend, aushaltend, erleidend, erduldend, andauernd, ausstehend, bleibend, dauerhaft enemies: Feinde enemy: Feind, Feindlich engage: einlegen, engagieren, lege ein, legt ein, legst ein, legen ein, engagiert, engagierst, engagiere, belegen, einstellen engaged: besetzt, beschäftigt, legte ein, legtet ein, legtest ein, engagierte, sich befassen, sich beschäftigen, engagierten, engagiertest, legten ein engineering: Ingenieurwesen, Technik, Maschinenbau, Technisch enjoyment: Genuß enjoyments: Freuden, Gefallen, Genüsse enlightened: erleuchtetet, erleuchtetest, erleuchteten, erleuchtete, erleuchtet, Aufgeklärt ennui: Langeweile enormous: enorme, enorm, riesig, gewaltig, ungeheuer, gigantisch, groß, kapital, kolossal, sehr groß, titanisch enter: eintreten, tretet ein, treten ein, trete ein, tritt ein, trittst ein, hereinkommen, komme herein, kommen herein, kommst herein, kommt herein entered: tratet ein, trat ein, traten ein, eingetreten, tratest ein, kamt herein, kamst herein, kamen herein, hereingekommen, kam herein, trugen ein entering: eintretend, hereinkommend, hineingehend, eintragend, Hineingehen, betretend, buchend, Eindringen, eingehend, einsteigend, einlaufend enthusiasm: Begeisterung, Enthusiasmus, Fröhlichkeit, Entzücken enthusiasms: Begeisterungen entrance: Eingang, Eintritt, Einfahrt,

Entzücken, Zugang, Einsprungstelle, Einstieg, Tür, der Eingang entreat: ersuchst, flehst an, flehen an, fleht an, ersucht, ersuche, bitten inständig, anflehen, flehe an, ersuchen envied: beneidet, beneidete, beneideten, beneidetest, beneidetet envious: neidisch, eifersüchtig, haßerfüllt envy: Neid, beneiden, beneidest, beneide, beneidet, Mißgunst, Jalousie, Haß, Eifersucht envying: beneidend, mißgönnend epaulettes: Schulterstücke equable: gleichmäßig equal: gleich, entsprechen, ebenbürtig, egal, Gegenstück, Gleiche, paritätisch eradicate: ausrotten, rotte aus, rottet aus, rottest aus, rotten aus, ausreißen, entwurzeln ere: bevor, ehe error: Fehler, Irrtum, Versehen, Schnitzer, Fehlschlag, Falschheit escape: entweichen, Flucht, entkommen, entfliehen, ausbrechen, Ausbruch, entwischen, fliehen, entgehen, durchbrennen, davoneilen essence: Essenz, Wesen, Kern, Substanz, Wesentlichste, Zentrum establishments: Einrichtungen estate: Gut, Grundbesitz, Landgut, Nachlaß, Besitz, Besitztum, Besitzung, Gutshof, Anwesen, Bauernhof, Hinterlassenschaft eternal: ewig, endlos eternally: ewig, ewiglich evaporate: verdunsten, verdunstest, verdunstet, verdunste, verdampfen, sich verflüchtigen, rauchen, qualmen, dampfen, dunsten, verfliegen evasion: Umgehung, Ausweichen, Hinterziehung evenings: Abende everlasting: unaufhörlich, ewig, unvergänglich, anhaltend, fortwährend, Immerwährend, konstant, kontinuierlich, unabgebrochen, unablässig, unendlich everybody: jeder, jedermann, aller, alle, jedes, jeglicher, jede, einjeder, ein jeder everyday: alltäglich, täglich, vulgär, verständlich, üblich everywhere: überall, allenthalben, allerorten, irgendwo, allerorts evident: offensichtlich, augenscheinlich, einleuchtend, klar,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky gläsern, das ist klar wie Klosbrühe, evident, ersichtlich, erkennbar, eindeutig, derb evidently: offensichtlich, augenscheinlich evil: Übel, böse, schlecht, schlimm, boshaft exactitude: Genauigkeit, Exaktheit, Akkuratesse, Korrektheit, Gewissenhaftigkeit, Aufmerksamkeit exaggerate: übertreiben, übertreibst, übertreibt, übertreibe, aufbauschen, bauschst auf, bauscht auf, bauschen auf, bausche auf, aufblasen, andicken exaggerated: übertriebst, übertrieb, übertrieben, übertriebt, bauschte auf, bauschten auf, bauschtest auf, bauschtet auf, aufgebauscht, hyperbolisch, übertreibend exaggerating: übertreibend, aufbauschend, übertreiben exalted: erhoben, verherrlichte, erhaben examined: prüfte, geprüft, prüftet, prüften, prüftest, überprüftet, überprüft, überprüfte, überprüften, überprüftest, kontrollierte exasperated: ärgerte, haßerfüllt, verbittert exasperating: ärgerlich, quälend exceedingly: außerordentlich, äußerst, überaus, ungewöhnlich, merkwürdig, ungemein, unüblich, speziell, sonderbar, selten, schlimmst excellency: Exzellenz, Hoheit, Majestät, Eminenz, Erlaucht except: ausgenommen, außer, ausschließen, ausnehmen, unter Ausschluß von, aussperren, ausgeschloßen exception: Ausnahme, Ausschluß exchanged: umgetauscht, ausgewechselt, tauschte um excise: Verbrauchssteuer, Akzise excite: erregen, errege, aufregen, erregst, erregt, anregen, reizen, anreizen, aufreizen, den Hof machen, ermutigen excited: aufgeregt, erregte, erregten, erregtest, erregtet, erregt, angeregt, gereizt excitement: Erregung, Aufregung, Anregung exciting: aufregend, spannend, erregend, ergreifend, nerverzerreißend, fesselnd, interessant, packend, uneterhaltsam, eindrucksvoll exclamations: Ausrufe

excuse: entschuldigen, Entschuldigung, Ausrede, Ausflucht, verzeihen, Verzeihung, Pardon exercises: Übungen exhausted: erschöpft, gerädert, abgehetzt, schachmatt, ausgebraucht exhortation: Ermahnung, Zuspruch exist: existieren, existiert, bestehen, existiere, existierst, bestehe, bestehst, besteht, leben, vorhanden sein, fortbestehen existed: existierte, existierten, existiertest, existiertet, existiert, bestanden, bestandet, bestandst, bestand existence: Existenz, Dasein, Leben, Bestehen, Vorhandensein, Sein, Fortbestehen, Lebenswandel exists: existiert, besteht expand: erweitern, erweitre, erweiterst, erweitere, erweitert, ausdehnen, dehnt aus, expandieren, dehne aus, dehnst aus, dehnen aus expectation: Erwartung, Erwartungswert, Anwartschaft expecting: erwartend expense: Ausgabe, Aufwand, Geldausgabe, Aufwendung expensive: teuer, kostspielig, lieb, hold, kostbar, wert experienced: erfahren, bewandert, geübt, geschult, routiniert, kundig, gewiegt, gewandt, qualifiziert experiment: Versuch, Experiment, experimentieren, Versuche machen, Test experiments: Experimente explained: erklärtet, erklärt, erklärte, erklärten, erklärtest, erläutert, erläutertet, erläutertest, erläuterte, erläuterten, dargelegt explaining: erklärend, erläuternd, darlegend, auseinandersetzend explains: erklärt, erläutert, legt dar, setzt auseinander explanation: Erklärung, Aufklärung, Erläuterung, Aufschluß, Informationen, Kommentar, Meinungsbericht, Reportage, genauere Auslegung, Aufklärungen, Aufschlüsse explanations: Erklärungen explosion: Explosion expose: belichten, belichte, belichtest, belichtet, bloßlegen, enttarnen, unterwerfen, legt bloß, legst bloß, legen bloß, lege bloß expound: erklären, erläutern, erklärt, erklärst, erkläre express: ausdrücken, drückt aus, drückst aus, drücken aus, drücke

143 aus, Express, bekunden, äußern, äußre, bekundet, bekundest expressed: drücktest aus, ausgedrückt, drückten aus, drückte aus, drücktet aus, äußerte, bekundetet, bekundetest, bekundeten, bekundete, bekundet expressing: ausdrückend, äußernd, bekundend expressive: ausdrucksvoll, expressiv, sprechend expressly: ausdrücklich, schnellstens exquisitely: vorzüglich exterminated: ausgerottet, rottetet aus, rottetest aus, rotteten aus, rottete aus, vertilgtet, vertilgtest, vertilgten, vertilgte, vertilgt external: extern, äußerlich, außen, von außen her, außerbetrieblich extracting: auswahl, extrahieren extraordinarily: außerordentlich, ungemein extraordinary: außerordentlich, außergewöhnlich extreme: Extrem, äußerst, außergewöhnlich, übermäßig, auffällig, extravagant, einzigartig, besonder, bemerkenswert, äußerster, Äußerste extricate: befreien, befreie, befreist, befreit exuberant: üppig, überschwänglich, ausgelassen, überschäumend, fröhlich exuded: strahlte aus eyebrows: Augenbrauen faces: Gesichter facing: Verkleidung, Verblendung, Überzug, Belag, Außenschicht facts: Tatsachen faculty: Fakultät, Fähigkeit fail: scheitern, versagen, durchfallen, mißraten, mißlingen, unterlassen, mißglücken failed: misslungen, scheiterte, durchgefallen fails: scheitert, Versagt faint: Schwach, matt, ohnmächtig werden, in Ohnmacht fallen, Ohnmacht, flau, hinfällig, lustlos, lahm, gelinde, kränklich fainting: ermattend fair: Messe, gerecht, blond, Jahrmarkt, schön, billig, angemessen, ehrlich, Markt, Kirchweih, anständig faith: Glaube, Vertrauen, Zuversicht, Glauben falling: fallend, fällend, absinkend, abstürzend falls: Fällt, Abstürze, stürzt ab, sinkt ab

144 false: falsch, unwahr, unaufrichtig, unrichtig, fehlerhaft, hinterhältig, unrecht, schief, unzutreffend, ungenau, tückisch familiar: vertraut, familiär, geläufig, gewohnt, bekannt, solide, zuverlässig, solvabel, glaubwürdig, glaubhaft, vertraulich fancied: wähnte fancies: Phantasien, wähnt fancy: Phantasie, sich einbilden, Laune, wähnen, lecker finden, träumen, erdichten, sich vorstellen, mögen, gerne essen, gerne trinken fancying: wähnend fantastic: phantastisch, fantastische, fantastisch, imposant, imponierend, hervorragend, großartige, großartig, grandios, gewaltig, überwältigend fantastically: phantastisch far-away: abgelegen, entlegen, weitentfernt farce: Posse farewell: Lebewohl, Abschied, Lebe wohl, Adieu, auf Wiedersehen, Valet farthing: der Viertelpenny, Heller fascinating: faszinierend, fesselnd, vollständig, gründlich, integral, integrierend, interessant, komplett, spannend, vollkommen, gesamt fashion: Mode, Weise, Trend, Tendenz, Neigung, Methode, Art, Art und weise fast: schnell, fasten, geschwind, fest, rasch, widerstandsfähig, gediegen, hurtig, feststehend, schleunig, hastig fasten: befestigen, befestigst, befestigt, befestige, fixieren, verriegeln, festsetzen, anschließen, zuriegeln fastened: befestigten, befestigtest, befestigte, befestigt, befestigtet fastidiousness: Verwöhntheit fat: fett, dick, feist, fettig, Fetteile, Fetteilchen, wohlbeleibt, geil, Öl, Schmalz, Schmiere fatal: tödlich, fatal, unheilvoll fate: Schicksal, Verhängnis, Geschick, Los, Bestimmung, Fügung, Los des Lebens fatherland: Vaterland, Heimat fathers: Väter, Männlicher Elternteil fault: Fehler, Verwerfung, Störung, Vergehen, Schuld, Übel, Bruch favour: Gunst, Gefälligkeit, Gefallen, begünstigen, bevorzugen, Huld, Gnade, jemand begunstigen, Schenkung, Dienst, Sold favoured: bevorzugt, begünstigt, geliebt, privilegiert, gewollt, gesucht, beliebt, angenehm, gefragt

Notes from Underground fearfully: ängstlich, furchtsam, furchtbar feather: Feder fed: ernährte, ernährtest, ernährten, fütterte, fütterten, ernährtet, füttertest, füttertet, Gefüttert, gespeist, speistet feeding: speisend, fütternd, ernährend, Ernährung, fressend, Zuführung, Fütterung, weidend, Essen, Fressen, Nahrung feelings: Gefühle, Gefühlen, Stimmungen feels: fühlt, befühlt, empfindet, betastet feigned: geheuchelt, vorgeblich, heuchelten, unnatürlich, unecht, künstlich, heuchlerisch, gekünstelt, heucheltet, heucheltest, vorgeschützt felled: fällte fellow: Gefährte, Kamerad, Mann, Kerl, Herr, Subjekt fellows: Gefährten, Kameraden, Kollegen fetch: holen, bringen, holst, hole, bringt, Abruf, bringe, bringst, holt, eintragen, heranbringen feud: Fehde, Feindschaft, Animosität, Feindseligkeit fever: Fieber, das Fieber feverish: fieberhaft, fiebrig, hitzig, fiebernd, fieberig, erhitzt feverishly: fieberhaft, fieberig fifteen: fünfzehn fight: Kampf, kämpfen, Streit, streiten, Getratsch, Geseire, Rauferei, Gequengel, Genörgel, Gezänk, Schlacht fighting: Kampf, Kämpfen, Streiten, streitend fill: füllen, ausfüllen, erfüllen, plombieren, abfüllen, Füllung, gießen, Fülle, vollschütten, vollschenken, vollpumpen filled: gefüllt, abgefüllt, füllte filth: Schmutz, Dreck, Schweinerei filthiest: schmutzigste filthiness: Schmutzigkeit filthy: schmutzig, dreckig, widerlich, scheußlich, schmierig, abgestanden, abscheuerregend, abscheulich, ekelerregend, ekelhaft, eklig finding: gründend, Finden, Fund finds: gründet, findet finger: Finger, Befühlen, tasten, fühlen, abtasten fingers: Finger, die Finger finish: beenden, beendet, beende, beendest, enden, endet, endest, ende, erledigen, ausarbeiten, Schluß fired: gefeuert

firmly: fest fist: Faust, Fäustchen fit: anpassen, Anfall, Sitz, gesund, tauglich, Anwandlung, geeignet, adaptieren, inbesterForm, glühend, passend fitted: zugeschnitten, tailliert fitting: passend, Fitting, konform, gehörig, gleich, anliegend, Anprobe, entsprechend fix: befestigen, befestigt, befestige, befestigst, reparieren, fixieren, festsetzen, fixiere, anberaumen, setze fest, setzt fest fixed: fest, befestigt, festgelegt, befestigtet, befestigtest, befestigte, befestigten, fix, repariert, fixiert, fixierte fixedly: starr, unbeweglich, bestimmt, unverwandt fixing: Befestigend, festsetzend, Befestigung, Fixierend, reparierend flagrant: schamlos, abscheulich flakes: flocken flame: Flamme, Flammen flamed: aufgeflammt, gemasert, maserig flared: flackerte, geflackert flashed: leuchtete auf, aufgeblitzt flat: flach, platt, Wohnung, eben, schal, glatt, Mietwohnung, Kulisse, Etagenwohnung, Appartement, geplatzteReifen flats: Flächen flattered: geschmeichelt, schmeicheltet, schmeicheltest, schmeichelte, schmeichelten flattering: schmeichelnd, schmeichelhaft, schönschwätzer, schmeichelei, schöntuerei flaxen: flachsartig, flachsblond, hellblond, blond flew: flog, flogst, flogt, flogen flicked: schlug flicker: flimmern, Flackern flies: Fliegt flights: Flüge fling: schleudern, werfen, schmeißen, schlingen, schwingen, pfeffern flinging: werfend, schleudern, schleudernd flings: schleudert, wirft flitting: flirtend, flitzend, tändelnd, wandernd flog: peitschen, peitschst, stäupen, peitsche, peitscht flogged: peitschtet, peitschten, peitschte, gepeitscht, peitschtest flood: flut, überfluten, Überschwemmung, überschwemmen, Hochwasser, Überflutung, Zufluß, überströmen,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky ersaufen, überschütten, überlaufen flourish: blühen, blühst, blüht, blühe, gedeihen, Schnörkel, Tusch, florieren, floriert, florierst, floriere flourishes: blüht, floriert flowed: geflossen flower: Blume, blühen, Blüte, die Blume flowery: blumig flung: geschleudert flunkey: der Lakai, Lakai flushed: scheuchte auf, errötet, durchflutet, ausgespült fly: fliegen, fliegst, fliegt, fliege, auflassen, mit das Flugzeug reisen, huschen, steigenlassen, Flug flying: fliegend, Fliegen foam: Schaum, Schäumen, Gischt, Seifenblasen folded: gefaltet, umgeklapt folk: Leute, Volk folly: Torheit, Verrücktheit, Dummheit, Verblendung, Unsinn, Narrheit, Flause, Betörung fond: zärtlich, verliebt, liebevoll fool: Narr, Dummkopf, Tor, narren, Idiot, Schwachsinnige, neppen, mystifizieren, irreführen, hinters Licht führen, Irrsinnige foolish: dumm, albern, töricht, unklug, närrisch, idiotisch, verrückt, einfältig, blödsinnig, blöde foolishness: Dummheit, Torheit, Idiotie, Kinderei, Kindlichkeit, Kleinigkeit, Naivität, Narrheit, Gutgläubigkeit, Schlichtheit, Unschuld fools: narren, Dummköpfe footing: Fundament footsteps: Schritte, Tritte, Fußstapfen forced: erzwungen, gezwungen foreboding: Ahnend, Vorahnung forehead: Stirn, die Stirn foremost: vorderst, erst, führend, vor allen, tonangebend, leitend, davor forgave: verziehst, verziehen, verzieh, verzieht, vergaben, vergabst, vergabt, vergab forget: vergessen, vergiß, vergeßt, vergißt, vergesse, verlernen forgetting: vergessend forgive: verzeihen, verzeiht, verzeihst, verzeihe, vergeben, vergibst, vergib, vergebt, vergebe, entschuldigen, verzeihung gewären forgiven: verziehen, vergeben forgiveness: Verzeihung, Vergebung, Gnade, Erbarmen forgot: vergaßt, vergass, vergaßen, vergaßest, vergessen forgotten: vergessen forlorn: verlassen, einsam, verloren,

öde, vereinsamt forming: bildend, Formung, Bildung formula: Formel formulas: Formeln fortnight: Vierzehn Tage forty: vierzig fought: bekämpft foul: schmutzig, Faul, regelwidrig, widerlich, falsch spielen foulness: die Verdorbenheit, Schmutz, die Gemeinheit, der Schmutz, Schmutzigkeit foundation: Fundament, Gründung, Grundlage, Stiftung, Fundierung, Grund, Begründung, Boden, Basis, Grundierung, das Fundament foundations: Grundlagen, Fundierung, Stützpfeiler, Untergründe, Pfeiler fourteen: vierzehn fourth: vierte, Viertel, vierter, viertes freedom: Freiheit, die Freiheit, Ungebundenheit, Unabhängigkeit, Selbständigkeit frenzied: wahnsinnig, rasend frenzy: Wahnsinn, Ekstase, Raserei, Zügellosigkeit, Unbändigkeit frequently: oft, häufig freshness: Frische fretting: anfressend friendly: freundlich, freundschaftlich, befreundet, freundliche friendship: Freundschaft, Kameradschaft fright: Schreck, Entsetzen, Schrecken, Bestürztheit, Angst, Bestürzung, Furcht, Abscheu frightened: erschrocken, erschrakt, erschrakst, erschraken, erschrak, schüchterte ein, schüchtertest ein, eingeschüchtert, schüchterten ein, schüchtertet ein, geängstigt frightfully: schrecklich frippery: Plunder, Flitter, der Firlefanz, der Flitterkram frivolous: frivol, leichtfertig, leichtsinnig, unseriös, waaghalsig, unbesonnen, eitel, hinfällig frost: Frost, Eisbildung frowned: die Stirn gerunzelt frowning: missbilligend, die Stirne runzelnd, kraus frugal: genügsam, einfach, sparsam, nicht vollwertig fruit: Frucht, Obst, Früchte, das Obst fumbling: umhertastend, fummelnd, linkisch, tastend fume: Rauch, Dunst, Ausdünstung, rauchen, dampf fumes: Raucht, Räuchert fundamental: grundlegend,

145 fundamental, grundsätzlich, wesentlich, triftig, prinzipiell, gründlich, Grundlage, Basisabkommen, elementar funeral: Begräbnis, Beerdigung, Beisetzung, Bestattung funny: komisch, lustig, drollig, spaßig, amüsant, spaßhaft, witzig, gelungen, hübsch, reizend, unterhaltend furious: wütend, rasend, grimmig, toll, wild, stürmisch, sehr böse, sauer, fuchsteufelswild, wüst, erzürnt furnished: möbliert, möblierte, möblierten, möbliertest, möbliertet, statteten aus, stattetest aus, ausgestattet, stattete aus, stattetet aus furtively: verstohlen fury: Wut, Furie, Raserei, Zorn, Tobsucht, Verrücktheit, Grimmigkeit, Koller fuss: Getue, Lärm, Mischmasch, Schnickschnack, Treiben, Trubel, Unsin, Krakeel, Betrieb, Tumult, Hektik fussing: aufregung, betulich, machen verrückt, sich aufregen, getue fussy: heikel, wählerisch, pingelig, umständlich gain: gewinn, gewinnen, Verstärkung, Vorteil, erringen, bekommen, Nutzen, erreichen, Interesse, Ertrag, Neuanschaffung games: Spiele, Spiel, Satz, Match, Kampf, Wetttkamp, Partie gasp: Keuchen, schnaufen gasping: keuchend, keuchen, geröchel gathered: sammelte, versammelte gathering: Versammlung, Sammeln, Erfassung, Zusammenkunft, Schwarm, Einholen, Einziehen, Zusammensein, Gewühl, Masse, Menge gaudy: grell, farbenprächtig, aufpoliert gay: fröhlich, heiter, schwul, lustig, vergnügt, homosexuell, munter, Schwule, euphorisch, strahlend, wohlgemut gazed: gestarrt, starrte an gazing: starr, anstarrend generalised: Verallgemeinert generals: Generäle generation: Generation, Erzeugung, Geschlecht generations: Generationen genius: Genie, Genius, Genialer Kopf, Besonders heller Kopf, Genialität, Pionierkorps

146 gentle: sanft, mild, sanftmütig, leise, zahm, nicht nachtragend, duldsam, samtartig, tolerant, milde, süß gentleman: Herr, Ehrenmann gentlemanly: weltmännisch, vornehm, gebildet gentlemen: Ehrenmänner, Herren gentry: die Leute, Pack, Niederer Adel, Leute, der Adel, Nieder Adel genuine: echt, authentisch, unverfälscht, wahr, wirklich, in der Tat, aufrecht, das stimmt, allerdings, ehrlich, einfach genuinely: echt, wirklich, wahrlich, wahrhaftig, fürwahr, tatsächlich germans: Deutsche giddy: schwindlig, schwindelnd gifts: Geschenke giggling: kichernd, Gekicher, gelach gist: Hauptpunkt, Essenz, Wesentliches, Wesen glad: froh, erfreut, freudig gladly: gern, gerne, froh, mit Vergnügen glance: blicken, Augenaufschlag, Augenaufschläge, Augenblicke glanced: blickte glancing: blickend, überblicken glaring: grell, kraß, scharf, spitz, schroff, schrill, schreiend, hell, grell beleuchtet, anblitzend glasses: Brille, die Brille, Augengläser glassful: Glasvoll gleamed: glänzte, schimmerte gleaming: Glänzend, schimmernd, durchschimmernd glimmer: Schimmern, Schimmer, Glimmen, Blinken, Dämmern, Flimmern glimpse: Blick, flüchtiger Eindruck glimpses: Blicke, Erblickt flüchtig gloated: freute sich hämisch globe: Globus, Kugel, Erdkugel, Erdball, Weltkugel, Rollengabel, Leuchtenglocke gloomy: düster, finster, dunkel, schwermütig, launisch, verdrießlich, übellaunig, trübsinnig, trübselig, schlechtgelaunt, bedrückt gloves: Handschuhe glowing: glühend glutton: Vielfraß, Freßsack, Fresser, Nimmersatt gnashing: knirschend gnawing: nagend, nagen goal: Ziel, Tor, Zielpunkt, Zweck, Anstoß, Treffer, Torschuß, Abstoß gold: Gold, Golden, das Gold golden: golden, farbedesGoldes, goldblond, goldglanz, goldfarbig, goldfarben good-bye: Abschied

Notes from Underground good-humoured: gutgelaunt, gutgesinnt, wohlgesinnt good-looking: gutaussehend, hübsch good-natured: angenehm, attent, behilflich, bereitwillig, dienstbereit, dienstfertig, entgegenkommend, erfreulich, freundlich, freundschaftlich, gefällig goodness: Güte, Tugend grace: Gnade, Anmut, Zieren, Grazie, Wohltätigkeit, Wohltat, Verzieren, Liebeswerk, Schmücken graceful: graziös, anmutig, zierlich, hold, elegant, würdevoll, verschmitzt, reizend, lieblich, schick, entzückend graces: Anmut graciously: gnädig, gütig grain: Korn, Getreide, Gran, Maserung, Körnchen, Nerv, Gefühl, Samenkorn, Nerven grand: großartig, gewaltig, gross, grandios, ansehnlich, prachtvoll grant: bewilligen, Bewilligung, gewähren, Subvention, Unterstützung, Zuschuss, gestatten, Beihilfe granted: gewährt grasp: greifen, Griff, ergreifen, Verständnis, Stich, Nehmen, angreifen gratification: Genugtuung, Freude, Befriedigung, Zufriedenstellung, Genuß gratified: befriedigtest, befriedigtet, befriedigten, befriedigte, befriedigt gratitude: Dankbarkeit, Dank, Erkenntlichkeit, Danken, Würdigung, Achtung, Anerkenntnis, Anerkennung, Bewertung, Erkennung, Erkenntnis grave: Grab, ernst, Gruft, gemütlich, gewichtig, kritisch, schlicht, sittsam, gemäßigt, schlimm, bedeckt gravediggers: Totengräber gravely: ernst, ernstlich, schwerlich graves: Gräber greasy: fettig, schmierig, fett, geil, schmuddelig, schlüpfrig, schweinisch, schmutzig, schmalzig, fettähnlich, feist greatest: besten, größte greatly: großartig, höchst, aufs höchste, außerordentlich, sehr, äußerste greet: grüßen, grüßt, grüße, grüßst, begrüßen, begrüßst, begrüßt, begrüße, willkommen heissen, salutieren greeted: grüßtet, gegrüßt, grüßte, grüßten, grüßtest, begrüßt, begrüßte, begrüßten, begrüßtest,

begrüßtet greeting: Gruß, Begrüßung, Grüßend, begrüßend grew: wuchst, wuchs, wuchsen, wuchsest, wuchs an, wuchst an, wuchsest an, wuchsen an grey-headed: grauhaarig grief: Gram, Kummer, Betrübnis, Trauer, Verdruß, Weh, Harm, Ärger, Bekümmernis, Griesgram, Verdrießlichkeit grim: grimmig, verbissen, verkniffen, hart grimace: Fratze, Grimasse, Grimassen machen, Grinsen, Feixen grin: Grinsen, Lächeln, Grimasse grind: schleifen, mahlen, knirschen, feinmahlen, zermahlen, fletschen, abschleifen grinding: Schleifen, Reibend, Mahlen, Zähneknirschend, Geknirsch gripped: gegriffen grossly: gröblich grounds: Gelände, Sportplätze, Böden grovel: kriechen grow: wachsen, wächst, wachst, wachse, werden, anwachsen, wachsen an, vorkommen, wächst an, wachst an, wachse an grown: gewachsen, angewachsen grumbling: murrend, unwirsch, verdrießlich, kribbelig, Klagen, mürrisch, nörglerisch, sauertöpfisch, Schimpferei, Stöhnen, knurrig guaranteed: garantiert guaranteeing: garantierend guards: abwarten, warten guess: raten, Vermutung, erraten, vermuten, Mutmaßung, enträtseln, voraussetzen, Schätzung, schätzen guessed: geraten, vermutete guffaw: Schallendes Gelächter guilty: schuldig, schuldbewusst ha: prevailing opinion, ha habit: Gewohnheit, Angewohnheit, Gebrauch, Kutte, Gewand, Gepflogenheit, Usus, Anwendung, Kirchengewand, Verwendung, Benutzung habits: Gewohnheiten habitual: gewohnheitsmäßig, gewohnt, habituell, gewohnte hackneyed: abgedroschen, banal halcyon: Eisvogel halfway: halbwegs, halb, auf halbem Wege, mittendrin hampered: hinderte, behindert handkerchief: Taschentuch, Schnupftuch handsome: hübsch, gutaussehend, schön, stattlich, ansehnlich, fiffig,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky gescheit, geschickt, schlau, gut aussehend, pfiffig hang: hängen, aufhängen, erhängen, henken, anhängen hanging: Hängen, Hängend happening: geschehend, passierend, Ereignis, stattfindend happens: geschieht, passiert happily: glücklicherweise, glücklich, erfreulicherweise, fröhlich happiness: Glück, Fröhlichkeit harassed: schikaniert, schikaniertest, schikanierten, schikaniertet, schikanierte, belästigtet, belästigtest, belästigten, belästigte, belästigt, geplagt harassing: schikanierend, belästigend, plagend harder: Härter hardest: härteste harm: Schaden, beeinträchtigen, verletzen, düpieren, schwächen, schädigen, Leid, jemandem schaden, benachteiligen harmful: schädlich, abträglich, schändlich harmless: harmlos, ungefährlich harmony: Harmonie, Eintracht, Die Harmonie, Wohlklang harsh: herb, rau, barsch, adstringierend, grob, hart, unwirsch, brummig, brutal, zusammenziehend, schroff harshly: herb haste: Eile, Hast, Geschwindigkeit hastened: geeilt, eilte, eilten, eiltest, eiltet hat: Hut, der Hut, Hütchen hate: hassen, Hass, Feindschaft hated: gehaßt, verhaßt, unbeliebt hateful: verhasst, abscheulich hating: hassend hatred: Hass haunted: verfolgte haunting: verfolgend haunts: verfolgt hazel: Haselnußstrauch, Hasel, nußbraun, Haselnußsträucher headlong: kopfüber heads: Köpfe healthy: gesund, heil, gesundheitsförderlich heap: Haufen, Menge, Stapel, Häufen, Überschütten, Überhäufen, Stoß, Häufung, Ansammlung, Masse, Aufstapeln hearing: hörend, Gehör, Hören, Anhörung, Hearing, Gehörsinn, Gesetzhörung, erfahrend, vernehmend heartlessly: herzlos hearts: Herzen

heavenly: himmlisch, formidabel, köstlich, hervorragend, göttlich, vorzüglich, ausgezeichnet, auserlesen, vortrefflich, herrlich heavens: Himmel heavily: schwer, schwerlich heels: Absätze, Fersen, Hacken, Schuhabsätze height: Höhe, Größe, Gipfel, Anhöhe, Ausmaß hell: Hölle, Inferno, Finsternis, Dschehenna helped: half, geholfen hero: Held, Heroe, Heros heroine: Heldin hesitation: Zögern, Unschlüssigkeit, Schwanken, Schwankung, Unentschlossenheit, Bedenken, Verzögerung, Zweifel, Zwiespalt hid: verstecktet, verstecktest, versteckten, versteckte, verheimlichtet, verhehlten, verhehlte, verhehltest, verhehltet, verheimlichte, verheimlichten hidden: versteckt, verborgen, verhehlt, verheimlicht, geborgen, heimlich hide: verstecken, verstecke, versteckst, versteckt, verbergen, Fell, verhehlen, verheimlichen, verhehle, bergen, verhehlst hideous: scheußlich, abscheulich, gräßlich, häßlich, widerlich, grundhäßlich, garstig, abscheuerregend hiding: versteckend, verhehlend, Verheimlichend, bergend highest: höchste hint: Hinweis, Andeutung, Tipp, durchschimmern, anspielen auf, anspielen, durchscheinen hinting: anspielend, andeuten hires: mietet, heuert, dingt, Entgelte hissed: gezischt historian: Historiker, Geschichtsforscher, Geschichtswissenschaftler, Geschichtsschreiber hitting: Hinschlagend, Schlagen, Drücken, Schlagend holding: haltend, halten, Besitz, Abhalten hole: Loch, Delle, Vertiefung, Bohrung, Defektelektron, Graben holes: Löcher holidays: Ferien, Urlaub, Festtage holier: heiliger hollow: hohl, höhle, Hohlraum holy: heilig homes: Heime honest: ehrlich, aufrichtig, anständig, redlich, bieder, rechtschaffen, fidel,

147 honett, ehrenwerte, brav honestly: ehrlich, ehrenvoll honesty: Ehrlichkeit, Redlichkeit, Aufrichtigkeit honour: Ehre, ehren, beehren, verehren, Ehrung, Gewinn, Ehrerbietung erweisen, achten, hochachten, Aufwendung, huldigen honourable: ehrenwert, ansehnlich, respektabel, rechtschaffen, honorabel, ehrwürdig, ehrenvoll, ehrenhaft, aufrichtig, achtenswert, achtbar hopelessness: Hoffnungslosigkeit hoping: hoffend horns: Hörner, Geweih horrible: entsetzlich, schrecklich, gräßlich, abscheulich, furchtbar, grausig, fürchterlich, garstig, widerwärtig, unheimlich, unangenehm horribly: entsetzlich horrid: schrecklich, fürchterlich, entsetzlich, grauenvoll horror: Gräuel, Abscheu, Horror, Schrecken, Spinnkopf, Spuck hostility: Feindseligkeit, Feindschaft, Feindlichkeit, Anfeindung, Groll hotly: heiß hovering: schwebend humanity: Menschlichkeit, Menschheit, Humanität, Menschenfreundlichkeit humble: demütig, bescheiden, einfach, unterwürfig, niedrig, kleinlaut, gering humiliate: erniedrigen, demütigen, erniedrigt, demütige, demütigst, demütigt, erniedrigst, erniedrige humiliated: erniedrigt, gedemütigt, erniedrigtet, erniedrigtest, erniedrigte, demütigtet, demütigtest, demütigten, demütigte, erniedrigten humiliating: demütigend, erniedrigend, menschenunwürdig humiliation: Erniedrigung, Demütigung, Beschämung humiliations: Beschämungen, Erniedrigung, Erniedrigungen humours: humore humpback: der Rundrücken, Ein Buckeliger, die Buckelige, der Buckelige, Bucklige, Buckel, Buckelige hundreds: Hunderte hundredth: hundertste, hundertstel hungry: hungrig hurrah: hurra hurriedly: eilig hurry: eilen, Eile, sich beeilen, beeilen, sputen, hast, Tempo

148 machen, pressieren, schnell, jagen, hasten hurrying: eilend, Gehetz, beeilend, Gelaufe, Gerenne, Hetzerei, spornstreichs hurt: verletzen, schmerzen, schaden, verwunden, sichverwunden, jemandem Schmerzen zufügen, wehe tun, Schmerz tun, Schmähung, schädigen, Schmerz verursachen husbands: Ehemänner hush: still hussar: Husar hussy: Flittchen, Kindchen, Wicht, Kind hysteria: Hysterie hysterical: hysterisch hysterics: Hysterie ice: Eis, Speiseeis, Sahneeis, Gefrorene, Gefrorenes, Glasieren ideal: Ideal, vorbildlich, Wunschbild, musterhaft, Musterbild, ausgesucht, Hochziel ideals: Ideale idiots: Idioten idle: faul, untätig, nutzlos, Leerlauf, nicht belegt, müßig, leerlaufen, freilaufen, träge, unbeschäftigt, arbeitsscheu idleness: Untätigkeit, Trägheit, Faulheit, Nutzlosigkeit, Müßiggang idyllic: idyllisch ignoble: unehrenhaft ignominious: schändlich ignominiously: schmachvoll, schimpflich ignominy: Schandtat, Skandalöse Tat ignorance: Unwissenheit, Unkenntnis ill: krank, übel, schlecht, schlimm ill-bred: unerzogen, ungeschliffen, ungehobelt, schroff, grobschlächtig, derb, bäuerisch, ungeschlacht illness: Krankheit, Erkrankung, Übel, Unwohlsein, Leiden, Periode, Unpäßlichkeit, Regel, Menstruation illogical: unlogisch images: Bilder imagination: Einbildung, Vorstellung, Einbildungskraft, Vorstellungskraft, Phantasie imagine: sich einbilden, sich vorstellen, erdichten imagined: stelltet vor, maltest aus, maltet aus, nahm an, nahmen an, nahmst an, nahmt an, stellte vor, stelltest vor, gedacht, vermutet imagining: denkend, annehmend, ausmalend, einbildend, eingebildet, sich vorstellend, vermutend, ausdenkend, vorstellend immediate: unverzüglich, unmittelbar, sofortig, direkt

Notes from Underground immoral: unmoralisch, sittenlos, unsittlich, obszön, unehrenhaft, unanständig, skrupellos, schamlos, lasterhaft, immoralisch, taktlos immortal: Unsterblich, unvergänglich impatience: Ungeduld impatient: ungeduldig, rastlos, ruhelos, rührig, steif, unruhig, zappelig, flatterhaft, unbeständig impatiently: ungeduldig impelled: getrieben, triebt, triebst, trieben, trieb imperiously: gebieterisch imploring: anflehend, inständig imposing: imposant, auferlegend, imponierend, aufdrängend impossibilities: Unmöglichkeiten impossibility: Unmöglichkeit impostor: Betrüger, Hochstapler impotence: Impotenz, Unfähigkeit, Machtlosigkeit impressed: beeindruckt impression: Eindruck, Abdruck, Effekt, Wirkung, Eindrücke, Auflage impressions: Eindrücke impressive: eindrucksvoll, imponierend, beeindruckend, überwältigend, imposant, ergreifend improve: verbessern, verbesserst, verbessert, verbessre, verbessere, bessern, bessert, besserst, bessre, bessere, ausbessern improved: verbesserte, verbessert, verbessertet, verbessertest, verbesserten, bessertest, gebessert, bessertet, besserten, besserte, bessertet aus impudence: Frechheit, Unverschämtheit, Unverschämt sein, Indiskretion, Impertinenz impudent: unverschämt, frech, dreist impulse: Impuls, Antrieb, Trieb, Andrang, Kraftimpulsgröße, Andrift impulses: Impulse impulsive: impulsiv, unbesonnen impure: unrein inanimate: leblos, unbelebt inappropriate: ungeeignet, unangebracht, unpassend incapable: unfähig, inkompetent, unzuständig, unfachmännisch incapacity: Unfähigkeit, Inkompetenz, Untauglichkeit incensed: erzürnen, weihrauch, wütend, duft incessant: ununterbrochen, unaufhörlich, unablässig, ständig incessantly: unaufhörlich, ständig inch: Zoll, Haarbreit inches: Zoll incident: Zwischenfall, Ereignis, Vorfall, Störungsanlaß, Begebenheit,

Einfallend, Vorkommnis incidentally: übrigens, zufällig incidents: Vorfälle, Zwischenfälle, Ereignisse inclinations: Neigungen incognito: inkognito, maskiert incomparably: unvergleichlich incongruity: Mißverhältnis incongruous: unpassend, unvereinbar inconsistent: unvereinbar, inkonsequent, widersprechend, inkonsistent, unbeständig, widersprüchlich, folgewidrig incorrigible: unverbesserlich incredible: unglaublich, unglaubhaft incumbent: obliegend, Amtsinhaber, Generalgouverneur, Statthalter, Regent, Gouverneur, Fürst, Herrscher indelicate: taktlos independence: Unabhängigkeit, Selbständigkeit, Freiheit, Ungebundenheit independently: unabhängig, selbständig index: Index, Verzeichnis, Register, Indizieren, Tabelle, Indexieren, Hauptbuch, Grundbuchamt, Grundbuch, Gliedern, Führen indicating: anzeigend, zeigend, indizierend, hinweisend, anzeigen indifference: Gleichgültigkeit, Indifferenz, Empfindungslosigkeit, Unempfindlichkeit, Phlegma, Kaltblütigkeit, Gefühllosigkeit, Gedankenlosigkeit indignant: entrüstet, ungehalten, empört, unwillig indignation: Empörung, Entrüstung, Ärger indirectly: indirekt individuality: Individualität induce: induzieren, veranlassen, induziere, induzierst, induziert, bewegen, schließen, veranlasse, folgern, veranlaßt induced: induziert, induzierten, induziertest, induzierte, induziertet, veranlaßt, veranlaßte, veranlaßten, veranlaßtet, veranlaßtest indulge: verwöhnen, schonen, nachsichtig sein, nachgeben, verschonen indulged: ergingt, verschontest, schontet, verschont, verschonte, verschonten, schontest, verschontet, verwöhnt, verwöhnte, verwöhnten ineffably: unaussprechlich, unbeschreiblich inertia: Trägheit, Massenträgheit inevitable: Unvermeidlich,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky unabwendbar, notwendig, zwangsläufig, unweigerlich, umvermeidbar inevitably: unvermeidlich, zwangsläufig inexperience: Unerfahrenheit inexplicably: unerklärlich, unerklärlicherweise infallible: unfehlbar, fehlerfrei, fehlerlos, sicher inferior: Minderwertig, untergeordnet, niedrig, ärmlich, armselig, dürftig, gebrechlich, hinfällig, karg, kärglich, Untergeordnete infinitely: unendlich infinity: Unendlichkeit, Endlosigkeit, Grenzenlosigkeit inflicted: fügten zu, zugefügt, fügtest zu, fügte zu, fügtet zu infuriated: wütend ingenuity: Genialität, Erfindungsgabe, Erfindungsgeist, Geist, Genie, Kreativität, Schaffenskraft, Findigkeit ingratiate: schmeichele ein, schmeichelt ein, schmeichle ein, schmeicheln ein, einschmeichelnd, einschmeicheln, beliebt machen, schmeichelst ein ingratiating: einnehmend, schmeichlerisch, beliebt machend ingratitude: Undankbarkeit, Undank inhabit: bewohnen, bewohnst, bewohnt, bewohne, residieren initiative: Initiative, Anreiz, Anstoß injure: verletzen, verletze, verletzst, verletzt, beschädigen, beschädige, beschädigst, verderben, beschädigt, kränken, schaden zufügen injured: verletzt, verletztet, verletztest, verletzte, verletzten, beschädigt, beschädigte, beschädigten, beschädigtet, havariert, ramponiert injuring: verletzend, beschädigend injurious: schädlich, angreifend injury: Verletzung, Wunde, Verwundung, Schädigung, Beschädigung, Blessur, die Verletzung, Benachteiligung ink: Tinte, Druckfarbe, mit Tinte befeuchten, Farbe, Einfärben inkstand: Tintenfaß, Schreibzeug innate: angeboren, einheimisch, von Natur aus anwesend sein, eingeboren, angeborene innocent: Unschuldig, harmlos, arglos, schuldlos, gutartig innumerable: unzählig, zahllos inquired: forschtet aus, fahndeten, fahndetest, fahndetet, forschte,

forschte aus, forschten, forschten aus, forschtest, forschtet, gefahndet inquiries: Erkundigungen inquisitively: wißbegierig, neugierig insane: wahnsinnig, verrückt, irre, geisteskrank, toll, irrsinnig insect: Insekt, Tierchen insignificance: Unwichtigkeit insignificant: unbedeutend, bedeutungslos, geringfügig, minimal, klein, gering insipid: fade, fad, flau insist: andringen, beharren, bestehen, dringst an, dringt an, dringen an, dringe an, beharrt, beharrst, beharre, drängen insolence: Frechheit, Unverschämtheit insolent: unverschämt, frech, ungeschlacht, tölpelhaft, überheblich, unbescheiden, ungehobelt, täppisch, ungeschickt, klobig, ungeschliffen insolently: unverschämt inspires: inspiriert, gibt ein, begeistert, flößt ein instance: Instanz, Beispiel, Fall instant: Augenblick, Moment, sofortig instil: einschärfen instinctively: instinktiv insufferable: unerträglich, unausstehlich insufferably: unerträglich insult: Beleidigung, beleidigen, beschimpfen, kränken, Insult, verletzen, schelten, schimpfen insulted: beleidigt insulting: beleidigend insults: Beleidigt integral: Integral, vollkommen, vollständig, Wesentlich, völlig, komplett, gesamt, ganzheitlich intellectual: intellektuell, geistig, Intellektuelle, gelehrt, gebildet intelligence: Intelligenz, Verstand, die Intelligenz intelligent: intelligent, verständig, klug, scharfsinnig, denkfähig, weise, einsichtsvoll, hochgelehrt, mit Verstand begabt, schlau, gelehrt intend: beabsichtigen, beabsichtige, beabsichtigst, beabsichtigt, vorhaben, hast vor, habt vor, haben vor, habe vor, hab vor, bezwecken intending: beabsichtigend, vorhabend, absichtlich, bezweckend, mit der Absicht, wollend intense: intensiv, heftig, stark, gewaltig intensified: intensiviertet,

149 intensivierte, intensivierten, intensiviertest, verstärkt, intensiviert intention: Absicht, Plan, Vorhaben, Vorsatz, Entschluß, Endzweck, Intention, Augenmerk, Ziel, Zweck intentional: absichtlich, vorsätzlich, gesonnen, gesinnt intentionally: absichtlich, vorsätzlich, mit Vorbedacht, extra intentions: Absichten, Vorsatze, Vorhabene, Absichte intently: eifrig interpose: schaltt zwischen, sich einsetzen, trete dazwischen, treten dazwischen, schaltst zwischen, tritt dazwischen, bringt, trittst dazwischen, vorbringen, tretet dazwischen, schalten zwischen interrupted: unterbrochen intimacy: Vertrautheit, Intimität, Innigkeit, Vertraulichkeit intimate: intim, vertraut, innig, vertraulich, andeuten, gemütlich, Vertraute intolerable: unerträglich, intolerabel, untragbar intolerance: Intoleranz intoxicated: berauscht, betrunken, trunken intoxication: Rausch, Intoxikation, Vergiftung, Trunkenheit intricacies: Komplikationen, Verwicklungen introduce: vorstellen, stellst vor, stellen vor, einführen, stellt vor, stelle vor, führt ein, führst ein, führen ein, führe ein, einleiten introduction: Einführung, Einleitung, Exposition, Einreichung, Einfühurngszeit intrusive: zudringlich, aufdringlich intrusively: zudringlich invaded: fiel ein, fielst ein, eingefallen, eingedrungen, fielt ein, drangst ein, drangen ein, drang ein, fielen ein, drangt ein invariably: ausnahmslos, beständig, unveränderlich invent: erfinden, erfinde, erfindest, erfindet, ausdenken, denke aus, denken aus, denkst aus, denkt aus, ersinnen, planen invented: erfandet, erfandest, erfanden, erfand, erfunden, dachten aus, dachtest aus, dachte aus, ausgedacht, dachtet aus, ersannst invention: Erfindung, Entdeckung, Fund invincible: unbesiegbar inviolate: unangetastet, unberührt, unbeschadet invite: einladen, ladet ein, laden ein,

150 lädst ein, lade ein, bitten, auffordern, engagieren invited: lud ein, ludst ein, luden ein, eingeladen, ludet ein inviting: einladend involuntary: unfreiwillig, unabsichtlich, unwillkürlich, verpflichtet, gezwungen, zwangsmässig inward: innerlich, inner, innere, seelisch, nach innen, inwendig, innen, hinein, intern inwardly: innerlich iou: Schuldschein ironical: ironisch ironically: ironisch irony: Ironie irrational: unvernünftig, irrational, unüberlegt, unreflektiert, unbegründet irresistible: unwiderstehlich, unaufhaltsam irritability: Reizbarkeit, Erregbarkeit, Verdruß, Zimperlichkeit, Verdrüsse, Verdrießlichkeit, Unwille, Unmut, Gereiztheit, Empfindlichkeit, Ärgernis irritably: reizbar irritated: gereizt, irritiertest, irritierten, irritierte, irritiert, irritiertet, reizbar, erregt, verärgert, giftig, schlechtgelaunt italian: Italienisch, Italiener, italienische, Italienerin italy: Italien i've: Ich habe jaunty: munter jealous: eifersüchtig, mißgünstig jeer: beschimpfen, Spott jeering: johlend, Gemecker, Genörgel, Geschimpfe, Schimpferei jeers: spottet jerkily: ruckartig jerky: Ruckartig jest: scherzen, spaßen jesting: scherzend, spassend jests: scherzt, spasst jewel: Juwel, Edelstein, Kleinod, Kostbarkeit, Gemme jibes: Stimmt zu joke: Scherz, Spaß, Witz, scherzen, Jux, Streich, Täuschung, spaßen, Späßchen, Ulk, Keckheit jokes: Scherze, Scherzt, Spässe joking: scherzend, scherzhaft jolly: Vergnügt, lustig, fröhlich, heiter jostled: angerempelt jostling: Anrempelnd, Drängelei jot: Jota, Pünktchen, Körnchen, Fünkchen, das Pünktchen, notieren journalists: Journalisten

Notes from Underground joy: Freude, Genuß, Wonne joyfully: freudig joys: Freuden judge: Richter, beurteilen, urteilen, richten, Preisrichter judged: geurteilt judges: Richter judicious: vernünftig, umsichtig, urteilsfähig juggling: Jonglierend, Jonglieren jump: Sprung, springen, Absprung, Hindernis, Steigung, überspringen jumped: gesprungen, sprang jumping: Springend, Springen, Sprunghaft, Hüpfen, Gehüpfe justice: Gerechtigkeit, Justiz, Recht justification: Justierung, Rechtfertigung, Einstellung, Blocksatz, Entschuldigung, Verzeihung, Ausrichtung, Justifikation justify: rechtfertigen, rechtfertigst, rechtfertigt, rechtfertige, ausrichten, begründen, verantworten, justieren justifying: rechtfertigend keeping: behaltend, Aufbewahrend, bewahrend, Haltend, aufhaltend, behütend, hütend kerchief: Kopftuch, Halstuch keys: Tasten, Schlüssel kick: treten, Fußtritt, Tritt, Stoß, stoßen, ausschlagen, strampeln, stampfen, Kick, hauen, trampeln kicked: gestoßen kicking: Tretend, Stoßend, Getrete, Gestosse kill: töten, ermorden, umbringen, fertigmachen, erledigen kills: tötet kind-hearted: mild, wohltuend, sanft, sanftmütig, wohlwollend, gutherzig, gutartig, großzügig, freigebig, weitherzig, gutmütig kindled: entzündetest, zündetet an, entzündete, entzündet, zündeten an, zündete an, angezündet, entzündetet, zündetest an, entzündeten, entflammt kiss: Kuss, küssen, der Kuss kissed: geküßt, küsste knaves: Schufte, Schurken knee: Knie, das Knie, Krummholz knees: Kniet knock: klopfen, schlag, anklopfen, schlagen, Anschlag knocking: Klopfen, Klopfend knowing: wissend, kennend knowingly: wissentlich, bewußt, sehenden Auges, absichtlich labourer: Arbeiter, Arbeitskraft, Lohnarbeiter lacerating: zerreißen, zerfleischend,

aufreißend lackey: Lakai, Bedienter lacking: fehlend, mangelnd, entbehrend ladies: Damen laid: legtet, legte, legtest, legten, gelegt lake: See, der See, Süßwassersee lamps: Lampen lands: Länder lap: Schoß, Plätschern, Überrunden, Klatschen, Mutterschoß, Gurgeln, Glucksen, Überlappen, Runde, Gluckern largeness: Größe lashing: peitschend, Zurring lasted: gedauert lately: kürzlich, letztlich, neuerdings, neulich latest: letzte, späteste, nagelneu laugh: lachen, lache, grinsen, schallen, lächeln, kichern, glucksen laughed: gelacht laughing: lachend, lachen, gekicher, lacher, gelächter, kichern laughs: lachen, lacht laughter: Gelächter, Lachen, Lächeln, Lache, Grinsen launch: abschießen, Abschuss, Starten, lancieren, beim publikum einführen, Stapellauf laurel: Lorbeer, Lorbeerbaum, mit Lorbeeren Schmücken laws: Gesetze laying: Legend, Eierlegen, Legen laziness: Faulheit, Nichtstun, Faulenzerei, Müßiggang lazy: faul, träge, arbeitsscheu leaden: bleiern leads: leitet, führt, lenkt, vorsprünge leaned: gelehnt leaning: Lehnend, Anlehnen, schief, lehnen leapt: gesprungen learned: gelernt, lernte, lerntet, lerntest, lernten, gelehrt, gebildet, lernen, gesittet, erlerntest, erlernten learning: Lernend, Lernen, Gelehrtheit, Aneignen, erlernend, Kenntnis, Sachverstand, Anlernen, Wissen learnt: gelernt, erfahren, lernen lease: Pacht, Miete, Verpachten, pachten, Mietvertrag, Vermieten, Pachtvertrag, Mietbetrag, mieten least: geringste, wenigste, kleinste, am wenigsten, wenigst leather: Leder, Ledern, Putzen, das Leder leaves: verläßt, Blätter, überläßt, läßt zurück, bricht auf, baumblatt, Laub, blättchen, Blatt

Fyodor Dostoyevsky leg: Bein, Keule, Pfote, Unterschenkel, Gebeine, Zweig, Knochen, Verlängerung einer Ecke legitimate: rechtmäßig, legitim, berechtigt, gesetzlich, gesetzmäßig, wohlbegründet, stichhaltig, rechtskräftig, rechtsgültig sein, legitimieren, gültig legs: Beine leisure: Muße, Freizeit lend: leihen, leihe, leihst, leiht, verleihen, verleiht, verleihst, verleihe, borgen, borgt, borgst lengths: Längen lent: Geliehen, lieht, lieh, liehen, liehst, verlieht, verliehst, verliehen, verlieh, Fastenzeit, geborgt lessons: Lektionen letting: Lassend, vermietend, Vermietung lewd: unzüchtig, ausgelassen, unflätig, lüstern lexicons: Lexika lid: Deckel, Bedeckung, Decke, Lid, Umschlag, Verdeck, Verschlusskappe, Augenlid lie: liegen, lügen, lüge, fabulieren, Unwahrkeit, Täuschung, Schwindelei, Schummelei, Lage, Irreführung, gelegen sein lied: Gelogen, Gelegt lies: liegt lieutenant: Leutnant, Oberleutnant lifetime: Lebenszeit, Lebensdauer, Menschenalter, Leben, Altertum lighted: beleuchtet, angemacht, angezüundet lightness: Helligkeit, Leichtigkeit, Leichtheit, Luftigkeit liked: gemocht, beliebt likeness: Ähnlichkeit, Bildnis, Konterfei likes: mag limitation: Einschränkung, Begrenzung, Beschränkung, Verjährung, Restriktion, Limit, Vorbehalt lips: Lippen lisp: lispeln, munkeln, murmeln, brummeln, brabbeln, quaken lisped: gelispelt lisping: lispelnd listen: zuhören, höre zu, hörst zu, hören zu, hört zu, hören, anhören, hörst an, hören an, höre an, hört an listened: hörte zu, hörten zu, hörtest zu, zugehört, hörtet zu, angehört, hörte an, hörten an, hörtest an, hörtet an, horchte listening: zuhörend, anhörend, horchend, Anhören, Zuhören, Hören

literary: literarisch literature: Literatur, Schrifttum, Literaturgeschichte, Literaturwissenschaft litter: Streu, Bahre, Abfall, Träger, Tragbahre, Wurf, Streusel lived: lebtet, lebtest, gelebt, lebten, lebte, wohntest, wohnten, gewohnt, wohnte, wohntet, haustet lively: lebhaft, lebendig, munter, witzig, flott, geistreich, heiter, Herzhaftigkeit, sinnreich liven: lebst auf, lebt auf, leben auf, gelebt, belebt, belebst, aufleben, belebe, beleben, lebe auf liver: Leber, die Leber lo: siehe loathed: verabscheut, verabscheute, verabscheuten, verabscheutest, verabscheutet loathing: Verabscheuend, Ekel loathsome: ekelhaft, abscheulich, widerlich loathsomely: ekelhaft, abscheulich loathsomeness: Widerlichkeit lobster: Hummer, Seekrebs, Seekrabbe, Languste, Krebs, der Hummer lodging: Unterkunft, Bleibe, Beherbergung, Unterbringung, Wohnung, Mitbewohnung lodgings: Möbliert Zimmer, Wohnung, Unterkünfte, Unterkunft, Nachtquartier, Möblierte Unterkunft, Logis, Möbliertes Zimmer loftily: hoch lofty: erhaben, hoch, hochfliegend, hochmütig, hochgestellt, pathetisch logic: Logik, Logisch logical: logisch, folgerichtig logically: logisch longed: gesehnt longing: Sehnsucht, Verlangen, Sehnsüchtig, Schmachten, Verlangt, Sich sehnen nach, Sehnen, Sehnend, Begierde, Begehren lose: verlieren, verlierst, verliert, verliere, abhandenkommen, verlegen, verlorengehen, abhanden kommen, wegschaffen, verloren gehen, verschleppen losing: verlierend, Verlust loud: laut, lautstark, geräuschvoll, schreiend, lärmend, lärmig loudly: laut, laute lounge: Salon, Aula, Gesellschaftsraum, faulenzen louse: Laus, Kopflaus loved: geliebt, liebte, beliebt lovely: Lieblich, reizend, hübsch, schön, entzückend, hold, anmutig,

151 allerliebst, herrlich, lieb, niedlich lover: Liebhaber, Geliebte, Freier lovers: Geliebte loves: liebt loving: liebend, liebevoll, liebreich lowest: unterst, unterste luck: Glück, Verhängnis, Fügung, Schicksal, Los, Geschick, Chance luckless: glücklos lucky: glücklich ludicrous: lächerlich, albern lump: Klumpen, Stück, Masse, Kloß, Fragment, Bruchstück, Tölpel, Holzschuh, Fleck, Klecks, Knoten lunatic: Irre, Wahnsinnige, irrsinnig, wahnsinnig, verrückt luxurious: luxuriös, prunkvoll, üppig luxury: Luxus, Üppigkeit, Aufwand, Wollust, Wonne, Überfluß, Stattlichkeit, Reichtum, Prunk, Pracht, Luxusartikel lying: Liegend, Verlogen, Lügnerisch, fraudulös, betrügerisch, trügerisch, unzuverlässig, lügenhaft lyrical: lyrisch, gefühlvoll, schwärmerisch mad: wahnsinnig, verrückt, toll, irre, böse madam: gnädige Frau, Frau maddened: machte verrückt, ärgerte, ärgerten, ärgertest, ärgertet, geärgert madman: Verrückte, Irre, Geisteskranke, Wahnsinnige, Tor, Tollkopf, Schwachsinnige, Irrsinnige, der Irre, Idiot magnanimity: Großherzigkeit, Großmut magnanimous: großmütig, tolerant, nobel, mild, jovial, hochwürdig, hochherzig, großzügig, freizügig, freigebig, erhaben maintain: erhalten, erhalte, erhältst, erhaltet, wahren, beibehalten, unterhalten, behalte bei, behältst bei, behaltet bei, warten majestically: majestätisch malediction: Verwünschung, Fluch, Verfluchung, Bannfluch malice: Arglist, Bosheit, gehässige Bemerkung, Zorn, Wut, Verachtung, Stichelei, Sarkasmus, Grimm, Gehässigkeit, Bösartigkeit malignancy: Malignität, Bösartigkeit, Böswilligkeit malignant: bösartig, maligne, heimtückisch malignantly: Bösartig managed: verwaltetet, verwaltet, verwaltetest, verwalteten, verwaltete, bewältigtet, kriegtet hin, steuerte, steuerten, steuertest, steuertet

152 mangy: räudig, krätzig manifestation: Kundgebung, Manifestation mankind: Menschheit manner: Weise, Art, Manier, Art und Weise, Auftreten manners: Umgangsformen, Sitten, Manieren, Weisen, Benehmen, Kinderstube mansion: Villa, Herrenhaus marker: Markierung, Marke, Absatzgebiet, Vertreter, Verfechter, Markör, Verteidiger, Manndecker marry: heiraten, heiratet, heiratest, heirate, sich verheiraten, sich vermählen, in den Ehestand treten, sich verehelichen marrying: heiratend marsh: Sumpf, Marsch martyrdom: das Märtyrertum, Martyrium, Märtyrertod, die Marter, das Martyrium, der Märtyrertod marvellous: wunderbar mask: Maske, maskieren, Gesichtsmaske masquerade: Maskerade masses: Masse, Massen, Mengen master: Meister, Maestro, Herr, Magister, Master, beherrschen, Gebieter, Wirt, Druckvorlage, Lehrer, erlernen mastery: Herrschaft, Beherrschung, Meisterschaft matches: Streichhölzer, Kämpfe mathematical: mathematisch mathematically: mathematisch mathematics: Mathematik, Mathematische, Arithmetik mawkish: süßlich, rührselig, honigsüß, süß meals: Mahlzeiten meaning: Bedeutung, Sinn, Tendenz, Wert, Meinung, Plan, Inhalt, Bezeichnung, Verstand, Tragweite, Wichigkeit meanness: Gemeinheit, Niedrtracht, Niederträchtigkeit meanwhile: unterdessen, inzwischen, indessen, indes, währenddessen, mittlerweile, einstweilen, in der Zwischenzeit, zwischenzeitlich measure: Maß, Maßnahme, messen, abmessen, Maßeinheit, aufmessen, Maßregel measured: gemessen, bemessen, maßvoll, passend, abgemessen reden, abgemessen measuring: Messen, Messend, Messung, Abmessen mechanically: mechanisch medicine: Medizin, Arznei,

Notes from Underground Medikament, Arzneimittel, Heilmittel melted: geschmolzen melting: Schmelzen, schmelzend, Tauwetter, Abtauen memories: Erinnerungen, Souvenirs, Andenken menacingly: bedrohen, bedrohende mentally: geistig mention: Erwähnung, nennen, erwähnen, ausschreiben, bekanntgeben, benennen, mitteilen, Meldung machen von, titulieren, erklären, informieren mentioning: erwähnend, erwähnung, erwähnen merciful: barmherzig, mitleidig, gnädig merciless: erbarmungslos, unbarmherzig, gnadenlos, mitleidlos, mitleidslos, schonungslos, gewissenlos mere: Bloß, Nur, Rein merriest: lustigste, lustigsten mess: durcheinander, Unordnung, Schweinerei, Aufhäufung, Anhäufung, abtropfen, Mus, auslecken, Brei, durchsickern, Chaos midst: Inmitten, Mitte millinery: Boutique, Modewaren millions: Millionen minds: Gemüter mine: Bergwerk, meiner, Grube, Mine, meines, mein, Zeche, meine, der meine, verminen, die meine minute: Minute, winzig, die Minute minutely: haarfein, haarklein, haarscharf, genau, haargenau, exakt miracle: Wunder, Wundertat, Mirakel, Mysterium mirage: Luftspiegelung, Fata Morgana mire: Sumpf mirthful: fröhlich miserable: elend, jämmerlich, erbärmlich, miserabel, schlecht, unglücklich, traurig, arm, gräßlich, böse, unpäßlich miserably: elend, jämmerlich miseries: Elende misery: Elend, Not, Leid, Unglück, Schlamassel, Schicksalsschläge, Schicksalsschlag, Misere, Mißgeschick misfortune: Mißgeschick, Unglück, Pech mistake: Fehler, Irrtum, Versehen, Fehlgriff, Missverständnis, Schnitzer, daneben sein, Fehlschuß, Fehlschläge, Fehlschlag, Mißerfolg mistaken: falsch, irrig, wirr, verwirrt, konfus, vertan, verstört,

durcheinander, irrtümlich mistress: Herrin, Gebieterin, Geliebte, Mätresse, Freundin, Geliebter, Freund, Liebchen, Liebhaber, Liebste, Meisterin mistrustful: mißtrauisch moan: stöhnen, jammern, seufzen, ächzen, wehklagen, wimmern moaned: gestöhnt, stöhnte moaning: elend, jammervoll, klagend, kläglich, nörglerisch, quengelig moans: stöhnt mockery: Spott, Spöttelei, Hohn, Spötterei, Gespött, Spotten, Spottwort, Verspottung modest: bescheiden, anspruchslos, bequem, nicht hochmütig, unbedeutend, schlicht, niedrig, einfach modesty: Bescheidenheit, Anspruchslosheit, Diskretion, Genügsamkeit, Zurückgezogenheit moist: feucht, beschlagen, feuchtkalt, klamm, naß momentary: augenblicklich, momentan, vorübergehend, monentele, augenblickliche moments: Momente, Augenblicke monkey: Affe, der Affe monotonous: monoton, eintönig monster: Ungeheuer, Monstrum, Ungetüm, Unhold, Scheusal, Untier, Köter, Monster monstrous: ungeheuer, mißgestaltet, monströs, abscheulich, ungeheuerlich, riesig, widerlich, gräßlich, ekelerregend, abscheuerregend, grundhäßlich monstrously: ungeheuer monthly: Monatlich, Monatszeitschrift, monatsweise, jedenMonat mood: Stimmung, Laune, Humor, Gemutszustand moody: launisch, Verstimmt, launenhaft moral: moralisch, sittlich, Moral morally: moralisch morbidly: krankhaft, morbid moreover: außerdem, zudem, überdies, ferner, übrigens, weiter, fort morosely: mürrisch mortal: sterblich, tödlich mortifying: demütigend mostly: meistens, meist, größtenteils, meistenteils, hauptsächlich mothers: Mütter motionless: bewegungslos, regungslos, reglos, still motive: Motiv, Beweggrund, Grund,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky Veranlassung, Motivation, Begründung, Antrieb, Anlaß, Ursache motives: Motiv, Beweggrund, Ansporne, Antriebe mouldy: schimmelig, verschimmelt, modrig, moderig, dumpfig, kahmig mournful: traurig, trauervoll mouse: Maus, die Maus, Feldmaus, Mäuse movable: beweglich, aufzuheben, hebbar moves: bewegt, Umzüge mud: Schlamm, Schmutz, Matsch, Schlick, Dreck, Kot muddled: durcheinander muffled: umhüllt mules: Maultiere multitude: Menge, Vielzahl, von allem etwas, alles mögliche, Haufen, Stapel muttered: gemurmelt muttering: murmelnd mutual: gegenseitig, beiderseitig, wechselseitig, gemeinsam, bilateral, zweiseitig, auf sich selbst zurückkommend mysterious: geheimnisvoll, mysteriös, rätselhaft, sonderbar mystery: Geheimnis, Mysterium, Rätsel mysticism: Mystizismus, Mystik nag: Nörgler, klagen, Griesgram, Gaul, Ekel, einrammen, einhämmern, durchstoßen, ärgern, striezen, Meckerer nagging: Geschwatze, Piesacken, keifend, Genörgel, Getratsche, Gequengel, Gequake, Zwiebeln, Gemecker, Geleier, Gejammer nail: Nagel, nageln, festnageln, Stift, schlagen, Nägel einschlagen, tischlern, hämmern, einhämmern, der Nagel, annageln nails: Nägel, nagelt naive: naiv, unbefangen naively: naiv naivete: Naivität narrative: Erzählung, erzählend, Geschichte, Bericht, Schilderung, erzählerisch narrow: eng, schmal, knapp, enge, sich verengen, verengen, Landenge, Verengerung, Engpässe, engermachen, verschmälern nastier: ekliger nastiest: ekligste nastily: häßlich, schmutzig, scheußlich nastiness: Gemeinheit, Hinterlistigkeit, Gaunerstreich, Schurkenstreich, Schurkerei,

Schweinerei nasty: garstig, widerlich, böse, hässlich, gemein, scheußlich, heimtückisch, unangenehm, ekelhaft, übel, eklig naturally: natürlich, normalerweise, selbstverständlich natured: geartet natures: Naturen nausea: Übelkeit, Ekel, Brechreiz, Nausea nearer: näher necessity: Notwendigkeit, Not, Bedürfnis, Armut, Bedürftigkeit, Unglück, Seuche, Schicksalsschläge, Schicksalsschlag, Elend, Rückschläge neck: Hals, Nacken, Genick, ficken, miteinander schlafen, Liebe machen, Geschlechtsverkehr haben, sich lieben, bumsen, Ausschnitt needle: Nadelt, die Nadel, Stecknadel negation: Negation, Verneinung negative: negativ, verneinend, ablehnend neglected: vernachlässigt, verwahrlost, verwildert, ungepflegt, unversorgt, vernachlässigte, zerzaust neighbourhood: Nachbarschaft, Quartier, Stadtviertel, Viertel neighbours: Nachbarn, Umwohnenden nerves: Nerven, Nervt nightmare: Alptraum, Alpdrücken, Spuktraum, Alp nights: Nächte nineteenth: neunzehnte noble: edel, Adlig, edelmütig, adelig, hehr, erhaben, stattlich, nobel nobody: Niemand, Keiner, Keine, Keines nodded: schlafen, sich neigen, geschlafen, genickt, wippen, nicken nodding: schlafend, das Nicken, nicken, nickend noise: Lärm, Geräusch, Rauschen, Krach, Umtrieb, Braus, Betrieb, Aufsehen, Aufruhr, Tumult, Andrang noisily: laut noisy: laut, geräuschvoll, ausgelassen, unbändig, lärmend, lärmig nonplussed: verlegen gemacht nonsense: Unsinn, Quatsch, Blödsinn, Dummes zeug, Torheit, Gallimathias, Larifari, Koller, Käse, Kauderwelsch, Verdrehtheit nose: Nase, die Nase, Geruch, Geruchsnerv, Gerüche, Duft, Geruchssinn

153 noses: Nasen notes: die Mitschrift, Aufzeichnungen, Notizen, hinweise, effekte, der Anhang, anhang zur Bilanz, Anmerkungen, Anleihen, der Konzernanhang noticed: bemerkt, notierte noticing: feststellend, bemerken noting: merken, notierend notion: Begriff, Ahnung, Idee, Vorstellung, Auffassung, Denkweise, Verständnis, Gedanke, Gedächtnis notions: Ahnungen novel: Roman, neu, neuartig novelists: Romanschriftsteller novelty: Neuheit, Novität, Neuigkeit, Neues nowadays: Heutzutage, heute, aktuell, zur Zeit, derzeitig, gegenwärtig, heutig, gegenwartig nudged: stieß leise an nursing: Krankenpflege, Pflege, Stillen, Versorgung, Betreuung, Einrichtung, Fürsorge, Pflegend, Sorge obediently: gehorsam object: Objekt, Gegenstand, Ding, widersprechen, protestieren, Ziel, bestreiten, Zweck objects: Objekte obligation: Verpflichtung, Obligation, Verbindlichkeit, Gebundenheit, Obliegenheit, Gebühr, Gebot obliged: verpflichtet, verpflichtetet, verpflichtete, verpflichteten, verpflichtetest, verbunden obliquity: Obliquität, Schiefe, Geneigtheits, Geneigtheit, die Verirrung, die Unregelmäßigkeit, die Schrägheit, die Schiefe, Schiefheit obscurantist: Feind der Aufklärung, die Obskurantin, der Obskurant, der Dunkelmann, der Finsterling obscurantists: Dunkelmänner obscure: dunkel, obskur, schmierig, schuftig, teuflisch, unbedeutend, unbekannt, veruntreuen, unheimlich, fragwürdig, unklar observation: Beobachtung, Anschauung, Bemerkung, Vermerk, Äußerung, Tadel, Observation, Interesse, Aufmerksamkeit, Ansicht, Beobachten observe: beobachten, beobachtest, beobachtet, beobachte, befolgen, wahrnehmen, betrachten, bemerken, feststellen, einhalten, entdecken observed: beobachtet, beobachtete, beobachtetest, beobachtetet,

154 beobachteten, bemerktet, bemerkt, bemerktest, bemerkte, bemerkten obstacle: Hindernis, Behinderung, Hürde, Klippe, Schranke obstinacy: Eigensinn, Sturheit, Starrsinn obstinate: hartnäckig, starrsinnig, eigensinnig, starrköpfig, stur, halsstarrig, trotzig, widerspenstig, widerhaarig, schwerhandhabbar, widersetzlich obstinately: stur obtain: bekommen, erhalten, erhältst, erhaltet, erhalte, bekommst, bekomme, bekommt, einholen, kriegen, holt ein occasion: Anlass, Gelegenheit, Veranlassung, Ereignis, Mal occasions: Gelegenheiten occupation: Beruf, Besetzung, Beschäftigung, Tätigkeit, Gewerbe, Eroberung, Handwerk occupied: besetzt, belegt, besetztest, besetztet, besetzte, besetzten, bewohnt, beschäftigen, beschäftigt, beschäftigt mit, mit etwas befassen occur: geschehen, geschiehst, sich ereignen, geschieh, gescheht, geschehe, passieren, vorkommen, kommst vor, stattfinden, kommen vor occurred: geschehen, geschahst, geschahen, geschah, geschaht, vorgekommen, kam vor, kamen vor, kamst vor, kamt vor, fandet statt oceans: Ozeane, Ozean o'clock: Uhr, Stunde odd: ungerade, seltsam, sonderbar, wunderlich, kurios, merkwürdig, befremdend, eigenartig, uneben odour: Geruch, Gestank, Hauch offence: Beleidigung, Vergehen, Straftat, Delikt, Strafbare Handlung offended: beleidigt, beleidigtest, Beleidigte, beleidigtet, beleidigten, kränkte, kränktet, gekränkt, kränktest, kränkten, Verwundete offensive: offensiv, Anstößig, angreifend, beleidigend, abstoßend, aggressiv, widerwärtig, gewaltsam offhand: aus dem Stegreif, unvorbereitet, ohne weiteres, lässig, brüsk, flapsig official: offiziell, amtlich, Beamter, förmlich, formell, Funktionärin, Funktionär, dienstlich, Amtsperson, Beamte oiled: geölt omitted: ausgelassen, ließ aus, ließest aus, ließen aus, ließt aus, ließest weg, ließt weg, unterlassen, unterließ, unterließen, unterließest

Notes from Underground oneself: sich, sich selber, sich selbst openly: offen, öffentlich, aufrichtig, aus vollem Halse, aus voller Kehle, freimütig, geradeheraus, unverhohlen, rundheraus opposed: entgegengesetzt, setzten entgegen, stellten gegenüber, setztest entgegen, setzte entgegen, stellte gegenüber, gegenübergestellt, stelltest gegenüber, stelltet gegenüber, setztet entgegen opposite: gegenüber, Gegenteil, entgegengesetzt, Gegensatz, an, jenseits, Gegenübergestellte, gegenüberstehend, gegenüberliegend, im Jenseits, verkehrt oppressed: beklemmte, beklemmtet, unterdrücktet, unterdrücktest, unterdrückten, unterdrückte, unterdrückt, beklemmt, bedrückte, bedrückten, beklemmten oppresses: unterdrückt, bedrückt, beklemmt, preßt ordained: bestimmt, bestimmte, bestimmten, bestimmtest, bestimmtet, ordinierte, ordiniertet, ordinierten, ordiniert, ordiniertest ordered: angefordert, geordert, angeordnet, angeschrieben organ: Orgel, Organ origin: Ursprung, Herkunft, Entstehung, Abstammung, Anfang, Quelle orthodox: orthodox, rechtgläubig, strenggläubig, orthodoxe oscillations: Schwingungen, Oszillationen ought: sollte, sollen ours: unsere, unseres, das unsere, der unsere, unser ourselves: uns selbst, uns outburst: Ausbruch outcries: Aufschreie outer: äußer, äußere outlet: Ausgang, Abfluß, Abzug, Auslaß, Steckdose, treue Stütze, Abnehmer, Verkaufsstelle, Stütze outraged: empört outsider: Außenseiter, Außenstehende, Outsider, Außenstehender outskirts: Peripherie, Stadtrand, Aussenbezirke, Vororten, Vorstädten overcame: überwältigtet, überwältigtest, überwältigten, überwältigte, überwandest, überwand, überwandet, überwanden, übermanntest, übermannten, übermanntet overcoat: Mantel, Überzieher, Paletot,

Jacke, Überrock overcome: überwältigen, überwinden, überwältige, überwältigt, überwältigst, überwinde, überwindet, überwindest, überwunden, bewältigen, übermannen overjoyed: überglücklich overlooked: übersehene, übersehen, überschaute, übersah overtake: überholen, überhole, überholst, überholt, überraschen overwhelm: überschütten, überwältigen, überschüttest, überschütte, überwältige, überwältigt, überwältigst, überschüttet, überbürden, überladen, überhäufen overwhelmed: überwältigtest, überwältigte, überschüttetet, überschüttetest, überschütteten, überschüttet, überwältigtet, überwältigten, überschüttete, überwältigt overwrought: überarbeitet, überreizt owe: schulden, schulde, schuldest, schuldet, schuldig sein owed: geschuldet, schuldete, schuldeten, schuldetest, schuldetet owing: schuldend, verdankend paces: Gangarten, Schritte pacing: Durchschreitend painful: schmerzhaft, schmerzlich, peinlich painfully: schmerzlich, schmerzhaft painted: gemalt, angestrichen paints: malt pair: Paar, zwei Stück, zwei Personen die zusammen gehören palace: Palast, Schloss pale: blass, bleich, fahl, Pfahl, hell, matt, welk, weiß, verwaschen, glanzlos paltry: dürftig, erbärmlich, armselig, gemein pane: Scheibe, Raute, Quadrat, Pepita, Viereck pang: Schmerz, Stechen pangs: Schmerzen, Schmerzensstiche papa: Vati, Vater, Papa, der Papa paralysis: Lähmung, Paralyse, Lahmheit pardon: Verzeihung, Begnadigung, Vergebung, verzeihen, entschuldigen, amnestieren, Entschuldigung parenthesis: Klammer, Parenthese, Krampe paris: Paris paroxysm: Anfall parted: auseinandergegangen, getrennt

Fyodor Dostoyevsky partition: Teilung, Trennung, Trennwand, Abteilung, Zwischenwand, Partition, Aufteilung, Abtrennung, Zwischenmauer, Abteil, Absonderung partly: teils, teilweise, zum Teil passage: Durchgang, Passage, Korridor, Gang, Durchfahrt, Überfahrt, Flur, Passus, Kreuzungsstelle, Kreuzung, Mischung passes: Ausweise, Karten passing: Übergang, Verfallen, Verstreichen, vorübergehend, überholen passion: Leidenschaft, Passion, Glut, Feuer, Inbrunst, Lust passionate: leidenschaftlich, heißblütig, hitzig, passioniert, hemmungslos, eifrig, hingebungsvoll, enthusiastisch, begeistert, hitzköpfig, aufgeregt passionately: leidenschaftlich passions: Leidenschaften, Begeisterung, Inbrünste, Passionen path: Pfad, Weg, Steg, Fußweg, Bahn, Steig patience: Geduld, Ausdauer patient: Patient, geduldig, Kranke patriotism: Patriotismus, Vaterlandsliebe patronising: Begünstigen pause: Pause, pausieren, Unterbrechung, zögern pavement: Bürgersteig, Pflaster, Gehweg, Trottoir paw: Pfote, Bein, Fuß, Unterschenkel, Tatze pawns: verpfändet, faustpfänder paying: bezahlend, zahlend, entrichtend, auszahlend, lohnend, einträglich peaceful: friedlich, friedfertig, einträchtig, geruhsam, gemütlich peasant: Bauer peasants: Bauern peculiar: eigentümlich, eigenartig, seltsam, eigen, sonderbar, wunderlich, kurios, merkwürdig, besondere, besonders, befremdend pedant: Pedant peeped: piepste peeping: piepsend pen: Feder, Kugelschreiber, Verschlag, Stifte, Stift, Stall, Schreibstifte, Hütte penal: strafrechtlich, strafbar penitence: Reue, Buße penitent: reuig, bußfertig, Gestrafte penny: Pfennig, Penny, Groschen, Heller, Deut

pensions: Pensionen peoples: Person, Volk, bevölkern, Leute, Mensch perception: Wahrnehmung, Empfindung, Eindruck, Perzeption, Sinnlichkeit, Emotion, Auffassung, Augenaufschlag, Blick perfect: Perfekt, vollkommen, vollendet, ideal, einwandfrei, vervollkommnen, herausragend, vortrefflich, trefflich, top, sublim perfectly: perfekt, vollkommen, völlig peril: Gefahr, Risiko perish: umkommen, kommt um, kommst um, kommen um, komme um, untergehen, gehe unter, geht unter, gehen unter, zu Grunde gehen, gehst unter perished: kamt um, kamst um, kamen um, kam um, umgekommen, gingt unter, gingst unter, ging unter, untergegangen, gingen unter permanent: ständig, dauerhaft, permanent, fest, beständig, bleibend, dauernd, unablässig, unabänderlich, stetig, unveränderlich permission: Erlaubnis, Genehmigung, Einigkeit, Zulassung, Bewilligung, Eintracht permits: erlaubt, genehmigungen perpendicularly: senkrecht perpetual: ewig, fortwährend, endlos, zeitlebens, lebenslänglich, lebenslang, grenzenlos, entlos dauernd, auf Lebenszeit perplexity: Verwirrung, Verlegenheit, Bestürzung, Entsetzung, Hemmnis, Lästiges persecute: verfolgen, verfolgst, verfolgt, verfolge, nachzusetzen, fahnden, schikanieren perseverance: Beharrlichkeit, Ausdauer, Beharren, Beharrung, Standhaftigkeit, Zähigkeit, Aushalten persisted: beharrt, beharrte, beharrten, beharrtest, beharrtet persistent: beharrlich, ausdauernd, hartnäckig, anhaltend, beständig, persistent, ständig, zähe, unerschütterlich, sicher, standhaft persistently: beharrlich personage: Persönlichkeit personality: Persönlichkeit, Charakter, Gemüt personally: persönlich, eigenhändig persons: Personen, Leute perspiration: Schweiß, Transpiration perspiring: schwitzend, transpirierend, Schwitzen,

155 Transpirieren persuade: überreden, überredet, überrede, überredest, überzeugen, überzeugt, überzeuge, überzeugst, bereden, einwickeln, herumkriegen persuaded: überredete, überredetet, überredeten, überredet, überredetest, überzeugt, überzeugte, überzeugten, überzeugtest, überzeugtet pert: keck, kess, vorlaut perturbation: Störung, Beunruhigung perverse: pervers, verkehrt perversity: Perversität, Perversion petitioners: Antragsteller pettiest: kleinlichste pettiness: Geringfügigkeit, Kleinlichkeit, Bürgerlichkeit, Bürgerlichsein petulant: gereizt, mutwillig, kribbelig, übermütig, schelmisch, schalkhaft, quengelig, nörglerisch, launisch, ausgelassen, ärgerlich phantom: Phantom, Gespenst, Illusion, Einbildungskraft, Geist, Traumbild, Phantasie, Trugbild, Spuk, Wahnbild, Fiktion phase: Phase, Außenleiter, Stufe, Stadium, Phasenwinkel phases: Phasen phenomenally: außerordentlich, phänomenal, phänomenale, phänomenales, phantastisch, unglaublich phrase: Ausdrücken, Formulieren, Phrase, Satz, Redewendung, Ausdruck, einkleiden, Passus, Klausel, Fügung, in Worte fassen phrases: Phrasen piano: Klavier, Piano, das Klavier picked: gepflückt, pflückten, pflückte, pflücktet, pflücktest, abgepflückt, genommen pictured: dargestellt pictures: Bilder piebald: scheckig piecemeal: stückweise, stück für Stück, allmählich, in Brocken pieces: Stücke pig: Schwein, Eber, das Schwein piles: Haufen pillow: Kopfkissen, Kissen, Polster, das Kissen pimply: pickelig pins: Spangen, Nadeln piquancy: Pikanterie, Pikantheit, Pikantheits, die Pikanterie, die Schärfe, die Würze pistol: Pistole, Spritze, Wehr, Waffe, Knarre, Flinte pistols: Pistolen pitch: Pech, Tonhöhe, Wurf, Abstand,

156 Neigung, Steigung, stampfen, Teilung, Ton, Teer, werfen pitched: geworfen, warf pitiful: erbärmlich, mitleidig, jämmerlich, kläglich, jammervoll, miserabel, bedauernswert pitilessly: unbarmherzig pity: Mitleid, Bemitleiden, Erbarmen, Schade, Mitleid haben, Sich erbarmen, Mitgefühl plague: pest, plagen, Plage, Seuche, Epidemie plain: Ebene, einfarbig, einfach, klar, deutlich, schlicht, gängig, gewöhnlich, glatt, ordinär, nichthäßlich plainly: klar plate: Teller, Platte, Tafel, Plattieren, Tafelsilber, Anode, Fundamentplatte, Klischee, Grundplatte, Schüssel, Silberbesteck player: Spieler playful: spielerisch, verspielt, ausgelassen, übermütig, jovial, wild playfulness: Ausgelassenheit plays: spielt, spielt ab pleasant: angenehm, erfreulich, behaglich, herrlich, freundlich, vergnügt, nett, gefällig, spaßig, wohltuend, vergnüglich pleasanter: angenehmer pleased: zufrieden, erfreut pleasing: Angenehm, gefällig pleasure: Vergnügen, Genuss, Freude, Lust, Gefallen, Wohlgefallen plentiful: reichlich, massenhaft plump: mollig, prall, fleischig, rundlich, nicht elegant, pummelig, dick, grob plunge: Eintauchen, stürzen, tauchen plunged: getaucht poems: Gedichte poet: Dichter, Poet poets: Dichter, Poet polished: poliert, geschliffen, abgeschliffen, ausgefeilt, glatt, saubergemacht, geleckt, geputzt politely: höflich politeness: Höflichkeit, Freundlichkeit, Korrektheit, Herzlichkeit, Gutherzigkeit, Gutartigkeit, Anstand pondered: erwogen pope: Papst porter: Gepäckträger, Träger, Portier, Pförtner, Dienstmann, Hausmeister, Lastträger, Gepäckkarren posed: posiert, posierte, posierten, posiertest, posiertet positively: positiv positiveness: Bestimmtheit possessed: besaßest, besaßt, besaßen,

Notes from Underground besaß, besessen possession: Besitz, Eigentum, Besitztum, Gut, Besitzung, Besessenheit posting: Buchung, Postzustellung pot: Topf, Kanne, Krug, der Topf, Hafen pounce: klaut, sich stürzen, Klauen, klaust, Fang, Glättpulver, Klaue, Satz pour: gießen, schütten, stürzen, guß, einschenken, eingießen, ausschütten, ausgießen pouring: der Abguss, der Abstich, der Roheisenabstich, gießen, giessend, strömend, das Abstechen poverty: Armut, Elend, Not powder: Pulver, Puder, pudern, Staub, Kraut, pulverisieren, stäuben powdered: gepulvert praiseworthy: lobenswert pranks: Mätzchen, Allotria pray: beten, betet, betest, bete, betteln, bitten, flehen prayed: betetet, gebetet, betetest, beteten, betete prayers: Gebete preaching: Predigend precautions: Vorsorgen precious: kostbar, selten, wertvoll, edel precise: genau, präzise, exakt, bestimmt, präzis, pünktlich, klar, mit großer Genauigkeit, schmal, gewissenhaft, eng precisely: genau predestined: prädestiniert, prädestiniertet, prädestiniertest, prädestinierten, prädestinierte, vorherbestimmt, bestimmtest vorher, bestimmten vorher, bestimmte vorher, bestimmtet vorher predilection: Vorliebe, Vorlieben preface: Vorwort, Einleitung, Vorrede preference: Vorzug, Vorliebe, Präferenz, Bevorzugung, Wahl, Neigung preferred: bevorzugte, zogst vor, zogen vor, zog vor, vorgezogen, bevorzugtet, bevorzugten, zogt vor, bevorzugt, bevorzugtest prejudices: Vorurteile preparation: Vorbereitung, Zubereitung, Aufbereitung, Präparat, Bereitung, Präparation, Anfertigung, Vorbehandlung, Erzeugung, Verfertigung, Bereitstellung preparations: Vorbereitungen prepares: bereitet vor, bereitet,

bereitet zu, richtet zu preparing: vorbereitend, bereitend, zubereitend, Vorbereiten, Zubereiten, Anrichten, Herrichten, zurichtend presently: gegenwärtig, bald, jetzt presents: Geschenke preserve: einmachen, konservieren, einlegen, bewahren, erhalten, Konserve, aufbewahren, einkochen, wahren, bergen, behalten preserves: Eingemachte, Konfekt, Konfitüre, Konserven pressed: gepresst, gedrückt pretend: vorgeben, geben vor, gibst vor, gebe vor, gebt vor, gib vor, vortäuschen, täuschen vor, täuscht vor, täuschst vor, täusche vor pretended: gab vor, vorgegeben, gabt vor, gaben vor, gabst vor, täuschtet vor, täuschtest vor, täuschten vor, täuschte vor, vorgetäuscht, angeblich pretending: Vorgebend, Vortäuschend, heuchelnd, heuchlerisch pretty: hübsch, ziemlich, nett, schön priceless: unbezahlbar, unschätzbar pride: Stolz, Hochmut, Hoffahrt prided: bildete sich ein prince: Prinz, Fürst princess: Prinzessin, Fürstin print: drucken, Druck, Abzug, Abdruck, Ausdruck, Prägung, Fotoabzug, prägen, bedrücken printed: gedruckt, bedruckt, trübsinnig, niedergeschlagen, bedrückt, ausgedruckt, abgedruckt prison: Gefängnis, Strafanstalt, Verlies, Kerker, Strafvollzugsanstalt privacy: Ruhe, Privatleben privately: privat privilege: Privileg, Vorrecht, Vergünstigung, Privilegium, Privilegieren, bevorzugen, begünstigen, Vorzug, Vorzugsrecht prizes: Preise procedure: Verfahren, Prozedur, Ablauf, Gerichtsverfahren, Vorgehen, Methode, Rechtsverfahren proceed: weitergehen, vorgehen, fortfahren, gehe vor, gehe weiter, geht weiter, geht vor, gehst weiter, gehst vor, gehen weiter, fahre fort proclaimed: proklamiert, proklamierten, proklamiertest, proklamierte, proklamiertet prod: spitzt an, stochert, stochre, stoße, anspitzen, spitze an, spitzen an, stochere, stoßt, stochern, stoßen produces: produziert, erzeugt, bringt

Fyodor Dostoyevsky hervor profitable: gewinnbringend, vorteilhaft, einträglich, rentabel, lohnend, profitabel, nutzbringend, fruchtbringend, lukrativ, ergiebig, einbringlich profound: tief, tiefschürfend, gründlich, tiefsinnig, weise, innig, zärtlich, profund, tiefgründig, tiefgehend, tiefdenkend prolonged: anhaltend, verlängert, verlängerte, verlängerten, dehntet aus, ausgedehnt, dehnte aus, dehnten aus, dehntest aus, verlängertet, verlängertest promotion: Promotion, Beförderung, Förderung promotions: Beförderungen, Verkaufsfördernde Aktionen promptitude: die Bereitwilligkeit, die Promptheit, die Pünktlichkeit, die Schnelligkeit, Promptheit, Promptheits promptly: sofort, prompt prone: anfällig pronounced: sprach aus, ausgesprochen, spracht aus, sprachst aus, sprachen aus, ausgeprägt proper: passend, richtig, geeignet, gehörig, ordentlich, angebracht, eigen, korrekt, angemessen, exakt, schicklich propped: gestützt, stützte prosaic: prosaisch prose: Prosa prosperity: Wohlstand, Prosperität, Glück, Erfolg, Gedeihen, Wohlbefinden, Wohl, Segen, Heil prostrate: niederwerfen, erschöpft, hingestreckt protest: Einspruch, protestieren, Protest, anfechten, beanstanden, Widerspruch, Gegenrede, Einspruch erheben protesting: protestieren proud: stolz, hochmütig, gönnerhaft, trotzig, stattlich, selbstgefällig, selbstbewußt, ruhmreich, aufgebläht, anmaßend, grandios prove: beweisen, beweise, beweist, nachweisen, belegen, erweisen, vorweisen, prüfen, erweist, erweise, erhärten proved: bewiest, bewiesen, bewies, erwies, belegten, geprüft, belegtest, belegtet, bewährt, erwiesen, erwiest providence: Vorsehung province: Provinz, Bereich, Bezirk, Gegend, Gouvernement, Gebiet, Landstrich, Rechtsgebiet, Region, Zone, Ort

provincial: provinziell, regional, provinzialisch proving: beweisend, belegend, erweisend provocation: Herausforderung, Provokation provoked: reiztet, reizten, reiztest, gereizt, reizte, reizten auf, reizte auf, herausgefordert, provoziertest, provozierten, provozierte proximity: Nähe psalms: Psalmen psychology: Psychologie publicity: Öffentlichkeit, Werbung, Propaganda, Publizität, Meldung, Verlautbarung, Ruchbarkeit, Bekanntgabe, Bekanntmachung, Mitteilung publicly: öffentlich pull: ziehen, ziehe, zieht, ziehst, zerren, zerre, zerrst, zerrt, reißen, Anziehen, reißt pulled: gezogen, zogst, zogen, zog, zogt, gezerrt, zerrtet, zerrtest, zerrte, zerrten, riß pulling: Ziehend, zerrend, reißend, Verreißend, Ziehen, verziehend pulp: Brei, Fruchtfleisch, Zellstoff, Pulpa, Mus punch: Punsch, Faustschlag, Stempel, Durchschlag, Locher, Schlag, schlagen, Stanze, stanzen, punzen, Puff punched: gestanzt punctually: pünktlich punish: bestrafen, bestrafst, bestraft, bestrafe, strafen, straft, strafst, strafe, ahnden, züchtigen, ahndest punishment: Strafe, Bestrafung, Züchtigung, Strafmittel, Strafinstrument puppy: Welpe, Jung, Junge, Junger Hund pure: rein, pur, sauber, blank, lauter, nicht verschnitten, reinlich, glockenrein, unverfälscht, unvermischt, ausschließlich purification: Reinigung, Klärung purify: reinigen, reinigst, reinige, reinigt purposed: beabsichtigte purposely: absichtlich, vorsätzlich purposes: Absichten, Absicht pursue: verfolgen, verfolgt, verfolgst, verfolge, nachzusetzen, fahnden pursuit: Verfolgung pursuits: Verfolgungen push: schieben, stoßen, Stoß, drücken, dringen, treiben, Drücker, Trieb, Knopf, rücken pushed: angestoßen pushes: stöße

157 puts: setzt, stellt, steckt qualities: Qualitäten quarrel: Streit, Zank, Zwietracht, zanken, Wortwechsel, streiten, Disput, Auseinandersetzung, Fehde, schimpfen, schelten quarrelling: streiten quarrels: Steitigkeiten, Zankt, Kräche, Streitereien quarters: Viertel queen: Königin, Dame, Kaiserin, Fürstin queer: seltsam, sonderbar, verdächtig, komisch, eigenartig, schwul queerly: seltsam quest: Suche, Suchen, Nachsuchung questioning: fragend, Befragung quick: schnell, rasch, hurtig, geschwind, flüchtig, prompt, flott, kurz, wach quiet: ruhig, still, leise, beruhigen, Ruhe, sanft, Stille, unbesorgt, Kalme, Frieden, fromm quietly: ruhig, leise, still, kalm quiver: zittern, beben, Köcher, zucken, brennen, klopfen, unruhig warten auf etwas rabble: Gesindel, Pöbel, Zucht, Brut, Gezücht raccoon: Waschbär radical: radikal, einschneidend, Radikale, extremistisch, Extremist, fundamental, eingehend rag: Lappen, Fetzen, Lumpen, kleiner Lappen, einem die Fuchstaufe erteilen, Flicken, Hader, Stoffetzen, Stofflappen, wertlose Zeug, Wisch rage: Wut, rasen, wüten, toben, tosen, Raserei, schimpfen, donnern, ausfahren, schelten, Zorn raged: gerast ragged: zerlumpt, zottig, zerfetzt, verludert, verlottert, armselig, unansehnlich, schlottrig, schäbig, mittellos, elend rags: Lumpen, Klamotten, Lappen, Kluft, Fetzen rain: Regen, regnen, der Regen raise: heben, erhöhen, aufziehen, erheben, Erhöhung, aufheben, anheben, erziehen, herbeiziehen, hinzuziehen, bilden raising: sich erhebend, Erhöhung, aufbringend, steigernd rake: Harke, harken, Rechen, lockere Vogel, Schürzenjäger, zusammenharken random: zufällig, willkürlich, wahlfrei, zufallsbedingt, ziellos, wahllos rank: Rang, Reihe, Grad, Stand,

158 Kette, Würde, Amtswürde, ausrichten, in Reih und Glied aufstellen, Leine, Linie rapid: Schnell, rasch, geschwind, hurtig, Schnelle, Stromschnelle rapidly: schnell rapturously: hingerissen, entzückt rare: selten, rar, blutig, außergewöhnlich, knapp, seltsam rarely: selten rarity: Seltenheit, Rarität rascal: Bengel, Schurke, Hundsfott, Schalk, Rüpel, Rotznase, Rabauke, Lumpenkerl, Lump, Schmierfink, Iltis rascals: Schufte, Halunken, Schalke, Schurken, Schweine, Schelme, Schlingel rational: rational, vernünftig, rationell, vernunftgemäß, logisch, intellektuelle, geistige, begründet, mentale rationalism: Rationalismus rationally: vernünftig, rational rats: Ratten reaches: reicht reaching: Reichend, Erreichen, Erreichend reactionary: Reaktionär readers: Leser readily: leicht, fertig, bereit, bereitwillig, mühelos, schlechthin, rasch readiness: Bereitschaft realise: realisieren, bemerken realised: Verwirklicht realising: Erkennen realistic: realistisch, wirklich, reel reality: Wirklichkeit, Realität, Gewißheit, Wesenheit, Wahrheit, Festigkeit, Essenz, Halt reasonable: vernünftig, angemessen, mäßig, klug, gescheit, anständig, verständig, redlich, fair, korrekt, ehrlich reasoning: Argumentation, Argumentierend, Beweisführung, Denken, Gedankengang reassert: wieder behaupten, bekräftige, bekräftigen, bekräftigt, bekräftigst rebuff: die Zurückweisung, Schroff Abweisung, die Abfuhr, Abschlägig Bescheid, die Absage recall: erinnern, Abberufung, sich erinnern, sich entsinnen, abberufen, gedenken, Mahnen, Abruf, sich besinnen, behalten, Rückruf recalled: wiedergerufen recalling: abberufend receiving: empfangend, erhaltend, empfang, Hehlerei, Annahme, in

Notes from Underground Empfangnahme recherche: Recherche reckon: rechnen, rechnest, rechne, rechnet, zählen, meinen reckoned: gerechnet, rechnetest, rechnetet, rechneten, rechnete reckoning: Rechnend, Berechnung recognise: eingestehen, erkennen, anerkennen, zugeben recognised: Erkannt, anerkannt recognitions: Anerkennungen recollection: Erinnerung, Andenken, Gedächtnis recollections: Erinnerungen recommended: empfahlt, empfahl, empfahlen, empfahlst, empfohlen, priesen an, angepriesen, priest an, pries an recompense: Entgelt, belohnen reconciled: versöhntet, versöhntest, versöhnten, versöhnte, versöhnt recurring: wiederkehrend reduced: reduzierte, reduzierten, reduziertest, reduziertet, reduziert, vermindert, verminderten, vermindertet, verminderte, vermindertest, mäßigte referred: verwiesen, verwies, verwiest refined: verfeinert, verfeinertet, verfeinertest, raffiniertest, verfeinerten, verfeinerte, raffiniert, raffinierte, raffinierten, raffiniertet, fein refinement: Verfeinerung, Veredelung, Feinheit, Raffinesse, Raffinement, Finesse reflected: reflektierten, reflektiertest, reflektierte, reflektiert, reflektiertet, abgespiegelt reflection: Reflexion, Spiegelbild, Abglanz, Widerspiegelung, Reflektion, Spiegelung, Widerschein, Wiederspiegeln, Gegenbild, Widerhall, Besinnung reflections: Reflexionen reform: Reform, reformieren, neugestalten, Verbesserung, erneuern reformation: Reformation, Kirchenreform, Reformierung, Reform reforming: reformieren, reformierend refrain: Refrain, Kehrreim refraining: zurückhaltend refuge: Zuflucht, Schutz, Hort, Luftschutzraum, Ruhepunkt, Schlupfloch, Schlupfwinkel, Unterkunft, Unterschlupf, Unterstand, Zufluchtstätte refusal: Weigerung, Ablehnung, Verweigerung, Absage

refuse: verweigern, Abfall, ablehnen, abschlagen, Ausschuss, versagen, abweisen, ausschlagen, weigern refused: abgewiesen, verweigerte refuses: verweigert refusing: ablehnend, Abweisen, Zurückweisen, Abschlagen, Ablehnen refuting: widerlegend regard: Achtung, betrachten, berücksichtigen, berücksichtigt, betrachtet, betrachtest, betrachte, berücksichtige, berücksichtigst, ansehen, siehst an regardless: ohne Bezug, ungeachtet, unbekümmert, trotzdem, ohne Rücksicht, achtlos, ohne Rücksicht auf regards: grüße, berücksichtigt, betrachtet, sieht an regeneration: Änderung, Metamorphose, Erneuerung, Umänderung, Regenerierung, Regeneration register: Register, registrieren, Verzeichnis, eintragen, einschreiben, Liste, empfehlen, Passer, buchen, anheuern, anmelden regret: Bedauern, bereuen, etwas bedauern, leid tun, beweinen, beklagen, betrauern regretted: bedauerte regulation: Vorschrift, Regelung, Regulierung, Reglementierung, Verordnung, Regel, Bereich der Brennspannung, Richtlinie reins: Zügel, Zäume rejected: reflektiert rejoice: sich freuen, frohlocken, frohlocke, frohlockst, frohlockt rejoiced: frohlockt, frohlockte, frohlockten, frohlocktest, frohlocktet, freute sich relation: Beziehung, Verhältnis, Zusammenhang, Verbindung, Relation, Verwandtschaft, Verwandte, Verbundenheit, Verband, Schicksalsverbundenheit, Hinsicht relax: entspannen, entspanne, entspannst, entspannt, sich entspannen, lockern, vertreten, ausruhen relief: Erleichterung, Linderung, Ablösung, Relief, Hilfe, Entlastung, Milderung, Entsatz, Unterstützung relish: schlecken, naschen, Geschmack, genießen reluctantly: widerstrebend, ungern, widerwillig, unwillig, widerspenstig, zögernd rely: vertrauen, sich verlassen, baut,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky vertraut, gebaut, bauen, baust, baue, bau, vertraue, vertraust remaining: übrig, restlich, bleibend, verbleibend, zurückbleibend, sonstig remark: Bemerkung, Anmerkung, Kommentar, bemerken, Äußerung, Tadel remarkable: bemerkenswert, beachtenswert, beachtlich, außergewöhnlich, auffallend remarks: Bemerkungen, markiert remembered: gedachtet, erinnertest, erinnerten, erinnert, gedachtest, gedachten, gedachte, gedacht, erinnertet, erinnerte, bedachten remembrance: Erinnerung, Andenken, Gedächtnis, Memorandum, Mahnung, Abberufung, Erinnerungsvermögen, Denkwürdigkeit, Denkschrift remind: erinnern, erinnerst, erinnert, erinnre, erinnere, mahnen reminded: erinnert, erinnerte, erinnerten, erinnertest, erinnertet reminding: erinnernd reminiscences: Erinnerungen remorse: Gewissensbisse, Reue remote: Entfernt, abgelegen, entlegen, fern, weit, vereinsamt rending: leistend renew: erneuern, erneuere, erneuerst, erneuert, erneure, verlängern renewal: Erneuerung, Neuerung, Neugestaltung renounce: verzichten, verzichtet, verzichtest, verzichte, entsagen, verstossen, verstoßt, verstößt, entsagt, entsagst, entsage rent: Miete, mieten, Pacht, vermieten, Pachtzins, verleihen, Mietzins repaid: vergalt, vergalten, vergaltet, vergaltst, vergolten repay: vergelten, vergelte, vergeltet, vergilt, vergiltst, zurückzahlen repeat: Wiederholen, wiederhole, wiederholt, wiederholst, Wiederholung, Wiederholungstest, nacherzählen, entgegnen, wiedergeben repeated: wiederholtest, wiederholten, wiederholte, wiederholt, wiederholtet, abermalig repeatedly: wiederholt, wiederholend, immer, jedesmal, mehrfach repelling: abweisend, abstoßend repented: bereuten, bereute, bereutest, bereut, bereutet replaced: ersetztet, ersetztest, ersetzten, ersetzte, ersetzt, wechselten aus, ausgewechselt,

wechselte aus, wechseltest aus, wechseltet aus replied: antwortete reproach: Vorwurf, Tadel, vorwerfen, zurechtweisen, Vorwürfe machen, Verübeln, tadeln, schelten, rügen, nachtragen, vorhalten reproaches: wirft vor reproaching: vorwerfend repulsed: abgewiesen repulsion: Abstoßung repulsive: abstoßend, abscheulich, widerwärtig, widerlich, grausig, häßlich, schauervoll, schaurig, schrecklich, unappetitlich, graus reputation: Ruf, Ansehen, Reputation, Name, Bekanntheit, Schrei, Ehre rescue: retten, Rettung, erretten, erlösen, Bergung, Errettung, bergen, Befreiung resemblance: Ähnlichkeit, Gleichförmigkeit, Augenscheinlichkeit, Gleichnis, Übereinstimmung, Verwandtschaft, Ebenbild resented: übelgenommen resentful: mißmutig, mißgünstig, verdrießlich, unwillig, nachtragend resentfully: ärgerlich, nachtragende resentment: Ärger, Verstimmung, Mißgunst, Ressentiment resentments: Verstimmungen resigned: dankte ab, verzichtete, verzichteten, verzichtet, verzichtetet, danktet ab, danktest ab, dankten ab, verzichtetest, abgedankt, sich fügend resolutely: entschlossen resolution: Auflösung, Resolution, Lösung, Beschluss, Entschlossenheit, Ergebnis, Bestimmtheit, Antwort, Entschluss, Tapferkeit, Sicherheit resolutions: Entschlüsse, Beschlußfassungen resolved: aufgelöst, entschlossen resource: Betriebsmittel, Hilfsquelle, Ressource respect: Achtung, Respekt, respektieren, Ansehen, Ehrfurcht, Hinsicht, Ehrerbietung, Rücksicht, achten, Achtung erweisen respectable: ehrbar, ansehnlich, ehrenhaft, beträchtlich, achtbar, anständig, wichtig, bieder, ziemlich, respektabel, korrekt respected: geachtet, angesehen, respektiert respectful: ehrerbietig, achtungsvoll, respektvoll, ehrfurchtsvoll, andächtig respectfully: respektvoll,

159 hochachtungsvoll respecting: respektierend, achtend respond: antworten, antwortest, antwortet, antworte, reagieren, ansprechen, reagierst, reagiere, reagiert, beantworten, erwidern restaurant: Restaurant, Restauration, Gaststätte, das Restaurant, Kantine, Speiselokal restless: ruhelos, rastlos, unruhig restrain: zurückhalten, hältst zurück, haltet zurück, halten zurück, halte zurück, beherrschen, beherrsche, beherrscht, beherrschst, enthalten, sich beruhigen restrained: hielt zurück, hielten zurück, hieltest zurück, hieltet zurück, zurückgehalten, beherrschtet, beherrscht, beherrschte, beherrschten, beherrschtest, verlegen restraint: Zurückhaltung, Beherrschung, Verschlossenheit, Reserviertheit restrictions: Einschränkungen retain: beibehalten, zurückhalten, behalte bei, hältst zurück, haltet zurück, halten zurück, behalten bei, halten, behaltet bei, halte zurück, behältst bei retaining: beibehaltend, zurückhaltend, behaltend, einbehaltend retire: pensionieren, pensioniert, pensioniere, pensionierst, ausscheiden, scheidest aus, scheidet aus, scheiden aus, scheide aus, in den Ruhestand versetzen, sich zurückziehen retired: pensioniert, pensionierte, pensioniertet, pensionierten, pensioniertest, zog zurück, im Ruhestand, schieden aus, schied aus, zurückgetreten, schiedest aus retort: Retorte, erwidern retreat: Rückzug, Abzug, Exerzitien, Exerzitienhaus, Exerzitienhäuser, Freizeit returning: die Rückkehr, Rückkehr, zurückkehrend reveal: offenbaren, enthüllen, offenbare, offenbart, offenbarst, hinterkommen, entdecken, aufbieten, herausbringen, ausfindig machen, aufdecken revenge: Rache, Revanche, Vergelten, Vergeltung, Rachsucht, Sich rächen, Sich revanchieren revenged: gerächt, rächte revenges: rachen, rächt reverence: Ehrfurcht reverend: ehrwürdig, Hochwürden

160 revolt: Aufstand, revoltieren, Revolte, Aufruhr, rebellieren, auflehnen, sich empören, Empörung revolted: aufgelehnt revolting: abscheulich revoltingly: widerlich, ekelhaft, abstoßend, abscheulich revulsion: Ableitung, Umschwung rhyme: reim, reimen, Reimerei ribald: deftig ribaldry: Schlüpfrigkeit, Schäbigkeit, Obszönität rid: befreien ridiculed: verspottet ridiculous: lächerlich, lachhaft, ridikul, absurd riding: Reiten, herumreitend, reitend rightful: rechtmäßig rigid: starr, steif, unbeugsam, streng, stelzbeinig, standhaft, straff, stier, unerschütterlich, starrköpfig, unverwandt rising: aufgehend, Steigen, steigend, Anschwellen, Anwachsen, Sich erheben, Hinaufkommen, Erhebung, Emporkommen roads: Straßen, Strecken, Wege robbed: geraubt, raubtet, raubtest, raubte, raubten, geplündert, plünderte, plünderten, plündertest, plündertet, beraubten robs: raubt, plündert, beraubt, raubt aus rogue: Schurke, Gauner, Spitzbube, Schelm, Schalk, Kanaille, Lausbube, Racker, Scherzbold, Schlauberger, Schlingel rogues: Schurken, Schalke roman: römisch, Römer, inLateinschrift romantic: Romantisch, schwärmerisch romanticism: Romantik romantics: Romantisch rome: Rom rooms: Zimmer root: Wurzel, die Wurzel, Stamm roots: Wurzel, Wurzeln rosy: rosig, rosenfarbig rotting: Verfaulend, Faulend, Verwesung, Verrottend, Vergammelnd, Verfall, Morsch, Auflösung, Abfaulen rouble: Rubel rough: rau, roh, holperig, arg, borstig, brummig, uneben, ungefähr, unwirsch, grob roughly: ungefähr, grob, annähernd, geschätzt rouse: wecken, weckst, weckt, wecke, stimulieren, reizen, erregen, aufhetzen, ermutigen, anregen,

Notes from Underground anfeuern roused: geweckt, weckten, wecktest, weckte, wecktet rousing: weckend, wachrufend, stürmisch rubbed: gerieben rubbing: Reiben, Reibend rubbish: Schutt, Abfall, Müll, Bruch, Kehricht, Ausschuß, Verdrehtheit, Trümmer ruby: Rubin, Rubinrot rude: unverschämt, unhöflich, unanständig, ungezogen, grob, barsch, unverfroren rudely: flegelhaft, grob, unverschämt rudeness: Grobheit, Unverschämtheit, Frechheit, Dreistigkeit ruin: Ruine, verderben, Ruin, Trümmer, ruinieren, umbringen, Trümmerhaufen, vergiften, verheeren, verleiden, vergällen ruined: vernichtet, zu nichte gemacht, zerstört, verwüstet, abgewirtschaftet, in Trümmern rush: hetzen, Eile, eilen, Andrang, Gedränge, hasten, Anstürmen, jagen, Gedrängtheit, Getreibe, Hast rushed: gehetzt rushing: Hetzend rusks: Zwieback russia: Russland russian: russisch, Russe, russische Sprache, Russin russians: Russen rut: Wagenspur sack: Sack, entlassen, Beutel, plündern, verabschieden, abdanken, Rausschmiß sacrifice: opfern, Opfer, Aufopferung, aufopfern, aufgeben, erbieten, Geschädigte, Hingabe, Opfertier, sich erbieten sacrificed: geopfert, aufgeopfert sacrifices: opfert sad: traurig, schlimm, betrüblich, vergrämt, trist, düster sage: Salbei, Weise, Klug, Gescheit sake: Seinetwegen, Wille, Willen, der Sake, der Willen, Sake salaries: Gehälter salary: Gehalt, Lohn, Besoldung, Gage, Monatslohn, Verdienst, Salär, Arbeitslohn, Erwerbseinkünfte, Einkünfte, Einkommen sallies: bricht auf sallow: bleich, fahl, teigig, farblos, blaß, blässlich salt: Salz, Salzen, Einsalzen, Einkochen, Konservieren, Salzig, Einpökeln, Einlegen, das Salz, Pökeln, Einmachen

salvation: Heil, Seelenheil, Rettung, Erlösung sang: sangt, sangst, Sangen, Sang, Gesungen sank: sanken sarcasm: Sarkasmus, Spott sarcastic: sarkastisch, scharf, anzüglich, gehässig, schneidend, bissig, ätzend, stoppelig, stachlig, beißend sarcastically: sarkastisch satire: Satire, Spottschrift, Schmähschrift, Spottgedicht, Spottvers satisfaction: Befriedigung, Genugtuung, Zufriedenstellung, Erfüllung, Sympathie, Vergnügen, Wiedergutmachungsleistung, Wohlwollen, Zufriedenheit satisfactorily: zufrieden stellend satisfied: befriedigtet, befriedigtest, befriedigten, befriedigte, befriedigt, zufrieden, satt, gesättigt, gefüllt, voll satisfies: befriedigt satisfy: befriedigen, befriedigt, befriedigst, befriedige, zufrieden stellen, genügen, stillen sauce: Soße, Sauce, Tunke, Brühe sauntering: schlendernd, bummelnd, bummeln, flanieren, geschlender, schlendern savage: wild, grausam, Wilde savagely: wild saved: rettetet, rettetest, retteten, rettete, gerettet, speichertest, speicherten, gespeichert, speicherte, speichertet, spartet saviour: Retter savour: Geschmack scandal: Skandal, Ärgernis scanned: tasteten ab, tastetest ab, tastetet ab, abgetastet, tastete ab, überflogen, überflog, überflogt, überflogst scanning: Abtastung, abtastend, überfliegend, Lesend scarcely: kaum, fast kein, schwerlich, knapp, gering, fast keine scare: erschrecken, zurückschrecken, aufschrecken, Schrecken, abschrecken scaring: schrecken, aufschreckend scatter: streuen, zerstreuen, streue, streust, streut, Streuung, zerstreut, zerstreust, auseinandertreiben, zerstreue, auseinanderstieben scepticism: Skepsis, Skeptizismus schoolfellow: der Schulkamerad, der Mitschüler scolding: Ausputzer, Gekeife, Geschimpfe, Geschrei, Gezänk, Keiferei, zankend

Fyodor Dostoyevsky score: Spielstand, Partitur, kerbe, ein Tor schießen, erzielen, Zeche, Punktwertung, Spielergebnis, Punkte erzielen, Ergebnis scorn: Hohn, Verachtung, verachten, Bitterkeit, Gespött, Schärfe scornful: verächtlich, höhnisch, verspottend, schofel, schmählich, geringschätzig, geringschätzend, abschätzig, abfällig scoundrel: Schurke, Halunke, Schuft, Kanaille, Galgengesicht, Iltis, Hundsfötter, Aas, Giftnudel, GeriebeneKerl, Dreckskerl scoundrels: Schufte, Schurken scowling: starrend scraping: Kratzend scratch: kratzen, Kratzer, Schramme, ritzen, kratzen auf, Linie, radieren, schaben, sich scheuern, Strich, schrapen scream: schreien, Schrei, Geheul, Schnitzer, Ruf, plärren, Irrtum, herausschreien, Ausruf, Aufschrei, Fehler screams: Schreien screen: Bildschirm, Schirm, Leinwand, Raster, abschirmen, Vorhang, Gitter, Vergitterung, Kulisse, Drahtgitter, Gitterzaun scurrying: hastend sealed: versiegelt, abgedichtet, frankiert seat: Sitz, Sitzplatz, Platz, Setzen, Brille, der Sitz, Sessel, Einpassen, Sitzbank, Sitzfläche, Sitzgelegenheit secondary: Sekundär, an zweiter Stelle, mittler, zweitrangig seconds: Sekundanten, Sekunden, Ware zweiter Qualität, Zweitbesten, Zweite Wahl secret: Geheimnis, geheim, heimlich, verborgen, Hehl, verstohlen, Mysterium, Geheimnisvolle, Rätselhafte secretly: heimlich, geheim, im geheimen, unter der Hand, doppelzüngig, heimtückisch, verstohlen, hinterlistig, illegal, nicht erlaubt, tückisch secrets: Geheimnisse seduce: verführen, verführt, verführst, verführe, verlocken seeing: sehend, sägend, wahrnehmend seek: suchen, suche, suchst, sucht, ausschauen nach, aufsuchen seeking: Suchend seeming: scheinend, scheinbar sees: Sieht, sägt seething: siedend, Kochen, kochend, Sieden

seigneur: Feudalherr seize: ergreifen, ergreife, greifen, ergreifst, ergreift, greife, greifst, greift, beschlagnahmen, einziehen, hervorholen seized: ergriff, ergriffen, ergrifft, ergriffst, griff, gegriffen, griffen, griffst, grifft, zog ein, zogen ein seizing: Ergreifend, greifend, einziehend self: Selbst, Selber selling: Verkaufend, veräußernd, Verkauf, Verkäufe, Verkaufen semblance: Anschein senate: Senat sending: Schickend, Sendend, Sendung, abschickend, einsendend, Übermittlung, Übersendung, Postsendung, zusendend, übersendend, Versendend seniors: Senioren sensation: Sensation, Empfindung, Sinn, Aufsehen sensations: Sensationen, Empfindungen senseless: bewusstlos, unvernünftig, sinnlos, unsinnig, blöde, unklug, gedankenlos, dämlich, besinnungslos, töricht, dumm senselessly: sinnlos senses: Sinne sensible: vernünftig, gescheit, verständig, bewusst, klug, spürbar, sinnvoll, sachverständig, geschickt, geistig, einsichtsvoll sensitive: empfindlich, empfindsam, sensibel, feinfühlig, einfühlsam, empfänglich, sensitiv sentimental: sentimental, empfindsam, melodramatisch, gefühlvoll, gefühlsduselig, rührselig sentimentality: Sentimentalität sentiments: Empfindungen, Gefühle separated: getrennt, gesondert, abgesondert, geschieden, entbunden, geteilt, aufgeteilt, aufgelöst, auseinander gegangen separately: getrennt, separat, besonders, einzeln, für sich, gesondert, eigens serenely: gelassen, ruhig serfs: Leibeigenen seriously: ernst, ernsthaft, schwer sermon: Predigt, Epistel servant: Diener, Dienstbote, Knecht, Bursche, Bedienstete, Dienerin, Bediente, Dienstmädchen, Gehilfe, Magd, Stallknecht serve: bedienen, dienen, bedient, bedienst, bediene, auftragen, dient, Dienst, diene, tragen auf, trägst auf servile: servil, unterwürfig, sklavisch

161 servitude: Sklaverei, Dienstbarkeit, Leibeigenschaft, Frondienst, Frone sets: Sätze setting: Einstellung, Fassung, setzend, Justierung, Fassung eines Juwels, Setzen settle: beilegen, besiedeln, legen bei, ebnen, besiedelst, besiedelt, besiedle, tilgen, egalisieren, sinken, sich niederlassen settled: legten bei, besiedelten, besiedelt, besiedeltest, beigelegt, legtet bei, legtest bei, besiedelte, legte bei, besiedeltet, sich niedergelassen habende seventy: siebzig severe: streng, ernst, hart, schwer, straff, scharf, heftig, fest, eisern, schlimm, handfest severity: Strenge, Härte, Unerbittlichkeit, Schwierigkeit, Ernst sewing: Vernähend, Nähend, Stickerei, heftend shabby: schäbig, abgetragen, ärmlich, armselig, armutig, dürftig, gering, verlottert shade: Schatten, schattieren, Schattierung, Farbton, Nuance, Abstufung, beschatten, Ton, Leuchtenschirm shaggy: zottig, struppig, gezottelt, haarig, rauhhaarig shake: schütteln, schüttelt, schüttle, schüttelst, schüttele, erschüttern, erschüttre, erschütterst, erschüttert, erschüttere, rütteln shaking: schüttelnd, erschütternd, rüttelnd, bebend, Schütteln sham: Anschein, Heuchler, Schein, Fassade shame: Scham, Schande, schade, Pfui shamefaced: schamhaft shameful: schändlich, beschämend shamefully: schändlich shamelessly: schamlos shamelessness: Schamlosigkeit shape: Form, Gestalt, formen, gestalten, bilden, Wuchs, Statur, Positur, kneten, Erscheinung, Figur sharp: scharf, herb, grell, schlau, schrill, schneidend, scharfsinnig, Kreuz, bündig, aufgeweckt, gerieben sharply: scharf, scharfäugig shattered: zerschmettertest, zerschmettertet, zerschmetterten, zerschmettert, zerschmetterte, zerrüttet, zerschmetterd, zertrümmerd shatters: zerschmettert shawl: Schal, Umschlagetuch,

162 Umhängetuch, Kopftuch, Umhang, Haartuch, Shawl, Halstuch shed: Schuppen, schupptet, schupptest, schuppten, schuppte, schuppt, schuppst, geschuppt, schuppe, vergießen, vergießt shedding: Vergiessend sheep: Schaf, Schafe, Hammel sheer: rein, bloß, schier, lauter, geradeweg, ehrlich, einfach, rundheraus, völlig, unverfälscht, pur shell: Muschel, Schale, Hülse, Rohbau, Gehäuse, Granate, Galvano, Aussenhaut, Borke, enthülsen, Kaskowohnung sherry: Sherry shielded: abgeschirmt, schützte shining: glänzend, strahlend, leuchtend, glimmend shirt: Hemd, Bluse, Trikot, Oberhemd shiver: zittern, zucken, beben, Splitter, Frösteln, schlottern, bibbern, Erschütterung, frieren, schaudern, Schauer shivers: Schauer, schaudert, Schauder shone: schien, geschienen shook: schütteltest, schütteltet, schüttelten, Schüttelte, erschüttertest, erschüttertet, erschütterten, Erschütterte, rütteltest, bebtet, bebtest shoot: schießen, schießt, schieße, Schößling, erschießen, Trieb, Sproß, Schuss, erschieße, feuern, erschießt shores: Ufer shorten: kürzen, verkürzen, verkürzt, verkürzst, verkürze, kürzt, kürze, abkürzen, beschränken, einkürzen, einschränken shoulder: Schulter, Achsel, schultern, tragen, die Schulter, Bankett, Seitenstreifen shouldering: schulternd shoulders: Schultern shout: schreien, Schrei, brüllen, herausschreien, rufen, kläffen, johlen shouted: geschrieen shouting: Schreien, schreiend shower: Dusche, Brause, Schauer, Sturzbad, Regenschauer, Duschen, Spritzbad, sich abduschen, Brausebad, Regenguß, Regen showing: Zeigend, aufweisend, Aufführung, weisend, vorführend, Vorstellung, Zeigen, Festlichkeit, Glanz, großsprecherisch, Vormachen shrieked: gekreischt

Notes from Underground shrieks: kreischt shrill: schrill, grell, höllisch, schroff, gellend, anzüglich, eindringlich, durchdringend, scharf klingend shrink: schrumpfen, einschrumpfen, schwinden, vermindern, zusammenschrumpfen, verringern, reduzieren, mindern, zurückgehen, einlaufen, abnehmen shudder: schaudern, Schauder, sich gruseln, sich grausen, grausen shuddering: schaudernd shut: schließen, geschlossen, zumachen, verschließen, zu, verriegeln, abdichten, abschliessen, zusperren, isolieren, sperren shy: Scheu, schüchtern, kopfscheu, verlegen, befangen siberia: Sibirien sick: krank, übel, geschmacklos, makaber sicken: erkranken, erkrankt, erkrankst, erkranke, anwidern sickened: erkrankten, erkranktest, erkranktet, erkrankte, erkrankt sickening: erkrankend, widerlich sickly: kränklich, krank, blass, übel, ungesund, widerlich, schlecht, eklig, ekelhaft sides: Seiten sideways: seitwärts, seitlich sieve: Sieb, durchsieben, sieben sigh: Seufzen, Seufzer, Gier, Sucht sighing: seufzen sighs: seufzer, seufzt sight: Anblick, Sicht, Sehen, Sichten, Aspekt, Aussehen, Gesicht, Sehvermögen sighted: gesichtet signed: unterzeichnet, gezeichnet significance: Bedeutung, Wichtigkeit, Signifikanz, Gewicht, Bedeutsamkeit, Wert, Tragweite, Stellenwert signs: das Zeichen, Hinweisschilder, Innenplakatierung, Schilder, die Beschriftung silence: Stille, Schweigen, Ruhe, Stillschweigen, das Schweigen auferlegen silent: schweigend, still, schweigsam, verschwiegen, ruhig, geräuschlos, stillschweigend silently: schweigend, still, geräuschlos, lautlos silly: Albern, blöd, dumm simplest: einfachste sin: Sünde, Sündigen, Sich versündigen, gegen etwas verstoßen sincerely: aufrichtig, ergebenst sincerity: Aufrichtigkeit, Herzlichkeit, Wohlgemeintheit

sing: singen, singe, singst, singt singing: singend, Gesang, Singen, Pfeifen sink: sinken, Spülbecken, Ausguss, senken, versenken, untergehen, versinken, einsinken, Waschtisch, Waschbecken, untertauchen sinking: Senkung sinning: Sündigen sins: Sünden sixteen: sechzehn sixty: sechzig skilfully: geschickt skill: Geschicklichkeit, Fertigkeit, Fähigkeit, Können, Geschick, Gewandtheit, Kunst, Könnerschaft, Kenntnisse, Wissen, Tüchtigkeit skinned: enthäutet, enthäutete, enthülst, gehäutet, geschält skirts: Röcke slam: zuschlagen, zuwerfen, zuknallen, Schlemm slandered: Beauftragte slap: Klaps, schlagen, Stoß, Schlag, Ohrfeige, Hieb, Hau, derber Schlag, Backenstreich slapped: geklatscht, schlug slaps: ohrfeigen, schläge, klatscht slave: Sklave, Sklavin, Knecht, Dienstsklave, Leibeigene slavery: Sklaverei, Sklavenarbeit, Knechtschaft, Sklavenleben slavish: sklavisch sledge: Schlitten, schlittenfahren, Schlitten fahren sleet: Schneeregen, graupeln sleight: der Dreh, der Trick, die Geschicklichkeit, Fertigkeit, Geschicklichkeit slight: geringfügig, Gering, leicht, klein, schwach, Kränkung, schmächtig slink: schleichen, schleiche, schleichst, schleicht slipped: ausgerutscht slovenly: schlampig, liederlich slow: langsam, träge, verlangsamen sluggard: Faul, Faulpelz slumbering: schlummernd sly: schlau, listig, durchtrieben, gewiegt, abgefeimt, verschlagen, gerieben, gerissen, spitzfindig, arglistig, ausgekocht smallest: kleinste, geringst, geringste, allergeringst, kleinst smarting: stechend smash: zerschmettern, zerschlagen, zerbrechen, Krach, brechen, entzwei gehen, in Stücke brechen, zermalmen, zertrümmern smell: Geruch, riechen, duften, stinken, wittern, Duft, Gestank

Fyodor Dostoyevsky smiling: Lächelnd smoothly: reibungslos, glatt, weich snap: Knacken, schnappen, Schnappschuß, schnipsen, kaputtmachen, aufbrechen, beschädigen, brechen snapped: geknackt, geknipste, schnappte snares: Fallstricke, Schlingen snatched: gegriffen sneaked: geschlichen snigger: kichern sniggering: kichernd snow: Schnee, Schneien, der Schnee snowy: verschneit, schneeig, schlackig, schneebedeckt snub: brüskieren, anfahren snug: behaglich, gemütlich, mollig snuggling: Kuschelnd soaked: durchnässt, durch und durch naß, getränkt, durchdrungen, durchgeweicht, klitschnaß, klatschnaß sob: Schluchzen, Schluchzer, flennen, greinen, heulen, plärren, schreien, herausschreien sobbed: geschluchzt sobbing: Schluchzen, Schluchzend, Weinen, Jammern, Geweine, Geschluchtze, Geheul sobs: Schluchzt so-called: sogenannt, sogenannte, quasi, gleichsam, angebliche, angeblich, vermeintlich sofa: Sofa, Couch, Kanapee, Divan, Sitzbank, Bank soft: weich, sanft, leise, nachgiebig, süß, schlaff, weich anfühlend, weichlich softened: weichtest auf, aufgeweicht, weichte auf, weichtet auf, weichten auf, erweichte, erweicht, erweichten, erweichtest, erweichtet, enthärtet softens: weicht auf, erweicht, enthärtet softer: weicher softly: weich, leise soil: Boden, Beschmutzen, Erde, Beflecken, Flecken, Sudeln, Erdboden, Grund, Besudeln, kleksen, verunreinigen sold: verkauftet, verkauftest, verkauft, verkauften, verkaufte, veräußert, veräußerten, veräußertest, veräußertet, veräußerte soldiers: Soldaten sole: sohle, Seezunge, einzig, alleinig, Fußsohle, besohlen, Schuhsohle, allein, bloß solely: nur, allein, einzig, einzig und allein, bloß, nur weil

solemn: feierlich, festlich, ernst, erhaben, herrschaftlich, würdig, würdevoll, stattlich, vornehm, königlich, hocherhaben solemnly: festlich, ernst, feierlich solitary: Einsam, allein, abgelegen, alleinig, bloß, solitär, nur, einzig, einzeln lebend solitude: Einsamkeit somehow: irgendwie, einigermaßen somewhat: etwas, ein wenig, ein bisschen, einigermaßen, ziemlich, halbwegs song: Lied, Gesang, Melodie, Liedchen, Gesänge, Ballade songs: Lieder sons: Söhne sooner: eher, früher soothing: beruhigend, mildernd, besänftigend, lindernd, beschwichtigend sorrow: Kummer, Sorge, Betrübnis, Leid sorrowful: kummervoll, traurig, vergrämt sorts: Sorten, Sortiert sought: suchtet, suchtest, suchten, gesucht, suchte soul: Seele, Gemüt soulful: seelenvoll souls: Seelen soundest: taktfesteste, ton spain: Spanien spare: verschonen, sparen, Ersatzteil, übrig, schonen, Ersatz, ersparen, nachsichtig sein, sparsam, achten, erübrigen spark: Funke, Funken, Fünkchen sparrows: Spatzen spat: Gamasche speaking: Sprechend, Redend speaks: Spricht specialist: Spezialist, Fachmann, Facharzt, Experte, fachkundige Person, Fachmänner, Sachkundige, Sachverständige specially: besonders, speziell, ausdrücklich spectacle: Schauspiel, Spektakel, Bühne, Podium, Schaubühne spectacles: Brille, Schauspiele, Augengläser spell: buchstabieren, Zauber, Bann, richtig schreiben, Zauberspruch sphere: Sphäre, Kugel, Bereich spheres: Bereiche, Kugeln, Bälle, Sphären spilt: verschüttet, verschütten spindly: spindeldürr spirit: Geist, Seele, Genius, Spiritus spiritless: lustlos, ohne Energie, Schlaff

163 spit: spucken, speien, Spucke, Ausspucken, auswerfen, Bratspieß, ausspeien spite: Boshaftigkeit spiteful: boshaft, gehässig, schadenfroh, gemein spitefully: boshaft spitting: Spucken spleen: Milz, Üble Laune splendid: großartig, prächtig, herrlich, glänzend, hervorragend, eindrucksvoll, gigantisch, gewaltig, erprobt, glorreich, enorm split: teilen, spalten, gespalten, Riss, Spaltung, Spalt, aufteilen, aufspalten, geteilt, Abspaltung, aufgeteilt spoiled: verdorben, verwöhnt spoken: gesprochen, gesagt sponge: Schwamm, der Schwamm, abwischen, schmarotzen spontaneously: spontan sport: Sport, Sportart sportive: mutwillig spot: Fleck, Punkt, Stelle, Flecken, Platz, Klecks, Stätte, beflecken, Ort, Werbespot, Tupf sprang: gesprungen, sprang, herstammen von, springen sprawling: ausbreitend, ausstreckend, riesig, sich der Länge nach hinstreckend, Ausgebreitet spurted: gespurtet, spurtete squabbling: Streiterei square: Quadrat, platz, Viereck, quadratisch, viereckig, Karree, rechtwinklig, Winkel, quadrieren, anständig, vierschrötig squealed: petzte squeezed: abgequetscht, quetschte, komprimierte stabbed: gestochen stain: Fleck, beflecken, flecken, Beize, beizen, Klecks, einflecken, beschmutzen, leicht schmutzig werden, sudeln stairs: Treppe, Treppen, Stiege stammering: stammelnd, stotternd, gestammel stamp: Briefmarke, Stempel, abstempeln, prägen, Stempeln, stampfen, Marke, Gepräge, Postwertzeichen, frankieren, Klebemarke stamping: stempeln, Stempelung, Prägung, Abstempeln, einstampfend standing: stehend, Stehen, stillstehend, gerade, Ansehen, aufrecht stands: Gestelle, Standplätze stare: starren, anstarren, stieren, anglotzen

164 stared: gestarrt stares: starrt staring: starrend, glotzend starting: Start, startend, Anstimmen, Anschneiden, Anlauf, Anfangen, Einsetzen, Anfahrt, Anheben, Angehen, anfahrend statistical: statistisch stayed: blieb, bliebst, blieben, bliebt, geblieben stealthy: heimlich, verstohlen, geheim steamy: dampfig, dunstig stench: Gestank, Geruch stepped: gestuft stern: Heck, ernst, das Heck, streng stick: stock, kleben, Stab, stecken, stechen, hapern, leimen, festfahren, Stange, stocken, aussetzen sticking: adhäsion, verwachsung, stecken, klebend, festklebend, einbrennen, einsatz sticks: stecken, zweig, taktstock, stück, stöcke, steuerknüppel, stechen, stange, rute, Reisig, stock stiff: Steif, starr, hart, schwierig, spröde, fest stiffly: steif stifle: ersticken, erstickt, erstickst, ersticke stifled: erstickt, erstickte, erstickten, ersticktest, ersticktet stifling: erstickend, stickig, schwül stillborn: totgeboren sting: stechen, Stachel, Stich, sticheln, stecken, strecken, stacheln, spritzen, verletzen, Pik, einstechen stinging: stechend, stachlig stingy: geizig, knauserig stinking: stinkend, schlecht riechend, stinkig stir: rühren, bewegen, Aufregung, aufwühlen, quirlen, erschüttern, Bewegung stirred: gemischt, durchgerührt stirring: mitreißend stole: Stola, Stahl, Stolle stolen: gestohlen, entfremdet stopping: aufhörend, Anhaltend, stoppend, Haltend, bremsend, abstellend, Ausscheiden, stoppen, aufhaltend, Aufhören store: Geschäft, Laden, aufbewahren, Speicher, lagern, speichern, Lager, ablegen, zurücklegen, bergen, Magazin stored: gespeichert, untergebracht storey: Stock, Etage, Stockwerk, Geschoß stories: Geschichten stove: Ofen, Herd, Feuerung, Erwärmung, Heizung

Notes from Underground straightforward: einfach, geradeheraus, aufrichtig, einfältig, offen straightforwardness: die Geradlinigkeit, Einfachheits, Einfachheit, Offenheit, die Überschaubarkeit, die Einfachheit, die Ehrlichkeit, die Direktheit, die Aufrichtigkeit, die Freimütigkeit, die Unkompliziertheit strained: gespannt, angestrengt, spannte an, angespannt, gehetzt, gereizt, gestreßt strange: seltsam, fremd, sonderbar, wunderlich, kurios, merkwürdig, fremdartig, komisch, absonderlich, ausländisch, befremdend strangely: merkwürdig, seltsam stranger: Fremder, Fremdling, Fremde strangers: Fremde, Fremder, Unbekannter strangling: Erdrosselnd, Erwürgend, drosselnd straw: Stroh, Strohern, Strohhalm straying: abirrend, abschweifen, abirrung, abschweifung streams: Ströme, Schwalle, Strömt streets: Straßen stretch: strecken, dehnen, spannen, aufziehen, Dehnbarkeit, beziehen, bespannen, ausweiten, Ausdehnung, anspannen, Strecke stretched: gedehnt, ausgestreckt, aufgespannt strictly: streng, genau strike: Streik, streiken, Streichen, schlagen, treffen, klopfen, indenAusstandtreten, imponieren, hauen, greifen, schlag striking: auffallend, eindrucksvoll, ungewöhnlich, schlagend, unverkennbar, prononciert, beachtenswert, hervorragend, plakativ, bemerkenswert, anschlagend strikingly: auffallend strive: sich bemühen, erstreben striving: Strebend, Bestrebend, Strebsam strode: schritt, überschreiten, Schreiten, ausschreiten, übersteigen, stiefelte, stiefeln, schreitete, gestiefelt, geschritten, durchschreiten stroke: Schlag, Strich, streicheln, Hub, Takt, Streich, Schlaganfall, Hieb, Infarkt, Liebkosen, Stoß stroll: spazieren, bummeln, Spaziergang, schlendern, flanieren, Bummel, promenieren, Rundgang, spazierengehen, trödeln,

herumschlendern stronger: stärker struck: angeschlagen struggle: Kampf, ringen, kämpfen, sich sträuben, Schlacht, sich wehren, Auseinandersetzung, abwehren, Ringkampf, zappeln, Wettkampf stubbornly: halsstarrig, bockig, eigensinnig, hartknäckig, hartnäckige, stur, hartnäckig stuck: eingeklemmt, verklemmt, festgeklebt, gesteckt, festsitzend, bedrängt studs: Stollen, Wandpfosten, Säulen, Beschlägt stuff: stopfen, Zeug, Stoff, füllen, ausstopfen, material, Substanz, präparieren, hineinstopfen, vollstopfen, pfropfen stuffing: Füllung, Füllsel, Füllstoff, Stopfend, Polstermaterial stumbling: stolpernd, poltern, gepolter, straucheln, stolpern stupefied: verblüfft, erschrocken, fassungslos, verblüffte, verblüfftest, verblüfftet, verblüfften stupid: dumm, albern, blöde, blödsinnig, stumpfsinnig, blöd, lächerlich stupider: Dümmer stupidity: Dummheit, Stumpfsinnigkeit, Geistlosigkeit, Einfältigkeit subdue: überwältigen, unterwerfen, überwältigst, überwältigt, unterwirfst, unterwirf, unterwerft, unterwerfe, überwältige, überwinden, bezwingen subjugate: unterwerfen, bezwingen, unterwirf, bezwinge, bezwingst, bezwingt, überwältigen, überwinden, unterbreiten, unterwerfe, unterwerft subjugated: unterwarf, unterwarfen, unterwarfst, unterwarft, unterworfen, bezwangt, bezwangst, bezwangen, bezwang, bezwungen subjugation: Unterwerfung, Unterjochung, Knechtung sublime: erhaben, sublim subscription: Abonnement, Zeichnung, Subskription subside: nachlassen, abfüllen, sinken, einsacken subtle: subtil, fein, zart, spitzfindig, gemütlich, dünn, feinsinnig, raffiniert subtlest: feinste subtleties: Feinheiten succeed: gelingen, gelingt, gelinge, gelingst, erfolg haben, folgen succeeded: gelangt, gelungen,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky gelangst, gelangen, gelang succeeds: gelingt successes: Erfolge successfully: erfolgreich sucking: Saugend, Vollsaugen sucks: saugt sudden: plötzlich, jäh, abrupt, unerwartet suffer: leiden, leide, leidet, leidest, ertragen, erleiden, dulden, erdulden, aushalten, schmachten, austragen suffered: litt, littst, littet, litten, gelitten sufferer: Leidende suffering: leidend, Leiden sufferings: Leidet suffers: leidet sufficed: genügtest, genügten, genügtet, genügt, genügte, reichten aus, ausgereicht, reichtet aus, reichtest aus, reichte aus, reichtet hin sufficiently: genügend, genug, ausreichend, hinlänglich, ziemlich sugar: Zucker, Einzuckern, Kandieren suit: Anzug, Kostüm, anpassen, Prozess, Gewand, fügen, Farbe, geziemen, klage, Sakkoanzug, Smoking suitable: geeignet, passend, angemessen, tauglich, tüchtig, zeitgemäß, gefühlig, füglich, gehörig suits: passt sullen: mürrisch, verdrießlich, mißmutig sullenly: mürrisch sum: Summe, Betrag, Addition, Aneinanderreihung, Rechenaufgabe, Ergebnis summon: rufen, einberufen, vorladen, herbeirufen, kommen lassen, aufbieten, Ladung, aufrufen, zu sich rufen, anrufen sunflower: Sonnenblume sunny: sonnig superficial: oberflächlich, flach superfluous: überflüssig superior: überlegen, höher, ausgezeichnet, hervorragend, Vorgesetzte, vorzüglich, oberer, sublim, Chef, übergeordnet, vortrefflich superiority: Übermacht, Überlegenheit, Überheblichkeit, Superiorität, Mehrheit, Majorität, Überzahl superiors: Überlegene, Vorgesetzte superstitious: abergläubisch supposed: vermeintlich, vermutete, vermuteten, vermutetest, vermutet,

vermutetet, angeblich, vorausgesetzt, unterstellt supposition: Annahme, Voraussetzung, Vermutung, Mutmaßung suppressed: unterdrückt, unterdrücktet, unterdrücktest, unterdrückten, unterdrückte, niedergehalten surely: sicherlich, bestimmt, wohl, freilich, immerhin, ja, ja doch, allerdings, sicher, zwar surged: gewogt surging: wogend surname: Familienname, Nachname, Zuname surprised: überrascht surprising: überraschend surrender: aufgeben, kapitulieren, sich ergeben, ergeben, Abtretung, sich übergeben, Übergabe, übergeben, überliefern, Verzichtleistung, zuerkennen surrounded: umgaben, umgabst, umgab, umgabt, umgeben, umrungen, umrangt, umrangst, umrangen, umrang, umzingeltest surrounding: umgebend, umringend, umliegend, umzingelnd, angrenzend, anliegend surroundings: Umgebung, Umgebungen suspect: verdächtigen, argwöhnen, vermuten, Verdächtige, fehlerverdächtig, ahnen, bezweifeln suspected: vermutet suspicion: Verdacht, Argwohn, Vermutung, Vorgefühl, Ahnung, Mißtrauen suspicious: argwöhnisch, misstrauisch, verdächtig swagger: stolzieren swaggered: schwadronierte, schwadronierten swaggering: die Angeberei swallow: Schwalbe, schlucken, Rauchschwalbe, Schluck, wegschlucken, Bauernschwalbe, herunterschlucken, hinunterschlingen, hinunterschlucken, runterschlucken, schlingen swarming: Gefummel, Gewimmel, Wimmeln, wimmelnd, Fummelei sway: schwingen, schwanken, wiegen, schwenken, schlingern, wanken, taumeln, schlingen, schleudern, schlenkern, pendeln swear: schwören, schwöre, schwörst, schwört, fluchen, beeidigen, beschwören, flucht, beeidigt, beeidige, fluche

165 swearing: schwörend, fluchend, Beeidigung, beeidigend, Krönung, feierliche Einsetzung, Vereidigung sweat: Schweiß, schwitzen sweet: süß, Bonbon, herzig, süßschmeckend, Nachtisch, Dessert, lieb sweetly: süß sweetness: Süßigkeit, Süße, Liebenswürdigkeit, Anmut, Lieblichkeit swooned: in Ohnmacht gefallen sword: Schwert, Säbel, Klinge, Degen, Rapier swore: schwurst, schwur, schwurt, schwuren, schwor, fluchtet, fluchtest, fluchten, fluchte, beeidigtet, beeidigten sworn: geschworen, bezeugt, schwören, beeidigt, geflucht, vereidigt sympathies: Sympathien tables: Tische, Tabellen tabulated: tabelliert tabulation: Tabellierung, Tabelle, Tabellarische Anordnung, Verzeichnis taciturn: schweigsam, wortkarg, wenig sprechend tact: Takt tactics: Taktik, Taktiken tactless: taktlos tailor: Schneider, schneidern, Maßschneider tales: Geschichten talked: redetet, redetest, geredet, redeten, redete, sprach tall: groß, hoch, lang, schlank, erhaben, stattlich, hochgewachsen tangent: Tangente, Tangens, Berührungsgerade, Berührungslinie tangle: verwirren, Gewirr, Chaos tap: Hahn, zapfen, Kran, Wasserhahn, anzapfen, abzapfen, Zapfhahn, abnehmen, Gewindebohrer, Hähne, klopfen taste: Geschmack, kosten, schmecken, probieren, abschmecken, Geschmackempfindung, testen, prüfen tatters: Fetzen, Lumpen, Zerfetzt taunting: stichelnd, verspottend, verspotten, Spott, Hohn, spottend taunts: stichelt tavern: Kneipe, Schenke, Gasthaus, Wirtshaus, Wirtschaft, Taverne, Krug, Schankwirtschaft, Ausschank, Café, Lokalität teach: lehren, lehrt, lehrst, Lehre, unterrichten, unterrichtet, unterrichte, unterrichtest, belehren, belehre, belehrst

166 teaching: Lehrend, unterrichtend, belehrend, instruierend, unterweisend, Beibringend, Lehren tear: zerreißen, Träne, einreißen, zerren, reißen, Riss, aufreißen, zupfen, zerlegen, zerfetzen, tränen tearfully: wehleidig tearing: Zeilenreißen, Zerreißen, durchreißend tears: Tränen teasing: Neckerei, reizend, Quälerei teeth: Zähne, Gebiss, zähnen, zahnen, Zahn telling: erzählend, befehlend, Erzählen, berichtend, sagend temper: Stimmung, härten, Laune, hart machen, abhärten, Humor, Temperament, stählen temples: Tempel, Schläfen tempted: versuchte, versuchten, versuchtest, versuchtet, versucht tender: zart, Angebot, weich, Verdingung, anbieten, Anerbieten, empfindlich, mürbe, präsentieren, Submission, sorgfältig tenements: Wohnungen terrestrial: terrestrisch, irdisch, weltlich, erdhaft terrible: schrecklich, furchtbar, entsetzlich, gräßlich terror: Schrecken, Schreck, Grauen, Entzetzen, Entsetzen testifies: bezeugt thankful: dankbar, erkenntlich theatre: Theater thee: dich, ihr, sie, du, dir, euch theirs: ihre, ihr, ihres, ihrer theme: Thema, Thema eines Buches, Inhalt eines Buches theoretical: theoretisch, spekulativ theories: Theorien thickly: dick thieves: Diebe, stiehlt thin: dünn, mager, hager thine: dein thinks: denkt thinner: Verdünnungsmittel, Verdünnung, Farbverdünner thirst: Durst, Dürsten thirsting: dürstend thirteen: dreizehn thoroughly: gründlich, durch und durch thou: Du, Sie, Ihr, Deiner, Dir, Dich thoughts: Gedanken, Dachte thousands: Tausende thrash: verhauen, verprügeln thrashing: Prügelnd threadbare: fadenscheinig, abgegriffen, abgenutzt, abgewetzt threaded: fädelte ein, eingefädelt, durchzogen

Notes from Underground threading: einfädelnd, durchziehen threaten: bedrohen, bedroht, drohen, bedrohe, bedrohst, drohe, drohst, droht, bevorstehen, dräuhen threatened: bedroht, bedrohtet, bedrohtest, bedrohten, bedrohte, drohten, gedroht, drohtet, drohtest, drohte threw: warf, geworfen throat: Kehle, Gurgel, Hals, Rachen throbbing: klopfend throw: werfen, Wurf, schleudern throwing: Schmeißen thrown: geworfen thrust: Schub, stoßen, Schubkraft, treiben, Druck, Vorstoß, dringen, rücken, Stoß, Staudruck thrusting: Stoßen thumping: Stöße thursday: Donnerstag thy: Dein tidy: ordentlich, sauber, geordnet, aufgeräumt, aufräumen, geordent, herb, gepflegt, tadellos, säuberlich tied: gebunden, verschnürte tier: Etage, Reihe, Stufe, Rang ties: Bänder tightly: fest, angestrengt, dicht till: Bis, Kasse, Geldkasten, Geldschublade, bis zu tilt: neigen, Neigung, Kippen, hinneigen timid: zaghaft, befangen, schüchtern, Furchtsam, scheu, verlegen, bang, verschämt timidity: Ängstlichkeit, Schüchternheit, Furcht, Scheu, Zaghaftigkeit, Verlegenheit, Bangigkeit, Scheuheit timidly: furchtsam tiny: winzig tip: Spitze, Trinkgeld, Zipfel, Wink, Hinweis, Gipfel, Tipp, kippen, Stift, Indiz, Kippe tirade: Tirade tired: müde, ermüdet, leid, satt, matt, ermattet toil: schleppen, sich fort schleppen tolerable: erträglich, tolerierbar, duldbar, erduldbar, leidlich, tolerabel, zulässig ton: Tonne tone: Ton, Tonus, Klang, Timbre, Klangfarbe tongue: Zunge, Sprache, die Zunge toothache: Zahnschmerzen, Zahnweh, Zahnschmerz torches: Fackeln torment: Qual, quälen, martern, peinigen, Marter, Quälung, Pein, Belästigung tormenting: sekkieren, quälen,

Piesacken torn: zerrissen, gerissen, riss, eingerissen torture: Folter, martern, peinigen, Qual, Folterung, foltern, Tortur, Kasteiung, kasteien, verletzen, Peinigung torturer: Folterer, Folterknecht tortures: foltert, foltern torturing: folternd, Foltern tossed: geworfen touch: berühren, Berührung, anrühren, anfassen, Kontakt, betasten, Anflug, rühren, Spur, tasten, tangieren touched: verletzt, berührt, angeschlagen touches: berührungen, rührt an, berührt, befühlt, streift touching: ergreifend, rührend, herzzerreißend, herzergreifend, ergriffen, Anrühren, Treffen towns: Städte trace: Spur, Linie, Grundriss, durchzeichnen, erkunden, prüfen, nachspüren, nachprüfen, nachgehen, nachforschen, forschen track: Spur, Gleis, Piste, Rennbahn, Fährte, Strecke, Hackenspur, Weiche, verfolgen, Eisenbahnweiche tragedy: Tragödie, Trauerspiel, Tragik, Tragödien, Tragisch traits: Eigenschaften, Züge, Charakterzüge tranquil: ruhig, gelassen, still, ruhige, gemütlich transcendental: transzendent, metaphysisch, übersinnlich transferred: übergabt, übergeben, übergabst, übergaben, übergab, überführtet, überführten, überführte, überführt, übertragen, stiegt um transfigured: umgestaltet transformed: wandelte um, umgewandelt, wandeltet um, wandeltest um, wandelten um, gestaltetet um, gestaltetest um, umgestaltet, gestalteten um, gestaltete um transition: Übergang, Übergangsperiode transports: Transporte trash: Abfall, schund, Ausschuß, Plunder, Krempel, Krimskrams, verprügeln, Zeug, Kitsch, zusammenschlagen, wertloses Zeug traverses: durchquert treasure: schatz, Tresor treated: behandelt, behandeld treble: dreifach, verdreifachen trembled: bangte, gezittert

Fyodor Dostoyevsky trembling: zitternd, Zittern, Erschütterung, Beben tremendous: enorm, riesig, ungeheuer, gewaltig, fürchterlich, beängstigend, energisch, fett, formidabel, furchterregend, angst einjagend trial: Versuch, Probe, Prozess, Verhandlung, Aburteilung, Prüfung, Gerichtsverhandlung, Essay, Erprobung trick: List, Kniff, Kunstgriff, Trick, Streich, Pfiffigkeit, Tücke, Ausflucht, Witzigkeit, Schlauheit, Narren trickling: tröpfelnd trills: trillert triumph: Triumph, Triumphieren, Sieg, siegen triumphant: triumphierend, siegreich, erfolgreich, siegestrunken, triumphal triumphantly: triumphierend, siegreich, triumphal triumphing: triumphierend, siegreich trivial: alltäglich, unbedeutend, belanglos, banal, gewöhnlich, unwichtig, unwesentlich, unscheinbar, nichtsbedeutend, gehaltlos, bedeutungslos troubled: gestört, beunruhigt, aufgewühlt, trüb, unruhig, trübe troubles: Empörumg, Problem, Probleme, Schererei, Scherereien, Berührung, Aufruhr trousers: Hose, Pantalon, Hosen, Lange Hose, Beinkleider, Beinkleid trudge: zuckeln, stapfen, trödeln, trotten, trudeln trudging: sich schleppend truly: wirklich, wahrlich, wahrhaftig, wahrheitsgemäß, fürwahr, tatsächlich, aufrichtig trustful: vertrauensvoll tucked: streifte zurück, eingeschlagen tuesday: Dienstag tuft: Büschel, Schopf, Quaste tug: Schlepper, zerren, ziehen, Zug, reißen, Trosse, verziehen, Trawler, anziehen tugged: gezerrt tumbled: gefallen tune: Melodie, Lied, stimmen, abstimmen, Weise, anpassen, Liedchen, adaptieren turning: Drehend, kehrend, wendend, drechselnd, Drehen, umwendend, umdrehend, Schwenke, Schwenkungen, Gangbar, Drehung turns: dreht, kehrt, wendet, drechselt, wendet um, dreht um, Wendungen, Umschwünge

twentieth: zwanzigste, zwanzigster twice: zweimal, doppelt, zweimaal twilight: Dämmerung, Zwielicht, Abenddämmerung, Dämmerlicht, Finsternis, Halbdunkel, Glühen, Flimmern twinge: Stich twinkling: Glitzernd, Funkelnd twirling: wirbelnd twisting: Krümmung, Verschlingung, Verdrillen, Verdrehung, verdrehend, Schlinge, sichschlängelnd, Windung, Schleife, schlängelnd, Kurve tyrannising: Tyrannisieren tyranny: Tyrannei, Gewaltherrschaft, Despotismus tyrant: Tyrann, Wüterich, Despot ugh: Bah ugly: hässlich, unangenehm, widerwärtig, widerlich, unerfreulich, abstoßend, unschön unable: unfähig, außerstande, untauglich, hilflos unaccustomed: ungewohnt unassuming: bescheiden, anspruchslos unattractive: unschön, reizlos, unattraktiv, uninteressant, widerlich, widerwärtig, häßlich unbounded: unbegrenzt unbuttoned: knöpften auf, knöpftet auf, knöpftest auf, aufgeknöpft, knöpfte auf uncertainties: Ungewißheiten, Unsicherheiten uncle: Onkel, der Onkel uncomfortable: unbequem, unbehaglich, ungemütlich, lästig, umbequem unconcerned: gleichgültig, unbesorgt, unbeteiligt, nicht betroffen, unbekümmert unconditionally: bedingungslos unconscious: unbewusst, Bewußtlos, besinnungslos, ohnmächtig unconsciously: unbewusst underground: unterirdisch, Untergrund, Untergrundbahn understands: versteht, begreift, erfaßt, kapiert understood: verstandet, verstand, verstanden, verstandest, begriff, begrifft, begriffen, begriffst, erfaßtet, erfaßtest, erfaßten undertaking: unternehmend, Leichenbestattung, Unternehmen, Unternehmung, Betrieb, Übernahme, Verpflichtung undertone: Unterton, Leiser Ton underworld: Unterwelt undignified: würdelos

167 undone: offen, abgebunden, ungetan, unerledigt undress: entkleiden, entkleidest, entkleide, entkleidet, ausziehen, zieht aus, ziehst aus, ziehen aus, ziehe aus, auskleiden, sich ausziehen uneasily: unruhig, unbehaglich uneasiness: Unruhe, Unbehagen uneasy: unruhig, unbehaglich uneconomical: unwirtschaftlich unexpectedly: unerwartet, plötzlich, auf einmal, unvorhergesehen, unversehens, unvermutet, unverhofft, jählings unfeeling: gefühllos, unempfindlich, immun, keinen Schmerz fühlend unfettered: frei, zügellos, ungebunden unfolded: entfaltetest, entfaltetet, entfalteten, entfaltete, entfaltet, auseinandergefaltet, klapptest auf, aufgeklappt, offengelegt, falteten auseinander, faltetest auseinander unforgotten: unvergessen ungrateful: undankbar unhappy: unglücklich, unzufrieden, traurig unheard: ungehört, unerhört uniform: uniform, einheitlich, gleichförmig, einförmig, gleichartig, identisch, Kleid, Kostüm, Anzug, gleich, Smoking uniforms: Uniformen unintentional: unabsichtlich, unbewußt, unwissend, unwillkürlich, gedankenlos, unüberlegt, geistesabwesend, unbeabsichtigt, unwissentlich universal: universal, universell, allgemeingültig, durchgängig unkempt: ungepflegt, ungekämmt unknown: Unbekannt, fremd unlike: ungleich, verschieden, anders als, im Gegensatz zu unlucky: unglücklich unmask: entlarven, demaskieren, entlarvt, entlarvst, entlarve unmistakable: unmissverständlich, unverkennbar, klar, deutlich, eindeutig, offensichtlich, sonnenklar, sicher unnatural: unnatürlich unnaturally: unnatürlich unnecessary: unnötig, überflüssig, entbehrlich unnoticed: unbemerkt, unbeachtet, verstohlen, ungesehen unpleasant: unangenehm, brummig, unwirsch, unerfreulich, unbequem, schwer, kaltherzig, störend, lästig unpleasantness: Unbehagen,

168 Mißbehagen unquestionable: fraglos, unzweifelhaft unsatisfied: unbefriedigt, unbezahlt, unzufrieden, ungesättigt, nicht abgetragen, afgelöst, unbesoldet, ehrenamtlich unseemly: ungehörig, unziemlich unsettled: unbeständig, veränderlich, ungeklärt, wandelbar, unbesiedelt, variabel, flatterhaft, unsicher, unbezahlt, unruhig unsightly: unansehnlich, hässlich, verlottert, verludert, hinfällig, armselig, abscheulich unthinkable: undenkbar, unvorstellbar untie: aufbinden, bindest auf, bindet auf, binden auf, binde auf, aufschnüren, losbinden, entbinden untouched: unberührt, unangetastet, unversehrt, unverfälscht, unbeschädigt, unbefleckt, pur, jungfräulich, ganz, fehlerfrei, rein unutterable: unaussprechlich, unsagbar unwilling: widerwillig, nichtdienstwillig, ungefällig, nichthilfsbereit, abweisend, unfreundlich unyielding: unnachgiebig, unbiegsam upbraid: schimpfen upper: oberer, obere, Oberes, ober, höher uppish: hochnäsig upset: bestürzt, umstürzen, umwerfen, durcheinanderbringen, umstoßen, Umsturz, unangenehm überrascht, kappen, fassungslos, erschüttert, erschreckt upsets: wirft um upsetting: umwerfend upside: Oberseite, Oberhalb useless: nutzlos, vergeblich, zwecklos, vergebens, unnütz, sinnlos, unbrauchbar, unklug, unsinnig, unverwertbar uselessness: Nutzlosigkeit, Unbrauchbarkeit, Wertlosigkeit uses: benutzt, gebraucht, verwendet, verwertet usual: üblich, gewöhnlich, allgemein, normal, gebräuchlich, herkömmlich, geläufig, gängig, alltäglich, einfach utmost: äußerst, alleräußerste utter: äußerst, äußern, ausschließen, leibhaftig, aussondern uttered: geäußert utterly: absolut, völlig, verkehrt, schief, äußerst vacant: leer, unbesetzt, frei,

Notes from Underground leerstehend vague: undeutlich, vage, unbestimmt, verschwommen, unklar, halblaut, schattenhaft, grob, dunkel, dumpfig, dumpf vain: eitel, vergeblich, eingebildet, vergebens, hinfällig, nutzlos, leer valiant: tapfer, mutig, beherzt, dreist, getrost, mannhaft vanish: verschwinden, verschwindet, verschwinde, verschwindest vanished: verschwunden, verschwandet, verschwandest, verschwanden, verschwand vanity: Eitelkeit, Prunk, Einbildung, Geckenhaftigkeit, Geckerei, Prahlerei vaudevilles: Varietes venerable: ehrwürdig vengeance: Rache venom: Gift, Gehässigkeit venomously: giftig vent: Öffnung, abreagieren, auslassen, entlüften vented: ließ aus venture: wagen, riskieren, Wagnis, sich trauen, sich wagen venturing: riskierend verged: grenzte vexation: Ärger vexatious: lästig, ärgerlich vexed: geärgert, ärgerte, ärgerten, ärgertest, ärgertet, verärgert vice: Schraubstock, Untugend, Laster, Tugend, Klemmblock vices: Untugenden victorious: siegreich victory: Sieg vile: gemein, landläufig, hinterlistig, infam, schuftig, kleinlich, mies, niederträchtig, winzig, hinterhältig, schmählich vilely: gemein viler: schändlicher villa: Villa, Landhaus villainous: unedel, schmutzig, schwächlich, schofel, schuftig, schurkisch, schwach, schweinisch, seicht, tief, schmählich villainy: Böse, die Schurkerei, Schurkerei vindictive: rachsüchtig vindictively: rachsüchtig violently: heftig virginity: Jungfräulichkeit virtue: Tugend, Solidität, Biederkeit, Bravheit virtues: Tugenden virtuous: tugendhaft visions: Visionen, Vision visited: besuchtet, besuchtest, besuchten, besuchte, besucht,

besichtigte, besichtigtet, besichtigten, besichtigt, besichtigtest, suchte auf visiting: besuchend, besichtigend, aufsuchend visitor: Besucher, Museumsbesucher visitors: Besucher, Aufwartung, Besuch, Gäste, Klientel, Kundenkreis, Kundschaft vista: Durchblick, Blick vivid: lebhaft vividly: lebhaft vocation: Berufung, Beruf vociferous: lautstark vodka: Wodka volumes: Jahrgänge voluntarily: freiwillig, ungezwungen, frei, zwanglos, ungekünstelt, uneigennützig, spontan, natürlich, freiwilligen voluptuous: wollüstig, üppig voluptuousness: Wollust vowed: geschwört, geschworen vows: gelübde, Gelübden, schwört vulgar: vulgär, ordinär, gewöhnlich, schäbig, trivial, üblich, schofel, geschmacklos, banal, abgeschmackt, verständlich vulgarity: Gemeinheit wadded: wattierte waged: geführt wages: Lohn, Löhne, Gehalt, Gage, Arbeitslöhne, Salär wagging: wackelnd wailing: klagend, jammernd waist: Taille, die Taille waited: wartete, warteten, wartetest, gewartet, wartetet, wartetest ab, warteten ab, wartetet ab, wartete ab, abgewartet waiter: Kellner, Ober waiters: Kellner, Kellnerin, Ober, Servierin waiting: wartend, Bedienung, abwartend, Warten, Dienst, abwarten wake: wecken, aufwecken, aufwachen, Kielwasser, erwachen, Totenwache, erwecken, Totenmesse, Wachtposten, Wache, Sog waking: Wachend, Bewachen, Beaufsichtigen, auf Streifegehen, Streifen, Patrouillieren walked: spazierten, ging, spazierte, spaziertest, spaziertet, spaziert walking: Spazierend, Gehend, Gehen walks: spaziert, wandert wallow: sich wälzen walls: Wände wanting: wollend, fehlend, wünschend wardrobe: Garderobe,

Fyodor Dostoyevsky Kleiderschrank, Vorrat Kleidungsstücke, Kleiderbestand warfare: Krieg, Kriegsführung, Kriegführung warmed: erwärmte, erwärmten, gewärmt warmly: warm, herzlich warn: warnen, warnt, warnst, warne, ermahnen warned: warntest, warnten, gewarnt, warntet, warnte warning: Warnung, warnend, Verwarnung waste: Abfall, Verschwendung, verschwenden, vergeuden, verschwende, verschwendet, verschwendest, vergeudest, vergeudet, vergeude, Ausschuss watched: gewacht watching: Beobachtend waterlogged: voll Wasser, wassergesättigt wave: Welle, winken, Woge, schwenken, schwingen, wogen, mit der Hand grüßen, wiegen, wellen, die Welle, schlingen weak: schwach, flau, empfindlich, kraftlos, gebrechlich, gelinde, matt, fein, schlaff, energielos, dünn wealth: Reichtum, Vermögen, Wohlstand, Pracht, Luxus wearing: abnützend weather: Wetter, Witterung, das Wetter weep: weinen, weint, weine, weinst, tränen, flennen, tränt, tränst, plärren, heulen, träne weeping: weinend, Weinen, tränend weighed: wogen, wogt, gewogen, wog, wogst, wog ab, abgewogen, wogst ab, wogt ab, wogen ab weighs: wiegt, wägt ab, wägt welcome: Willkommen, begrüßen, begrüßst, begrüße, begrüßt, willkommen heißen, Empfang, erwünscht, Begrüßung, bewillkommen, bewirten we'll: wir werden wench: Mädchen, Dirne wet: nass, naß machen, feucht, anfeuchten, befeuchten wheezing: keuchend whenever: wann auch immer, wann immer, sooft, wann wherever: wo auch immer, wo immer, woimmer whip: Peitsche, peitschen, quirlen, geißeln, Geißel, schlagen, kasteien, auspeitschen, Karbatsche, Reitpeitsche, stäupen whipped: gepeitscht whirl: wirbeln, sich drehen, kreiseln,

quirlen, schwingen, Wirbel whirring: schwirrend, Geschnurre whisper: Flüstern, tuscheln, zischeln, säuseln, munkeln, Geflüster, lispeln whispered: geflüstert whispering: Geflüster, flüsternd, Flüstern, leise, gedämpft, raunend whistle: Pfeife, pfeifen, Pfiff whoever: wer auch immer whole-hearted: zutiefst wickedness: Bosheit, Schlechtigkeit, Verderbtheit widen: erweitern, erweitere, erweiterst, erweitre, erweitert, verbreitern, ausweiten, ausbreiten, vergrößerung, verbreitre, verbreitert wild: wild, verrückt, ausgelassen wilfully: absichtlich, eigensinnig, stur, vorsätzlich willing: bereitwillig, Bereit, willig, gewillt, wollend, geneigt, einsatzbereit, gutwillig, klar, parat, wohlwollend winds: briesen, stürme, winde wine: Wein, Weinrebe, Rebstock, der Wein wipe: wischen, wische, wischt, wischst, abstreifen, streife ab, streifen ab, streifst ab, abwischen, streift ab wished: gewünscht wishes: wünsche wishing: Wünschend wit: Geist, Verstand, Witz withered: verwelktet, verwelktest, verwelkt, verwelkte, verwelkten, welkten, welktest, welkte, welktet, gewelkt, verdorrtet withhold: vorenthalten, zurückhalten, enthältst vor, enthalte vor, enthalten vor, enthaltet vor witness: Zeuge, bezeugen, mitmachen, vorzeigen, zeigen, zeugen von, Zeugnis witnessed: bezeugte wits: Verstand, Witze witty: witzig, geistreich, sinnreich woke: wachte womanish: weibisch, feminin, tuntenhaft, effemiert wonder: Wunder, Verwunderung, staunen, sich wundern, sich fragen, erstaunen, verwundern, Aufsehen wondered: gewundert wondering: wundernd, staunend wonders: Wunder wool: Wolle, die Wolle workman: Arbeiter workmen: Arbeiter worms: Würmer worn: abgetragen, getragen, abgegriffen, vertreten, abgenutzt,

169 abgewetzt worried: besorgt, gesorgt, beunruhigt, abgequält, beängstigt worry: Sorge, bekümmern, sorgen, Kummer bereiten, hin und her überlegen, grübeln, in Sorge seein, Kopfzerbrechen, Mühsal, nachdenken, Plackerei worrying: Grübeln, Beunruhigend worshippers: Verehrer worst: schlechteste, schlimmste, am schlimmsten worthless: wertlos worthy: Würdig, bieder, ehrenwert, wert wounded: Verwundet, angeschossen, wund, getroffen, verletzt, verwundete wrap: einwickeln, wickeln, hüllen wrapped: hüllte ein, eingewickelt, übernommen wrath: Zorn, Wut, Erbitterung, Grimm, Gram wrathfully: zornige, zornig wrenched: gerissen wretched: elend, erbärmlich, jämmerlich, miserabel, unglücklich, jämmerliche, erbärmliche, elende wretchedness: Elend, Dürftigkeit, Armseligkeit, das Elend wretches: Kerle, Schufte wriggle: schlängeln wriggled: wand wring: wringen, wringe, wringst, wringt, erzwingen writhing: krümmend, zappelnd wronged: schadete yapping: quasselnd, gekläfft, kläffend yawned: gähnte, gegähnt yearning: Sehnsucht, sehnsüchtig, schmachtend, sehnsuchtsvoll yellow: gelb, vergilben, Eigelb yield: Ertrag, nachgeben, Ausbeute, ergeben, weichen, weiche, weichst, abtreten, weicht, einbringen, Gewinn yielded: wicht, wichst, wichen, wich, gewichen, gab nach, brachtest ein, gewonnen, brachten ein, eingebracht, brachte ein you'll: du wirst youngster: Junge, Jüngling yours: euer, ihr, die deine, der Ihre, der euere, der deine, das deine, ihre, ihres yourselves: sich youth: Jugend, Jüngling, Jugendliche, JungenLeute youthful: jugendlich, jung zero: null, Nullpunkt zest: Begeisterung

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